Chapter 6:

Amy and Rory were off wondering the Tardis, so this left the Doctor to do what ever he wanted for the day. He had started with fixing up the Tardis in his swing chair but soon he got bored and then the thoughts came to him, the mean thoughts. He started to get them a lot when he was alone, they would say things like,worthless TimeLord just die like the rest of them or no one likes you they just pretend to. He try's to ignore them but some days he can't help but believe them, and today was one of those days. After about an hour of trying to ignore the thoughts he ran to his room,and then ran into the bathroom, his own private bathroom. He looked at himself in the mirror, he looked gaunt, but that's probably because he hasn't eaten for several days. The last time he ate was the day before the thoughts started. He looked back in the mirror, ugly,fat idiot,why do you have to be so pathetic. He opened up the mirror which was the front of the medicine cabinet and grabbed his razor. He picked it up and cried as the thoughts raced through his head. Do it DO IT they won't miss you when your gone do it you know you deserve the pain just DO IT. He sliced though the skin on his wrist, he made 5 evenly spaced out horizontal lines. Almost immediately he felt relived. The blood boiled up from out of the cuts, he was mesmerized by the deep crimson.

He stared at his arm as the blood dripped and dripped into the sink,he started to feel light headed. He grabbed half of the box of tissues and pushed them down on his fore arm. After going through the entire box of tissues the cuts stopped bleeding. He threw his bloody tissues in the trash and peeled his crimson shirt of his body. He washed his blade off,putting it back in the med cabinet and then washed the sink. He made sure there was no evidence of the event, then after everything was perfectly clean he left. He slowly walked back to the console room,still feeling light headed, to find the Ponds sitting in the console room soaking wet.

"What happened to you too?"

"Well Doctor, we found your weather room, it gave us one hell of a storm,oye why are you so pale!?"

Like they really care, no matter what he did the dark thoughts wouldn't go away...

"Of um just feeling a bit under the weather"

"Oh haha your so funny Raggedy Man"

The Doctor and Amy were both surprised when Rory took a step towards the Doctor and said.

"Do you want me to check you out?,I mean I am a nurse"

Amy rolled her eyes and the Doctor just shrank back from both of his companions.

"Um no I'm good if you'll excuse me,good night Ponds!"

The Doctor tried to keep calm as he sprinted as far away from Rory as he could get. The Doctor could sense that Rory didn't believe him.

****Rory's Prov****

When the Doctor strolled in he startled both Amy and I. We were both soaking from the insane tropical storm we had been caught in when we were hanging out in the weather room. It had been bright and sunny one second and then down pouring, and thundering the next. We practically sprinted back to the console room., we had only just got back when the Doctor strolled in looking very pale. My nurse instincts went off the second he said he was feeling

"Under the weather"

I took a step toward him and said

"Do you want me to check you out?,I mean I am a nurse"

He looked frightened when I said this and that raised a red flag.

"Um no I'm good if you'll excuse me,good night Ponds!"

Then his response was another hint that something was wrong. When he practically sprinted out of the room I was positive there was something going on. I turned to Amy with a concern look on my face and she just shrugged, then headed off towards our room. I was going to keep close eye on the TimeLord.