So, I know that this chapter is a bit short, but it didn't feel right to put the second and third chapter together. So, that's why. I hope you like it, please leave a review, I'd really appreciate it :) I forgot to mention the last time, the chapter titles are names of songs on my Clexa playlist. The first chapter was Please Don't Go by Joel Adams and this title is Things I'll Never Say by Avril Lavigne.

Chapter 2 - Things I'll Never Say

Clarke woke up as sunlight shone down upon the bed through the large window in her room. She blinked her eyes against the brightness and shifted her body slightly to try to escape it. It was then that she felt soft legs tangled with her own underneath the furs and a steady breathing against her neck.

She stilled again as she reveled in the soft touch of Lexa's hand on her bare hip and Lexa's front pressed against her back. Even though she'd rather never leave the bed again, she knew she should talk to Lexa. She let out a deep sigh.

After a few more minutes of enjoying their positions, Clarke shifted so she was facing Lexa who was yet to wake up. Seeing Lexa so relaxed and peaceful was definitely one of the most gorgeous things she had ever seen, the blonde thought to herself. It had only been the first time they had actually shared a bed while sleeping, and Clarke would be lying if she said she wouldn't love waking up to this sight every day, for the rest of her life. The Commander of the Blood was gone, and in this moment there was only Lexa, young, beautiful and peaceful.

Clarke was somewhat taken aback by how young she looked. It had already been surprising to her to see her without her warpaint or when she smiled at Clarke, but with the way she looked now, Clarke figured Lexa wouldn't be much older than she was.

As much as she enjoyed the sight before her, she couldn't stop herself from moving forward to leave a trail of feather light kisses along Lexa's jaw, eventually moving to her soft lips as Lexa started to rouse from her sleep.

After a few moments, she felt a small smile forming on Lexa's lips, and the hand that had been on her hip moved up slowly, leaving a trail of goosebumps in its wake. Lexa started to kiss her back when her hand reached Clarke's face and cupped her cheek.

Both girls sighed into the kiss as they once again forgot everything around them. The kiss was slow, gentle, a tongue occasionally stroking the other's lips. Lexa's other hand moved to Clarke's waist and pulled her slightly on top of her, bringing their bodies flush together. They melted into each other's embrace and Clarke couldn't help but moan softly at how good it felt to have Lexa so close to her.

When Clarke broke them apart for air, Lexa gently pulled Clarke's bottom lip between her teeth, a slight whimper escaping her at the loss of contact. Clarke rolled completely on top of Lexa, placing her elbows on either side of Lexa to support her weight. She looked at the girl beneath her, her soft, brown hair splayed across the furs.

Lexa blinked a few times, drowning in Clarke's blue eyes. They reminded her of the ocean, and she made a mental note to take the blonde there sometime. Without breaking their eye contact, Lexa reached up and stroked her thumb over Clarke's cheek and then to her lips, once again overwhelmed by the absolute beauty of the Sky girl.

Her hand moved up to tangle in Clarke's hair at the back of neck and pull her in for another kiss again. This time it was more urgent, most of their sleep driven away by now, and Lexa longed to stay in this bed forever with the girl of her dreams in her arms.

Clarke's hands moved to her back as sat up in Lexa's lap, her hands gently willing the other girl to sit up with her. As Lexa moved into a sitting position, she moved her lips to Clarke's jaw, trailing kisses up to her ear. Clarke let out a soft whimper as Lexa softly sucked at the skin of her neck, right beneath her ear.

Lexa let her hands drop to Clarke's hands drawing tiny circles against the skin of her lower back and took them in her own. She sensed that Clarke wouldn't have simply forgotten about the way she had acted after the shooting and, Clarke being Clarke, would probably want to talk about it. Even though Lexa would much rather let her hands roam freely over the girls flawless body than having to express her feelings in words, she restrained herself by threading their fingers together and placing their hands in her lap.

Before she moved her lips away from Clarke's ear however, she softly whispered to her what she hadn't able to express yesterday when Clarke told her.

"I want you too, Clarke."

She then moved her head back and searched the other girl's eyes as she let out a deep breath. Instead of answering her, Clarke's eyes filled with tears and she visibly swallowed as she moved forward to place a lingering kiss on Lexa's cheek.

"Thank you," she whispered, resting their foreheads together.

Lexa felt as though her heart swelled in her chest, causing a light feeling to spread through her whole body. She decided in that moment that Clarke's morning voice was the most gorgeous sound she'd ever heard. Her raspy voice was even more husky than usual, conveying so much emotion in just two simple words. She swallowed hard, trying to get rid of the lump forming in her throat.

"Do you need to talk?" She asked softly, not wanting to break this moment just yet. She looked up at the girl still in her lap, feeling vulnerable but at the same time safe, wanting to always be able to be this close to her.

Clarke searched her eyes, feeling nothing but admiration for her. Her heart skipped a beat at the thought of Lexa being able to know exactly what she needed. She took one of her hands still tangled with one of Lexa's up to her lips and placed a soft kiss on the back of Lexa's hand. Lexa watched her intently, loving every moment she got to spend with the girl.

"We should. Talk, I mean," Clarke replied, lowering their hands into Lexa's lap again.

Lexa's gaze was fixed on her for a few more moments, before she nodded slowly, shifting to lie back down on her side again. Clarke, following her lead, laid down too, facing Lexa while keeping their hands entwined and placing them between their bodies.

Clarke unconsciously let out a deep sigh before she spoke, her soft eyes fixed on Lexa's. "I need to know why, Lexa. Why did you suddenly ignore me?" She said, swallowing hard at the lump in her throat and attempting to blink away the tears that blurred her vision.

Lexa watched her carefully, being a bit better at controlling her own emotions, but she too felt tears start to burn behind her eyes at the sight of the girl struggling in front of her. She just wanted to kiss Clarke and make her forget everything, to just be happy together and not let anything or anyone get in between them. But she also knew that this had to be done, that Clarke deserved to know why.

"I thought ̶ ," she continued, her voice breaking and she took a deep breath to calm herself. "I thought that you lo ̶ " But she stopped herself, snapping her mouth shut abruptly, because Lexa hadn't said it yet. She almost had, when Clarke told her she was sorry for leaving, but she didn't. Her words kept ringing through Clarke's mind. 'Don't be. You have to go back, they're your people. That why I l ̶ '. Clarke knew what she was going to say, but she didn't know why she didn't say it eventually. Did she not feel that way, maybe? 'That's why you're you'.

She stopped her train of thought as she saw Lexa's eyes widen and her body tense up. Clarke could see she was trying to shut herself off again.

"Lexa," she said firmly, holding her greens eyes captive with her stare. "I need you to talk to me."

Lexa wrecked her brain, wondering what to do, whether to choose to stop all this now, like she, being the Commander, should, or to open herself up to the girl before her, like she, being Lexa, wanted to.

Clarke watched the emotions flicker across Lexa's face, watched her furrow her brows, watched her eyes intently watching Clarke's. After a few moments, her contorted face settled on a somewhat more relaxed expression, though Clarke could still feel that her body was tense and Lexa's eyes couldn't fully hide her fear.

She swallowed hard, then spoke softly, her voice breaking slightly. "I do, Clarke, I really do. But I ̶ " She stopped, trying to fight back her tears, her mind racing and her heartrate through the roof. She had always been taught not to open herself up to anyone. And so far, every time she did do that, she had ended up being broken. She had lost her parents, she had lost Costia and now her position as Commander was endangered because she had listened to the girl before her, now waiting for her to continue.

"Love is weakness," she blurted out, her eyes widening in fear, both from expressing how she felt and from possibly hurting Clarke again.

Clarke, however, was unresponsive and unreadable, her eyes moving over Lexa's face, taking in every little detail. Lexa felt like she was unable to breath, desperately waiting for Clarke to say something, anything. Her eyes darted across the blondes face only inches away, searching for a sign that she hadn't screwed things up completely, again.

Then, after what felt like hours, Clarke untangled her hands from Lexa's and slowly moved them up to cup her cheeks. She stared into the green eyes that were looking back at her, fear, desperation and hope swirling just below the surface.

"No, it's not," she told her. Her voice was firm, despite the single tear slowly running down her cheek. "It's the opposite, Lexa. Haven't you realized we're stronger together?"

Lexa let out a deep sigh she didn't realize she was holding, her fear turning into hope. "But Titus tried to kill you, Clarke," she breathed, a tear slipping from her eye as those words hit her. "It's not safe for you to be with me," she explained further, not entirely sure whether she wanted the blonde to agree or not.

But of course, Clarke rarely agreed with her. She sighed and wiped at the tears slowly descending down Lexa's cheeks.

"This whole world isn't safe, Lexa. Besides, when I'm with you ̶ " she hesitated, but then decided that Lexa deserved to know, so she continued. "Only when I'm with you, I feel completely safe."

The words hit Lexa hard and her chest suddenly felt constricted. Clarke felt the same way. Her mind raced, fighting over what to do. She could almost hear Titus lecturing her again. 'Don't make her pay the price for your mistakes as Costia did'. But he had been wrong, right? Clarke just told her. And he had shown, yesterday, that he would hurt her, his Commander. 'Attack her and you attack me'. He was wrong, and Clarke was right. Or not? She couldn't have Clarke get hurt because of her. Not again. But Clarke said that she only felt safe with her.

Lexa fought back more tears, hating herself for finding it so hard to decide. Hating herself for being the Commander and not just Lexa, they would have never had these problems if she had just been Lexa. But then again, they would have probably never met, had she not been the Commander.

But now, she decided that she, for once, was going to be Lexa, not the Commander. She decided that now, she was going to be honest, no matter how much that would hurt her. Because if she wouldn't be honest right now, she would lose Clarke too – she knew that. She would rather die protecting Clarke than lose her now, because of what she'd been told all her life by a man who would willingly hurt the – dare she say it? – love of her life. Clarke was right, she could feel it within her heart. Love is not weakness.

"I feel safe when I'm with you, too," she said, her eyes desperately staring into Clarke's, wanting to forever drown in that ocean of blue. Lexa saw a tiny smile tug at the corners of Clarke's lips as she closed the few inches of space between them, pressing a tender kiss to Lexa's lips. It was short, too short for either girl's liking, but it conveyed the meaning of a thousand words.

Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed. I already have an idea as to where this story will go and I think that will take quite some time, so I expect to write many chapters. All I can promise is that they will eventually have a happy ending, and that I actually keep my promises (not talking about anyone in particular, ahem, JRoth...) So, please leave a review! I'll update again as soon as possible ;)