A/N:
Hi! I'm sorry again this took so long. I hope you're all still with me.
Anyway, I have watched the entire season 3 of Orange Is The New Black and to say I'm disappointed with how things turned out for Vauseman adn Piper would be the understatement of the year. I honestly don't know if I'm ever going to get over it until they release Season 4 so I think I'm just going to channel my frustration in writing. Haha.
This chaper has no Vauseman in it and I'm sorry. It had nothing to do with Season 3, honestly. I've already created a 'timeline' for this story and it just happened that this chapter coincided with OITNB's new season so there. Alex's backstory! Please let me know what you think. I heart you all :"
Again, haven't proofread and I feel so bad for neglecting that part but time's really against me here so please forgive me for all the mistakes.
6
18 months ago...
Alex was having the worst night of her life when she met her. One of her mules ran away with the 200 grams of heroin she was supposed to move to Jakarta and she had to clean the mess before that stupid fucker could ruin what she'd been working for, for more than six years of her life now. Thankfully, Fahri's guys got to her before she could get out of the country but that only meant hours and hours of lecture from him. Alex treated him like a big brother but sometimes he could really get into her nerves. Like she wanted this to happen.
So to calm her nerves even just a bit, she went to the closest bar she could find, not bothering to check whether it was up to her standards. She just wanted something to drink, hopefully something enough to knock her out as soon as she got back to her hotel. Usually, she would want the night to end with some hot girl screaming her name in her bed but tonight wasn't the night for that. She wanted to be alone.
But her night got even worse when someone dumb enough to not look where she was walking knocked into her and spilled her beer all over her. "What the fuck?!"
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry. Oh my God."
The lady tried to wipe the wetness that had already seeped through Alex's leather jacket but was only making it worse so Alex had to grip her wrists to stop whatever it was she was doing. "Stop." Alex just had to remove her jacket and exhaled when she saw that the beer didn't seep through her shirt.
"I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to. Oh my God."
Alex wanted to be pissed, to yell at this woman for ruining her night even more but one look at her and she couldn't lash out at her anymore. She was almost as tall as her, probably just an inch shorter, had short brunette hair and was obviously British. Judging by the way she was standing, this woman had already more than enough to drink. "It's okay. Just look where you're going next time." Alex started walking away, itching to finally get that drink, when the woman spoke again.
"Hey, I really feel bad about what happened. Can I at least buy you a drink to make up for it?"
Alex hesitated before responding. She really wanted to be alone tonight. She was not in the mood to talk to anyone, let alone a stranger who spilled her drink all over her, but surprisingly she found herself agreeing to the brunette. "Sure."
"I'm Ashley, by the way."
"Alex."
.-.-.-.
Three hours more into the night, Ashley was already wasted. She was slurring all her words and she kept laughing and laughing at everything, even those things that weren't even remotely funny. She was becoming so uncoordinated that she kept knocking things out, but surprisingly, Alex wasn't finding any of this irritating. She tried to assess herself whether she was regretting taking up the girl's offer for a drink but she realized that she wasn't. Instead, she found herself trying to understand every word Ashley was saying just to be able to keep the conversation going, found herself laughing with Ashley every time the brunette did so, and found herself putting back in place everything the other girl kept knocking out. Much to her surprise, she realized that she was having more fun than she had ever had in as long as she could remember.
"You look really hot," Ashley blurted out all of a sudden causing Alex to chuckle.
"Oh, really?" she asked with a smirk and her signature eyebrow raise.
"Yeah. I've never met anyone as hot as you."
"Well, you don't look bad yourself, kid." And Alex meant it. She's met a lot of women. She had travelled to so many places to have had the luxury of meeting a huge number of beautiful women but there was something in Ashley that she liked so much. It was probably her laid back personality, her enthusiasm about everything around her, her obviously lack of need to please anyone. She was who she was and she didn't care if one person liked her or not. That probably was a lot to say about a woman she barely knew but Alex had been observing her all night and studying women was something she was pretty good at considering her job.
She didn't realize that they had been holding each other's gaze for quite some time now until Ashley stood up and made her way closer to her. "It makes me wanna kiss you."
Alex just smirked and cocked her head a little, until her eyes had gone down to Ashley's lips. And then without missing a heartbeat, their lips were already pressed against each other.
.-.-.-.
Ashley went home with Alex afterwards, and they spent the night in Alex's bed, exploring each other's bodies like there was no tomorrow until exhaustion took over them and they'd fallen asleep with their limbs tangled and their bodies closely pressed together.
Alex had fallen asleep that night not knowing that she had just met the person that would change her entire life forever.
The next month was pure bliss for Alex and Ashley. After the first night they slept together, it had become a constant thing for them to see each other every time their schedules allowed them to and especially to sleep together every time they could.
At first, it was all about the sex. Alex loved having sex with Ashley, she loved the way she reacted to her, the way she made her feel. But then as the clock ticked, whatever was going on between them started evolving into something so much more. Their times together spent in bed had suddenly become time to talk, to get to know each other better. There were days when Alex felt as if it was time for it to stop. She was growing closer to Ashley every day that passed and she was terrified of that.
It wasn't just the fact that Ashley had no idea about her job. Or that her time in London was almost coming to its end and soon enough, she was leaving for another country. It was also the fact that Alex didn't do these kinds of things. She never got close to anyone. She never liked getting attached to a person and the vulnerability that came with that. She wanted her control and her ability to shut people off whenever she needed to.
But all of that seemed to have just disappeared when she met Ashley. She was slowly losing all control over what she felt but it wasn't even that that terrified her. It was the fact that she was okay with it and even though she was trying to convince herself that she wanted all of it to finally come to its end, she couldn't bring herself to do the first move to do just that.
And so it went on, until finally the fact that Alex couldn't stay had finally caught up with them.
They were both in bed, naked and wrapped in sheets and each other, when Alex decided to finally tell her. "I'm leaving in three days."
"Ooh, okay." Ashley said much to Alex's surprise. "When are you coming back?"
"I'm... not." Alex felt Ashley stiffen and it somehow broke something in her. They were quiet for a moment, both unsure of what to say next. Alex wanted to look at Ashley, to see whether she was feeling the same loss she kind of felt knowing they only had three days left together, but a part of her was also terrified, having no idea what was going on in the other woman's mind.
"Oh!" Ashley then spoke, in an almost high-pitched tone, "Oh okay... then we better make our last three days together worth remembering, right?" She had by now untangled herself from Alex, only pressing a soft kiss on her lips before she got out of bed. "I... uh, I gotta go pee. Stay right there, okay?" Then she hurriedly went to the bathroom, leaving Alex as if someone had just ripped her heart out.
They spent the next three days almost not leaving each other's sides.
The next day after Alex told Ashley she was leaving was also the first day she had ever cooked for her. She wanted to believe it was some kind of an apology for having to leave things like that, but she also wanted it to be some sort of goodbye, as if it was the closest thing to a 'goodbye' Alex could ever give her.
One day before Alex had to leave, they were both a bit more edgy, as if they'd forgotten how to act normally around each other. They'd always been so at ease whenever they were together, always in sync in almost everything they did, but that day felt as if they were both on opposite sides of a long rope, both at the same place, but never really meeting. They fucked, and it was far from gentle. They were both hurried, as if they were running from time, time which was about to take everything good that they had away from them, time that was just waiting to catch up until it could finally separate them for good.
Alex found it so heartbreakingly painful, and she wasn't even sure why, but she had to convince herself that this was the right thing to do, that leaving for good was for her own sake, and for Ashley's, too. But no matter how much convincing she did to herself, there was nothing in her leaving seemed justified.
And that's when she knew that having Ashley by her side was all that made everything right.
The day they were dreading came and Alex was already at Ashley's doorway, her cab just waiting for her. Ashley wanted to take her to the airport, but Alex knew that wasn't a good idea. So she spent a good five minutes just kissing her, trying to tell her through that how much she was gonna miss her, hoping that it could also tell Ashley how much she hated that she couldn't stay.
"I had a great time."
"Yeah, me too. Call me, okay?"
Ashley's voice almost cracked and it only made matters worse for Alex because she couldn't suddenly move her feet.
This wasn't right.
This did not feel right.
She shouldn't be leaving.
But she had to.
"I will. Bye, Ash."
"Goodbye, Alex."
.-.-.-.
Ten minutes had passed when Ashley heard the doorbell ring. She slowly walked towards her door, still feeling the loss that Alex left her when she got inside that cab, and when the cab started moving away from her place.
But nothing could have prepared her for what she'd seen when she opened the door.
"Alex? What are you... I thought, I thought you already left?"
"I... I was about to. But then, I realized something. I know that you probably will find this stupid or whatever and that you have built a life here and that, I don't know, there may be things or people that, you know, you don't wanna leave behind. But I've spent the last two months with you and I won't hide the fact that I liked it. I liked your company and... I don't think I want that to end just yet."
A look of confusion spread all over Ashley's face and Alex instantly regretted coming back. "I don't understand. What are you trying to say?" But she was smiling, and Alex knew that smile very well. Ashley had already realized what she was trying to say but she wanted to hear it from her.
"I'm pretty sure you already have an idea."
"No." Ashley said, shaking her head, her lips still tugged into a smile. "No, I don't."
Alex sighed and shook her head, but found herself smiling with Ashley. It had become a reflex, as if Ashley's smile should always be followed by hers. "Ugh. You cocky, little shit," Alex mumbled and Ashley's laughter could be heard all over the street. "I might have accidentally booked two tickets to Brussels."
"Oh, yeah?" Ashley asked, still smirking at Alex.
"Yeah." After that, Alex's smile suddenly faded, and a look of seriousness took over her face. "I want you to come with me."
Ashley's laughter had now turned into the smile that Alex loved seeing so much, and Alex knew her answer before she even said it.
.-.-.-.
Everything just went perfectly from then on. Ashley came with Alex to Brussels and soon enough they were in another country and then another and then another.
They never discussed Alex's job. Whenever Ashley would ask, Alex would just tell her she imported 'stuff' and even though Alex could feel that Ashley wanted to know more, she never asked. And for a while, everything was what Alex wanted it to be. They were happy, and Alex had finally stopped justifying everything she was feeling to herself. She just let it take over her and she loved the feeling of finally letting go all her fears and doubts about whatever it was that she felt for this woman.
She never told her those three words yet. But she felt it. And she knew Ashley did, too.
And for a while, that was enough.
Alex came home one night to Ashley in just her Rolling Stones t-shirt, dancing to Rolling Stones' Gimme Shelter, bringing a wide smile to Alex's face. She hadn't announced her arrival yet, thanking every god out there that Ashley had her back on her so she could watch her for a while, and take in the beauty that was this person. She was bobbing her head, swaying her hips and Alex couldn't help but stare at her longs legs, her shirt only reaching her mid-thigh.
After a short more while, she then finally cleared her throat, much to Ashley's surprise. She turned around and widened her eyes at her, causing Alex to let out a loud chuckle. The brunette immediately turned the radio off, squinting her eyes at Alex.
"How long have you been there?"
"Long enough to know that you've got some moves on you," Alex said, smiling widely, as she walked towards Ashley, wrapping her arms around her waist before she brought her lips against hers. "You're so hot. My shirt looks so good on you. But you'd look even better without it."
"Hmm, really? Why don't you take it off then?"
Oh, I plan to, babe. But first... dance with me."
Alex turned the radio back on and Wild Horses started playing. Ashley pressed her forehead against hers and they soon were swaying slowly to the music. It wasn't really dancing. It was them merely moving together to the music, feeling now more than ever how incredibly perfect they felt together.
And Alex knew by then that she made the right choice by asking Ashley to come with her. Because this. This was what she wanted to go home to every day for the rest of her life.
But all good things must always come to their ends.
"Alex, do you think I don't notice every time you sneak out of the room when your phone rings? Or when your normal voice turns into a whisper when I catch you talking to someone? I tried to ignore it, really. Because I thought, what the fuck do I care, right? But it's really getting so tiring of ignoring all of this, whatever it is that you're hiding. If you wanna hide something then go, I'm not stopping you. At least do a better job at it."
It was probably the last straw and Alex couldn't really blame Ashley for it. It was the hundredth time she had caught her doing it, talking on phone in hushed tone, shrugging Ashley's questions off, not giving her a believable enough answer and maybe Ashley had finally got tired ignoring it.
She wanted to apologize, to explain things to her, but instead she looked for one last way out, as if it was gonna help her with anything.
"What do you want from me?"
"What do I want? I want you to stop being a pussy."
By the look on Ashley's face, Alex knew she couldn't hide it any longer. She had lied to her enough and it broke her but she had never found the courage to tell her the truth, to give her a reason to leave. "Yeah? Fine. I work for an international drug cartel, Ashley. There! You happy now?"
To say Ashley looked dumbfounded would be the understatement of Alex's entire life. She looked shocked, and terrified, and betrayed. "You what?"
"You heard me." Alex's voice had uncharacteristically softened, finally feeling as if she'd lost a fight she'd been trying to win for months now. She could never fight with the truth. Truth always won and now it was just about to give her one final kick in the ass.
"And you never thought of mentioning this to me?! Alex, I've been going all over the world with you... for months! Don't you think I could've at least deserved to know?" Alex knew Ashley was waiting for her to say something, anything, just to try to help her find some sense in this, in her lying. But she couldn't defend herself. She was wrong in keeping everything from Ashley, and she knew that. "Oh my God. I can't... I can't do this." The brunette grabbed her coat and started walking towards the door.
"Wait, where are you going?"
"Out. I can't even look at you right now, Alex."
And so she opened the door and walked out, leaving Alex to wonder whether she had just lost the most important woman in her life, next to her mother, for good.
.-.-.-.
It was almost five hours later when Ashley returned. Ever since she left, Alex had not stopped moving, trying to distract herself from dangerous thoughts of something bad happening to Ashley, or her leaving the country or whatever ridiculous ideas that attacked her mind at the time.
"Ashley, what the fuck, are you okay?" She rushed towards her, pulling her into a body-crushing hug, which Ashley lamely returned.
"I'm fine, Alex," she sounded so tired, defeated even.
"Jesus Christ, Ash! You don't know this place. What if something happened to you?"
"I said I'm fine. I can take care of myself, Alex. You of all people know that."
"Look, I'm sorry that I didn't tell you, okay? I just... I knew this was how you were going to react and I just... Please don't walk out on me again like that. You scared me."
"React like what?"
"You found out what I do for a living and you walked out on me without even listening to what I had to say."
"You think I walked out on you because you work for an international drug cartel? Alex, I walked out because you didn't tell me the truth. You've been lying to me for months, and out of all the people in my life, I trusted you enough to really think that you would be the last person to do that."
Her last line stung but Alex took it, knowing she deserved it. "I'm sorry." Because what was left for her to say, really? "I'm sorry for not telling you and that I'm constantly putting you in danger with the kind of job that I have. But you don't have to be scared, okay? I won't let anything happen to you."
"You think I'm scared for myself? Alex, I'm not the one who constantly goes out there and does whatever it is that you do. I'm not the one who's risking my life every fucking day. I know you think you're a badass and all that shit, but you're not invincible."
"Ash, I'm fine. I've been doing this for years." It was a god damned stupid answer but Alex didn't know what else to say.
"You can spend the next 50 years of your life doing this but it still doesn't stop the danger, Alex. You can get used to all of it but it still doesn't change the fact that this, whatever it is that you do, is not safe, not to mention legal!"
"What are you trying to tell me?"
"I'm not trying to tell you anything."
And even though it felt like someone was choking the air out of her, Alex asked. She had to know. "Are you leaving me?" her voice cracked, threatening to give away the fact that she hadn't ever felt more scared for an answer in all her life.
But Ashley shook her head and looked her in the eyes. "I don't approve of this Alex, of what you do. And I should be running away from you now, but I can't. I can't leave you. Now more than ever."
.-.-.-.
For a while, they managed to make it work. They went back to the way they were, only this time with constant fear in Ashley every time Alex had to go to 'work.' The first few weeks she hid it from Alex, convincing her that she was fine with it, even though all she could ever do whenever Alex would go out was wait for her to come back, all the while praying to a God she didn't even believe in that Alex would come home safely.
But Ashley felt all of her pretenses crumble right in front of her when Alex came home, blood all over her hands and clothes.
"What the fuck?! Alex what happened to you?! Oh my God, are you okay?" she rushed to her and examined Alex's hands right away, and everything else, wanting to make sure that she wasn't hurt, and no matter how gross she felt, wished that those blood on Alex's hands weren't hers and somebody else's.
"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm not hurt or anything," Alex answered but she was shaking and Ashley knew she wasn't fine.
"What happened?"
"Nothing. It's okay."
"Alex."
Alex looked at Ashley and the brunette was sure she was about to cry. She swallowed hard and shut her eyes forcefully before she opened them up again. "Fahri's dead."
"What?! How?"
"Aydin."
"Aydin? But wasn't he..."
"Yeah. One of the mules was caught and, uh, Fahri was supposed to be there to pick her up at the airport, but he missed it." Alex shook her head, still trying to fight off the tears that were threatening to fall from her eyes. She's been with Fahri for so long, he had become a family to her and seeing him get shot in front of her was more than she could take. But she couldn't break down in front of Ashley. Not now. Not ever. "And he tried to hide from Kubra, but... he still found him anyway. So... yeah. There."
"Oh, Alex," Ashley had now pulled her into an embrace and Alex almost lost it right there. So she had to pull away, before she could do something she would regret. "Alex, you have to get out." Her eyes were pleading. Ashley looked so scared and Alex's heart broke because it was her own doing.
"Ash, I can't just leave."
"You can! Fuck, Alex, how am I going to live my life now knowing that...-" Ashley paused, unable to voice out what she was thinking because it would make everything much more terrifying. "Alex, Fahri was his right hand. And he didn't hesitate to kill him just because of one fucking mistake. Please, please if you really care about me, please fucking leave that cartel now."
Ashley was now crying and it was all Alex needed to finally lose it, too. "I can't. I'm sorry, Ashley. I really am."
.-.-.-.
Alex hadn't even gone to bed for about thirty minutes when she heard a knock on her door. Her heart started beating fast, knowing the only person who would visit her at this hour of the day. She looked at Ashley, peacefully sleeping beside her and got even more scared thinking of the kind of danger she had put her in.
Two weeks after Fahri died, two weeks of Ashley barely talking to and looking at her, Alex finally made up her mind. She was gonna tell Kubra that she was leaving the cartel and that she wanted to start a new life. Surely, he would understand, right?
So she told him, and surprisingly, Kubra let her. Alex wanted to think there was something off about him just letting her go, but she convinced herself into thinking that she had finally been let free and that she was already about to begin a new life with Ashley, a safe life, a good life. So she went home that day and delivered the news to Ashley, resulting into a long, hot, passionate sex and Alex was convinced she had made the right choice.
But looking at the time right now, the clock read 2:13am, maybe a safe, good life was just not meant for her.
She slowly made her way out of the bed, not wanting to wake Ashley up, and walked towards the door. She had to breathe deeply to be able to stop the shaking of her hands and her whole body, before she could open the door.
True enough, it was Aydin.
Alex's heart started beating faster, thinking of Ashley sleeping in the next room. She knew this wasn't a simple visit. Aydin never did simple visits. Aydin only did what Kubra told him every damn time. And Aydin was here to do just that.
"I heard you're leaving the cartel, Vause."
"Kubra let me."
Aydin shook his head, walking impossibly closer to Alex. "I actually liked you, you know. But that was when I thought you were smarter than that. Do you really think Kubra would just let anyone walk out of this?" Alex didn't speak, knowing full well that what Aydin just said was right. She fucking knew that. But she had to try. For Ashley, she had to. "Do you remember Fahri? Of course, you do. He was like your brother, right? Do you think Kubra didn't know that you were the reason he missed that flight? That he couldn't leave you when you were drowning yourself in alcohol because you wanted to forget that it was your mother's death anniversary that day?"
"Stop."
"Oh, but you need to know, Vause. You need to know that Kubra knew, that he always did, always do and always will. Wanna know why he didn't kill you instead? Because... he knew that seeing the one you care about die in front of you and having to live every day of the rest of your life knowing it was your fault, that's a better torture, that's a better punishment."
Alex kept shaking her head, trying to drown out everything Aydin was saying. But she couldn't. And she felt as if the walls were closing in on her, and all the guilt and blame she had for herself because of Fahri's death crushed on her all at once. She was about to say something else when she heard the voice of the last person she wanted to be in this house right now.
"Alex?"
She spun around so quickly she almost buckled down. There she was, the most beautiful person she had ever laid her eyes on, looking so confused and scared not knowing what was happening.
"No. No, you can't be here." Alex was about to walk towards her when she saw Ashley's eyes widen. She was looking at Aydin. So instinctively, she turned her back on Ashley and faced the guy who held her life right now and gasped when she saw him pointing his gun at her.
"I was just telling your girlfriend something," he was addressing Ashley now and Alex stood frozen, unable to do anything."Good thing you're here, because I really think you should hear this, too." Aydin faced Alex again, "He was waiting for you to say you were leaving, he badly wanted for that day to come. And now, it has. And that's why I'm here. To give you his parting gift."
"Please, don't do this." Alex was now crying, so scared for Ashley's life, so mad at herself for dragging the girl into this mess of a life she had. "Aydin, please."
"Sorry, Vause. Boss' orders. Turn around."
"No," she kept shaking her head, as if it was gonna change anything. "Please."
"Turn around or I'll shoot her."
Alex turned around much faster than she thought she ever could and what she saw made her knees weak. Ashley was sobbing uncontrollably, fear so evident in her eyes. She wanted to go closer to her, to wrap her in her arms and tell her that everything was gonna be okay... that this was just a nightmare they would wake up from in a while.
But it wasn't okay. This was real life and it was happening to her, to them, right now.
"Say goodbye to the cartel, Vause... And say goodbye to your girlfriend."
And before she could even move a muscle, three shots had been fired, the sound muffled by a silencer, with Ashley's body laying somewhat lifeless on her own pool of blood.
"Have a safe trip home." Alex heard the door click, Aydin's footsteps so far away from her and it was at that time that Alex felt her world collapse around her, and an animalistic scream she didn't even recognize as her own filled the hotel room. She ran towards Ashley and held her body in her arms, her whole life without the bunette flashing in front of her.
"No, please don't leave me. Ash, you gotta fight this, please."
Ashley tried to smile and it broke Alex's heart all the more because this time, she couldn't return the smile. Sorrow was all she had left, seeing life slowly leaving the woman she had ever allowed herself to love apart from her own mother. "Y-you'll be... okay..." Ashley tried to speak in between her breaths.
"No... no, Ash, you're all I have left. Ashley! Don't you fucking leave me!"
"I... I'm s-sorry... I should've... said it s-sooner..." Ashley breathed deeply, as if gathering one last breath so she could tell Alex what she should've said a long time ago. She tried lifting her arm, cupping Alex's face, wiping the tears that shot from her eyes with her thumb. "I... l-love you. I love you, Alex. I... I love-"
But before she could even say one last word, her arm had dropped and her eyes had closed, finally breathing her last breath.
And at that time, Alex Vause knew that life had left her, too.
And that she was gonna spend the rest of her life knowing that this was her fault, that she was the reason Ashley was gone.
And she felt her world shatter, she felt herself shatter from the ruinous pain she was feeling at that moment.
And that was the day Alex stopped living and just carried on by merely existing.
SHOUTOUTS:
maskedcolors, lmao yeah!
Marijn, Yeah, it was hard squeezing this into my time. Lol. It's really stressful! I'm taking up Accountancy. =) Oh, I'm glad you liked the last chapter. It was kind of rushed and unedited and I've made a lot of mistakes lmao. And here's Alex's story! I'm not yet sure if this is it or if I'm going to explore more of her backstory, I'll decide based on your reactions =) And Piper's will be coming soon, too. Oh, I was a bit disappointed with season 3. I mean, overall it was good but Vauseman-wise, it really sucked! I'm not going to say anything else or I'll have a one-page rant about it haha. How about you? What did you think of it? Love you, too, girl! Have a great time!
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