Chapter 16
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JPOV
I knew I was in for it when lilly turned to me for answers after bella and edward left the house. I thought that I still had few more days if not weeks before bella came back. I was planning to tell lilly about everything. My first love and all. But, I am sure now that fate hates me. Why, I mean why in the world bella had to come back now? She could have waited few more days. It wasn't like she was growing old or something.
But, I cannot change the past. She is here and now lilly expects some answers, answers that I am dreading. I just hope it goes better than the last time I was explaining something to lilly.
'Jake' lilly's voice broke the train of my thoughts. 'We are going hunting sweetheart.' rosalie told lilly. Rest of the cullen family stepped out of the house and into the woods. They were giving us space to talk, to clear things up.
'I was going to tell you lilly. I just thought that it was not the right time for it. I promise I was going to tell you before bella's visit.' I tried to make her understand. I also wanted her to lose some of her anger that I could see burning in her eyes because I kept this from her.
'Tell me what?' she demanded.
'I know bella. I have known her all my life, well almost. She is charlie's daughter, you know Forks' police chief, who is also my dad's best friend. Our families have known each other for years. Bella lived in Phoenix with her mom. But she used to come to forks in summers. We used to play together when we were kids. Well, she used to play with my sisters and I used to follow her around.' I took a deep breath before continuing.
LPOV
I was curious to know more about jake and bella's relationship. So I listened closely when jake was explaining.
'When bella was 17, she came to live with charlie. That was the time when I met her again after years. I ... um.. I developed a crush on her.' He told me while staring deep into my eyes. I frowned. I do not like where this conversation is going. Jake got my attention by speaking again.
'Lilly, I ... I was infatuated with her. I am going to admit that I have liked her since childhood. But she never felt the same for me. She fell for edward. They met in school and fell in love. They spent every moment together. And I lost my chance to be with her. But then, edward suddenly left. Your family can tell you better about those times because they were there. They left with edward too.'
'Bella was heart broken. But, then she came around. We started to meet again. She started to come to the rez. I became her best friend. I helped her during that tough time. And' he cleared his throat before speaking again 'I fell for her. My crush turned into love. My first love'. He gave me some time to adjust to the information but it was too much. He loved her. He loved bella. I felt my anger spiking. It was not his fault that he met bella before me or he fell in love with her. But it still hurts to hear that.
But, suddenly I remembered the last time I acted out rashly. The pain, the suffering.
No, this is not going to be the same. I will hear him out first. 'Then what?' I spoke through a tight throat. Jake took my hands in his to make me look at him.
'Then, I phased for the first time. Cullens and activities of other vampires kind of activated my wolf gene. At first, I tried to stay away from bella to protect her from me. Sam's orders for protecting humans from ill-tempered wolves. But she was stubborn. Soon, she was in on our secret. But then something happened and alice came back. Bella heard of edward from alice and left for Italy to save him. When she came back, edward came back with her.'
'We went through a lot together. Bella was a danger magnet. Your family and pack even fought an army of newborn vampires for her. I tried very hard to make her see that edward was not the right person for her, I was. But of course, she chose him over and over. Long story short, she married him after graduation. I have not seen her since then. Last time I saw was on her wedding. I was heart broken. I spent a hell lot of time in woods sulking. But I got over it over time. Time heals your wounds.'
'I never understood why I was not enough for her. I always wondered why edward was so special for her. I never got that until I met YOU. Deep down I always knew that she was not the right one for me but I was too stubborn to accept that. Now I understand love, the real love. Bond with your mate is strong, very strong. You cannot ignore it, no matter what. But, when it is combined with love, it just gets to a whole new level' he continued.
'Now I am very much thankful that bella broke my heart. Or I would have never met you.' He frowned at that. 'Please lilly. I love you, only you. My love for bella is long gone. It's just you who rules my heart now.'
I nodded stiffly. I was still in shock. 'I need some time to think jacob. I am not pushing you away I promise. I just.. I just need to clear my thoughts' I told him. His face fell but he nodded. He stood up to leave me alone to my thoughts but I stopped him before he was out of the house.
I pecked his lips once 'I love you jake' and smiled at him. He gave me a small smile, kissed my forehead and left.
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