[Kasuka's POV]

The actor woke up sometime around 5 in the morning, still laying on his boyfriend and being tangled up with him nicely on the couch. He was so warm and comfortable beside the other man that he couldn't imagine getting up, even if his stomach was growling and he needed to eat something because they both forgot to last night. We'll have breakfast together when he wakes up. Kasuka decided, smiling to himself as he buried his face into Izaya's neck again.

To him, it was almost addictive to wake up beside his boyfriend, feeling his body heat and knowing you were warming him up as well and being able to be the first thing he sees in the morning. He'd never heard of a better way to wake up, and he wished that he could do it every day of his life, as long as it was Izaya that he was waking up besides.

The actor took in a deep breath to stop himself from yawning, not feeling like going back to sleep yet either. When he cast a glance towards the window, he noticed it was already peaking a bit of sunlight in, letting him know it would be a nice, bright day with probably no clouds. I could take Izaya to the park again, or we could try to find an amusement park, or we could go out and see a movie~ But he doesn't like going outside very much, so we might be in the apartment again, watching Netflix.. Either way.

He kept thinking to himself what they could spend the day doing, shifting his gaze from the window back to his significant other. The informant looked so at peace at the moment he almost wished that he could sleep the day away, but knowing from experience, if he did that then his sleep schedule would be messed up and he would be grumpy at 11 in the morning and a sweetheart (or as close as he got to one) at 11 at night, which wasn't good for when they were going back to work the next day.

And if he slept the entire day, then Kasuka wouldn't be able to talk to him and ask what he was thinking and hear that voice he loved so much. Kasuka had absolutely no idea how it could be one of the many things Shizuo scorned about the other, thinking he sounded like an angel and Shizuo was, to a small degree still, the stupid one for not being able to hear it properly. And just because that voice insulted the blond a lot didn't stop making it sound amazing, he'd been on the receiving end of a lot of empty threats and teasing and some few and far inbetween insults, but he could never be mad about it when it was Izaya saying them.

As Kasuka's thoughts went into a lull for a moment and he almost fell asleep again, he shook it off and moved the covers down slightly to cool himself off, knowing his own heat would keep Izaya plenty warm for him to sleep for another hour. The actor settled himself again and breathed a small sigh as he tried to imagine himself without Izaya at the moment, wondering what he would still be like if the man hadn't shown up one day as his partner. Miserable, was his one conclusion. Especially now that he knew what it felt like to be loved by the one crush he's ever had.

Before Izaya had fully come into his life, he'd just been doing what he'd always done, follow directions. When he was little his parents would tell him, "Get good grades and you get a treat" or "Take care of your brother, he needs someone close to him." but they had always been directions and not options, even then he would have still followed them completely. While he did have emotions sometimes they just didn't shine through and he wondered what was wrong with him when other children smiled and laughed and had fun, and he just couldn't see what was so fun about what they were doing or talking about. Who cares about toy trucks? It's not like they're real trucks or all that fun to play with. The same went with a lot of things his age-group did. The only thing he ever fully understood the reason of liking was video games, seeing them as cool and new and something interesting to do when you had time.

And the more time he spent following orders, gave him even less time smiling or playing or having a lot of fun with other children. He'd gotten into child acting and had been a natural for it, despite not knowing what to do a lot of the time. They gave him a script, told him how to say his lines and he just did it, somehow getting the admiration of a lot of people he didn't know and didn't care about knowing. The only one he'd learned to smile around had been his brother, but even that was rare with his still out-of-control temper.

It had been hopeless from that time to end of his education for him to think he was normal, just going with whatever was happening and making money and avoiding those who would try to use him for that money, which was a lot of people in the area they were in.. But he still had hope. He could still think of Izaya when he was alone or left to himself and actually feel happy. It made him smile for a moment and he appreciated that, being able to feel normal if only for a moment or two everyday. Even that was abnormal, smiling from the thought of someone you didn't even have a full conversation with, that person also being completely scorned by the person closest to him, but he couldn't help it. The ravenett had no idea what about him made him smile either - he'd thought he looked like an angel, talked like an angel, and acted like a devil in disguise, but when he thought about each thing they would make him smile more. Once Kasuka was about to get out of highschool, he'd just decided he'd loved everything about him and left it at that so as to not stress himself out.

And he'd been right. Now, Kasuka was with someone that loved him despite the obvious troubles with it and he had never been happier. He couldn't remember a time when he'd blushed this much or smiled this much or felt appreciated as much as he did when with his ruby-eyed lover, and he never wanted to go back to how he was before. Kasuka was sure he never would, but that all depended on his boyfriend or not. If Izaya left him alone and never talked to him again, he'd never smile again. And if Izaya stayed with him but ended up somehow disliking him, even hating him, he would never smile again either. There was the chance that Izaya broke up with him but they still talked, and Izaya found someone else but was happy... That could let Kasuka smile for a moment.

As long as Izaya was happy, then he was happy and he may not be able to go to the ends of the Earth to keep him that way, but he'd damn well try.

More light was shining through into his home as he pulled himself away from his thoughts, hearing Izaya sighed and feeling him absently move his hand into Kasuka's hair, brushing his fingers through it as he woke up slowly. "Goodmorning, love~" Kasuka cooed, not sure if he could hear him quite yet or not. It was just a moment later that Izaya's ruby eyes opened and focused on him, seeming unnatural bright and cheerful for someone just waking up. But he couldn't be happier to see them, being able to read the comfort and warmth in the others eyes like a book and feeling himself smile up at the informant, knowing his eyes were showing the same thing.

Chapter 41~

I love writing fluff and inner-character things~

I really just wanted to write something Kasuka-centric too, seeing as all the focus has been on Izaya lately.

Which isn't bad, I love my informant baby, but Kasu-kun needs some love too. You can't have a pairing with only one person! (Well, one form of that person~)

Lemme know what you guys think of all this fluffy shit while I go throw up a Kasuya rainbow!

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