Yuki's life had fallen apart. Yuki loves Kyoya. Even with her shattered heart, Yuki loved Kyoya with each and every little piece there is. He had ripped out her heart and destroyed it. Correction. Karen had done it. When Yuki had left Japan, a rain cloud had formed over her head and rained. Now, everything was a dark rain cloud raining over her. Her life was now a dark storm.

After all these years, she loved Kyoya. She always told herself that maybe he'd be happier with her gone. And that he wouldn't miss her...Yuki wants Kyoya to marry Karen. Karen may talk a lot, but she seems smart. Maybe a little rude, but Yuki was far worse and she knew it. Yuki knew Karen was very intelligent. Kyoya would marry an intelligent woman. Not someone like Yuki...

Yuki prayed her wounds would just heal already. She had wounded herself. This was entirely her fault. She made the stupid mistake of leaving. If she didn't leave, she would've been Kyoya. Perhaps maybe...maybe she would be engaged to him...Yuki didn't try hard enough to fight for their relationship. When her letters were sent back to her, Yuki gave up. She knew Kyoya had moved on. He was happy. And if he was happy, she was happy too. Yuki wants Kyoya to be happy more than anything...he deserves the best. He's such a hard worker...

Yuki thought she heard the door open and close. And she thought she heard footsteps coming to her bedroom. Memories flooded Yuki's mind. Kyoya would always come up to see her on the roof. When she was sick or sleeping or doing homework...he always just let himself in and spent time with her.

For a moment, Yuki was transported back to the old maids quarters. And she was lying in bed. Waiting. Waiting for Kyoya as she heard his footsteps approach her...

She sobbed. The reality hurt so bad. Her heart ached so much. This pain was beyond the pain of rape. Beyond the pain of drowning. Beyond getting slashed with a knife. Beyond all of the beatings...she might as well just die to end all of the pain...she and Kyoya were in the same freaking city for God's sake. It'll be awkward. He won't want to see her..he hates her...

"Yuki?" She thought she heard. She was so unsure of these things. It was not Kyoya's voice. She knew his voice so well...it was Tamaki and Haruhi. Happy, positive people. Yuki did not move. She could not. Literally because her fully grown pet dog was lying on her.

Reika barked and hopped off Yuki to go greet Tamaki and Haruhi. And now, she was alone. Alone with her memories. As time went on after she left, her memories grew more and more vivid. Most people have the problem of their memories fading. Not Yuki. Her memories grew more vivid which made her miss everyone, especially Kyoya, more. Strange, right?

"Oh Yukiiii~!" Tamaki jumped onto her bed.

"Hi." She murmured. Yuki needs to get a grip. She can't be depressed for forever, right? Move on.

But wait. Kyoya's best friend is Tamaki. Tamaki's going to marry Haruhi. And there's the rest of the host club who've been with Kyoya much longer than Yuki. What if they can't be in the same room together? Yuki has to try to be friends with him. But Yuki has learned that you're either his slave or his girlfriend. Or fiancé. Dammit.

"Stop moping around! It's a beautiful day!" Tamaki pulled open the curtains to reveal a white out from a blizzard. He pulled them shut. "Well, its too cold to be out anyway. But c'mon! Lets go sledding!"

"I thought you just said it was too cold to be out!" Yuki snapped.

"Then lets go make some commoner hot chocolate!"

"Go do it with someone else. I'm not in the mood." Yuki mumbled.

"What are you in the mood for?" Tamaki pestered. Kyoya. But that's not going to happen, now is it?

"Nothing." Yuki replied.

"I'm really sorry, Yuki. I was just trying to help when I invited you to the party." Tamaki said.

"It's not your fault. It's entirely mine. I left. I got my hopes up that things would work out between us. I was stupid enough to think he hasn't moved on. But of course he did. And I'm happy for him. So don't worry about me." Yuki explained.

"You don't look happy to me." Tamaki poked her cheek. Yuki bit his finger. "Ow!" He yelped as he pulled his finger back and crawled into his corner of woe.

"I'm happy...I just don't see a point to anything anymore." Yuki whispered.

"Yuki, you can't just lie in bed all day. You'll get nothing done! You won't go to nationals and get another title!" Haruhi snapped. To Yuki, Haruhi was her very best friend. Yuki didn't want to lose Haruhi in this mess too...what mess? It was so simple. The person Yuki loved more than anyone, Kyoya Ohtori, was marrying a woman named Karen. Their companies are going to try to take down her dad. Yuki knew her dad was a very strong businessman. She was not worried about that. But in the process of Kyoya's engagement to Karen, Yuki might lose the host club she recently united with as if no time has passed. See? It really is simple...

"I don't want to go to nationals."

"So you're going to throw all of that away? You're going to let your team down like that?" Haruhi asked.

"Yes. I'm sorry." Haruhi sighed. Clearly getting frustrated was not going to get Yuki out of bed.

"Look, I can imagine what you're going through. But remember when we got raped? We agreed to not let it get to us. We should just move on. It's a thing of the past. And rape is something very hard to get over. Some people don't get over it at all and live forever traumatized and held back by it." Haruhi explained. "It's time you get over Kyoya. Move on. He has."

Yuki started to cry. It was the cold hard truth. The truth hurt. But crying wont do anything about it. She had to get off her butt and continue with life. Maybe she can just be friends with Kyoya. She has to be. Otherwise, their friends would be affected. Yuki didn't want anyone taking sides. She just wanted to be happy with her family again.

"Okay." Yuki choked out between sobs. She sat up and wiped her eyes. "Sorry. Are you guys busy today?" Haruhi looked at her boyfriend, who was still in his corner.

"No. I don't think so. We're all on winter break now too." Haruhi answered.

"Are you guys hungry? Do you want to to get some breakfast?"

"It's noon."

"Lunch?"

"Isn't there a blizzard?" Haruhi asked. Yuki finally gotten out of bed. She opened her curtains, and it was lightly snowing with the remains of the blizzard on the ground. "Then yes."

"Yay! Good job, Haruhi! You got Yuki out of bed!" Tamaki launched himself from the corner and tackled Yuki. "Yahoo! Things will get better, Yuki! You'll see!"

After showering and getting dressed, Yuki, Haruhi, and Tamaki walked to a Panera Bread.

"This is the best commoner cafe I have ever been too! Look at all of the assorted breads and bagels on the back wall! Isn't that amazing? And it's not just bread! There's soups and salads and sandwiches!" Tamaki went off. Yuki and Haruhi sighed.

"It's just Panera..." Haruhi muttered.

"He hasn't changed much, has he?" Yuki asked.

"No, he hasn't."

"And there's free wifi! It doesn't get better than this!" Tamaki continued. Haruhi observed the menu. Yuki wasn't hungry.

"Order whatever you want. It's on me." Yuki announced.

"No, I'll pay for it." Haruhi protested. Yuki shook her head.

"I'm not broke anymore. Just order your food already." Yuki said. Haruhi ordered a panini and a salad. Tamaki held up the line by trying to figure out what he wanted.

"I have decided!" A sigh of relief swept the line. "The kids Mac and cheese!"

"Are you serious?" Yuki asked.

"Yes! I want Mac and cheese!"

"Whatever helps you sleep at night..." Yuki muttered. "And a plain bagel." She said to the cashier.

"Just a bagel? You need something more than that, Yuki." Haruhi said.

"Fine. With cream cheese."

"That's not what I meant..." Haruhi muttered. Yuki ignored he and whipped out a shiny credit card. They sat at a table and awaited their food patiently. Tamaki marveled at everything down to the seat cushions.

"Here, Yuki. Have half of my panini. I can't eat all of it." Haruhi offered, cutting it neatly into two.

"Oh, Haruhi! You're so sweet and kind! But you must eat! Here! I'll share my Mac and cheese with you!" Tamaki declared.

"No thanks Tamaki." Haruhi turned down.

"Take it home or something. I can't eat it either. My bagel is just fine." Yuki said, spreading the cream cheese on her bagel. "Is your debt paid off now?"

"I think so. Kyoya said that it was paid off when he and Tamaki graduated. But I think it was him being a nice guy again. Or because I couldn't work in the host club anymore because there isn't one." Haruhi replied.

"So why don't you reform the host club at Ouran University?" Yuki asked as she ate her bagel.

"Hikaru and Kaoru aren't there. Kyoya says profits will decrease because of there isn't a forbidden brotherly love package. Honestly, I'm glad that those evil boys aren't ruining my Haruhi dearest!" Tamaki explained.

"They come over everyday and eat our food." Haruhi pointed out. Tamaki cried.

"My commoner food..." Yuki laughed.

"Why didn't they go to Ouran University?" Yuki asked.

"They're going into the fine arts, and the Ouran University doesn't offer that." Haruhi replied.

"And have you guys decided what you want to go into?" Yuki questioned.

"I'm studying to be a lawyer. Political science. Tamaki is going into business, being the Suoh heir." Haruhi explained.

"That's really cool. Daichi and Michio are going to do a sort of tag team heirs. They're only like a year apart and a really good team." Yuki explained.

"You're not interested in being the heir?" Haruhi asked. Yuki snorted.

"I'm not that smart. I can't handle such a big business anyway." Yuki answered. Yuki cannot possibly surpass Daichi and Michio. Maybe Daichi, but Michio, no. He's extremely smart and charismatic. If Kyoya does surpass his brothers, then he would be the heir. And if Yuki somehow managed to surpass Daichi and Michio, she would have to go against Kyoya. Yuki was afraid she ruined that chance for him becoming the heir by yelling at his dad to never slap Kyoya. No one should abuse their child. Especially her Kyoya. The memory was so vivid. She never saw him get slapped, but every time the sound rang in her head, she would imagine her Kyoya get slapped. It made her blood boil with hatred.

"Are you ever going to come back?" It was a good question.

"I pray that I do. I want to work on my relationship with my mother a bit more now that I've patched things up with my dad. But my dad's actually kind of strict and says that he won't help me because he's staying here in America. I'll be on my own. So I'm saving up to move back. When I do, let's all sit around a kotatsu, okay? I've never done that before." Yuki explained. "But I've already gotten enough for the airfare and right now I'm sort of job hunting. It's really hard though from Boston. But hopefully I'll be back in time to help you pick out your dress!"

"Dress?" Yuki and Tamaki froze. Tamaki screamed and ripped his hair out.

"For your funeral of course!" Yuki quickly said. Yuki had almost ruined the surprise! How could she do something like that!? Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!

"My funeral!?" Haruhi exclaimed.

"Of course! You have to get all of this stuff planned out! You never know when you're going to die!" Yuki said.

"Well, I guess that's true." Haruhi agreed.

"That freaking worked!?" Yuki and Tamaki cried.

"Any day now someone could shoot me or..." As Haruhi babbled and got distracted, Yuki was at Tamaki's feet.

"I'm sorry...I am not worthy...I'm sorry...I am not worthy..." Yuki muttered repeatedly.

"I got Yuki!"

"I got Haruhi!"

Hikaru and Kaoru suddenly swept Yuki and Haruhi into their arms.

"Hey! You rotten twins! What the hell are you doing!? Give me my precious Haruhi back!" Tamaki yelled.

"And you'd let them take Yuki away too?" Haruhi asked. The twins then carried them off.

"Thing 1! Thing 2! What game are you playing!?" Yuki demanded.

"Operation: cheer up Yuki!"

"Then why the hell are you kidnapping me!?" Haruhi growled.

"Because its more fun with both of you!"