Chapter 13
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LPOV
It took me 5 more hours to realize what I was doing. I was being stupid. I didn't let jake explain properly. The care and love I see in his eyes, it can't be forced. He was always there for me. But, I never did anything for him, ever. And, I am hurting him now. This needs to stop. Wow, I sound like mom now. I need to see jacob.
I ran down the stairs and took off towards the front door when suddenly alice appeared in front of me. My race came to a halt. 'What? Why are you standing in my way?' I asked breathlessly. 'Where are you going?' she narrowed her eyes at me.
'Umm.. to see jake?' my answer came like a question. A sudden big smile on her face startled me. 'Finally you are seeing the light huh?' she winked at me. I rolled my eyes at her before side stepping and running towards the woods. I knew jake was near. Maybe it was the imprint guiding me to him or maybe I know him more than I realize. I must have ran for like 10 minutes when I heard a whimper.
I whirled towards the noise. There he was, in his wolf form. Looking at me with pain filled eyes. It broke my heart to see him in this state. His fur was matted with mud and leaves. And, I am the one who caused him this much pain to him. 'Jake' I whispered, afraid that I might scare him. He whimpered again.
I took a tentative step in his direction. He stood his ground so I took several more steps until I was almost touching him. He never took his eyes off me. 'You know this is the first time I am seeing you in your wolf form' I told him. That caught his attention and he took a step back as if to give me some room. 'No, no, don't go. Its ok' I told him with my hands raised in submission, to make him stay.
I could feel all the pain draining away with his close proximity. 'Can I touch you?' I asked jacob. When he nodded, I touched him for the first time in his wolf form. His fur was so soft even with the mud and leaves coating it. I took two more steps closer to him and hugged him with all my might. He stiffened at first but then relaxed.
'I am sorry. I am so so so sorry jacob. I was being stupid. I should have listened to you. I should not have ran like that. I am sorry that I hurt you. And I am so sorry that I told you to stay away. You can give me punishment if you want.' I mumbled in his fur. I know he heard me because he relaxed more and more with each word.
Few moments later he tried to shook me off. I was worried that he was going to leave me but still stepped back. If he wants to leave me, then I won't stop him. How can I blame him for leaving me after what I did to him?
He went into the woods. Maybe he will come back. I was starting to get worried after few moments but he came back. I gave him a small smile when he met my eyes. His answering smile was bigger than mine. In few strides, he was in front of me and then he gave me his famous bear hug. I waited for his response, which I got soon.
'I am sorry too. I should have waited longer. It was not the right time to dump all this on you.' I shook my head. It was not his fault. But I kept my mouth shut. I will let him finish this time.
'Lilly, I.. I cannot explain the pain I went through when you left me. With each breath, I felt like I was dying. The imprint is there to guide us, to take us to our mate, our soul mate. We can wait years for them, like quil is waiting for claire. But imprinting does not make us fall in love. We may mistake our protectiveness for mate for love. But it is not. When the imprinting haze is over, we realize the real feelings. The protectiveness and possessiveness is on the wolf side, which is a big part of our life. But, love. This is all me, human me. Of course my wolf loves you too but that is different. I fell in love with you all on my own.'
'I love all those cute habits of yours. I love when you mock fight with your mom. I love when you play video games with your dad. I love how you pout like a child when alice forces you to be a barbie doll. I love how you take interest in jasper's war stories. I love how you scrunch your nose when you don't like something. I love the way your eyes light up when you taste esme's cooking. I even love how you get angry when someone calls your family leeches. I love everything about you. I love you. I am in love with you.' His words made me feel cherished as well as like a bitch for hurting him like that.
'I love you too jacob black' I told him finally while looking in his eyes. His smile was so big I feared his face was going to break in two. He leaned forward then caught my eyes 'can I?' he asked. I nodded.
In the next moment his lips were on mine. I never felt anything like this before. It was heart-breakingly beautiful. His kiss reminded me of him, hot and passionate. I responded in the same manner, pouring out my love for him. To soon, the kiss ended.
'We messed up. But we will clear this mess.' He whispered while catching his breath. I smiled at him. I almost lost him because of my stupidity and hot-headness. But I will never repeat this mistake ever again. I remembered mom's words 'Do not lose him'. This is going to be my life mantra from now on. I know we are young and we don't know each other that well. But you know when it is right. You know when its love.
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