A/N:
And I'm back! Thank you for your responses last chapter I was so overwhelmed! You people are the best I want to hug all of you right now. Again, thank you so much! For the favourites and follows and reviews. You're all mamazing!
So anyway, I'm not sure how you'd find this chapter. As for me, I don't know if I'm happy about it or not. I'm pretty sure though that it's not my best chapter and I apologize for that. I decided to finally tell Piper's story but it's not in the same way I did for Alex and I'm not sure if that's a good idea or not. So please, please tell me what you think. And if there are certain things that aren't as clear as I should've made them to be, please don't hesitate to ask me about it.
Again, I'm sorry for any mistakes. They're all mine. What aren't mine are the characters and it sucks, but that's life, right? Haha.
9
When Piper heard the door close, she'd finally let out the scream she'd been holding ever since she woke up from her terrible nightmare, hoping all the pain that was seeping through every fiber of her being would go with that scream and finally leave her body. But it didn't help. Right now, nothing did. Because the one person who had ever been there for Piper at times like these was gone. And it was Piper who pushed her away.
Growing up into a privileged family, one would think Piper would have whatever it was that she wanted whenever she wanted to. But in all her life, she didn't really ask for anything much. All she really wanted was somebody to love and somebody who would love her back. All she ever needed was to feel that the people she cared for more than her own life cared for her the same way, that they would find her worthy enough for that. But she didn't get any of those, not even from her own family.
That was until Alex Vause came along.
Alex cared for her. She paid attention to her. She protected her. And even though none of those came close to how Piper felt for her, it was more than any other person in her life before Alex had given her. After everything that Alex went through, her own father abandoning her, her mother dying at a young age, her girlfriend dying in front of her, Piper should've understood if Alex didn't love her back.
Because Alex had so little love left to give.
Yet, she gave Piper more than what she really deserved from someone who didn't even need to give her the time of day. But Piper made her leave. All because of her fear that one day, Alex might realize that she was just wasting her time with her. All because of her selfish need to be loved back the way she wanted to. All because Piper needed more, when what Alex gave her was already more than what she could give.
And now, all of these just felt so wrong, so out of place. Because Alex didn't have to go. Because she was supposed to be here with Piper. Because Piper shouldn't ask for anything more.
"Alex..."
Piper sobbed into the silence of the room, hoping that it would bring Alex back, that Piper could bring time back.
"Alex..."
Piper then stood, a little more frantically, slowly coming into realization that she might have just pushed away the person she loved more than anybody in this world, for good.
"Alex!"
She was now running, silently hoping that there was still time to take it all back. That she wasn't too late, that Alex was still there.
"Alex!"
Piper opened the door, about to chase her only chance to a life worth living, when she looked to her side and saw the woman who had made all the wonderful difference in her fucked up of a life. Alex was sitting on the floor with her head leaning against the wall of Piper's apartment, her arms hugging her knees, looking at Piper with red, puffy eyes, a mixture of relief and regret and apologies etched on her goddamned beautiful face.
"Alex..." Piper whispered, her shoulders sagging at the sight of Alex, her chest tightening at everything that was happening. She was too relieved and too sad and too hurt all at the same time and she felt her knees almost give up on her at the intensity of all those emotions rushing through her all at once.
"I'm sorry, Piper," Alex mumbled, her voice thick with unshed tears. "I tried. I really did. But I can't—I can't leave you," she added, shaking her head, as if it was the biggest mistake she had ever done her entire life.
Piper shook her head, too, tears still streaming down her face. "I don't want you to go," Piper's voice sounded so child-like she sounded as if she was begging for Alex to stay. She slowly walked towards her, afraid that if she walked a little faster, Alex would run away. She then slumped down beside her, stretched her legs in front of her and looked straight up, unable to look at Alex like this. "Alex..." Piper whispered, uncertainty evident in her voice.
"I'm sorry," said Alex with her voice sounding so broken.
"No," Piper shook her head profusely. She looked at Alex for a second before looking away again. "I'm sorry. I just—"
"Pipes." Both of them found it so hard to say anything else apart from each other's name, hoping that that one word, that name coming out of their lips was enough to tell the other what they wanted to say. But they both knew that it was never going to be enough.
So Alex did the one thing she thought she was better at than anything else. She pulled Piper's face to hers, and kissed her. All the apologies she wanted to ask for, the pleadings she wanted to say, every emotion she had at that moment were all balled together in one deep but tender kiss with a quiet hope that maybe it would be better than any other words could ever do.
When they pulled apart, Alex pressed her forehead against Piper's and they both just closed their eyes, not caring that they were both slumped down on the floor, two broken people that had the potential of breaking each other a lot more than they already were. They needed each other, even if it was for some fucked up reasons.
And they'd accepted that now.
"Tell me what happened. Please," whispered Alex, her face still inches from Piper, her left hand enveloping Piper's, while her other hand was gently cupping the blonde's jaw.
Piper knew Alex was only asking about tonight. But she wanted to tell her everything. She'd been holding out for too long but she needed to make Alex understand now. Maybe that was everything Piper needed for Alex to want to stay, no matter what the world would throw at them.
"My parents are fucked up. My mother is a fucking WASP who didn't care about anything but her status in a society she thinks she needs to be perfect for. My Dad is a distant alcoholic cheater who cared more about pleasing his girlfriends than his own family. They fought a lot, they probably still do. I wouldn't know coz I haven't spoken to them in years. I grew up thinking that yelling among parents was normal because that was all they ever did. They would throw things at each other without even caring if they'd hit someone else. That's how much they hated,"she paused only to correct herself, "...hate each other."
Piper shook her head at how pathetic her parents were, and how even more pathetic she was for wanting to have their attention so badly. She was facing Alex but she couldn't bring herself to look her in the eye, because she was afraid she'd see judgment in them, even if it was the last thing she knew Alex would give her.
"But they wouldn't fucking leave each other. And I, being this stupid, naive young girl, thought that no matter how much they would fight, at the end of the day they would still end up on the same bed because they still loved each other. And that it was the reason they still stayed together. Turned out they were just two pretentious members of a society that would judge you based on your marital status or whatever those hell of a people thought."
"Hey..." Alex said as she rubbed Piper's back. She could see the anger building up on Piper's eyes, laced with so much hurt, and she wanted to stop it. But she couldn't, because Piper was too far gone in the memories of her parents who now seemed to have turned her into the person she was now.
"Alex, I did everything for them. I tried to be this perfect daughter, doing everything they asked me to, doing everything I thought would make them happy. I was good at school, I made friends with everyone. I didn't give a fuck about whatever it was that I wanted because all I was aiming for was to do what they wanted. All I ever asked for in return was a little bit of attention from them, just a small amount of proof that they loved me despite their imperfections as a couple, as human beings. But they were too selfish to be able to give that to me, or to anyone for that matter."
Tears dropped one by one from Piper's eyes and she wiped them angrily, mad that her parents still made her feel this way. No matter how far she had ran from them, they still affected her and she hated it. They were supposed to be out of her life now. So why were they still affecting her in ways she wasn't capable of stopping?
"I have two brothers, Danny and Cal. We were all there for each other. Whenever our parents would start fighting again, we would all lock ourselves in one room and Danny would distract me and Cal, making stupid jokes or anything, just so we wouldn't pay attention to the yelling and things getting broken outside the room. Sometimes, he would just be there and would keep telling us how everything was going to be okay. I knew it wasn't. But I still believed him, anyway."
-o-o-o-
Piper was nine years old. She had shut herself inside her room and then brutally pressed her hands over her ears, wanting to drown out the noises from outside. Her parents were, as usual, yelling at each other again. She didn't even know the reason anymore. All she could recall was her father getting home drunk and then two minutes later she was in her room, sitting against the wall, her knees up to her chin, her eyes shut tightly, hands over her ears.
Tears were streaming down her face as she tried thinking of anything just to tune out all the "fuck you's" and "I hate you's" and "bitches" and "assholes." She tried to think of something happy, but she came up empty.
Her brothers were with her at the time, Danny on her right and Cal on her left. Cal was too young to know what was going on and Danny had her arm over Piper's shoulder, trying to calm her down. He'd been experiencing this the longest so he had learned to stop caring about their parents.
"It's okay, Piper. It's okay," he kept telling Piper, rubbing her arm up and down.
But Piper knew it wasn't okay. It never was. But that didn't stop her from hoping that maybe one day it would be.
Suddenly, she heard a slamming of the door and soon enough, everything was quiet. She didn't know who gave up first, she didn't know who walked away. All she knew was that she was fucking scared and she just wanted all of this to stop. But she also knew that probably this time again tomorrow night, she would be in the same position, having the same experience, crying until her parents would decide to hit pause and continue again the next day.
All the fucking time.
-o-o-o-
Piper smiled sadly as she fiddled with her fingers. She could feel Alex's eyes on her but she still could not dare to look at them. So instead, she kept her gaze fixated on her hands as if they were the most interesting things in the world.
"I was 14. My parents were out at a charity event. I was about to go inside my room when I saw Danny inside his, packing. I didn't know what was going on, all I could see was that he had a luggage and he was putting everything he owned in there. Then I asked him what he was doing and he would just ignore me until Cal came in and asked Danny the same thing. That's when he said that he was leaving for a few days... that he was just going to be at his friend's house for a while and that he'd be back. So we let him go, and Cal and I waited for days. Until days turned into weeks and he was still gone. But we still waited. I waited. Because I knew that he was never going to abandon us. But he never came back. That one person who I thought cared enough to stay, he left."
Piper then shook her head, laughing humourlessly at her pathetic young self, begging for love from people who didn't give a fucking damn.
-o-o-o-
Piper was 14 years old when her older brother, Danny, decided to leave.
Her parents were out, they had to attend some yuppie cocktail party, a charity event only the most elite people in town were invited to. Honestly, she despised these events full of pretentious and WASPy people trying to act as if everything about them was perfect when it couldn't be farther from the truth. Take her parents for instance. People think they were this perfect couple with three perfect children when they were actually the most fucked up human beings Piper had ever seen.
"What are you doing?" she asked her brother when she saw him packing his things.
"It's none of your business. Just go back to your damn room."
Piper ignored him and asked another question. "Are you leaving?" Danny remained quiet, still scrambling to put his things inside his bag. He looked as if he was in a hurry. "Danny!" Piper decided to finally grab his brother's arm to get his attention.
"What?!" Danny yelled back angrily as he pulled his arm away from Piper.
"Where are you going? Why are you packing your things?" Piper's eyes were wide open, she was frantic and panicked at the thought of her brother leaving. He and Cal were all she had, Piper had stopped caring about her parents but she and her brothers were supposed to be a team. And teams didn't just leave each other.
Suddenly, Cal was at the door, looking at them confused. Piper wanted to take Cal away from there but she was afraid to leave the room and go back there only to find out that Danny was gone.
"Danny," Piper said, and it sounded almost like a pleading whisper, she looked at her older brother, silently asking him to stay.
Danny hesitated, looking back and forth from Piper and Cal. "I'll be back, okay? I'll just stay at my friend's for a while." Piper looked at him more intently, trying to decide whether he was telling the truth or not. "I promise," Danny added, squeezing Piper's arm, before he rushed out of the door.
Piper was left inside the room, looking as her brother walked away, aware of the way Cal was studying her reaction, waiting for any sign that everything was okay and that their brother was indeed coming back. So Piper looked at him and forced herself to smile. "He's coming back, Cal. Come on, let's go get some food," Piper assured him as he walked him out of the door, unaware that it was going to be the last time they would be in one place with their older brother.
-o-o-o-
"But life had to go on, right? So it did. It was just Cal and I by then, and I had to become Danny for him. Truthfully, that's when I was supposed to understand Danny for leaving... for giving up on our family. Because I found out how damn hard it was to become the person being relied on. For a while, I was fine, I thought I could do it. But then it just got so exhausting, you know? Having to calm Cal down whenever my parents would come close to killing each other again. Having to take care of my alcoholic father whenever my mom would just leave him like a piece of trash every time he was too drunk to function. Having to become the daughter my mom needed me to be just so she can parade me to her so-called friends. It was such a shitty, fucking life."
The anger that came with every word Piper said was becoming more and more apparent the longer Alex listened to her. It was obvious how much hatred Piper was carrying and it was ironic because it was loving too fucking much that had resulted into that. And at that moment, Alex wanted nothing but to meet those people who had turned Piper into this bitter, angry, disconnected person that she was and tell them how much they screwed Piper up. She wanted to yell at them and make them see how they had made Piper consciously build a wall around her for so many years to keep people away, how they had made her think that she wasn't someone worthy enough to be loved.
At that point, Alex hated them.
But she hated herself even more... because she was the one who made Piper remember all of that again.
-o-o-o-
Piper was 17 years old and her parents were fighting again.
It had been going on for so many years that she stopped asking why they kept fighting or when it would ever stop. The only question she kept asking herself now was why they were still together. They seemed to hate each other so much so why couldn't they just leave each other and leave her and Cal in peace?
She heard another crash and she was pretty sure her parents have moved to that phase where they would throw anything they could get a hold of to each other. She didn't flinch anymore. Her body stayed as it was, unmoving and curled up. She had managed to shut all her emotions when it came to her parents fighting. She had managed to shut her emotions, period.
When Danny left, she spent most of her days waiting for him to come back. It didn't bother her yet when it had been three days and he still had not returned. He was probably still with his friends and with the way their parents were, she couldn't really blame him if he wanted to stay out of their house for a while. If not for Cal, she would've probably done the same, leave the house for days and then come back whenever she wanted to. But Cal needed her. So she still stayed.
One week passed and Danny had not yet returned. Cal had been asking for him non-stop. With the constant physical and emotional absence of their own father, Danny had become like the father to him. Piper didn't know what else to say other than "He's going to be back," all the while wondering if he indeed was.
One month since Danny had left and Piper had given up of him coming back. She was furious. Furious at Danny for leaving and for promising that he was coming back, furious at her parents for not even caring ("He's a grown up, he'll be back when he realizes he can't live without our money."), furious at herself for wasting weeks of her life waiting for someone to come back even though she knew that he had abandoned them for good.
And without ever admitting it to herself, Piper had grown devastatingly furious at this world that was cruel enough to make her suffer just because she learned to love too much.
-o-o-o-
"That's when I decided to leave. When I realized that Danny wasn't coming back, I thought, 'Why could he do it and I couldn't?' I had every right to give up, too. So I did leave. I had to get three jobs just so I could go to college. But for a while, I felt better than I ever did. I thought if my own parents wouldn't love me, maybe other people would. How fucking wrong was I?" Piper laughed humourlessly.
For a second, Alex felt guilt wash through her because that felt like a jab at her. It was like Piper was accusing her indirectly for what just happened to them a while ago. And out of instinct, she squeezed Piper's hand tighter, silently asking for another apology. Like that would change anything.
"I met him during college. His name was Larry."
Piper continued with her narration and it was like she wasn't even talking to anyone anymore. She was just straight up recalling things, wondering what had gotten her here. She wasn't just trying to make Alex understand anymore. She was making herself understand.
"I know, what a fucking name, right? But yeah, I met him and I was stupid enough to think that he was finally who I have been waiting for my whole life. For a while, I thought I was right. He was the perfect boyfriend. But then again, life's shitty and life hates me so he ended up cheating on me with the person I thought was my best friend," Piper breathed deeply before exhaling tiredly.
"But you know what the worst part was when I found out about that? It was the fact that I didn't feel the pain that a normal person was supposed to feel. It was knowing that the only bad thing I got out of that was realizing I had become so fucked up that I couldn't feel anything anymore. I thought I just learned to block out the terrible things that I'd experienced before. Turned out I actually blocked out everything entirely."
The tears that Piper had managed to stop for a while started flowing again and this time she made no move to stop them.
"I moved away from my own family because I wanted to start a life without them. I wanted to know what kind of life I would have if they weren't a part of it. I thought I was fine... that it was the right decision to leave. And that the only thing I regretted was not leaving with Cal. But after that thing with Larry, I realized I didn't regret leaving Cal at all. I realized that the moment I knew Danny wasn't coming back, that's when I learned to stop caring. It was when I stopped hoping that my parents would learn to be humans enough to love their own children. And I think that's what truly broke me."
And finally, she looked at Alex, looked her straight in the eyes and wanted to let her see through her... wanted to let her know how truly broken she was and how desperately she needed Alex to fix her back up. She knew it was unfair to the older woman because she wasn't her burden to carry. But Piper was goddamned exhausted and she just wanted to feel normal again, whatever normal meant these days.
"Oh, Pipes." Alex pulled Piper in her arms and hugged her so tightly they could barely breathe.
"Alex," Piper sobbed as she burrowed her face in Alex's neck, "...why couldn't my own parents love me?" She tried to stop herself from crying, but that truth that she had pushed so deeply just so it couldn't hurt her was hitting at her like some unstoppable force she couldn't fight. All those years she chose to stop caring, all those times she's made herself believe that she didn't need their love anymore, they had all come crashing on her right now it made it hard to breathe.
So she clutched at Alex's shirt tightly, trying to hold on as if it was the only thing that could keep her sane right now. And then as if her pain wasn't enough, a torturous thought crossed her mind, "Why can't you love me?" she silently asked Alex and it hit her hard because that hurt so much more.
And as if reading Piper's previous thoughts, "I'm here. I won't ever leave you. I promise," Alex whispered, her urge to protect Piper from the cruelty of this world, something she was also very much well aware of, became stronger at every sob Piper would try to choke back. And as she had her arms wrapped around Piper's, a sudden realization hit her and there was no way she would still refuse to accept it. "Piper... I love you," she said so softly she wasn't even sure if Piper had heard her. But she felt her tense and she knew right then that Piper had heard every word. So she said it again, this time with a little bit more conviction. "I love you, too."
Piper had to disentangle herself from Alex, shaking her head in the process. The thing that Alex said should've made her feel better. It's what she wanted to hear, right? It's the reason why they were here in the first place. But instead, it hurt her even more, knowing Alex was only saying those words not because she meant it, but because she thought she needed to. "A-Al, don't... You don't have to tell me that just so I'd feel better. It's okay. I understand." And in her mind, she thought, "You're just making me feel worse."
But Alex shook her head as she brought her hands to Piper's face and held it in place so the blonde would have no choice but to look at her. "No, Piper. I mean it."
Piper did look back at Alex and she was surprised to notice the sincerity in Alex's eyes. She wanted to believe her, really. To think that Alex loved her back was making her heart beat so rapidly in her chest but she wouldn't let herself pretend because she knew that it was just gonna ruin her even more. Alex didn't love her. She loved Ashley. And that was the truth that Piper needed to believe in.
"Alex, I heard you."
"What?"
"I came by your house today. And I heard you talking to Nicky. I heard what you said about..." Piper swallowed, unable to even just say Ashley's name. But just one look at Alex and Piper knew she understood. So she let her sentence hang until Alex spoke, confusion apparent in her eyes.
"What did you hear?"
Piper sighed and almost rolled her eyes. "Are you really going to make me say it again?"
"Pipes, please. I just... I need to know what you heard," Alex pleaded as she brushed back Piper's hair that was almost falling on her face. She then caressed Piper's jaw with her thumb while she waited for her to answer her question. She could feel the blonde's body tensing but as much as she hated it, she needed to know what she heard.
"Y-you said that you're not capable of that kind of love again," Piper almost mumbled her words, because voicing them out felt like a knife was being twisted in her chest. She then looked away, not wanting Alex to see how much pain she was feeling at the moment.
"And?"
"And then I ran away," she paused. "Did I not hear you right?" For one split second, Piper hoped that she heard Alex wrong, that it was not really what she said.
"You did."
And at that moment, Piper felt her whole world crash right at her, again. There was in no way now that Alex was going to learn to love her the same way Piper felt for her. And maybe she did tell herself that it was okay, that she was going to accept that if only it meant Alex was going to stay with her. But that didn't remove the fact that it hurt like hell.
But then Alex continued and it rendered Piper speechless.
"I'm not capable of that kid of love again, because I've already learned my lesson. With Ashley," Alex paused, inhaling deeply.
Saying Ashley's name out loud always felt like a punch in Alex's gut. It had become so much like a curse that meant to shred her apart every time she said it. That's why she avoided saying it as much as she could. But right now, she didn't really care anymore. Right now, it was all about Piper and how much she was hurting because of her. So she continued.
"...with Ashley, it was all about what I wanted. I wanted her to be with me, so I asked her to move her life for me. I wanted her to stay by my side, so I never told her what I did for a living. She wanted me out of the cartel, I wanted to stay, so I stayed. And look... look where it got her." Alex stopped again, her breathing starting to feel shallow being reminded of all of it again.
Piper could see how difficult this was to Alex. And like an instinct, she held Alex close. It had become a reflex, not only for Piper but for Alex, too, to soothe each other through body language every time they could sense each other's uneasiness or pain. And right now, that's what Piper did. "Alex, you don't have to—"
"No, Piper, you have to understand. The kind of love I had for Ashley was a selfish one... and I can't have that again." Alex shook her head as she brought her and Piper's foreheads together. "So yeah, you heard me right," she whispered, feeling Piper's hot breath on her. "But that didn't mean I can't fall in love again. Coz I already have... with you," Alex had her eyes closed so she couldn't see the tears that were again starting to form on Piper's eyes.
By the time she opened her eyes, she pulled away from Piper just enough for her to be able to look her in her beautiful cerulean blue eyes. "I love you, Piper. And I'm not just saying this because I think it's what you need to hear. I'm telling you I love you because I do... so fucking much that it scares me... which is also the reason why I haven't said it back earlier. But... But I am so done running away. You and me, we've gone through so much shit before. We're both fucked up and we know that. But we're also inevitable. And I know that whatever the hell happened, or is happening or will happen in the future, we can keep hiding from everything. But this, us," Alex pointed at her and Piper, "...this is never going away, because I won't let it. I'm not going to fuck this up. I love you, Piper. And I want to be with you." She paused again, as she studied Piper's face. "So... will you let me?"
At that moment, Piper felt like thanking whoever was responsible up there for every fucked up thing that has ever happened in her life. She wanted to celebrate them because those things, those were what led her to this, to the now. And that was with Alex. The person who had made her relearn how to love. The person who had made her feel the only thing she's ever asked for all her life. The person who had just admitted to her that she felt the same way she felt for her.
And finally through her tears, Piper smiled as she slowly nodded her head. "Yes... Alex, I love you." She then pulled Alex through her shirt and kissed her senseless, those three beautiful words coming out from both of their lips all the while. "I love you so much."
There were a lot of things left unresolved, a lot of things that needed to be dealt with.
But Piper Chapman was crazily and utterly in-love with Alex Vause.
And Alex Vause deeply and completely loved Piper Chapman back.
And right now, that was all that really mattered.
SHOUTOUTS:
izzielg, Wow, thank you for having faith in me. That's not pressuring at all. Haha! Kidding. =)) Anyway, thank you for your review. That's really sweet, I'm blushing :" And I'm sorry I don't update fast, I hope that's okay.
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helen, Thank you! I brought them back together as soon as this chapter and hopefully I can justify as to why in the future if I haven't accomplished that in this one. Thanks again for that review, it's wonderful. =)
Budda1127, Wow, thank you for that review! It's very detailed and I love detailed reviews, it helps me in my writing. =) There's no Nicky in this chapter but she will be vital in Alex and Piper's relationship in the future. I hope this chapter is okay. Until next time! =)
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huggerguest, Wow, thank you for that mini-review for chapter 7! Haha. I'm glad it made you feel that way =))) Thanks for your amazing review, it made my heart melt knowing that's what you think of it. It really means a lot so thank you very much! And don't worry, your English is very good! And English is also not my first language so I think we're all allowed mistakes here. There's no problem, really. =)
Vausemaniac, That's a really great review, thank you! I didn't let them stay 'broken up' for good even though technically they're not really together 'together' so hopefully that's okay with you. Thank you again for your review. =))
Marijn, Hi! I agree, girl, Vauseman is too cute and thank you you thought so at the start of the previous chapter. Your review is amazing, I don't even know what to say to that except agree to everything! Lol. There are certain things I would like to reply to your review but I don't know if I should because then I wouldn be 'spoiling' lol so maybe I'll just shut up. Haha! I'm not very happy with how this chapter turned out I hope you're not that disappointed as I am =( Til next time, girl!
Guest (OMG IM IN PAIN), OMG I'M SO SORRY =(
Joey2920, Hm, I guess that's a good thing? Haha. I'm sorry I made you teary-eyed but I was aiming for that, haha, just kidding! Yes, and in this chapter they did! Hopefully, this chapter was okay. Thank you for your review!
elliellie1, Heyyy, I got them back together! Do I get brownie points? Haha! Anyway, thank you for your review. You're amazing as always. =)
jo michael, I'm sorry I broke your heart! But hopefully, this chapter somehow made up for that? Haha. I am having an amazing time so far, thank you. How about you? How's life treating you? =) Yeah, maybe you should start creating an account so we can communicate through DM and be able to talk more haha. Thank you for your review and hopefully you're not too disappointed with this chapter. Until next time!
g4gusgrisam, Wow, hi new reader! I'm glad you're liking my story so far. Thank you for that wonderful review. And I'm sorry for making you feel pain by reading this story. But that's a good thing for me, right? Haha. Again, thank you very much!
GabixM98, Aww, thank you! You're amazing, too!
ManveerlovesVauseman, Hi, thank you for that review! And wish granted, they're still together! =) I'm glad you liked me putting in one of the songs in Vauseman's playlist here. I love You Wouldn't Like Me, haha.