Top Secret
by Shealtiel
Rated: T for sexual references, adult themes, violence and mild coarse language
Summary: "Oak, fourteen inches, unpliant and resilient, excellent for Transfiguration with a knack for Charms. Veela hair core."
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Monday, January 5th, 1976
6:24pm
Great Hall
So I decided to go strutting around like I owned the place today to see if it would change James's reactions to me. It certainly had an effect on every other guy who saw me today. Remus couldn't even respond to me when I asked him a couple questions at breakfast. I feel sorry for boys. They're so stupid and vulnerable.
One thing I did notice today though is that I don't have much of an effect at all on Peter. He doesn't even bat an eye when I'm around. Even James was unusually polite today, but most of the time, it's like Peter doesn't even know I exist. He did have a conversation or two with me today, and asked me for help in Herbology this morning, which he doesn't usually bother with. So I guess that's how I affected him differently today, but that was really it! Between you and me, I don't think that should bother me as much as it does, considering I have a boyfriend and all.
Anyway, James didn't say one mean thing to me today, nor did he attempt to ask Lily out once. He even told me he thought I looked pretty this morning at breakfast, and cancelled Quidditch practice on account of "it's the first day back" or something…? Experiment successful. I don't think Lily liked it very much though. I think she secretly likes all the attention from James.
She's yelling at me over that again. But maybe she should stop reading over my shoulder, and then she wouldn't need to get mad at me over things that are my personal thoughts and none of her business! Anyway, she can have all his attention back, I don't want it. Or the attention from all the other guys that tried to approach me today. I'm going to tone it down from now on. Maybe I'll reserve it in case of emergency: i.e. when I want James to stop being a git and be nice to me instead,
I don't think Georgia likes it much either actually. Sirius won't stop staring at me like nothing else in the world exists. Why can't I just be friends with them all?! This whole Veela thing makes everything so much more complicated.
Speaking of which, I still haven't written Sebastien. I'm scared.
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8:53pm
Gryffindor Common Room
I forgot to say before that I got a note from Professor Dumbledore asking about my decision. You know, about taking lessons with him. So I sent him a note back saying that I would, of course. I haven't gotten a response yet. It still seems so weird in my mind. I'm not used to the idea yet.
Surely there's more he's not telling me. Professor Dumbledore wouldn't give just anyone private lessons, even if they are part Veela! Sigh. Of course there's bound to be something else unusual about me. I would be happy to just blend in and not be noticed for the most part. But no. I've always gotta be the freak.
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