Oh-Kay…here it is…please note the change in rating…I wasn't sure where this chapter would fall on that scale so I just wanted to be safe…although it is not explicit, it can be rather descriptive at times. I really hope I was able to pull off what I set out to accomplish with this one…there is still plenty more to come so I hope you continue to enjoy and read. Thanks again for allowing me to share this with you all….so without further ado…on with the show….
Chapter 19-Come Undone
With no visor to protect her from the chilly wind that blew against her face, Jane had no doubt it was the cause of the tears that were spilling from her eyes. Angrily she wiped at the moisture that ran down her cheeks as she tried to focus on the slick road ahead of her. Even though the air around her was cold, her skin felt hot as she used the back of her hand to try to push aside the wetness that was blurring her vision ever so slightly.
Anger, fear, and anxiety raced through her veins causing her to shake as she gripped the handle bars tighter. She knew she needed to calm down, so when she came to the next red light, she let her legs out to balance the bike as she took a few deep breaths. Even though she was cocooned within her father's leather jacket, her legs were bare and exposed to the frigid night air but it barely registered in her mind.
As she sat, waiting for the light to turn green, she twisted the throttle causing the engine to roar loudly beneath her. It was an exhilarating feeling that gave her some of her courage back as she thought about what awaited her at her destination. Her mind wandered to the image of Maura standing in the hallway, the look of pure heartache and anguish on her face before she walked away. It wasn't until Jane saw the street light turning green in the reflection of the dark, wet road in front of her that she opened the throttle and roared down the road at an almost reckless speed.
As Jane crested the final hill, her heart began to race when she saw Maura's car parked at the bottom in front of her house. Braking hard, the bike shuttered and skidded slightly under her as she killed the engine. Jane decided to push the bike the last few yards, not wanting to give away her arrival. For some reason she believed that the element of surprise was her only choice at this point. She was afraid that Maura would shut her down before she could even get to the door, let alone give an explanation.
Stopping next to Maura's car, Jane slipped the kickstand down and allowed the bike to rest at a slight lean. She stood a few feet away from the porch, trying to decide what to do next. The thought had occurred to her that Maura might not open the door if she knocked. It would also take away that element of surprise she was going for. Jane took a few steps back so she could look up at the window she had climbed through on Thanksgiving. It was dark and she began to wonder if maybe Maura wasn't home. It only took a few moments for her to notice the flicker of light that briefly illuminated the room. It was the confirmation that Maura was indeed home. With a nod of her head, Jane made her final decision as she stepped away from the porch and front door.
Climbing up the side drain pipe had been a lot easier the first time she had done it, but that first time she had been wearing jeans and tennis shoes, not a cocktail dress and motorcycle boots. As she struggled to pull herself up, her boots kept slipping and the weight of the leather jacket began to pull her down.
"Shit, this was a lot easier the last time I did it." Jane grumbled as she slipped back down to the ground. Kicking her boots off, she tossed them onto the porch followed by the jacket which landed in a heap next to the scattered boots. With a frustrated sigh, she turned her attention back to the task at hand.
As she worked her way up towards Maura's window, she had the sudden thought that the alarm might be on. Her mind raced as she tried to decide if she should continue and chance it or just give up and knock on the front door. When she saw the brief flicker of light in the window again she realized that Maura was probably still in her room and with a renewed determination, she continued to climb. She recognized that at this point she didn't care if she set off all the alarms in the neighborhood, all she cared about was getting to Maura and making things right.
Jane's eyes widened as she approached the window, seeing that it was open just the slightest bit. She knew that it was an invitation, but she couldn't quell the uneasy feeling of what waited for her on the other side. Gently and as quietly as she could manage, she pushed it up just enough so she could slip through. As she climbed over the desk that was in front of the window, it took a moment for her eyes to adjust in the dim light of Maura's room. She could see the disarray of Maura's pants and jacket lying across her bed as if they had been thoughtlessly thrown there. The sight before Jane was out of character for Maura causing a jolt of dread to clench at her stomach. The idea that Maura had been upset enough to throw her clothes across the room had Jane rooted to the spot in front of the desk.
Taking a deep breath, Jane let her eyes sweep over the rest of the room and realized that the flicker she had seen from below was the single candle that was sitting on the night stand next to Maura's bed. The flame danced around, giving the dark room an eerie appearance in its orange and yellow glow. As Jane watched the movement of light play across the floor and bed, the bathroom door opened and Maura stepped into the doorway.
"I'd appreciate it if you'd close the window, its cold outside." Maura voice was devoid of any emotion.
Jane stood frozen, afraid to move as if it might disturb the air around her, giving away her location incase Maura hadn't seen her yet. She had to stifle the gasp that threatened to escape her mouth as her eyes took in the silhouette of Maura's barely clothed form that blocked the bathroom light. Maura's face was shrouded in shadow, but the light illuminated behind her casting an outline that almost reached Jane where she stood. Jane could see that Maura was holding something in her hand, but she couldn't make out what it was. What she could make out were Maura's bare legs and the unbuttoned oxford shirt, the sleeves rolled halfway up Maura's arms. Without really feeling herself move, Jane turned around to close the window behind her before turning back to the silhouette that was now casually leaning against the doorframe.
Leaning heavily against the doorframe, Maura griped the champagne bottle she was holding tighter as the condensation slipped through her fingers. She could see Jane standing with her back against the desk she was now using to hold herself up. Maura wondered if Jane's legs were as shaky as hers were.
"You left the window open…" Jane tried to explain as if she had to defend the fact that she had climbed through it.
"I knew you'd come…" Maura sighed allowing the hurt she was still feeling to echo in her soft voice. "But I thought you should work for it…" Her mouth held the hint of a sad smile as she nodded towards the now closed window.
"Maura…please…" Jane pleaded as she grabbed the desk behind her for support. She stopped speaking when Maura stepped away from the bathroom door, allowing the light to fully enter stopping just short of where she was standing. With wide eyes, she took in Maura's figure as she moved to the night stand where the candle sat. The soft light flickered across the supple curves of Maura's body causing Jane's mouth to go dry. With a quick intake of breath Jane felt her world tilt slightly at the sight of Maura in nothing more than her shirt and underwear. Her mind hadn't registered what she had seen earlier when Maura stood in the bathroom doorway, but now Jane couldn't control the shiver that ran through her body as Maura turned slightly towards her revealing the outline of a full breast beneath the white unbuttoned shirt. It was enough of a glimpse to rock Jane to her core.
Maura set the champagne bottle down and for a brief moment, allowed her fingers to linger over the cold neck of the bottle. In her other hand she held a glass that was half-filled with a clear, bubbly liquid. With a slight movement from her wrist, she swirled it around the rim causing the bubbles to break away from each other and rise to the top of the glass. Thoughtfully she watched as the bubbles broke on the surface before bringing the glass to her lips and tilting her head back to drink it in one swallow. With a sigh, she placed the empty glass next to the bottle before turning her attention back to a now speechless Jane. Even in the dim light of her room, Maura could see the look of desire on Jane's face. Her mind and body began a war of the wills as she tried to decide what she wanted to do next.
Jane could tell that Maura was fighting an internal battle. Recognizing the contemplative look that she knew so well, her mind raced to find a way to convince Maura to listen to her. She knew that if she didn't do something soon, Maura's brain would talk her out of whatever it was she might do next.
"Maura…what you saw…" Jane struggled to speak. "It wasn't what you thought…" Maura's sudden movement had Jane stopping mid-sentence, her eyes going wide.
"What do you think I saw Jane?" Maura asked as she slowly stalked across the room like she was a predator and Jane was the prey.
"I know what you saw, but…" Jane was now struggling to breathe at the sight of Maura approaching her. With each measured step, Jane could feel her heart beating faster. There was something different about the way Maura moved towards her, it held a purpose, a confidence that Jane had never seen before. "What you saw Maura…was Casey taking advantage of my…distraction." She tried to explain.
"Am I just a distraction to you Jane?" Maura's voice was husky as she moved closer before stopping just a few feet from Jane. She tilted her head to the side, regarding Jane quietly as if the answer would come to her at any moment.
"No Maura, you're everything to me. Can't you see that? I'm sorry you thought I'd do anything like that to you…I wouldn't…ever…" Jane was breathless with need as she felt Maura's body heat reach out to her, warming her skin.
"You know it took me about half the drive home to realize that…" Maura paused as she tried to find the words to express what she was feeling. "But Jane, when I saw him…touching you the way I wanted to be touching you…I felt something wash over me, something I've never felt before." The distance between them shrank as Maura took another step closer. "Jealousy is a dangerous emotion; it causes the heart rate to elevate and blood pressure to rise..." She paused as her eyes raked over Jane's body feeling both all of a sudden but for another reason. "I saw red…I knew I needed to get out of there before I did something…we'd both regret."
It took every bit of control for Jane to not grab Maura in her arms, but something told her Maura needed to finish. She bit back a groan as Maura stepped closer still, the movement causing the white oxford shirt to open just enough to reveal the soft, smooth skin of Maura's stomach. The palms of Jane's hands twitched with the desire to touch. It caused her to grip the desk behind her tighter as she attempted to maintain some sort of control.
"All I could think, as I watched his hand move over your body…was that you're supposed to be with me." The words were barely a whisper as Maura's left hand moved to just below the hem of Jane's dress where she had seen Casey's hand. Looking straight into Jane's eyes, Maura held the gaze as she continued. "It was supposed to be me touching you Jane…not him…" With the other hand, Maura trailed her fingertips up Jane's arm and across her shoulder until her hand rested behind Jane's neck, tangling in dark hair.
The lightest of touches caught Jane's attention and she looked away. She watched with bated breath as Maura's hand moved slowly up and under the hem of her dress. Maura's palm skimmed the warm skin beneath drawing a gasp from Jane. It was almost too much too soon as Jane tried to catch her breath when she felt Maura's hand slip around to graze the inside of her thigh.
"I need to know if this is what you want Jane…" Maura's voice was quiet as she allowed her fingers to play along soft skin, tracing a delicate pattern. "Because if we go any further…I'm not sure I'll be able to stop…" Her words were breathless as she leaned closer, pressing herself lightly against Jane's body. When Jane didn't answer, Maura slid her hand around to grab the back of the thigh she had been gently stroking. With one swift tug she pulled Jane's leg around her hip allowing their bodies to finally press firmly together. "I need to hear you say it Jane…tell me you want this…"
It was the soft plea in Maura's voice that brought Jane's attention back to what Maura was saying and not what she was doing with her hands. When she looked away from Maura's hand which was now hidden beneath the black material of her dress, she was met with wide eyes filled with uncertainty and trepidation. 'Oh God…she thinks I don't want her…' Jane thought as she struggled to speak. The only thing she could do was nod her head vigorously as her voice failed to come to her.
As Maura's eyes fell upon lips slightly parted in anticipation, she moved until she was barely a breath away from her goal. She gave the back of Jane's neck a gentle squeeze to return her attention back to the question that hung heavily in the air between them, waiting to be answered.
Closing her eyes, Jane tilted her head back into Maura's touch. The movement caused her mouth to move away from Maura's. With a soft growl, Maura pulled Jane back until their lips were almost touching again. "Say it…" When Jane opened her eyes, Maura looked up into soft, velvety pools of brown and saw all of the answers to her questions.
There was a demand in Maura's words, an authority that caused a flutter in Jane's stomach. Jane knew Maura needed to hear that she wanted her.
"Yesssss…" Jane hissed through clenched teeth, her body humming from the onslaught of sensations before claiming Maura's lips in a deep, passionate kiss. Their tongues danced slowly back and forth, twirling and dipping as a need to explore took over. Jane could taste the remnants of something sweet as she continued to seek the warmth of Maura's tongue and mouth against her own. So lost in the feel of Maura, Jane didn't realize they were moving until she felt Maura's bed against the back of her legs.
Maybe it was the intensity of the kiss or the depth of craving that Maura felt, but before she knew what she was doing; she had pulled Jane across the room, guiding her towards the bed. With unsteady hands, she pushed Jane down, breaking their kiss.
Jane let out a groan in protest as she fell back against the soft mattress. She looked up to find Maura peering at her from above with a determined expression.
"You're beautiful Jane…in this dress…you take my breath away." Maura sighed hovering over Jane as she sat on the edge of the bed looking up. Lifting her hands to run her fingers through long dark hair, she let out a soft moan when she felt the silky strands move against her skin.
Jane watched, transfixed by the sight of Maura above her and the feeling of strong fingers running through her hair. Again, Maura's shirt opened with her movements revealing the creamy, white skin beneath urging Jane to touch what was now within her reach. "Maura…wait…" Jane murmured softly.
The cloud of desire that had fogged Maura's brain quickly disappeared when she heard Jane ask her to wait. She couldn't stop the surge of frustration as she anticipated Jane's next words. "I'm sorry Jane…" She began to pull away, needing to put some distance between them before she lost control.
"No…don't…" Jane desperately grabbed at the front of Maura's shirt to stop her retreat. Her eyes moved from Maura's face to the gap in the material she was now holding in her hands as she slowly pushed it aside and off of Maura's shoulders. "I need…." She struggled to speak as more skin was revealed to her.
"What do you need Jane?" Maura asked her voice laced with concern.
"This…" Jane almost whimpered when what she needed was finally revealed to her. Her fingers traced the contours of Maura's stomach as they traveled up, barely brushing the underside of full breasts. The gentle, almost shy touch drew a gasp from Maura's lips. Reaching out, Jane grabbed Maura's hips and pulled her down so she was now straddling Jane's hips. She rose up just enough for her mouth to find the tender skin at Maura's throat where she began to place soft, yet insistent kisses.
Maura didn't know how it had happened but her attempt to take control had slipped through her fingers in one swift move on Jane's part. The need to take over melted away when she felt Jane's warm mouth as it danced lightly over her skin. Maura simply closed her eyes at the sensation of hot, wet opened mouthed kisses as Jane's lips traveled from her neck down to the skin just above her breast. When she realized Jane had stopped, she looked down to find herself captured by a look of pure desire with a hint of uncertainty.
"Maura…I'm not sure what to do…" Jane's breath caught in her throat as she tried to explain her hesitation.
Moving her hands to either side of Jane's face, Maura tilted her head back so she could look in Jane's dark eyes. With her thumbs, she tenderly traced along cheek bones, nose, and lips drawing a shy smile from Jane's mouth. "Don't think about it Jane…just…feel me responding to your touch."
Jane's hands moved over Maura's stomach as they dipped lower causing Maura to move against the soft contact. She loosely wrapped her arms around Jane's neck to bring them closer together and to give her something to hold onto. The shift in positions was meant to further open herself up to Jane's touch but the movement brought Jane's lips closer to her breast causing the most delightful tingling sensation to spread out over her body.
All of the instincts Jane never knew she had took over when she felt Maura's nipple brush against her lips. She watched in awe as the nipple hardened under her warm breath. Before she knew what she was doing, she found herself lightly teasing Maura's breast with her tongue before tenderly raking her teeth over the sensitive nipple. Maura let out a shuttering breath as Jane alternated between gentle tugs with her teeth and soothing strokes of her tongue.
With each new sound that fell from Maura's lips, Jane felt bolder and bolder. With her newfound confidence, she ran her fingertips down Maura's stomach delighting in the way the muscles twitched under her touch. When her hand came to rest just above the waistband of Maura's underwear, Jane stopped and looked up seeking permission to continue. All doubts were washed away when she felt Maura roll her hips against her hand, inviting her in. Jane's hand and fingers trembled as they slipped past the final barrier producing a long, low moan from her as she felt for the first time the effect she had on Maura.
"You feel…incredible…" Jane's voice was breathless as she moved her fingers in and around where Maura's need had gathered. The gentle exploration caused Maura to draw in a sharp breath as she moved to allow Jane a deeper connection.
As Jane's fingers and mouth continued to taste, tantalize, and delight in the feel of Maura, she began to set a slow steady pace as Maura rocked her hips against Jane's hand. Before she could get lost in the feel of warm skin and heated desire, Jane brought her attention to their synchronized rhythm that was beginning to crest. Moving her fingers faster, Jane's only thought was to encourage the soft sounds that she needed to hear from Maura.
"Ummmm…so good…" Maura exhaled softly as she clung to Jane. The urgency of her movements grew stronger with each passing second. It was the intimacy of Jane's touch that was driving her insane as her insides cried out for release. Her body was responding to every touch, stroke, and gentle thrust Jane offered causing her to press further against the source of her pleasure. Maura's head began to spin when Jane's tentative caress changed momentum and her pace quicken as her fingers sank deeper. An onslaught of new sensations caused Maura's head to fall back as she lifted her body higher to meet Jane's advance.
Jane watched with wonder as Maura threw her head back. She delighted in the discovery of a new found power as she gaged Maura's reaction to her gentle yet firm ministrations. A whole new world was opened up for Jane when she heard her name called out on a breathless gasp as she felt Maura's body tightening around hers.
"Oh Jane…Jane…Jaaannnneeee…" The name was the mantra that fell from Maura's lips over and over again. She had no thoughts as a swirl of lights, shifting from one color to the next erupted from behind her tightly closed eyes. It was only the touch and feel of Jane that kept her aware as waves of pleasure broke over her, again and again.
"Oh God…Maura…" Jane called out as she felt Maura come undone in her arms. She tightened her hold when she felt Maura's rigid body finally go limp. Maura's heavy breathing against her neck caused shivers of anticipation to race through her body. She wasn't sure if it was her heart she felt racing against her chest, or Maura's, but she didn't care. All she cared about was that she had been the source of Maura's gratification and it left her feeling drunk with power.
Maura luxuriated in the feeling of Jane's arms around her, holding her. The speed at which her body had taken over her mind had her reeling as she tried to slow her breathing down. When she felt slightly dizzy by her effort to find her breath again, she buried her face against Jane's neck and just held on.
Pulling back slightly so she could look at Maura's face Jane was surprised by the flushed cheeks and almost shy smile she saw. With shaky hands, she pushed back a tendril of damp hair from Maura's face so she could look her in the eyes. It was the look of love that shined back at her from the depths of hazel that touched her to her very soul. With a revered tenderness, she placed a kiss to Maura's sweaty forehead. "Seeing you…like that…it…it was beautiful…" Jane murmured against the warm skin her lips were pressed against. When she felt Maura shift against her to move away, she tightened her gripe to stop her. "Please…just let me hold you for a minute." Jane whispered afraid if she spoke out loud, it would break the spell they seemed to be under. "I've never felt that close to anyone in my life before…" Her words were soft, but the hit Maura hard.
"Oh, my sweet Jane…" Maura breathed against Jane's ear. "To share this…myself with you like this…" There was a slight hesitation as Maura tried to gather her thoughts. "I just…I have no words…"
"Have I rendered the great Maura Isles speechless?" Jane gently teased. She smiled when she felt Maura's body lightly move against hers in silent laughter as she nodded against Jane's shoulder. "Well, if it's any consolation, I intend to make that happen on a regular basis." Jane laughed as well.
"Hmmm…you do, do you?" Maura pulled back so she could look at Jane. "I very much look forward to that." She leaned in to place a soft kiss on Jane's lips. "But now…" As she pulled back, her lips curved into a playful smile, but her eye's held a predatory gaze. "It's my turn…" She said as she untangled herself from long limbs and climbed out of Jane's lap.
Jane tried to pull Maura back, but was stopped by the wolfish grin on Maura's face. The first signs of nervousness pulled at the corners of her mind as she watched Maura reach a hand out to her. With a slight hesitation that didn't go unnoticed by Maura, Jane allowed herself to be pulled to her feet.
"Do you trust me Jane?" Maura asked.
Jane tried to speak around the anxiety that had suddenly lodged itself in her throat, but when nothing came forth, she could only nod her consent as Maura moved closer.
"I promise I won't let you fall…" The words were whispered against Jane's parted lips.
"What if I've already fallen?" Jane whispered back.
"Then I promise to catch you Jane…always." Maura breathed the words into the kiss she placed against Jane's waiting mouth. As her lips moved, placing delicate kisses all along Jane's features, her hands dropped down to gather the sleek material of Jane's dress. Slowly, Maura pushed the fabric up and over narrow hips enticing a small gasp as she her hands continued to rise. It was her intention to draw out the anticipation as her hands lingered over Jane's black lace bra. Her fingers leisurely traced the outline of skin she found there, eliciting another soft intake of breath from Jane.
When her dress was finally pulled over her head, Jane could feel herself trembling under Maura's admiring gaze. It wasn't the intent Jane saw on Maura's face, but the pure hunger in her eyes that had Jane moving back onto the bed. Pushing herself backwards until she found herself stopped by a wall of pillows, Jane watched in awe as Maura followed until she was hovering above her.
"This…needs to go." Maura attempted to reach behind Jane to unclasp her bra.
"In the front…" Jane panted as Maura moved quickly to remove another barrier. It was almost her undoing when she felt Maura's breasts brush against her own, causing her to arch into the softness she felt move across her. "Oh Jesus Maur…you feel soooo good…" Jane moaned.
As Maura hovered over Jane, their bodies lightly brushing against each other, the sudden impulse to feel Jane shiver under her hands and mouth almost overtook her. The feel of Jane moving beneath her, seeking more contact had Maura moving in tandem bringing them closer still. She dipped her head to capture Jane's mouth in a rough, but quick kiss before pulling back to look her in the eyes. Holding her gaze, Maura moved her hips against Jane's, pressing herself as close as she could. When she felt Jane lift up to demand a deeper connection, Maura's mouth went back to Jane's. The force of the kiss stole her breath away causing her to pull away to look down at Jane again. She followed Jane's eyes as they moved from her gaze to her lips them back again. With a coy smile Maura watched when Jane' eyes fluttered shut as she began to repeatedly move her hips against the ones beneath her in a slow grind. It was meant to tease, but the fire that started to burn under her skin had Maura moving down Jane's body with determination.
When she came to the top of Jane's breasts, Maura stopped to pay homage to the heated flesh she found there. With a feather light touch, she ran the backs of her fingers across a dark nipple watching it tighten under her touch. The sound that came from Jane's throat brought a smile to her lips as she bent to take it in her mouth. As she moved from one breast to the other, her hands moved down to the final barrier that separated them. Gently, she pushed the material over Jane's hips and down long legs, taking her time to savor the feel of trembling skin as she continued to move lower.
The feeling of Maura's hands and mouth left a trail of fire across Jane's skin, leaving her struggling for breath. She couldn't stop herself from biting her lip at the overwhelming sensations that raced over her body threatening to push her over the edge.
As Maura continued to take her time, savoring the taste of trembling skin beneath her, she marveled at how responsive Jane's body was to her touch. Her downward movement progressed past the hard muscles of Jane's abs until she came to hover just below her belly button. Looking up through her eyelashes, she caught a glimpse of Jane's confusion. With a coy smile playing across her lips she dipped her mouth to place the softest of kisses in the most intimate of places.
It wasn't until Jane felt Maura's touch, soft and confident where she needed it most that she knew she would never be the same again. She gasped as she opened herself up to the feeling of Maura's mouth moving over the place where her desire had gathered. "Oh…f….u…c…." She ground out as the effort to breath became nearly impossible. The sudden realization of what Maura was doing had Jane grabbing at the sheets in an effort to keep herself grounded. At the sudden rush that flowed through her body she finally found her voice as she cried out Maura's name. "M..a..u..r..a….." The need to feel more had Jane arching her back almost bucking Maura from her position.
Feeling Jane's body rise up to meet her exploring mouth and determined tongue had Maura reaching up to take one of Jane's hands in her own, lacing their fingers together. It was meant to reassure as Maura felt Jane opening herself up to her gentle yet insistent demands.
As an onslaught of sensations threatened to carry Jane away, she reveled in the feeling of Maura sating desires she never knew she had. A whole new world opened before her eyes as she began to experience the first tremors of a climax causing her to reach down with her other hand to bury fingers in honey blonde hair.
Feeling Jane's fingers moving through her hair brought Maura closer to her own edge. Maura somehow knew exactly where, when, and how to touch Jane and she could tell Jane wouldn't be able to hold out much longer. When she felt Jane flexing her hand as her hold tightened pulling Maura against the upward thrust of hips, she realized Jane was nearing her peak.
Moving against the soft strokes that had her thighs trembling, Jane lifted her head to seek out the source of her pleasure. Seeing Maura kissing, caressing, and offering her everything she had ever wanted was almost Jane's undoing. As Maura's pace quickened, Jane fought to catch her breath as her body began to crest on a wave of insurmountable pleasure. Heat raced across her skin like a wild fire as it burned into her muscles, bones and finally her soul. Slamming her eyes shut, Jane was witness to a multitude of white lights reigning down on her from behind tightly closed lids as everything fell away from her in an instant.
Slowly pulling away to watch Jane's culmination, Maura realized how privileged she was to have Jane open herself up, to share her soul the way she had in that shattering moment. Pulling a sheet as carefully as she could, she crawled up until she lay across the warm body beneath hers. Gently, she covered Jane and herself before resting her check against Jane's shoulder. She watched as Jane's breathing slowed and smiled when she felt an arm wrap around her waist. Tilting her head up so she could look at Jane's face, she was surprised to see tears slipping down Jane's cheeks. Something stirred deep within her at the sight of Jane's raw emotion. With tenderness she never knew she possessed, Maura moved to kiss the tears away.
"Are you okay?" Maura whispered against Jane's ear.
"Oh Maura…" Jane sighed into the crook of Maura's neck as Maura continued to place delicate kisses along her cheeks.
Maura paused when the sound of her name was murmured with such love, such desire that she almost couldn't bear the intensity of the moment. All of her thoughts fled from her mind when Jane opened her eyes and Maura saw nothing but love looking back.
"What happened?" Maura placed her hand against Jane's chest before resting her chin there so she could still see Jane's face.
Jane was quiet as she contemplated what to say. She wanted to hold Maura tighter, but found that her muscles were working against her as they refused to move.
Maura watched Jane as she tried to work out her thoughts. What they had shared had been powerful and she could only imagine what it was now doing to Jane's psyche.
"I've…um…" Jane's voice startled Maura from her musings. "I've never had…um…you know…" The word was on the tip of her tongue, but Jane couldn't quite say it.
"An orgasm?" Maura's eyes searched Jane's for the answer.
"Um…yeah…at least not with someone else…I guess I didn't expect it be so intense…" Jane threw her hand across her eyes to hide her embarrassment.
"Hey…listen…" Maura reached up to pull Jane's hand away so she could see Jane's eyes again. "Please…don't ever be afraid to talk to me Jane." The seriousness of her expression had Jane nodding back at her. "So…" She started to say as a crooked grin played across her lips. "You've…"
"You were gone for two weeks…" Jane interrupted before Maura could finish. She slipped her arm behind her head so she could lift herself up to look down at Maura. "Let's just say I got to know myself really well…"
"Yeah, me too..." Maura laid her head down as fatigue started to pull at her thoughts.
"Maur…um…you've done that before, haven't you?" Jane asked as she nodded in the direction that Maura had been earlier. It wasn't an accusation, but an innocent question on Jane's part.
"Yeah, a few times." Maura shrugged her shoulders, not sure she could look at Jane. Reaching for a lock of dark hair that lay slayed across Jane's shoulders, Maura twisted a piece around her finger taking comfort as it caressed her skin.
"I'd like to try that…sometime…" Jane nervously cleared her throat, not entirely sure if she meant what she was saying.
Maura pushed herself up again so she could look at Jane. She had a curious look on her face as she raised an eyebrow in question.
"Um…" Jane blushed furiously as she tried to explain what she was talking about. "What you did to me…" Her color deepened when she saw understanding fill the inquisitive hazel-green eyes causing her to look away.
"You sure are cute when you blush." Maura started to say, but stopped when she noticed the resolved expression and the firm set of Jane's jaw. She reached over to pull Jane's gaze back to her own. "I'm sorry Jane. I'm not making fun of you. I want you to know you are safe with me…safe to share yourself, what you want, what you need." A rush of relief passed through her when she saw Jane's jaw relax. She quietly studied the look in Jane's eyes and realized that Jane was going to need some coaxing if she was going to ever learn to express herself.
"Hmmmm…" Maura softly murmured as she moved over Jane's body to snuggle closer to the warmth she found there. The shift of her body found her cheek resting against a soft breast. Lifting her hand, she couldn't stop herself from lazily tracing the outside of Jane's now erect nipple. A wicked grin pulled at her lips when her mouth pressed against the warm skin between Jane's breasts. When she didn't get a response, she looked up again to see a very pensive Jane regarding her with a serious expression. "Tell me what you want." Maura breathed out in a whisper as she turned her attention back to the movement of her finger and what it was doing to Jane's body. Tenderly, she pulled Jane's nipple into her hot mouth causing a gasp to escape at the sensation. Alternating between sucking gently and stroking with her tongue, her eyes trailed up to Jane's. She could see Jane's nostrils flaring as she tried to control herself under the soft ministrations.
With a final rake of her teeth, Maura finally released the sensitive skin from her mouth. "We have plenty of time to explore each other Jane." She wasn't ready to take her attention away from Jane's breast as the palm of her hand gently brushed back and forth over the harden tip. "And I plan to explore every inch of your body…" The words were almost lost when she gave a light pinch before moving her hand away. With a contented sigh, she laid her head down again.
"Yeah?" Jane sighed as she ran her fingers through Maura's silky hair. As much as her body wanted to finish what Maura had started, both physical and emotional exhaustion was beginning to take over. She could tell that Maura was feeling the same when the smaller body snuggled against her again. "Hey…what time is it?" She asked as she leaned over to look at the digital clock next to Maura's bed.
"Donnknow…" Maura mumbled sleepily.
"It's five minutes until midnight." Jane moved to sit up.
"I brought some champagne up so we could celebrate…" Maura said as she pushed her human pillow back down so she could have a place to rest her head. "But I'd settle for a kiss at this point…I'm exhausted."
"Me too…" Jane allowed herself to be pushed back so Maura could resume using her as a cushion. Reaching down so she could grab the sheet at her waist, she pulled it up and over them both. Her hand moved across Maura's back, lightly tracing patterns across the warm skin she found there as she relaxed under the weight of the smaller body resting on hers. "I love you beautiful…" She murmured against the top of Maura's head as she placed a soft kiss in the honey-blonde hair that was now spread out across her chest.
"Ummm…love you too…" Maura mumbled as started to succumb to the fatigue that was quickly rendering her unconscious. Her last thought before sleep over took her was that giving her heart to Jane was as easy to her as breathing.