AN: This chapter contains some slight sexual content (there is not a sex scene, just some stuff that happens before). So a slight M warning is issued for this chapter! Nothing too much or to explicit, but still, just read with caution. You have been warned!
Amy POV
December 8th
"Like...the real thing?" I screw up my face as I lean to the left side and look over my shoulder so I could see Cooper. We were sat on the living room couch. Cooper was sitting behind me, I was sat in front of him, between his legs, leaned against him.
"Yes, the real thing!" Cooper replies with a real chuckle
"I'm...hmm...I don't think, that I am…you know that cultural person"
"You liked the theater we went to," Cooper reasons back as he rubbed my shoulders gently
"Well, theater is okay, but ballet! I don't know if I want to see guys jumping around the stage in tights!" I said softly rubbing my hand over Cooper's knee
"Trust me, I don't either!" Cooper reassured me, I couldn't help but to laugh back at that "But if I am forced to suffer through that, I would like for you to suffer along with me!"
"I feel flattered!" I reply with a chuckle and lean back to his chest. Both of my hands now rest on his knees.
"I actually have a third ticket as well. Callie could come with us as well. It would be like a…" Cooper paused for a moment, but then added carefully "...family day. The three of us."
I lean away from him and turn around on the couch. Sitting on my knees, in front of Cooper, I gaze at him. Cooper tilts his head sideways a little, I could see he was trying to read me as he waited for me to answer.
"...I know...we are not exactly a family...we haven't even been dating for a year, but you two...you feel like my family to me-" I lean for a kiss, to stop his ramble. Our lips touch for a passionate, deep kiss.
"Is...that...yes…for...ballet?" Cooper asks getting word by word out, between the kiss
"Shut up!" I tell him, when I paused the kissing for a second
"Shutting up!" Cooper replays in a quick manner and we return to kissing. We both got got and heavy. Coopers hand moved under my shirt, searching for more skin contact. A moment later, he gripped the hem of my shirt, ready to pull it off right then and there.
"Please tell me, you aren't that couple that has done it in every room of the house!" we hear Callie's voice from the doorway. She sounded slightly, who am I kidding, more than slightly disgusted and grossed out by us.
Cooper, like a lighting bolt, leans away from me, pulling his hands back. I close my eyes and lower my head, once we pulled apart, slightly embarrassed that Callie had to see this .But I was also slightly frustrated at the same time, because it felt like we had a really great moment going on.
Callie exclaimed out loud the next moment "Oh god! Have you done it in my room?!"
I look over my shoulder with frowned up face "What? No, of course not!" I reply to her as I move to the other side of the couch. Cooper sat awkwardly at the other end. I could tell he wasn't quite sure, how he should act and play this out.
But, Cooper recovered quite quickly. Much faster than from other awkward encounter the three of us have had. He cleared his throat, getting my attention. Coop moved his eyebrows up, trying to signal me. I screw my face up at first, not getting what he wanted to tell me.
Callie comments from the side quietly, grossed out "Please tell me that was not a sex signal" But I kept my eyes on him, trying to understand what he was trying to tell me. When he nodded to Callie, I realized, what Cooper wanted me to ask her.
"Oh!" I call out and turn to Callie "So, um...Cooper has tickets to ballet in two week. So please don't make plans for weekend after next."
Callie looks between us "Why? It's not like we have a dog that needs to be watched at home. The lock works just fine-"
"Three tickets!" Cooper speaks up, taking the lead of the conversation from here "for the three of us. Your mom and talked and we figured it would be nice to spend a day together!"
"At Ballet?" Callie didn't seem to like the Ballet part "That's where the guys jump around the stage in tights and you can see-" she moves her hand over her lower genitalia region "…stuff!"
Cooper and I share an amused look "I'm pretty sure girls are jumping around the stage as well," Cooper says with a smile "and their stuff is bouncing as well!" for that he eared a quick, playful slap to his chest from me
"I have never been to ballet before," Callie thinks out loud
"Then this will be an opportunity for you to go see ballet for the first time!" Cooper replies in an excited manner
"I don't know," Callie still wasn't sold "I'm not sure if I want to see guy's in tights."
"That makes two of us!"
"Make that three!" I add to both of them as I raise my hand up
"If you don't like it, why buy three tickets to it?" Callie questions him
"I didn't buy them!" Cooper explained "One of my former patients was a ballet dancer. He was in a car crash where he hurt his leg quite badly. I helped him get back to his feet and now after a year, he once again is performing and...well, he said he wants to invite me to one of his show...in a way, thanking me."
"Oh!" Callie sounded impressed "That's quite cool!"
"Is that a yes?" I ask her to make sure she is on board with this
"Yeah, I guess so," Callie replied with a shrug
I saw the keys in her hand and nodded to them "You going somewhere?"
"To Gavin's!" Callie says casually, jiggling the keys in her hand. I could see she was getting slightly impatient and just wanted to leave the house to head over to Gavin's, but I was not done with her just yet.
"When will you be back?"
First came a shoulder shrug, then a reply "Don't know, few hours." Looking at the clock, I see that it was little over 7PM already. The definition of few hours probably differs for me and her.
"Before curfew!" I point it out to her "You will be home before curfew!" I leave her no room for argument
"Okay...before curfew" Callie obliges recurrently
"And your curfew is at..." I didn't finish that sentence, letting her answer that herself
Callie shifted in her stance, her shoulder dropped a little, head dipped down "...10!" Callie says in a typical annoyed teenager voice
"Don't drink!" Cooper says, when Callie seemed like she was about to head out
"I won't! We are just going to hang out," Callie says looking between us and then points over her shoulder with her right hand "Can I go now? I told Gavin I would be there at 7:30."
"Yes, you can go. Please drive safely!" I remind her and watch her walk to doors. When I heard the door nub turn, I call out to her as I suddenly remember something "Callie!"
"What?" she calls back annoyed
"Grab 30 dollars from my wallet and fill up the gas tank, please!" I tell her when she peaks her head back in the living room
"Okay!" Callie replies and heads back up stairs to grab the money. Two minutes later she walks to doors again "Bye!"
"Bye!" Cooper and I call together
We both watch her get in the car and drive away. For a minute, I just sit and stare out the window to the street. That was, until Cooper spoke up "Can we continue where we left off"
I jump off the couch, grab his hand and pull him towards the stairs. Apparently he felt like I was running upstairs too slow, so he just swooped me up from my feet and tossed me over his shoulder. I let out a little playful scream when he picked me up and slapped my butt as he carried me up the stairs to the bed.
Callie POV
I stand in front of his apartment doors. Before I ring the bell, I look down to my outfit, to see if am looking as good as I could. I run my fingers through my hair 3 times before I reach up for the bell. Not long after the bells rings out, I hear his footsteps.
"Hey, babe!" Gavin's says opening the doors for me. Once I step inside, I lean up on my toes to kiss him.
"I ordered us pizza," he says once we end the kiss "I got your favorite!" he says and gesture to the small kitchen table, where the pizza box stood
Gavin has a small two bedroom apartment. The room, when entering the apartment is kitchen/living room. Kitchen area was straight forward, but the living room part was the right side of the room. The other room was his bedroom, which basically only contained his bed, a dresser and a nightstand. It was very simple, cozy place. And from what he has told me, it is also very affordable.
"You are the best!" I look over my shoulder to him as I walk over to the pizza
"Yes, I am!" Gavin says back very confidently, with a small smirks
"So?" He asks when we sit down at the table and each grab a slice of pizza
"So?" I ask after taking a bite, raising my eyebrow up. I wasn't quite sure what he wanted to say with that or what he wanted me to reply to that
"How did the trial go?"
I swallow the food "Oh, that...um, very good"
"Yeah?" He looks happy about that
"Yes, he was found guilty and got sent to prison for few years!"
"That's great. That bastard deserved that after what he did to you, Lena and his family. That guy is a first class douche!" I had told Gavin quite a lot about Matthew Malloc and all the trouble he had caused he. Gavin stayed on the sidelines on the whole thing, but he was still very supportive about everything.
"I rented this one old movie" Gavin says walking over to the TV, while I walk straight to the couch
"Yeah? What kind?"
"It's call 'The wedding singer'. Have you seen it before?" he asks me, when he is inserting the disk in his DVD player
"I don't think that I have. Who plays in it?"
"Adam Sandler. It's kind of a comedy/romance genre. I decided to try and switch the genre this time" Gavin says setting the volume
"Thank god! I was kind of dreading another 'Transformer' or 'Terminator' movie" I reply when I kick my shoes off and pull my legs up on the couch under me "I don't understand how you can like that...all non-stop action, cars turning into robots, shooting movies"
"I guess it's a guy's thing," He says back walking over to the couch, with the remote in his hand "Scoot!"
"Where to do you want me to move?" I ask looking to the other free side of the couch. I was sitting on the far side as it was.
"Move down silly, I want to cuddle with my girl!" Gavin grabs the other pillow from end of the couch and tosses it next to me
"Whoa...hey, no!" Gavin grabs my hand, when I had laid down sideways, close to the backrest
"What?" I laugh back
"No way, I'm the small spoon! I'm the big spoon!" He explains to me and stands up on the couch "You, scoot, outside...little spoon," he says playfully and waits till I move to the outer side. Gavin squeezed down between me and the couch.
"You comfortable?" he asks after we both tried to get as comfortable as we could on the couch. Our bodies were in close proximately. Our hips touched, my back was pressed up to his chest, legs intertwined. I felt his chest move with his every breathe.
"Yeah, I'm perfect"! I say and hold on to his hand that he wrapped around my stomach to keep me close to him
"Okay, movie time!" he says and turn the movie to play
We had been just watching the movie for 10 minutes, when Gavin started to kiss the back of my neck. He had moved my hair off my neck. I closed my eyes for a moment, enjoying the sensation. His lips on my neck. Gavin's hand started to slowly roam over my stomach.
"Gavin" I moan out softly, when he had pulled the shirt off my shoulder slightly
"Yes?" He ask between placing kisses on my skin
"What about the movie?"
"It's a DVD...we can rewind it later!" he whispered in my ear. While he kissed me behind my ear, his hand slowly moved under my shirt. It made my whole body tingly when he traced his fingers softly over my skin. It gave me goosebumps.
I turn my head backwards and with my right hand reach up to his back of the neck. Gavin leans forward and our lips meet for a tender kiss. It was slightly awkward and sloppy because of the weird angle, but it still felt amazing. I run my fingers through his hair and grip it till we are kissing.
A moment later I turn on my right side to face him and we continue our make out session on the couch. His right hand never stopped roaming over my body. One moment his hand was on my leg, the next on my hip, but after that under my shirt again.
"How about we take this to my bedroom?" he suggested after few minutes of us making out. We hadn't done it before. Gavin was being very patient with me. This actually was the first time he asked about it. And we have been dating for few weeks now.
This felt right. I wanted to have sex with Gavin. I liked Gavin a lot. After 3 years, I finally feel ready for it. I was finally over what Liam did to me. Gavin seemed like the right guy.
Without hesitating, I got up from the couch and extended my hand to him. Gavin looked at, at my eyes, but then he looked down to the hand that I was holding out. He reached for it, got up from the couch as well.
Hand in hand we walked to his bedroom. When I had reached the end of his bed, I turned around to face Gavin. His look was so full of passion and desire. I bite my lower lip as my look was stuck to his lips.
"You know that drives me crazy" He says before he placed his hand on my cheek. Gavin moved in for a kiss, which turned out to be a very passionate kiss.
Slowly we both laid down on his bed. I was on my back, while he was, for the moment, sitting over me. Gavin took off his shirt and tossed it aside. Once he had gotten ride of his shirt, we kissed. His fingers found the hem of my shirt. Raising my hand above my head, Gavin helps me get rid of my shirt as well.
He kissed my lips, my jaw, my neck. When he kissed my collar bone, my back arched a little and my breathing became slightly more rapid. My heart started to beat faster. It beat faster for him, because of him. As time went on, I got more and more excited. I was enjoying the feeling.
Gavin is nothing like Liam – I told myself when Gavin started to kiss my collar bone again - Gavin was sweet and gentle, unlike Liam. Liam's kisses didn't feel like this. They didn't feel as good as Gavin's kisses do. Gavin's touch is much for softer, more gentle. Whenever Liam touched me, it was much more rougher, almost aggressive.
Gavin's kisses trails from my collar bone, down my chest and stomach, to my pants. He looked up to me, asking me for a permission to take them off. Lifting my hips up a little, I gave him my answer. Gavin unbuttoned my pants and pulled my jeans down. He discarded them the same way he did with my shirt.
As the excitement grew, nervousness and worry grew as well.
Gavin actually asked for my permission. He actually cared about me. Not like Liam. Liam never asked if I wanted to have sex, he told me that we are going to have it! He made me feel like I owed him sex, for everything he had done for me. He used me. I was being used! - I couldn't keep the thoughts about Liam and my rape out of my mind
I watched how Gavin gets out of his jeans. He was now left in only his white briefs. The bulge on his briefs, told me exactly how excited he was. There was a feeling, in the pit of my stomach that grew. I couldn't explain it. But what I do know, is that it brought this fidgety, restless feeling in me.
Gavin laid down next to me, I roll on my side to face him and we continue to kiss.
I will not let what happened with Liam ruin this moment with Gavin. What happened with Liam, happened 3 years ago. That's in the past - I tried to tell myself, but I think I was slowly loosing that inner battle with myself- Was I over it? Was I over my rape? Have I really gotten past that part of my life? Liam was out of my life...he was out of my life, but clearly he was still in my mind...reminding me of what he did to me. How he hurt me. How he took something from me...
Gavin's hand was now roaming my back. Eventually his hand found the snap of my bra. He paused the kissing and looked to my eyes "Are you okay?"
"Yes, don't stop!" I tell him and at the same time, i tell myself, that I am okay with this
With one hand he opened it. I got the bra off my shoulders and tossed it over the bed just like the other beds. We were both practically naked now. The only piece of clothing that we had on was our underwear. We rolled on the bed and once again, I found myself underneath him.
Gavin was the first guy, who saw me naked beside Liam. Was I attractive enough for Gavin? Was I beautiful enough.
"You are beautiful "Gavin tells me, once he had one look at my breasts. His hand slowly moved over to my breasts. He squeezed it gently and then sucked on it. I threw my head back, enjoying the feeling. But even though I enjoyed it, I let out a whimper when his lips moved to my other nipple. I wasn't sure if that was out of pleasure of out of fear. My breathing became more rapid and more frantic with every touch, with every kiss.
This was Gavin, it wasn't Liam. Liam is not here. It's not Liam!
I closed my eyes and tried to get back to the mood I was, when we were on the couch. We rolled around on the bed again and once again, Gavin found his way on top of me. He reached for my hands and moved them over my head, that way, giving him more access to me, to my body. He held my wrists above my head and kissed me first on my lips, but then again he moved lower. To my jaw, my neck, collar bone, my breasts.
I am underneath him. Just like I was with Liam. I can't get out. I am trapped underneath him. Just like with Liam. I am trapped! I can't breathe!
"NO! STOP!" I call out in frantic voice and tried to get out from underneath him
Gavin moved off of me, to the side of the bed and watched me how, I jumped off the bed. With one hand I was trying to cover my breasts from him, while in other I grabbed all of my clothes.
"What did I do?" Gavin looks and sounds utterly confused "Did I do something?"
Liam – that name, was the only thought in my mind right now. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get him off my mind.
"Callie!" Gavin jumped off the bed, when I hurried to the doors
"I can't do it!" I say in shaky voice and hurry to his bathroom to get dressed
I lock the doors behind me and drop my clothes on the closed toilet. My hands were shaking, my breathing was fast, my heart was racing. I felt tears forming in my eyes as I tried to get dressed.
Amy POV
I was cuddling with Cooper in my bed, under the blankets, naked, when we both heard the front doors open and slam shut loudly. It felt like the whole house shook from the force they were closed shut. We both sat up in the bed. I reacted fast.
"Is that Callie?" Cooper asked, when I jumped out of the bed and grabbed my clothes. This can't be anything good. I heard Callie's loud footsteps coming up the stairs. She didn't go to her room. Callie went straight to the bathroom. And I was pretty sure I heard her cry.
"Get dressed!" I tell him, when I jump in my pants. Cooper tossed me my shirt, that was on the other side of the bed. I catch it mid air and pull over my head. Once Cooper had at least his pants on, I opened the bedroom door and walked out to the hall. I heard soft sobs coming from the bathroom.
"Callie?" I asked when I pressed my left ear to the doors "Honey?"
"Go away!" Callie calls back from the other side of the doors
"You know, I can't and won't do that!" I stick to my usually routine. It seemed to work miracles the previous times.
I had no idea, if Callie had locked the doors. Right now, I wasn't sure if I should check that. Callie was clearly very upset about something and me barging in could not be the best choice right now. I needed to play this safe.
"Honey, what happened?" I try to talk to her through the doors
"Nothing!" Callie cried back. I heard her sniff.
Cooper peaked his head out of the bedroom. He looked to the bathroom doors and then to me, asking me, what he should do.
"Wait downstairs" I mouth to him and point to the stairs. He nods back and quietly walks to the first floor, giving me and Callie a moment alone.
"Callie, can I come in?" I ask her softly as I rested my hand on the door nub. All I heard back was sobs and sniffs. I gave her few more seconds to answer. But it never came.
"I'm coming in, okay, honey...It's just me. I'm opening the doors..." I warn her before I slowly turn the door nub
At first, I only peaked in. I saw Callie sitting on the cold tile floor, her back against the sink counter. When I opened the doors a little bit more, I saw that she had tears streaming down her cheeks. I squeezed in the bathroom and closed the doors behind me.
Callie looked like a mess. Her legs were pulled up to her chest, clearly she was trying to be as small as possible. She was constantly wiping her hand over her cheek, trying to get the tears away, but they just kept falling. Her shirt had wet spots from the tears. I don't think I have ever seen Callie this broken down.
Slowly, not to alarm the girl, I walk over to her and sit on my knees in front of her. Gently I place my hand on her knee.
"Can you tell me what happened?" I ask very gently and carefully, hoping the girl will open up to me and actually tell me, what happened.
"I freaked out!" Callie cried out, looking back at me. But once she said that, her head dipped down again.
"Freaked out about what?" I tilted my head sideways slightly, trying to catch the girls gaze once again
"Having sex!" she said in much quieter voice. I could tell she was embarrassed about it, ashamed even.
The protective, cop side of me one my internal fight I was having with myself. Part of me has always been worried, that Gavin might not listen to what Callie says. It doesn't matter who Callie's boyfriend was, I think I will always worry about, what happened with Liam, repeating "Did he try to force you?" if he did, I would have no problem going over there and arresting him
"No!" She called out giving me a death glare and pushing my hand away from her knee "Can you stop being the freaking cop for 5 minutes and just be my mom, please?" Callie said very harshly, with tears streaming down her cheeks. But I certainly didn't miss the desperation in her voice as well.
Without saying anything back, I move to her side and wrap my left arm around her shoulder. Callie lowers her head to my shoulder. Her hand finds my shirt and she grips it tightly in her fist. I wrap my other hand around her front and rest it on her upper arm.
"I got you, honey. I got you! I kiss the the top of her head and pull her a bit closer to my side