Chapter 19

I am so sorry for the late update.I was busy with job. Please ignore spelling and grammar mistakes. SM owns everything.

LPOV

It was only when edward and bella were out of sight when my family and jake relaxed.

'She will come around' esme said. Mom snorted at that while dad frowned. 'Keep an eye on her for me alice' she said after taking a deep breath. I was still thinking about bella's feelings for my jake. Indirectly, she had made it clear that she still has claim on jacob, well sort of, in her mind.

It looks like it does not matter for her that she is married and jake has a mate. Oh god, why my life is so complicated? And, what am I going to do about it? The train of my thoughts broke when jake turned to me. I know he has questions about what bella said. Time to clear things with him.

'Come with me' I took his hand in mine and led him to my room. I sat down on the bed and motioned for him to do the same. 'Jake. There are lots of things about me that you do not know. Of course you know how I was adopted. But, you do not know about the conditions that are connected with my life in this vampire world.' I took few moments to gather my thoughts.

'Take your time' jake whispered. I smiled at him in thanks 'You know about the volturi right?' I continued once he nodded in answer 'Then you must know that no human is allowed to know about vampires. It is the very first rule of the vampire world. A human who knows this secret is either killed or turned' jake went rigid with my words. I know the things I am going to tell him will only hurt him more. But, we will find a way. And for that, he needs to know everything.

'My family kept me a secret from other vampires and from the volturi for many years. But then, a few years back, the secret was revealed. You remember the time when bella went to Italy to save edward?' he nodded stiffly 'Umm .. Aro found out about me from edward and alice. My family was summoned to Italy. After long discussions and arguments, my life was spared. But only on one condition.' I gazed into his eyes trying to make him understand.

'Change you' jake stated. I grimaced and nodded. 'And when you were going to tell me about this .. little secret of yours?' he almost growled at me. I winced at his allegations, but he was right. I kept this from him even when we promised to not to keep anything from each other. So, I answered truthfully.

'I was going to tell you. I really was. I promise. I just ... I do not want to become a vampire anymore.' I told him. He stiffened and glared at me 'Anymore?' he questioned through clenched teeth. I swallowed before answering 'I wanted to before I met you'. Jacob growled so loud I thought I felt the walls shaking. In the next second, my family was in the room ready to attack him.

'It's ok guys. It's ok. I am fine. He is fine. Everything is good.' I tried to settle things. After few long moments and several deep breaths later, all of them left the room one by one. Jake just stood there breathing heavily, obviously trying to calm himself. 'Jake' I whispered once we were alone.

'You wanted to be one of them?' his question had me flinching. But, he needs to understand. I will make him understand. 'Jake. They are my family. All I ever knew was them. What do you think I was going to do? Stay human, age and then die while my family stayed the same. I wanted to be with them forever. I wanted to spend my forever with them. But it all changed when I met you. I discovered this whole new ... I don't know .. a concept of life. With you, I feel like I want to live. You make me whole and alive. And I want to feel that way forever. I mean, not forever of course.' I took a deep breath before continuing.

'I just want you to understand that you have changed me. You have changed my ways, my views on life. And trust me, my family could not be happier to hear this. But I WANT to stay human. I want to be on your side till my last breath. I want to love you till my heart stops beating. Jacob, I am in love with you. And I will stay with you, if you will have me' This is it. This is the moment that is either going to make us or well make us. I won't let anything break us again. It will just take it longer if he is mad at me.

I waited for his answer or any reaction from him. 'I do not know what to say. But I am glad that you do not want to become a vampire.' his answer relieved me somewhat. 'I know you are mad at me jake but please believe me when I say that I was going to tell you. I swear, I just didn't know how you were going to react to this.' I tried to clear things.

'Well its not really something I expected. I should have. I mean I knew about the volturi and their rules. I knew what would happen if a human got to know about vampires. I should have remembered. I cannot believe it slipped from my mind. I am so naive. Every time I think everything will be alright, something like this happens and next thing I know my heart is in million pieces' his voice broke at the end, which broke my heart. I had hurt him again.

'Jake' I whispered 'I am so sorry.' I hugged him from behind trying to soothe him 'And you are not naive. You are sweet and good and kind and many good things along with sexy. But not naive' He brought his hands over mine on his waist and kept them there. We stayed like this a long time. Then he sighed and turned in my arms. He kissed my forehead and turned to leave 'I will see you tomorrow' he said before stepping out of the room. I sighed heavily.

A sudden cold breeze chilled me and I turned to the direction where it came from. Window was open but light was blocked by a person. Bella. She just stood there staring at me with cold eyes while I was frozen at my spot. What is she going to do? What is she even doing in my room.? My heart hammered in my chest. 'Lilly' A frantic voice had me turning to the door where jake was breathing heavily like he ran upstairs. When I turned back to the window, bella was gone.

'She was here jake. She was here' I whispered fear lacing my voice. I was afraid to even think of future now.