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Two weeks later
Morgan pushed the couch through the bungalow till he got to the living room. He positioned it in the place Emily had instructed before standing straight and looking to the door as Garcia came in with a box. "Hey, baby girl. How much more we got to go?"
"Not much," she said as she put down the box. "I'm so happy for them, Morgan."
"Me too," Morgan nodded. "This place is perfect for them and I think Rossi is glad they are moving out of his house. He feels mentally scarred by walking in to find Reid and Emily practically naked."
"I know," Garcia giggled. "Bless his heart. It's nice having them both happy and moving on in their lives. Reid isn't thinking about what Dell did to him and Emily is finally letting herself connect with someone and live her life. She never really had a proper relationship with anyone when she was at the BAU before she left and it's clear now that she only had eyes for one man and that was our baby boy."
"They fit well together and I hope they have everything they could ever want together. Emily once told me that she had a bad date because she showed her nerdy side. She's not going to have that trouble with Reid. Do you know anyone nerdier than Reid?"
"Don't bash nerds. Maybe we will hear the sound of little footsteps soon," Garcia smiled. "Reid has always wanted to be a dad and Emily has always wanted to be a mother. Can you imagine the child? She'd have her father's brain and her mother's kick ass attitude."
"Garcia, they've just moved in together. You'll be able to shop for baby outfits when they're ready."
Emily stood outside the living room hidden from their view. She placed the box in her hands down on the table by the door and walked outside. Making her way to garage, she couldn't help the painful feeling from inside of her taking over. She wiped a tear as it came down her cheek and took in a shaky breath.
"Emily?" Reid said as he appeared suddenly at the front of the garage. He walked over and knew she was upset. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing," she shrugged as he put his hands over her shoulders.
"We've always promised to be honest with each other, Emily. Whatever it is, it's okay. You can tell me anything."
"You won't love me any more," Emily shook her head. "I've been keeping something from you and you won't want to be with me if I tell you."
"Emily, I'll always love you. Nothing in the world will ever change that. Why are you so upset?"
"I overheard Garcia and Morgan talking about how they're happy for us and then Garcia said that it wouldn't be took long before there were tiny footsteps. Spencer, I know how much you want to be a father one day. I can't have children. When Doyle stabbed me, there was damage and I can't have a child. I didn't want to tell you because I was afraid you would walk away from me. I love you and I didn't want you to leave me. I've never had a relationship this deep and wonderful. I kept this secret because I didn't want to lose you."
Emily bowed her head and cried gently. "I'm so sorry."
Reid looked at Emily for a few seconds before bringing his hand up under her chin and lifting her head tenderly to look into her eyes. "Why would I leave the woman who I love and couldn't live without? This doesn't change how I feel about you. I'm never going to leave you. There are other ways we could have a family and I wouldn't want to be a father without you by my side. I'm sorry Doyle took that away from you."
Emily leaned against him and hugged him tightly. "I'm sorry I lied to you."
"It's okay," he calmed her gently before kissing the top of his head. "Don't ever feel like you have to keep secrets from me. Nothing will change how I feel about you and I never want to see you cry."
"Emily?" Garcia said as she appeared outside the garage. "Is everything okay? I heard crying."
Reid came away from the embrace and gave Emily a kiss on the lips. "I love you."
"I love you too," Emily smiled.
"Is it something I did?" Garcia said nervously.
"Tell her," Reid urged her. "She's your best friend."
"I heard you and Morgan talking," Emily explained to Garcia. "I can't have children, Garcia."
"Oh," Garcia gasped before rushing to Emily and hugging her tightly. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I upset you. I'm a stupid idiot."
"No, no, no," Emily shook her head as Garcia eyes began to fill with tears. "You didn't know and you're not an idiot. Please don't cry. It's a relief not having to keep it to myself any more."
"Why did you think you had to keep this to yourself? I'm here for you. Always will be," Garcia said as she came away from the hug and wiped her cheeks.
"She thought she was going to lose me," Reid spoke up before putting his arm around Emily and kissing her cheek. "She's never going to lose me. Garcia, why don't you two go and get some coffee and snacks? Take a break from this."
"We can take our time and have some girl talk," Garcia nodded as she took Emily's hand. "Come on, let's take a walk and burn off the calories we're just going to replace with chocolate muffins."
Emily let out a smile and began to walk away with Garcia and down the street.
"Remember the sugar in my coffee," he called to them.
"How could we ever forget?" Emily shouted back before playfully giving him a wink.
Reid watched them walk out of view before taking a moment for himself. He looked around at the garage and smiled at the fact that he was finally making a home with someone. The supports were gone from his legs and he didn't need the cane either any more. The fact that Emily couldn't have a child didn't change a thing for him. The centre of his world was Emily and only her.
A few days later
Emily lifted her head up from Reid's chest and paused the movie they were watching as a knock came at the door. She sat up from the couch and answered the door to see Garcia with a closed picnic basket. "Can I come in?" she asked.
"Sure," Emily said as she stepped aside. Garcia walked into the living room and placed the basket on the table as Emily sat back on the couch next to Reid. "What's in the basket?"
"I still feel bad about upsetting you the other day and I think that you both need some more company. I thought you could have another kind of tiny footsteps in the house."
Garcia lifted the basket lid up to show two kittens who immediately began to meow and try to climb out of the basket. Emily let out an out of character squeal at the sight of the tabby kitten and immediately picked up the small bundle. Reid chuckled at the sight of the ginger kitten and brought it into his hands and against his chest. "They're adorable," Emily giggled as the tabby kitten began to purr. "We are so keeping you both."
"They're about three months old, both boys, and I thought it would be nice for you to have some company in the house and something apart from each other to cuddle."
"Thank you, Garcia," Reid said as ginger kitten began to nibble on his finger playfully. "I'm going to call you Baker."
"Baker?" Emily questioned.
"After Tom Baker, my favourite Doctor Who doctor. What are you going to call your kitten?"
"Kurt. I'll call him Kurt after my favourite author, Kurt Vonnegut."
"Good choice," Reid agreed as the kitten managed to climb up his jumper and onto his shoulder. The next thing he felt was Baker trying to eat nuzzling his ear. "These two are going to be a handful."
A week later
Emily rushed through the trees after the unsub they had been chasing. The rest of the team had spread out with Morgan and Hotch ahead of her, Blake, Reid and JJ and out of her sight. She heard a gunshot before arriving with the others at the edge of the small ditch. Morgan was already handcuffing the suspect. "Anyone hurt?" Blake called down.
"No," Hotch responded. "He missed us. Where's Reid?"
The absence of Reid was only noticed now they had all stopped. Emily holstered her gun and turned around. "SPENCER!"
Emily sprinted back in the direction she had come from with Blake and JJ close by her side when there was no answer. Blake and JJ spread out to the right while she took the left. She didn't get far when she heard Blake yell. "He's here."
Rushing to Blake, she arrived to see Reid hyperventilating, crying and shaking uncontrollably. JJ tried to touch him but he let out a small scream and scuttled backwards. "He's having a panic attack. He's having a flashback," Blake coughed as she regained her breath.
JJ realised immediately what had triggered it. "We're in the woods. Dell broke his legs in the woods and also beat and electrocuted him in the woods."
Emily knelt in front of Reid. "Spencer, baby, it's Emily. I'm here. You're not back with him. Dell is dead."
Reid didn't pull back from Emily's touch as she placed her hand on his but had still not managed to come back to them. She pressed her lips to his and kissed him gently. As she came away, she felt his breathing even out and his eyes focused on her. "E-Emily?"
"I'm here," she said calmly. "He's dead. He can't hurt you again."
"I'm sorry," Reid broke down. "I-I don't know w-what happened."
Emily put her arms around him and held him as he leaned against her chest. "It's okay."
Reid sat on the plane with the rest of the team as they made their way back to Virginia. Rossi hadn't come on the case due to having some personal time with his daughter and grandson. Hotch walked over to him and sat across from him. "Reid, are you okay?"
"Honestly, I'm not okay," Reid admitted. "I walked into those woods and just stopped when I realised how far in I was. Everyone was ahead of me and I remembered what happened the last time I was running in the woods. Dell found me, knocked me out and then broke my legs when I woke up. It wasn't just that moment I went back too. I thought I was back with him when he hurt me with the cattle prod. I'm sorry I let you all down. I-I thought I was over what he did to me."
Hotch watched as Reid pressed a shaking hand to forehead. "Reid, you may think you're over what happened but the truth is that you'll never truly be able to forget what Dell did to you. You're going to have PTSD. We should have been more aware that going into the woods could set off the memories of your attack. I want you to talk to someone when we get back."
"He's already got someone to talk to now," Emily smiled sadly as she came from behind Hotch's seat. She sat next to Reid and held his hand tightly. "I've got him, Hotch."
"We'll be at the other end of the seats," Hotch said as he left his seat. "I'll leave you two to have alone time."
Emily stroked her thumb over the back of his hand. "You okay?"
"Not completely but I feel better you're here with me."
"I'm never leaving your side. Nerds stick together."
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