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Here is it folks the beginning of a three chapter arc dealing with uncovering Eddie's memories. Hope you enjoy it!

Chapter Fifteen

Eddie surprised Jamie by recovering from her ordeal remarkably well. She stayed in the hospital overnight for observation before being allowed to go home on leave for a week. With the danger behind them, Eddie and Jamie once again settled in to their routine which now included weekly visits to Dr. Schmidt. On their fourth week she finally announced, "It's time Eddie. This weekend we will finally open up the door you have shut for so long."

Eddie wasn't sure how she felt about that one. She was anxious to get this over with and start to heal whatever she needed to heal, but on the other hand she wasn't sure she even wanted to know.

Jamie reached over and took her hand. "We can do this, I'll have Dad there if you still want that and I promise I will be there every second you are going through this."

Eddie smiled at him, "Okay then, this weekend it is."

The doctor committed to doing this on Saturday. Jamie decided they would drive out to Westchester on Friday and spend the night. Frank and the doctor would meet up with them Saturday at sundown near the high school.

Eddie was excited and frightened at the same time. She couldn't wait to be alone for the weekend with Jamie, they had a few difficult weeks between his burns and her kidnapping, but that was behind them. He chose a lovely little hotel, quaint rooms and even a fire place. They curled up together before that fire and held one another.

"Eddie, listen. I know tomorrow you are going to remember something that you wouldn't think in your worst dreams you could have survived, but I want you to realize that you did survive it and you can do anything you want to do. You are so strong, Eddie, and what you can't handle, I will carry for you." Jamie held her to his chest and stroked her hair while he said this.

"Jamie, can't you give me at least a clue…" Eddie said seriously. She was so scared, she had no idea how this was going to assault her mind.

"I can't," Jamie sighed. "I wish I could but the doctor insists you remember on your own. If I didn't think it was in your best interest I would tell you here where we are alone, but I want this to be for the long haul."

Eddie understood and laid back on his chest. "Jamie, will you do something for me?"

"I will do anything you know that," Jamie replied immediately.

"Make love to me, right here, right now." Eddie moved over him and looked down the firelight reflecting on her golden hair. She looked like an angel. Jamie whispered, "My angel…" Then leaned up to meet her lips.

He took his time to savor this. Jamie knew in the back of his head they might not make love for a long time. When she remembered being assaulted, she might shut that part down for a bit. He would be patient with her, he had no idea what she was going to go through. He went through his own private hell after her father enlightened him and Danny on what happened to her. Eddie would go through something much worse.

Jamie kept his touch feather light. He worked on her cheeks, her neck, the valley between her breasts with his hands and his mouth. He wasn't pushing or rushing. He felt Eddie's hand in his and her nails sliding over his bare back. He had taken his shirt off when they curled under the blanket. By the time he was finished, Eddie was struggling to contain herself. "Ssh, it's all right. I'm going to take care of you, sweetheart. Ssh."

Jamie leaned over to kiss her, joining their mouths as he joined their bodies. He felt Eddie welcome him both with her mouth and her femininity. When they had finished, Jamie pulled Eddie so she was lying on top of him. "I love you, Eddie Janko." He kissed her nose and each eyelid as he felt her breathing calm and her body relax.

Jamie was glad of this special memory he made with Eddie that night for she was on edge most of the next day. Jamie tried to keep her busy but she didn't even want to eat very much, which was very unlike Eddie. He didn't force her, maybe she wouldn't get sick if she didn't have too much in her stomach.

They met up with Frank and Dr. Schmidt at 7 o'clock. It was becoming dark out. Eddie was surprised she was at her old high school. Jamie has been tight lipped about all of this.

"Why are we here?" she asked the doctor. "I haven't been here in years, I didn't even graduate from here my parents transferred me to a private school…" Eddie's police brain engaged then. "It was here, whatever it was, it happened here?"

"Let's just start by walking, you and I. Jamie and Frank, you can sit on the steps and Eddie and I will just take a nice walk." Dr. Schmidt had one hand gently on the back of Eddie's jacket. "Breathe in and out, smell the air, hear the noises around and try to picture the last time you were here in this place. Who were you with?"

Eddie reached into her memory but it was blank, "I don't know. I can't remember that."

"You can remember, Eddie. You can…think about it again. Was it a boy? A girl? Your mother?" The doctor kept her voice soft and low as they walked slowly closer to the area Peter Janko had identified as her attack site.

"I was with boys," Eddie replied. "I didn't like girls, too catty."

"Good, that's very good, now do you remember what you did with those boys?" Dr. Schmidt probed. "Did you play sports? Run track?"

"No, no I…I didn't like those boys, they were too rough but they kept going after me," Eddie replied going into a near trance-like state. "Four boys, maybe five. Tom, Justin, Mike, Gilbert, and one other but I can't think."

"You are doing great Eddie," Dr. Schmidt praised. "You really are doing fabulous. Now let's go to a cool spring night. It's dusk like now…there's a pretty girl with short blond hair walking along the sidewalk. There are five boys on the corner but she's not scared is she? Can you see her?"

Eddie tried to picture the girl in her mind but failed, "I can't see her! I can't do this, I'm sorry." Eddie took off running away from the doctor toward the safety of Jamie and Frank. She didn't want to do this anymore. She wanted to go home.

Jamie saw her running and in spite of Frank's command to stay put he went to meet her, "Take me home, Jamie! I want to go home!"