Chapter 12: Book Of Memories.

One Month Later:

We're coming down for the summer,

From the Everglades of our serenades,

We know how love goes a little bit like...

Hey, Mister Mister.

Hey, Mister Mister,

You have some sugar take the sugar,

We go hey Mister Mister hey Mister Mister,

I pray for another night,

Mister Mister,

Mister Mister.

Ally finished singing and she cradled Erica in her arms. She walked up and down the balcony in the cellblock. Grace was out on a run with a few other members of the group and Ally decided to get over her newfound, yet outgrown fear of this baby. She knew if she started caring, things could easily go wrong, but Austin had persuaded her to just go ahead and form an attachment with the baby.

Austin had made a full recovery, he was back in perfect shape and stronger than he was before. With all the new people, they never really got more than a few seconds alone with one another and nothing's happened since the night in the guard tower, they haven't even kissed. They've both been very busy with everything. Austin and a few of the men had ventured further into the prison and found a library, the armory, and the showers. Ally had taken to the library and she'd cleaned it all up and made it a fun place for the children to learn, there were three children from Lucas's group Jess, Daniel and Jasmine. Billy had taken an instant liking to all three of them and they were rarely apart. Jess was a child that they'd stumbled across a year ago, she was all alone when they found her, like when Ally and Austin had found Nevil.

Austin had actually let his guard down and he'd become friends with all of the men. He had his moments of kindness and it always brought a smile to Ally's face. He spent a lot of his time with Jack, they'd both hit it off after Austin saved him from getting eaten by creepers when they'd found the library. Ally had found a good friend in Tess, she was an older woman and she reminded her of Harriet, she was the mother to Jasmine and Daniel. Ally spent most of her time in the library, keeping a close eye on Billy, or doing the washing and cooking with Tess, Roxana and Grace. She learnt to cherish the brief moments which she shared with Austin, if they walked past one another in the corridors, they brush shoulders against one another, or if there was a group conversation his fingertips were graze against her arm, but that was as far as things would go, but it didn't change her feelings towards him, because she knew that if she was in danger, he'd be there in a flash.

Ally was beginning to care about these people and it was scaring her, because she felt bad, because she was beginning to forget about her missing family. She felt like she was replacing them in her mind with these new people. Whenever Austin leaves the prison he's always looking for them and Ally knows that, but with everyday that passes she no longer thinks that they'll ever find them. She just doesn't believe they're all out there anymore.

In remembrance of everyone, Ally got Austin to get her some notebooks on a run and she wrote down all of their names in the book, writing down all the memories she had of them, just so she'd never forget them. She put all the cute memories of George and Lizzy in there and all the brief moments she'd caught of Julie and Kyle's marriage. Little Lexi and the songs Ally sung to her were put in there and all the private conversations she'd had with Mary and Sarah. The talk she'd had with Frederick about her mom flooded the pages and all the jokes Dez had told her and all the hilarious arguments him and Trish had shared, made Ally laugh while she wrote. Dean's flirtatious words and the way he called her 'darlin' and 'princess' made Ally blush and Nevil's bouncy personality filled page after page. Elliot and Gregory's friendship, which had blossomed before her eyes back on the farm, brought a new sense of happiness to her words. Wayne's and Harriet oblivious love interest in one another made Ally feel like she was writing a romance novel, but every word warmed her heart. She even put Angela in there. They may be gone, but they are never forgotten.

Ally kept the book on one of the shelves in the library. It was labeled 'Book of Memories' and Ally would grab it and read away on the nights that she felt alone.

Ally had found a good friend in Steven, he was best friend's with Lucas and they'd both been in the army together. Steven would sit and listen to her problems, then offer his advice at the end. At one point he'd told Ally just to kidnap Austin and then tie him to a chair and have her way with him. It took Ally around half an hour to stop laughing, but when she was alone in her cell, she'd think to herself, "maybe I should."

The last person from Lucas's group was Linda...Just thinking about that woman gets Ally's blood boiling, she was after Austin. She could see it in her eyes and she was ready to pounce on the woman. She'd seen her rub herself up against him, saying it was an accident. She'd watch him when he had his top off and he was working in the courtyard. She'd sneak up into the guard tower and join him on watch duty and she was scared, she was scared that she was losing Austin to her and she knew she was being paranoid, but he spends more time with Linda than he does with her. Steven had told her millions of time that Austin isn't interested in her, she even asked Austin and he replied, "she's very annoying and she just won't leave me alone."

Ally walked down the stairs and she walked down the corridor. She continued to hum tunes to Erica and the little girl cooed in her arms. The place was lit up thanks to Austin finding the generators and they had warm water as well. Everything was turning out to be fine, they hadn't seen or heard from Dallas and his men, maybe we scared them off. Sometimes Ally would wake up in a blanket of sweat, dreaming about Dallas's rough lips on her's. She never told Steven about it and she sure as hell never told Austin about it.

She pushed open the cafeteria entrance and she walked past the tables and into the kitchen. Tess was cutting up some homegrown vegetables. They'd started growing things in the courtyard and Tess had taken it up as her hobby to grow things. Tess smiled over at them and she placed the knife down on the metal table top and scooped Erica into her arms.

"Hello baby," Tess spoke in a baby voice. "Who's a pretty girl."

Ally smiled and took Tess's place and began chopping the vegetables up. Tess walked around the kitchen, bouncing Erica up and down.

"How are you today?" Tess asked.

"I'm fine...I'm just a bit worried about Austin," She admitted and Tess smiled.

"He'll be fine. He goes on supply runs every week and he always come's back," Tess assured her and Ally sighed.

"I know. It's just there's always a voice in the back of my mind," Ally flashed Tess a smile and she returned it.

"Have you seen Jasmine and Daniel?"

"Linda took them to the library," Ally explained.

"Okay," She replied and she beamed down at Erica. "Have you ever thought of having your own children?"

"Me! No, I wouldn't say I'm the mothering type," Ally expressed and she concentrated on the job at hand.

"You're good with Erica and Billy. I think you'd be an excellent mom," Tess confessed and Ally blushed.

"I don't think so," Ally muttered.

"Ally!" Billy came racing through the doors and into the kitchen. He was jumping around in excitement. "Austin wants to see you! He's waiting back at the cellblock, he has a surprise for you!" Billy grabbed her hand and began to pull her away. Tess laughed and ushered her away and Billy continued to pull her down the corridors and back to the cellblock.

When she got there Austin was standing by the stairs. He looked over and smiled at her. Billy released her hand and he ran off. She chuckled and glanced over at Austin.

"Billy says you have a surprise for me?" Ally raised an eyebrow and Austin placed his hands over her eyes.

"He's correct. I do have a surprise for you," He began to guide her away. "That month when we stopped talking. You became obsessed with horses-"

"I wasn't obsessed," She corrected and he laughed.

"Okay, but you still liked them-Careful there's a step-Anyway you seemed to adore the ones on the farm, so when we were out on the run today, I found something...Don't open your eyes until I tell you," He removed his hands and she kept them close. He brought his hands to her hips. "Okay, open them."

Ally opened her eyes and she jumped backwards, crashing her back against his front. Her hands flew to her mouth and she squealed in joy. She raced forward and petted the horse. She grabbed its reigns and stroked it mane. Her smile was huge and bright. Austin could see the happiness sparkling in her eyes.

"Austin," She walked over and snaked her arms around his neck, burying her face into his neck. He wrapped his arms around her waist, bringing her closer to him. "Thank you."

"So do you like him?" He asked and she pulled away nodding her head.

"Of course I do. I think I should call him Austin Junior," She patted his side and the horse neighed. "See, I think he likes your name."

"No way. I'm not letting that horse steal my name," He laughed and he reached out and petted his head.

"Okay. I think Junior is great name," She glanced at the saddle and back at Austin. "Can I take him for a ride around the courtyard?"

"Sure. I'll open up the gate for you," Ally got up onto the saddle and Austin pulled open the gate. Ally gave Junior a nudge and he strutted through the gate. Ally smiled when she passed Austin and he returned it. "See you later, Dawson."

...

The fire crackled and lit up all their faces. It had become a tradition that at least once a week, they'd all sit outside around a fire and eat. It was a way to engage with one another as a group. Ally loved the home feel it gave off. Billy always sat next to her, cuddling into her side. Tess was sat next to her, Jasmine snuggling her teddy and sitting in her lap. They'd finished eating and everyone was sat talking. Steven kept sending her funny glances and she kept trying to avoid his eyes, because she knew he wanted her to talk to Austin, he just wanted Austin and her to go at it like animals, but the truth was Ally was scared.

"Did you know sugar puffs make your wee smell funny," Billy explained and Ally laughed. Jasmine scrunched her nose up in disgust.

"You're such a boy," Jasmine belched and Tess chuckled.

"I am a boy, if you haven't noticed," He retorted and Jasmine rolled her eyes.

"You're so disgusting," She stuck her tongue out and Billy mimicked her actions. Ally watched the exchange between them both and images of Lizzy and George flashed into her mind. She smiled to herself, instead of frowning. All of them memories were resting on a shelf in the library.

Ally watched Linda sit down by the fire. She pulled out a book and began ripping out the pages and throwing it on the fire. Ally looked away, only to look back when she saw what book she was holding. Her eyes widened and she pushed Billy away and raced over.

"What are you doing!?" Ally shrieked and Linda shot up and shrugged her shoulders.

"I'm just keeping the fire going," She retorted. "No need to get teary eyed."

"You bitch!" Ally swiped the book away from her and Austin was by her side in a flash. She flicked through the pages and she began to shake her head frantically. "No no no no no."

"What's wrong?" Austin asked and Ally narrowed her eyes at Linda.

"What idiot picks up a book labeled 'Book of Memories' and throws it into a fire! You've seen me reading this book, about a dozen times! What the hell is wrong with you!" Ally yelled and Austin grabbed her arm. "No! Don't touch me!" She stormed away, clutching the book in her hands.

...

Ally snuggled into the corner of the library. She was siting on a pile of blankets and pillows. This was the corner where Ally and Tess would read to the children. Ally was flicking through the pages of her book and she made note of the pages missing. She did her best to try to rewrite what she'd previously written, but she was to angry with Linda to concentrate properly.

She let the tears fall from her eyes and she read through the memories left. She wish she'd hidden it, kept it far away from her. This was all she had left of them and Linda just destroyed half of it. Ally wanted to hit her, kill her. She knew something was going to happen soon, because good things don't last forever. She didn't want to feel such anger towards a human being, but Linda was pushing her buttons.

Ally heard the door open and she looked over to see Austin walking over to her. He slid down the bookshelf and sighed.

"Come here," He held out his arms and Ally wrapped her arms around his waist and rested her head on his chest.

"I didn't mean to yell at you like that," She sniffled.

"Don't worry about it," He began to stroke her arm and she snuggled closer to him. "Why'd you get so angry about a book?"

"I made a book. I wrote down all the memories I had of everyone we lost. I poured my heart out onto them pages and she threw half of it onto the fire. She knew that I read it all the time, I know she did it on purpose, that was all I had left of them all," Ally cried and Austin untangled her arms from around his waist and he forced her to look at him.

"Ally, they're out there. Who cares about that book, we're going to find them and you'll be able to make new ones. Now, where's the girl who told me to have a little faith gone?" He cupped her cheeks and wiped away her tears with his thumbs.

"I just can't help, but think that they haven't made it. It's all my fault if Lizzy and Nevil are dead and George...I should've never taken my eyes off of George!" She sobbed and Austin shook his head.

"It's not your fault. Don't ever think that. I bet they're alive and looking for us right now and when we find them, we'll bring them back here and they can live in the prison where's its safe...Paul's dead, he can't do anything to us...I'm gonna' kill Dallas the next time I see him and then we'll be safe. I'm not letting anyone hurt you ever again," Austin continued to wipe her tears away and she released a staggering breath.

"Austin, what if we don't find them...I'm not ready to let them all go, I can't do that. You're all I have left Austin...My mom's gone, my dad's gone, everyone I love is gone...apart from you. Whenever you go out on runs I send a million prayers up to god to bring you back home. It would kill me inside if you never came back. I wouldn't be able to carry on Austin," She sobbed and Austin rested his forehead against hers.

"You don't think I worry about you. Ally you're a fuckin' magnet for trouble, whenever I leave, I'm scared I'll come back to someone telling me your gone, that someone came and took you...You think you wouldn't be able to carry on if I weren't here. Ally you're the only person I've ever let close to me. I'd die if something happened to you."

"This is probably the longest conversation we've had in a month," Ally laughed through her tears and Austin smirked.

"I missed you."

"I missed you too,"

...

"Okay. Now, punch my hand," Ally crouched down in front of Billy and the cold morning air hit her bare arms. Billy hesitated and Ally rolled her eyes. "You asked me to teach you, now punch my hand."

"I don't want to hurt you," Billy replied.

"That's cute, but if it was another human you'd fail miserably, now punch my hand," She demanded and Billy punched her hand. "Well done, now try a bit harder."

"But, Ally. We've been doing this for an hour...I wanna' go back to sleep, it's like six in the morning," Billy moaned and Ally chuckled.

"Okay, you can go back to sleep," She ushered him off and he ran inside. Ally smiled and got to her feet, brushing the dirt from her knees. She walked over to the fence and glanced out a Junior, grazing the grass on the courtyard, near the vegetable patch. She breathed in the cold morning air and she closed her eyes.

It was hard to imagine that life was once simple. The zombies made this life seem surreal. Ally wished that things could go back to normal, but she'd be to scared of what would happen after, she wasn't sure she wanted things to be normal, she kind of liked the madness of this world, but when it took the people that she loved away, that was when she wanted things to be normal.

Though she had Billy now, and Austin. They were her true family, new people were making their way into her heart, but none of them could match up to the people she'd lost. No one.

Ally released a staggering breath and she stared up at the clouded sky. She missed the heat, but then she wondered what winter would be like, there wouldn't be any animals for the creepers to eat, so they'd get more hungry, more rowdy and they'd crave human flesh more. So, winter wouldn't be the best season.

"Hi," Linda murmured and Ally looked to her right. She was wearing a skimpy dress and the goosebumps on her skin stood out.

"Aren't you cold?" Ally asked, without much enthusiasm in her tone.

"Yeah, but I'm trying to find Austin," She looked around and Ally's fingers curled around the holes in the fence. "Have you seen him?"

"No," Ally said, through gritted teeth.

"Oh. I need to tell him something," Linda bit her lip and Ally's blood began to boil. "Also, I'm sorry about your book."

"Whatever, it doesn't matter," Ally muttered in response and Linda smiled.

"Your close with Austin...Do you think he's open for a relationship?"

"What!" Ally snapped and her eyes lit up in anger. "Are you blind and stupid?"

"Excuse me!" She yelled back and Ally pushed herself away from the fence.

"He's not open for a relationship!" Ally spat and Linda folded her arms.

"And why not?" She quizzed.

"Because he's already in a relationship, with me!" Ally shouted back and Linda's eyes widened.

"You're lying," She mumbled.

"No, I'm not and you need to back off," Ally replied flatly and Linda shrieked.

"You think you're the queen don't you? You need to back off away from Austin, its way to obvious that he's sick and tired of your ass! I know what he wants and that's me!" Linda waved her hands around and Ally gasped.

"How can you say that? You know nothing about Austin and I," Ally retorted.

"I don't care, your time is over with him. You need to step aside and let him have a chance with other people. I deserve him, not you!" Linda pushed her and Ally's next action passed in a blur. She clenched her fists and swung it towards her face, performing an excellent right hook, knocking her to the ground.

"He's my man, not your's!" Ally fumed and she backed away, leaving her on the ground.

...

Ally held the knife in her hand and chopped away at the vegetables. She hummed a tune to herself, while she worked. Linda had already gone off on a rampage saying that Ally had attacked her, but Ally didn't really care. Linda had provoked her. She deserved it.

Ally felt arms snake around her waist and she froze, until she heard Austin's chuckle and he buried his face into her neck.

"So, I'm your man?" He questioned, with a sarcastic tone.

"You heard that, why didn't you step in," Ally replied.

"You had it all handled, she deserved that punch. Anyway, I'm your man?" He chuckled and Ally groaned in embarrassment.

"You weren't meant to hear that," She blushed and Austin kissed her neck.

"I think that was the sexiest thing ever," He whispered and Ally turned around in his arms to face him. She beamed up at him and placed a kiss on his lips. He immediately responded, delving his tongue into her mouth. Ally stroked his chest and then laced her arms around his neck, bringing their bodies closer.

She could feel the heat pulsing throughout her body and the immediate reaction she had in her private parts. The need for him was growing stronger by the second and she couldn't stop her heart from fluttering.

Austin grabbed her ass and lifted her up onto the metal counter. He stepped in between her legs and curled his fingers around the bottom of her shirt. He pulled it up and dropped it onto the ground. He kissed her along her jawline and down her neck, sucking and flicking his tongue against her skin.

Ally began to unbutton his shirt and she pushed it off his shoulders. The sliver shinning scars on his stomach and arms, stuck out like a sore thumb, but Ally didn't care, she loved every inch of him. She needed every inch of him.

Austin undid her bra and she let it fall gracefully down her arms and she dropped it on the ground. Austin pressed his bare chest against her breasts and he stroked the arch in her back. He pulled away and rested his forehead against hers. Ally's lips were swollen as were his, but Austin didn't think he'd seen something so sexy in his life.

"Ally, are you sure?" He panted and she nodded her head.

Austin crashed his lips against hers and he stroked his hands down her side, making Ally shiver. He rested his hands on her thighs, gripping her behind her knees, pressing his crotch in the gap between her legs.

Ally began to caress his abdomen, loving the feel of his abs. Austin undid the button on her trousers and he swiftly pulled them off, reviling her smooth, milky skin. Austin moaned against her lips and he crushed his body against hers.

Ally could feel her instant reaction to him and she felt the heat begin to rise deep in her core. Ally undid his belt buckle and pushed them down his hips and they fell down to his ankles.

The coldness of the metal surface, didn't affect Ally. Her body was rushing with heat and need, all she wanted was for him to be inside her. This seemed so foreign to her, yet it felt so normal.

Austin pressed his hardness against Ally's pants, a tiny gasp escaped her lips and her fingers curled against his biceps. Austin moved his hands up her thighs and his fingers wrapped around her panties and he tore them from her body. He separated his lips from hers, smirking. He glanced down at the beautiful sight and he looked back into her big doe brown eyes.

"What?" She squeaked, her face flushing with embarrassment.

Ally was all natural, just the way he liked it.

She pushed his boxers off his hips and she buried her fingers into his hair, bringing his lips back to hers. She tried to hide her surprise of how big he was, nerves building up in her stomach, knowing that there wasn't any going back now.

Ally was ready perched on the edge of the counter. Austin grabbed her knees, bringing her legs up around his waist. He glanced into her eyes once more, then he slowly pushed himself inside of her.

Ally gasped, burying her face in his neck, she bit down hard on her bottom lip. Austin groaned from her tightness. His fingers dug into the skin of her thighs, making Ally gasp in pleasure.

Austin began to move inside of her, after giving her time to adjust. Ally bit down on the skin of his neck, beginning to join in with his rhythm. Her fingertips wrapped around locks of his blond hair. She'd never felt such pleasure in her life. Her body temperature began to heat up, moans tore from her lips and she could hear Austin gruff whispers against her ear.

Austin picked up his pace, thrusting in and out of her, wanting her to get there before him, but he knew he couldn't hang on much longer. It had been such a long time since he'd done this and this time it was different, he'd never actually had sex with someone he'd cared about.

Ally could feel herself reaching her peak and she grinded herself against him a small squeak escaping her lips. She moaned his name and her walls clamped around him. She cried out his name once more and Austin thrusts became more drastic and with one last thrust he released himself inside of her.

Austin crushed his body against hers, his legs just about keeping him stable. Ally was panting, gripping onto his arms. She rested her head against his chest, watching it rise and fall. Austin placed a kiss onto the skin of her neck and then he looked into her eyes. Ally couldn't fight the smile which formed on her lips. She'd never been so happy in her life.

"Did I hurt you?" He whispered and she shook her head, biting her lip.

"You could never hurt me," She replied softly and he smiled. "Austin?"

"Yeah."

"I love you...I'm not saying it, because I expect you to say it back, because I don't, but I do Austin, I love you," Austin placed a soft kiss to her lips, then he pulled her closer to him, holding her tight in his arms.

...

Ally scribbled away in the notebook, finally coming to the end of rewriting the pages Linda had destroyed. She kept trying to recall the memories she'd shared with them, but Austin kept popping up in her brain. She tried to keep her thoughts straight, but her brain had other ideas.

Just remember him naked...You ain't ever gonna' be able to look at that counter again, without smirking to yourself, you cheeky devil!

Ally cursed to herself, stupid brain! She couldn't stop smiling, it was hard not too. She could have picked better places to have her first time, but for some reason on a metal counter in the kitchen, couldn't have been more perfect.

She always wondered if Sarah and Dean ever had sex, before they got separated. Maybe they didn't. Sarah did say they were taking it slow. Ally finished off her last sentence and shut the book, sighing. She got up off the blankets and placed the book on the shelf. A smile played on her lips and she gazed at the burgundy book.

"Gone, but not forgotten," She spoke and then she continued to stare at it. "I hope we find you all soon...It would really make me feel complete."

Ally smiled once more and then left the library. She made her way down the corridor and walked into the cellblock. Grace was looking in each cell, rocking Erica from side to side. Her eyes were frantic and she looked Ally's way, then raced over.

"What's wrong?" Ally asked.

"I need to tell you something really serious! I may be wrong-No, I'm not wrong, I'm right..."

"Grace, what is it?" Ally pushed.

"Linda. I was walking around the back of prison, trying to get Erica to sleep, when I saw her talking to someone on the other side of the fence. She was talking about Dallas, the one who kidnapped you and Austin. Linda was giving the man information about what was going on in the prison...I think she's working for Dallas," Grace released a held back sigh and Ally couldn't quite believe what she was hearing, but she knew Grace wouldn't lie about something like this, nor would she be wrong about what she heard.

"Okay," Ally replied and she nodded her head, trying to rack her mind for an idea.

"What are you going to do?" Grace asked.

"I need to talk to Austin. We'll sort something out, she won't get away with this," Ally placed a hand on her shoulder and Grace smiled.

"Thank you...Thank you for everything you've done for us, we're all eternal grateful," Grace squeezed her hand and Ally smiled.

"I'm gonna' go talk to Austin," Ally walked away and out of the cellblock. The main room was empty and when she stepped outside, everyone's voices filled her ears. She could see Jasmine and Daniel playing tag with Billy. Jack, Ronny and Austin were sitting in the back of the truck, laughing away with one another. Jess was sitting with Tess on the stands and Steven was talking to Lucas, Roxana and Cal. Ally headed over to the truck and the three of them looked over. Austin smiled over at her and she jumped up onto the truck and sat down next to him.

"Ally, what brings you to the dark side," Jack spoke in an evil voice, wiggling his eyebrows at him.

"You told him, didn't you?" She turned to Austin raising her eyebrows.

"It might have slipped out," He murmured.

"I ain't ever gonna' be able to look at that counter the same again," Ronny laughed and Ally blushed.

"Austin, I need-"

"Yo, Ally I need to talk to you," Steven shouted and Ally looked over to see him walking off and she rolled her eyes, knowing he was heading to their special spot.

"I've gotta' go. I still need to talk to you, so I'll be back," Ally slipped off the truck and followed after Steven. She walked down the steps and trekked across the solid concrete and over to the little greenery, where a homemade washing line was hung. He was sat down on a metal bench, staring out at the scenery.

"What is it?" She asked, sitting down next to him. He grabbed the rucksack, which was by his ankles and he unzipped the bag.

It was as if everything happened in slow motion. She closed her eyes and released a staggering breath, her eyes opening. Her hands flew to her mouth and she stared down at the item in his hands. Her chest felt tight, unbelievably tight. Her hands fell from her mouth and to her chest, trying to slow her heart rate down. A single tear fell from her right eye.

It was Wayne's sheriff's hat.

AN: Hey guys! Thank you so much for your reviews on the last chapter. You guys make my world go around! I hope you enjoy this chapter...especially the smut. I'm aware that it wasn't that long, but they'd barely seen each other or had a moment alone all month and they kinda just needed to go at it, but there will be a long one on its way soon. Now, I hope you like the twist at the end, we'll begin to see more signs of the old members of the group. I've finally got a final plan of who made it off the farm with who and I can't wait to start writing them parts.

Anyway, please review for me I really love to hear your thought on the chapter. Also, if you're reading this and you've read my other story All Of Me, then brace yourselves the sequel will be out either Saturday or Sunday :)

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