The next morning, I was up hours before Bellamy. Octavia came into our tent at about 4am to put me on Murphy duty so that she could get some rest. I was careful not to wake him as I slipped out of bed and headed back to the drop ship.
The kids outside were restless, complaining about Murphy's cries and getting more and more impatient about the whole situation. I had to get the seaweed soon or there would be chaos.
When I got inside, Jasper and Finn were leaning against two different walls, fast asleep. Murphy was groaning loudly in pain, but they must have been too tired to be kept up by it. I leaned over Murphy to check his vitals when Monty startled me by accidentally dropping his tools.
"Sorry." He mumbled as he worked on a wristband. He must have pryed it off of Octavia before she went to bed.
"It's alright, did you want to get some sleep? You've been at that all night." I replied. Monty shrugged and just kept working so I let it go.
I sat next to Murphy until the sun came up, periodically checking his vitals and cleaning the wound. There wasn't much I could do for him until I could get a group together to go down to the river. If today was anything like the last time, there would be acid fog and we needed to be prepared.
Octavia returned after breakfast was served with a plate of deer meat for Monty and I. The smell of food was enough to stir Jasper and Finn out of their sleep. Finn came over to see if I needed any help, but I told him to go get breakfast with Jasper.
"Can you hold him down? I need to cut away the infected flesh." I asked Octavia. She looked nervous, but she still walked around me and held him down. The more I cut at him, the louder he screamed and the more frustrated the group outside became.
"Clarke, people are getting restless. A team needs to go get the seaweed now." Bellamy said as he climbed up the ladder.
"I know, I'm going." I said, setting down the knife.
"I'm going with you." Octavia insisted.
"No, I need you to stay here with Murphy for the day and make sure he's comfortable." I told her. She groaned, but she didn't protest.
"So who's going with you?" Octavia asked.
"I'll go." Finn said as he climbed up the ladder behind Bellamy.
Bellamy glared at Finn, "You know what, I'll go too babe." He said to me.
The silence in the room was deafening and the last thing I wanted to do was be trapped in an old car with them both over night, but they were the only help I could get.
"I'll put Miller in charge of the camp and warn him and Atom about the acid fog. I'll meet you at the gate in ten." Bellamy said as he climbed down the ladder. Murphy let out another cry of pain, but Octavia was quick to place a cold towel on his head to comfort him.
"Shh, you'll be alright. Clarke is going to help you." Octavia cooed. I collected my things and smiled at her, knowing that I was leaving Murphy in good hands.
When I finally made it to the front gate, Bellamy and Finn were already there, waiting for me. There was an eerie distance between them, but I filled the gap and walked with them both at my sides.
"Look at this!" Finn exclaimed. I knew exactly what he had found; the old truck that we road the fog out in last time.
"Come on, it can wait, Murphy can't." I said. After a few more minutes of walking, Bellamy's hand was laced with mine. His touch felt so natural that I hadn't even noticed when he took my hand until i felt him squeeze it to get my attention
"How are you today, princess?" Bellamy asked. Finn walked up ahead of us, but I could tell he was trying to listen in on our conversation. I couldn't understand why he was so interested in me this time, just like he had been the first time. This time around I was with Bellamy and he deliberately told me about Raven. It made absolutely no sense.
Octavia never ended up with Atom or Jasper this time. It was probably because Bellamy trusted his sister now and didn't leave Atom in charge of her. Whenever Octavia wanted to come with us, Bellamy let her. But it was clear that Jasper still liked her, although she barely noticed him. Last time he had to do adventurous things and overcome death to get her attention, but even then what they had didn't last. Maybe being in prison with me changed her too.
All of this still didn't explain why Finn was acting like he had feelings for me. I thought I'd made it clear that I wasn't interested, but he didn't seem to be getting the picture. If he didn't back off soon, I knew that Bellamy would step in, and that was the last thing I wanted. Bellamy was managing to keep his cool much better than I thought he would, but his patience with Finn was wearing thin.
"Princess?" Bellamy asked. I snapped out of my thoughts and turned to him.
"I asked you how you were doing but you completely zoned out on me for a second there." He said, with a hint of worry in his voice.
"I'm better today." I replied. That wasn't a lie, the more time I spent with him, the more I felt like we were getting back into our normal routine as a couple. Well, as normal of a routine as a couple can get that's reliving two years over again.
"That's good. I barely slept last night." He admitted.
"How come?" I asked as we finally reached the river.
"I was thinking about what you said, and I wanted to watch you sleep. Something about the grounders being out there again made me want to stay up on guard, just in case." He answered. I was speechless. Bellamy had stayed up most of the night last night just to watch me sleep. I blushed and looked at the ground, unsure of how to respond but I felt a smile creeping up on my face. Part of the reason why I loved Bellamy so much was because he still gave me butterflies.
"You're a beautiful sleeper by the way." He added. I laughed as we trudged into the water and collected the red sea weed. Finn stood on shore, clearly feeling like the third wheel, but I tried to ignore him.
"Especially when I drool right?" I teased.
Bellamy chuckled, "Especially then because that's when I know you're having weird sex fantasies about me."
I splashed him with water for the comment, prompting him to splashing be back, thus inciting a water splashing war.
"Uh, guys." Finn said . We ignored him, simply laughing and playing in the water together. I dunked Bellamy, but he broke free from the water and shook his hair out in my face. I laughed as he tackled me under water. We were both submerged when Finn came running towards us.
"GUYS!" Finn screamed as we came back to the surface for air. Bellamy and I stopped splashing around to glare at Finn. The water became still again and I felt like my heart dropped. Several birds flew overtop of us and the sky became bright yellow. Suddenly, a huge tornado of Acid Fog was barreling towards us.
"Run, RUN!" I screamed, heading for the shore with Bellamy close behind me. I kept the seaweed close to me as we bolted through the forest so I wouldn't lose it. The cloud of fog was catching up to us quickly, but we were almost to the truck.
"Clarke, run!" Finn shouted from up ahead. Bellamy was behind me to make sure that I didn't fall. I could see the door of the orange truck swing open as Finn crouched down and waited for me to arrive. The acid fog was hot on our tail and it was starting to blow onto Bellamy's skin.
"Gah! Dammit!" Bellamy shouted as the fog drifted closer and closer to him.
I jumped into the truck as quickly as possible, followed by Bellamy and later Finn. Their skin was already starting to blister as I did my best to seal any openings. Once we were safely sealed off, I collapsed in the backseat and tried to catch my breath.
"Are you alright?" Bellamy asked me, looking me up and down for blisters.
"Yeah, you?" I asked.
"Yeah, a few blisters but nothing that will kill me." He replied, kissing my forehead in relief.
"So THAT is the acid fog you were talking about? Holy shit." Finn said as he rummaged through the car. I knew he would find the bottle of whiskey soon and I honestly couldn't wait to get my hands on it.
"I hope Atom's alright." Bellamy said to me. I leaned over to rest my head on his shoulder and hold his hand.
"He didn't go hunting with you this time, I'm sure he's back inside the drop ship with everyone else." I comforted him. Bellamy nodded and rested the side of his head against mine. We laid like that until Finn turned around with the bottle of alcohol.
"Booze-" Finn gasped, pulling out the old bottle of whiskey. Now Finn had Bellamy's attention. He sat down across from us and took a sip of it, shuddering at the strength of it.
"Whiskey I think, better than the moonshine on Agro station." He said, but I already knew that because he'd said that before. Bellamy leaned over and grabbed the bottle from Finn. Then he took a swig of it without even flinching.
"Damn that's some good booze." Bellamy said as he handed the bottle to me. I took a swig as well, and sighed as I passed the bottle back to Finn.
A few hours later, I realized that my tolerance level was not the same as it had been before Bellamy and I were sent back in time. I still had the tolerance of my younger self, making me become very drunk very fast.
"You wanna know what I wanna know?" I slurred, not making any sense. Finn burped and chuckled. He was drunk, but not nearly as drunk as I was. Bellamy, on the other hand, was just lightly buzzed.
"Why the hell we are being forced to relive the past. I'm not a bad person, I don't deserve this.I can be fun. You think I'm fun?" I mumbled, taking another swig from the bottle. Bellamy gently reached over and took the bottle from me.
"I think you're cut off." Bellamy said.
"Hey, there's something we both can agree on." Finn said to Bellamy. Bellamy raised the bottle to that and took another drink.
"I'm still fun and sexy! You think I'm fun and sexy right?" I asked Bellamy while I ran my fingers up and down his arms.
"You're fun and sexy." Bellamy said awkwardly.
"You don't seem like you mean it." I pouted, crawling away from him. The words were coming out of my like vomit and I couldn't control it.
"I mean it, Clarke." He said.
"Finn used to think I was fun and sexy." I slurred. Bellamy's face turned red and his fists clenched but I couldn't stop the words from spilling out of my drunk mouth. He looked like he was about to punch the smirk off of Finn's face.
"What do you mean?" Finn asked, suddenly growing serious and prompting Bellamy to back off.
"You were in love with me and I was starting to fall in love with you too, but you broke my heart when I found out about Raven and then you died. I was the one-It was me I did it. But I had to, I had to kill you, Lexa would have-I had to..." I broke out into hysterical sobs that I couldn't control. It was like my emotions were heightened and Bellamy didn't know whether he should comfort me, beat Finn to a pulp, or be angry with me.
"What is she talking about?" Finn demanded.
"Finn, not now. I promise we will explain once Clarke is in her right mind." Bellamy said more calmly than I thought he would, but his demeanor stayed tense and angry.
"But I've always loved Bellamy. That's why I never took you back, I couldn't, I loved him. It will always be Bellamy." I rambled. Bellamy's gaze softened.
"It was our day trip, I fell in love with him on our day trip...but then I thought he was floated and I shut down and now I need to fix us, but idk how to and I'm scared." I ranted through the tears. Bellamy came over and held me in his arms, whispering to me that it was going to be okay.
"I want to fix everything but I just keep ending up messing it up." I stumbled over my words. Bellamy kissed me on the forehead and rocked me to sleep in his arms.
The next morning I woke up first with a brutal headache. It took me a few minutes to realize where I was. Bellamy was holding me while Finn was sleeping across from us with his feet over mine due to the cramped space. I shook Bellamy awake, remembering that we had to get to Murphy.
"Bellamy get up! We have to go!" I said while I shook him. He groaned and pulled me closer to him, not letting go of his hold.
"Bell, we have to get the seaweed to Murphy before someone tries to kill him." I said as I continued to shake him.
"Morning princess" Finn said as he rubbed his eyes. He was cradling the liquor in his arms still from when he'd fallen asleep.
"We have to go." I said to him. Bellamy was finally starting to wake up so I was able to pry myself from him and get up to open the car door. The fog was long gone, and we'd definitely overslept.
"Come one guys, Murphy's dying." I called down to them once I was back outside. Bellamy was the first one up out of the truck. He gave me a soft kiss on the lips as a way to say good morning. I instantly relaxed and pulled him in for a hug.
Finn was next from the truck, carrying what was left of the whiskey. I walked ahead of them, determined to get home as quickly as possible. Bellamy stayed on the lookout for grounders, but I wasn't worried considering the fact that the grounders weren't doomed to attack again for a few more days.
I could hear Murphy's cries before I could even see the drop ship. The fence was almost done so I had to be let in the gate by the patrols, but I beelined my way straight to the drop ship. Finn followed close behind me while Bellamy went to go find Miller and figure out the casualties from the acid fog.
"Thank god you're back, they were getting ready to kill him." Octavia gasped. I ran over to Murphy. I told Finn to get me something to make the tea with while Jasper and Monty continued to attempt to contact the Ark.
Once the tea was done. I gently lifted Murphy's head and poured it into his mouth. Now it was only a matter of time before it kicked in and he would be fine.
"So he's going to live?" Octavia asked.
"Yeah, he's going to be fine." I assured her. She leaned back and sighed in relief.
"Go get some rest, you deserve it." I told her. She nodded, gave Jasper a smile, and then headed to her tent.
"You guys should too." I said to them.
"No, Monty should. He hasn't slept in over 24 hours." Jasper said.
"As the only, almost doctor on the ground, I am prescribing you to get some rest, Monty. I'm sure Jasper can take over just fine." I said. Monty groaned and set his tools down.
"I'll be back here in five hours." He said quickly as he took the bottle of whiskey from Finn and headed down the ladder.
"Watch him for me?" I asked Finn. Finn nodded and sat down beside Murphy.
"I'm sorry for everything I said last night. I know it probably didn't make any sense." I added.
"It's alright, whenever you're ready to explain it I'll be here." Finn replied.
"Okay…" I whispered and then went down the ladder as well.
"Hey Miller, have you seen Bellamy?" I asked the second I saw him.
"Yeah he's by the fire." Miller replied. I thanked him and made my way towards the bonfire. Several members of the hundred were sitting around it, trying to keep warm. Bellamy was talking to Connor and Atom while Harper and Fox drooled over them. I chuckled as I took a seat across from him.
"I'll talk to you guys tomorrow." Bellamy said as he stood up. He reached down and grabbed my hand to help me up and then lead me back towards our tent.
"Any casualties?" I asked.
"Yeah only two. They were too far outside of the walls. Atom was fine, no one went out hunting today." Bellamy replied.
"What about Charlotte?" I asked. I hadn't seen her yet and it was starting to worry me.
"She isn't here. She hasn't been arrested yet." Bellamy said quietly. That meant that we weren't out of the woods yet with her and Wells. When the Ark comes down here, she could still try to kill him or Jaha and we can't let that happen.
"We will save Wells." Bellamy said, like he was reading my mind.
I walked into our tent and collapsed onto the bed, completely exhausted. Bellamy laid next to me, and pulled the covers over us. The night was cool, but not freezing cold. It must be fall because it's warm during the day and chilly at night. I curled into Bellamy and placed my feet in between his. I always did this when I was cold because he would rub his feet against mine and warm them up.
In this moment, with his arms wrapped around my waist, holding me against his chest, I knew I had to have him. I wanted to kiss every inch of his tanned skin, feel him inside of me, and become one with him. This Clarke was still a virgin, and she intended on losing her virginity to Bellamy Blake.
"Hey Bellamy?" I whispered.
"What is it babe?" He asked sleepily. For a moment, I was afraid that this wouldn't be the right time to ask. What if he said no?
"I'm ready when you are." I said, looking into his deep brown eyes. At first, he was confused, but when I let my hands slowly wander across his body, he knew. We hadn't had sex yet, because of all of these distractions, but now we had a night to ourselves and I wanted this.
"Are you sure?" I asked me, caressing my face.
I leaned in and kissed him, "yes, I've never wanted anything more in my entire life."
Bellamy moaned and crashed his lips into mine, quickly climbing on top of me and pressing me against the blankets. I lifted my shirt over my head and helped him take his off too. I let my fingers run across all of his muscles and he kissed my neck and panted my name. I wanted him so badly, I felt like I was going to explode, but Bellamy wanted to do this right.
He ran his fingers through my hair as his lips traveled down to my collarbone and then to my breasts. He unhooked my bra in one quick motion and then threw it on the ground. I moaned as he began to gently massage my breasts while leaving a trail of kisses down my stomach. He'd nibble on my skin just a little bit, making me want to cry out his name. Once he got close to my pants, he lifted his head and returned to kissing my lips. He ran his hands up my arms until they were laced with mine. Then, he pulled my hands over my head and continued to kiss me passionately. I couldn't help but melt as he began to grind on me, teasing me.
"Bellamy, please-" I gasped. He chuckled which honestly made him even more sexy. His deep voice mixed with the sounds of him panting and groaning were enough to turn me on.
"Not, yet, princess." He said in between kisses. I decided to take matters into my own hands and speed up the process. I freed my hands from his and unzipped his pants. He allowed me to tear them off of him, leaving him only in his boxers. I smirked into our kiss as I reached my hand underneath the hem of the boxers and grabbed onto him. He was huge, much larger than I had anticipated, which only made me want him more. Bellamy's breath hitch when he realized where my hand was, and now it was my turn to take control. Just as he was getting mesmerized by my hand rubbing him up and down, I released him for a moment. He pulled away, confused by why I stopped until he realized I was wetting my hand with my tongue. When I wrapped my wet fingers around his cock he let out a gasp in pleasure. That was it.
Next thing I knew his boxers were off and he was positioning himself to come inside of me. We gazed into each other's eyes for a moment, just in case one or the other suddenly had a change of heart, before he lined himself up and slowly pushed inside of me.
I yelped in pain, since this body was still a virgin, causing him to pause. He wasn't even halfway inside of me before I was biting my lip, trying not to cry.
"Are you alright?" He breathed, concern covering his face.
"Yeah, I'm fine." I gasped.
"Okay, I'll take it slow. This is all about you tonight, okay? Just relax." He said. I nodded and braced myself for him to keep going.
"Just focus on me, focus on my eyes. Clarke, I love you." He panted. I did exactly as he said, trying to count all of the different colors of brown that made up his unique eyes. They were like a swirl of chocolate that I just wanted to get lost in.
"I'm completely in babe." He said. I smiled and sighed in relief. It would only get better from here. He tried thrusting, very slowly until my body adjusted. With every thrust, it felt better and better.
"Good?" He asked with a smile.
I smiled back, "I'm perfect."
We decided to stay in the position for tonight until I was fully comfortable. It would take a few more times before sex became completely painless again. I could tell when Bellamy was getting close by the way his muscles tensed. I pulled him closer to me and kissed his neck as he came inside of me. I tugged on his dark hair as he wound down and then pulled out.
"Now it's your turn." He said with a wink. I was confused at first, until he dove under the blankets and began to eat me out. I clutched onto his arms as they ran up and down the sides of my waste. I knew my nails were digging into his skin, but I couldn't help myself. I felt myself getting closer and closer, as he tongued my clit.
It was like a wave of pleasure covered every inch of my body as I came in his mouth. I screamed his name at the top of my lungs, and I knew I'd hear about that tomorrow from the rest of camp, but I didn't care. Bellamy kept going until I forced him to stop because I was so tired.
"Wow." He said as he poked his head back up. He licked his lips and then laid beside me.
"That was the best sex I've ever had." I gasped. Bellamy chuckled and reached across the blankets to hold my hand.
"I love you so much, Clarke." He whispered.
"I love you too, Bellamy. Always." I replied. A rush of relief flooded both of us when I said it. I hadn't told him I loved him in a long time, but now I knew that it didn't matter how much I tried to push him away, I'd always come back to him. It would alway be Bellamy.
We fell asleep shortly after that, both of our bodies exhausted from the long day. We may not know why we were sent back here, but what we did know was that we were in love with each other, and no act of the universe could ever change that.