Okay guys, another short one. But I promise the next one will be longer. So what do you think will happen at the party, hmm? Will there be an argument? I'll give you a hint, someone's secret will be revealed at this party. But who's? Comment with any suggestions for secrets, or ideas who's secret will be revealed, or what will happen at the party. Basically, just comment please. XXX all my love and thanks xxx
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
TRUST ME
It has been 2 weeks, 5 days since I have spoken to a member of my family. They haven't even bothered trying and usually that would upset me but I really needed the time to think. I'll have to see them tomorrow night though. Tomorrow is Saturday the 20th of November, Fred and Roxie's birthday, and you can bet there'll be another party. And I'll go because I have no reason to avoid them, I'm not the one in the wrong. And I might just get thoroughly smashed, just to wind them all up. But for right now I'm content with being left alone.
Caleb doesn't ignore me though. The morning after the big fight he found me. I cried and he held me, then he told me that I was right and that they were all idiots. He said that he had a hard time not shouting at them for accusing me of having issues. He makes me feel better. Everyday we meet up in secret, in our broom closet mostly because it's freezing outside, and everyday I feel myself falling harder for him. Because he notices me. Because he cares about me. Because I just can't help it.
Mel and Rikki know that something is wrong too. They know that I'm fighting with my family and I told them why. They took their side. I was so mad that I stopped speaking to them both, until last Saturday.
*FLASHBACK*
I'm lying on my bed, reading over some transfiguration notes, when Rikki and Mel walk in. They look at me, Mel hopefully and Rikki questioningly, and I pointedly look away. Mel sighs and sits down on her bed but Rikki puts her hands on her hips.
"Ok, Lily, enough with the silent treatment. You're mad at us? You're mad at your family? You have no reason to be! We are worried about you Lils. Because, guess what? I know you hate it, but your family is right. You have been acting out of character, the parties, the drinking, the dissapearing at lunch and dinner and on weekends. And I've had enough. Just tell me why, Lily. If something's wrong you can tell me." Her tone changes from anger, to concern until she is practically begging me. I sigh and look her dead in the eye.
"You and Mel are the only friends I have, and you're right, you are only worried about what's best for me. But my family are not. They only notice me when they think something bad is going on. They don't notice when I'm so ecstatically happy that I feel like bursting into song or when I get good grades and feel like bragging about it. Half of them don't even remember when my birthday is. And you guys have started being like that too. If you looked beyond the fact that I wander off sometimes, you would notice that I always come back smiling. If you stopped worrying about me missing dinner, then you would notice that I have been getting force fed by the house elves every night when I go down there for dinner. And if you would stop focusing so much on the things that are "not like me", then you would notice that I am much happier than I have ever been in my whole, entire life. If you would step back a bit from the situation, then you would notice that my life is not anyone else's business. I'm happy and that's all you need to know!" Rikki doesn't say anything. She just stands there, her mouth hanging open. I look over at Mel and notice that she is also staring at me. I pull my curtains around my bed, which I hardly ever do, and jump under the covers. I'm about to go to sleep when I hear Rikki call out.
"Lily? We're sorry. We wish you could trust us enough to tell us your secret but now we realise that we haven't trusted you. We should have known that nothing bad was going on."
"It's Ok." I answer back. "I'm sorry for shouting. And I do trust you guys, you know that. But I can't tell you." There is more silence until Mel whispers back:
"Okay." And we all go to sleep.
*END FLASHBACK*
After that we just started talking the next day, as if nothing had happened. I even told Caleb I couldn't meet him at lunch because I was sitting with the girls. I still meet him at dinner though. I'm sitting with Rikki right now in Transfiguration. No offense to her, but Rikki is rubbish at Transfiguration. I tell her this.
"Easy for you to say. You're amazing at it. Damn, what the hell did I just do!?" All of a sudden the desk changes into cardboard box, then a toy airoplane, then a muggle television. The whole class burst out laughing and the teacher rushes over to our desk - well, what used to be our desk - to help. I take one look at Rikki and burst out laughing. I spend the rest of the afternoon laughing - with Rikki and with Mel and with Caleb - but in the back of my mind lies the dread about tomorrow. Will there be another argument? Will they kick me out of the party? I hope not. But I suppose there's only one way to find out.