[Kasuka's POV]

Kasuka sat at the table impatiently, fidgeting with his hands while he looked around Russia Sushi. He probably looked like one of those uncomfortable loners at the moment who got stood up, from his expression, but he just couldn't wait to see his boyfriend again.

He hadn't lied to the man when he'd told him that he had work, he had been working on sponsors and random things that were supposed to gain them a couple grand for advertisements but whenever Izaya called and asked if he could come over, his mind just went back to that damn envelope.

The ravenett calmed himself down and ran a hand through his hair to straighten it out again, though it probably wasn't needed. It's not like all of his stress would suddenly make him look terrible, he'd even made sure he looked extra nice for Izaya since this would be the first time they saw each other in a week but just trying to straighten himself out made him calmer.

Izaya finally appeared in the doorway and smiled at him lightly as he got closer, sliding in across from him and reaching out to hold his hand. And from how quickly he did it, without even saying hello, Kasuka knew he was missed as well. His mind went to the envelope again and he tried to push it away, holding Izaya's outstretched hand tightly in return with a smile. "Hey, why did you want to see me so suddenly?" the actor asked, seeing his boyfriend roll his eyes.

"It's not sudden, I've been trying to reach you all week, remember?" the informant huffed, leaning back and making it hard to hold hands but they could still touch each other's fingertips, which was enough, especially now. His boyfriend suddenly frowned. "So, what have you been up to all week, anyways? You've never been this occupied unless you had to travel somewhere and you've barely even texted me.."

Kasuka let out a small hum of acknowledgement at that, glancing around the building again nervously for anyone that looked familiar. Of course there was Simon, but he didn't count him at the moment. "Well, uh.." Shit, should I really tell him? I mean, it's the first time we're together in a week.. I want him to enjoy this first. "It's a lot going on, I'll let you know later. Let's order first, yeah?" he offered, glancing at Simon who came over to ask them which sushi they wanted.

Izaya didn't look comfortable with the misdirection but didn't mention it, placing his order and continuing to hold his hand while they chatted away. After that things seemed almost back to normal; they were laughing and talking and teasing each other like usual and Kasuka smiled brightly the entire time. Of course they were both still thinking of what Kasuka was going to tell him once they were done with their meal, it was obvious from the lapses they had in conversation being a bit longer than usual but they both tried to keep it at bay.

Finally their sushi was gone and they were full, letting them know it was finally time to head off. Once the bill was paid and they were in Kasuka's limo there was nothing to distract them from the silence surrounding them. The two sat side by side quietly until they were finally to Kasuka's home, in the door and settled on the couch; Kasuka was wiping his hands on his jeans.

"Alright, say something. Something's been keeping you from me all week, so just tell me what it is." Izaya demanded after a moment, the smile from earlier gone from his face and just a look of concern in it's place, like he'd already heard the news and didn't want it repeated. For a second Kasuka thought he must have gotten an envelope as well, but then pushed it away, thinking his boyfriend would never be this calm if he had.

"Okay, well.. A little while ago I got something delivered to my door, and.. You know how Dong-Yul has been lately, I think it was from him but I can't be sure, but-"

"Kasuka, you're babbling.. What did he send you?" Izaya stressed, frowning now as he watched him. The actor glanced up at him before biting the inside of his cheek and standing up, going over to a drawer and pulling out the now-opened envelope before going back to hand it to his boyfriend.

"I found this slid under my door, I just.. I don't know if it's a threat to you or me, or both of us, but I don't like it.." Kasuka muttered, nervously moving his hands again as he watched Izaya take out the picture that had been inside it.

The ravenett grew pale for a second and opened his mouth to say something before suddenly his cheeks flushed and he scowled, taking the picture in both hands and ripping it to pieces. He dropped them onto the floor and all that was left was a shredded image of them together on Izaya's desk, being a lot less than innocent. It was up close and personal as well, obviously not able to be taken from anywhere other than the informant's laptop.

Kasuka just waited for him to say something in silence as Izaya put his head in his hands, always being the more private of the two of them and obviously being caught between mortification and murderous intent. Everything was quiet for what seemed like eternity until Izaya finally picked up his head again.

"I'm so sorry.." he muttered, face still red and his eyes starting to water. The actor was by his side in a second, wrapping his arms around him tightly to try and stop him from crying.

"Izaya, this isn't your fault."

"Who else's fault could it be!? They took the picture from my webcam, didn't they? They're sending it to you as a threat for a reason and whether it's Dong-Yul or someone else, the reason for it is definetly me!"

Kasuka just bit his lip as he looked at him, continuing to try and comfort him silently.

"Kasuka, you've been avoiding me for a week. When you got THIS sent to you, didn't you think I had the right to know!? You're not the only one in that picture!"

"I know that."

"Then why didn't you say anything!?"

"What the fuck was I supposed to say!? 'Hey, sorry I haven't spoken to you in two days, maybe three days, I got sent some black-mail with no context and no idea what terms this fucker wants from me to even stop it from getting out.'? How would that have helped? Any contact with you at all could have made this guy send it, saying your name could make this guy send it, what was I supposed to do!?"

Izaya shut his mouth at that, still looking enraged but mostly lost at the obvious logic.

There was nothing else that had come with the picture, not even anything written on the back of it; it was just a blank envelope with an obvious threat in it and no way for him to know what he could do, right or wrong. Kasuka had just done what he thought would be best, keeping away from his boyfriend to try and keep it from getting out while he tried to find someone that could figure out where the letter had come from, but he hadn't gotten any luck.

The informant next to him finally let out a sigh of defeat and brushed his bangs out of his face, staring at the floor.

"You're right. I'm sorry.." Izaya muttered, moving his hand up to hold Kasuka's as they both calmed down from their outbursts.

"It's okay. I'm sorry for not telling you earlier, I just didn't know what to do.. I still don't know what to do.." the actor admitted, leaning back on his couch and bringing Izaya with him as the informant rested his head back on his boyfriend's shoulder.

"Maybe the guy that sent it just did to scare us? I know a lot of people that think that would be a much better punishment than actually sending it out anywhere." Izaya mumbled, obviously searching through his thoughts for something that could help them. Kasuka nodded absently and did the same, not coming up with anything but bad endings to this scenario.

"Maybe. But, this guy could still be watching us right now and know that we made contact, so if he was going to send us any terms at all.. Then we'll probably be getting them soon." Kasuka thought aloud. He glanced at the curtains in his living room, currently closed but still suspicious to him, not knowing what he could trust at this point.

Izaya was quiet for a moment before he sat up, glancing back at Kasuka. "That's the most likely to happen as this point, so.. I guess, until either of us get something, we should just keep away from each other… right?" he asked. Kasuka opened his mouth to say 'no, I want to stay together' but he closed it again quickly, knowing that wasn't the right option. He nodded slowly before sitting back up as well, pulling his boyfriend into his lap and into a hug, keeping him held tightly to his chest for a couple moments to get out all that he'd wanted to do for the last week. Finally, they pulled apart and shared a peck on the lips before Izaya stood up.

"Well.. If you need me, then I'll be home. Don't bother calling me on Skype, the camera in my laptop is definetly being taken out…" the informant said softly, obviously stalling the goodbye. Kasuka gave him a tiny, forced smile before sighing and squeezing his hand.

"If I get anything else about this then I'll let you know at work. It's the only place we have an excuse to talk… I'll cya later." Kasuka muttered finally, getting a hum in return before his boyfriend finally left, retreating to the door and leaving Kasuka alone in his home.

Chapter 48!

Alright, so this isn't a dream everyone, this chapter is all real.

No more little heart-attacks for all my lovelies! ... For now.

Anyways, now you all know the contents of that envelope and why Kasuka was so instantly affected.

I mean think about it; with that one picture he could humiliate them in front of the Yakuza, their friends and family, ruin Izaya's reputation along with Kasuka's and, even after all that, destroy Izaya's hobby by outing him as a man - a wanted man.

I know, I'm cruel...

But lemme know what you guys think~

PS. To Alexis: ... Go suck a FUCKIN' DIck... Luv ya~

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