Top Secret
by Shealtiel
Rated: T for sexual references, adult themes, violence and mild coarse language
Summary: "Oak, fourteen inches, unpliant and resilient, excellent for Transfiguration with a knack for Charms. Veela hair core."
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Friday, December 19th, 1975
12:22pm
Great Hall
So I finally talked to Professor Dumbledore this morning. He sent me a note asking me to meet him in his office at 10, and he'd let Professor McGonagall know I'd be late to Transfiguration. So I went to see him, and I was kind of nervous, because I was thinking I was gonna get all these answers.
Well, I did get some answers. Professor Dumbledore told me he had to do some investigating before we had another chat, and that was why he didn't answer my note right away. So he said he had a lot to tell me but he didn't think it was a good idea to dump it all on me right now.
What he did tell me was that he believes from what he learned at the orphanage (which he apparently visited) that there's a very real chance that I could be part Veela, and that we should begin operating under that assumption.
How weird. To think that all this time I was wondering why there were so many guys interested in me, and it was just because I'm part Veela! I'm so relieved.
Lily, once again, thinks I'm crazy. She says I could have had my pick of any guy at Hogwarts and I'm throwing it away. Georgia just pointed out that, just by accepting the fact that I have Veela blood, I'm not throwing anything away, because the guys will still flock to me like they always have. Which, unfortunately, is true. But at least now I know why.
Anyhow, so the other thing Professor Dumbledore said is that he's concerned about my magic use. He said that it makes sense that it's been getting worse, because as I get older, my emotions are becoming more complex and more out of control, and I'm beginning to understand the world in a different way (yeah yeah, typical teenager stuff) and that all of that is having an effect on my magic. And he thinks the reason it just started happening again out of the blue is because things changed over the summer (pretty sure I was blushing pretty hard at this point… how embarrassing!), but my magic didn't have an outlet until I got back to school and started using it again. And also, of course, I'm missing Sebastien a lot, because we're in a long distance relationship now.
Yes, Professor Dumbledore said all of this to me. I was mortified to be honest. I wanted to kill Lily, because even Professor Dumbledore knew about my French boyfriend! God, what I wouldn't give to go back to First Year and pick a new best friend!
Lily read that over my shoulder and just exclaimed, "Hey!" at me in anger. So I guess I should say that's not actually true. But still. I wish Lily would take control of her big mouth a little more and stop spilling all my secrets to the world! And yes, I wrote that extra large, just so she'd see it; if she insists on reading over my shoulder all the time, she should at least learn something from it.
So after Professor Dumbledore had explained all that (and offered me a Lemon Sherbet in solidarity, because he could quite clearly see how embarrassed I was), he said that he thinks it's important that I start learning how to really control my magic before something disastrous really does happen. So then I asked how I was supposed to do that.
Then he just said to me, "I would like you to begin taking private lessons with me, Miss Lonsdale."
Seriously. Just like that. I was so shocked, I nearly choked on the Lemon Sherbet. And I couldn't say anything for a minute or so. I think I was just staring at him with my mouth open like a fish.
"If you feel that this may be an uncomfortable situation for you," he said, "I'm sure we could arrange for Professor McGonagall to join us." But I still couldn't say anything. So then he said, "Take some time to think it over Rose. But not too long. This is something that we wouldn't want to get out of hand." I just nodded and then he dismissed me.
So. Private lessons with Professor Dumbledore. Who is considered to be one of the most powerful Wizards alive. What? I'm so lost. I don't even know how to begin wrapping my mind around it.
Obviously I'm going to say yes. That's not really an offer you can say no to, I don't think. But I still can't even really believe it. Neither can Lily or Georgia. Or the Marauders for that matter, who are eavesdropping on our conversation, but who did not, thank god, hear the parts about me being Veela.
It's just… I never thought I would be that important. You know, everyone says that Professor Dumbledore is the only one who can defeat Voldemort. And I'm gonna be taking private lessons with him. Me!
James just said, "Why in the hell did he pick you for?" I'm pretty sure he's mostly just jealous, because somebody else gets to have something he can't. Typical. I mean, I agree with him. Why me? But still.
Professor Dumbledore said he wants my answer by the time I get back from Christmas break. So I'll have time to talk to my parents and write Sebastien. Wow. This is all so surreal.
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