Chapter 11: Things happen when you least expect it

All she could do is wait with trepidation as she stared at the motionless body of her lover. Despite Unohana's reassurance, Soi Fong still showed no sign of life. She knew she shouldn't have taken Unohana's advice and went home. Something bad always happen when she isn't around. Just like Mabashi's attack.

---Flashback---

"Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep, beeeeeeep"

The alarm above Soi Fong's head went off, its light flashing as her heart rate flat-lined. Unohana rushed into the room and begin resuscitation. Soi Fong went into spasm just seconds before her heart gave way.

"What happened?"

"She went into spasm just before crashing."

"I see. Prep the crash cart and get me the paddles."

"Charge to 100. Clear?"

"Clear"

She placed the paddles at the two sides of the heart and released the charge.

"She is not responding. Charge to 200. Clear?"

"Clear"

She released the charge again.

In the midst of chaos, Yoruichi arrived on the scene.

"What the hell is going on?! Soi! You have to let me in. I NEED to see her!!"

She yelled trying to bust her way into the ward while being restrained by two male members of the fourth squad.

"Shihouin-sama, all you can do now is wait while Unohana taichou does what she does best."

Hearing that, all the fight went out of Yoruichi and she sinks into the chair nearby.

---End of flashback---

Soi , you can't die. Not after all that we have been through. You remember the coffee cup with the lipstick stain? I haven't told you that I finally got it. I finally got why you blushed when I drank from your cup all those years ago. Soi, please don't leave me. There are so many things I have yet to tell you. Like how much u mean to me. And how much I need you.

"Yoruichi-dono"

"Unohana-taichou! How is she?! How is Soi?! Is she okay? Why did she crash all of a sudden?! I thought you said she was stable yesterday and that she could be discharged soon?!"

"She is stable for now. It seems like there is a second layer to the poison which the poison from Suzumebachi did not manage to fully counter. It is a slow moving poison. Seems like the intent is for the victim to assume that they are out of the woods before taking effect and killing them in an instant. But luckily for us, Suzumebachi's poison seems to have weakened the effect considerably. The only reason why she crashed was because her body is too weak to handle even the weakest poison. But she is healing very nicely and will be back to full strength in 2 weeks."

"I see. Thank you for your help Unohana-san."

"Take care of yourself Yoruichi-san"

"I will"

Soi… Yoruichi looked at the unmoving person lying on the bed in front of her. What happened? Why did you not wait for me to return before setting off to face Mabashi. Do you know how terrible I felt when I saw you lying there, in the middle of the square, barely breathing. It was as though I couldn't breathe too. All I could think of was that if you're dead, I don't want to live anymore. After being together for this long, you still don't know the impact your actions could have on me, do you? Even before we became lovers, you're my world. Every time you send that smile of yours my way, the looks you snuck, the way you'll blush ever so adorably whenever I lavish my attention on you. All these little things make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time. When you spend too much time in the company of another, flash them that smile of yours, there is this urge in me to go up to you and drag you away or declare my feelings for you, the crowd be damned. But no, I have to do what I do best. I walk away. I shut my eyes and walk away, with the image of you talking and laughing to another burned into my brain. It's the same. The same helplessness I felt when I walk away, the very helplessness I feel now as I sit here and watch as you lie on the bed. All I could do is watch and not do anything to help you. I don't think I've ever told you this, but when you made me the happiest person on earth when you said you'd be with me. Leaving you was something I told myself I would never do; I was content with watching you from afar. Yet, I did. I left. I broke you. But you, you forgave me. Your heart is so big and it accepted me and all my flaws. It is always about what you did for me and not what I could do for you. I want to do something for you yet I can't do anything to help you at all. Soi…please. Don't leave me. I don't know what I will be if you leave…

AN: a little angsty on the side, a little short and a lot late in uploading. hope all of you had an enjoyable vday! =)

-If only you can read this and infer all that I want to say but don't have the guts to. Then, maybe, you can tell me what to do..-