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Sacrifice or Selfishness

Bellarke

Chapter 2

Clarke and Octavia were standing just out of sight from Arcadia.

"Clarke, I'm sorry… I didn't think he'd…" There was the Octavia she knew from when they landed. The blonde smiled weakly.

"He made his choice Octavia. We will make ours. I'll see what I can do to help you sneak Lincoln and the others out of Arcadia Lock Up." She said placing her hand on the girl's arm.

"Clarke… I know you didn't want to leave us there… your mom, Kane, and me. And despite how… angry I was… I am. I understand you did it to keep Bellamy safe." Octavia had really struggled with that, but when she caught wind of the "Wanheada stopping Heda from killing the Skai gada, Sky girl" from some other Grounders a while after Clarke left. he knew that even though she got in the blonde's face and basically treated her horribly, Clarke still looked out for her.

Clarke just offered her a smile and a light pat. "Keep your eye out and we'll find a way to get Lincoln out… and Bellamy back to normal. If I have to drag him kicking and screaming I will."

Octavia let out a laugh, the fear she felt was melting away. With Lincoln in lock up and Bellamy being stupid she had felt so scared that she would be alone again. "I know you have to go back to Lexa… but…"

"I will be back Octavia. You will not be alone." Those words broke the brunette's resolve, she threw herself into the blonde's arms, hugging her tightly. She didn't cry even though she wanted to, but she needed that.

"Hurry back Clarke… please." She whispered, pulling away from the older girl.

Clarke moved to squeeze her arm in comfort before heading back to Lexa.

It was a while after nightfall when Clarke came back, against Lexa's wishes.

Lexa may have agreed to trying for peace again, but soon after seeing Indra's reaction… she realized it may be a mistake to a degree. Pike had to go and with so many willing to follow him it wouldn't be as easy as taking him from power.

Octavia had moved a good distance away from Arcadia, keeping them in her sight, but herself out of their sight. A small fire was lit, which guided Clarke back to her. The blonde moved to sit down across from her at the fire, pulling out some rations she brought from Polis.

"Thanks. So what's the plan?" Octavia asked, taking a bite out of the dried meat.

"I convinced Lexa to look to bringing peace… but we need to get Pike out of power and his followers to trust the Grounders... or at least to follow Kane or my mom again." Clarke sighed, taking a drink of her water.

"So… easier said than done." This earned a tired look from Clarke.

"Yes. Much easier said than done."

There was a long pause before Octavia broke the silence.

"So… why did you leave?" She knew it wasn't really her place to ask, but she saw what Bellamy and everyone went through.

Clarke took a break and looked up at the Sky.

"Well, it started before we were taken to Mount Weather… I was the one who ended Atom's life after the acid fog. I took then knife when Bellamy couldn't. Then finally when I leaned Wells would rather me hate him than my mom…and I hated myself for hating him when he didn't do anything wrong… and Charlotte... I began losing myself. Finn kept me sane… until Raven came down."

Octavia's wide brown eyes were watching her, listening to the explanation.

"I was beginning to lose myself after that, and Bellamy became a crutch of sort. When Finn and Bellamy were gone in Mount Weather, I snapped. I saw Monty in the room across from mine… until one day he was gone and a person was cleaning out his room. I broke the glass and threatened to kill her. That was when I realized I was spiraling.

"I was going to kill everyone to escape. I was willing to open a door and kill everyone… but Jasper and Maya… they begged me not to. I thought… maybe Mount Weather would be a good thing… until I found Anya and we escaped. When she died after finally trusting me… because one of the people from that god damned Ark came down and shot her, nearly shooting me, I realized I was leaving a trail of death in my path."

"Then what happened with Finn and Lexa…" Octavia trailed off, remembering the ceremony... hearing Raven scream.

"Yeah. Lexa told me what they'd do to him. I couldn't let him just die in that kind of pain. Especially since it only happened because he was trying to find me." She took a shaky breath. "Then Lexa kissed me… and the bomb and the betrayal…" Sobs were beginning to bubble past her lips.

Octavia wanted to tell her to stop, she hadn't seen her so broken before.

"I didn't want to leave you there… We were trying to go after the guy to stop the damn bomb. I didn't want you there, or my mom, or anyone. I wanted to get everyone out." Tears were spilling from blue eyes. "I didn't want to risk Bellamy or any of our friends…"

Octavia moved to touch Clarke's hand only to have the girl yank it away. Not out of anger or hate, but her teary eyes were filled with fear. This shocked her to the core. Had Clarke really become so broken that she was afraid to be touched?

"Then Lexa betrayed us all… and Bellamy and I… we had to kill everyone… all of those children… those innocent lives. I had wished… I wished I just opened that damn door. It would have been my fault only. That Jasper wouldn't hate Monty and Bellamy. That he could just hate me. That no one would have died. That I wouldn't have met Lexa."

Octavia was quiet, watching Clarke show her how broken she was.

Clarke pulled her knees to her chest, her forehead to her knees as she cried. "I hate myself because if I hadn't listened to Jasper and Maya… None of that would have happened." She whispered the last part.

"I left… because I was going to end up killing everyone I cared about. I'm a monster… Bellamy was right, when I'm in command… people just die..." Her voice was so broken, and it killed Octavia to hear that Bellamy even allowed himself to put that thought in her head.

"You're not a Monster. I was wrong… everyone was wrong. Clarke… we should have never put any of that on you to begin with." She moved to pull Clarke into her lap, letting the blonde cry into her embrace.

Octavia had been so mad at Clarke because she looked to the girl as an older sister, but she realized… Clarke wasn't this all powerful woman. She wasn't some princess on a pedestal… she was a girl who tried to keep everyone safe and only damned herself to do it.

"Why did you stay in Polis… why didn't you come home?" Octavia whispered as she held Clarke, stroking her hair. They were never super close, but Octavia hoped maybe one day they could be.

"I had to make sure Lexa kept her word… If she didn't… I'd kill her myself." She whispered, clinging to Octavia despite every part of her brain saying she deserved to be hated, to be alone, and that she didn't deserve comfort from someone she hurt.

Octavia wouldn't let her pull away, Clarke needed someone and Bellamy had tossed her away and broken her further. She may not have been happy the way Clarke left, but she could see why she did. She deserved to be a little selfish.

Bellamy had gotten up off the floor once his body allowed him to stand. He didn't mention anything to Pike about Octavia leaving, or that Clarke was here in the first place. He could have… he should have… but he didn't want to risk Pike making them enemies after what happened to the three hundred Grounders.

He was angry at Clarke, upset at Octavia, but neither of them deserved to die.

Pike… Pike would be willing to kill anyone that stood in his way. He knew Clarke to be a threat after Polis, and Octavia… he didn't want to see his little sister hurt, but Pike would go after her, especially since she helped Clarke escape.

He wasn't ready to see Pike yet so he let his feet carry him wherever. Before he knew it he ended up at the lock up. Miller was alone standing guard as every eye in the area was on him, glaring at him.

"Natrona." Traitor.

"Branwada Skaikru." Foolish Sky People

Lincoln's hard glare met him, as the large male sized up the smaller male, the only thing separating them was the bars of the cell. "You're a coward." He growled. "Clarke may have done many regrettable things, but she owned up to it. You're hiding behind a man with no honor!" He snapped at the younger male.

Miller was no better, the younger male glaring at his once leader. "What the fuck were you thinking Bellamy? Killing people sent to protect us. What would Clarke say?" Miller was angry. "You're not the same Bellamy that came down to Earth. That Bellamy would never let this happen. He would never let us throw injured and sick people into a jail, especially our friends and allies."

Miller was so angry, he stalked towards Bellamy, "You're letting someone control you, someone far worse than Jaha ever was! Damnit Bellamy, you're supposed to be our leader. Clarke may have left, but she sure as hell has fought for us tooth and nail. I bet even now she's fighting for us."

"You don't get it Miller, they killed Gina!" Bellamy yelled.

"And Clarke had to kill Finn to protect everyone!" Bellamy was taken aback. He didn't know Miller knew about it, he had been in the Mountain when it happened.

Wick told Miller when they came back. He asked where Finn was, Raven stormed out of the area with tears in her eyes. The engineer told him how Clarke killed Finn to not only protect them, but to save him from a painful death.

"Clarke isn't perfect Bellamy, but she tries! You have given up and now you're following some scum." He didn't care anymore, "Fuck it Bellamy. Go float yourself! You're becoming one of them… worse than before though. So run off to your fucking Chancellor. Be his little bitch. Fucking be a snitch for all I care, but be damned sure that I didn't betray my friends. You did." Miller pulled away, his face red with fury as he went back to his post.

Bellamy didn't know what to say to any of that. He just turned on his heel and moved to leave.

Miller slipped the antibiotics Abby snuck him to Lincoln before being left to his thoughts when the other guard came back.

Miller had started dating Monty around the time Bellamy and Gina hooked up. Monty had this unwavering loyalty to Clarke. He said that he watched her break up on that mountain, and if anyone needed time away from everyone, it was her. He had so much faith in her, he thought Monty had more faith in Clarke than she did in herself.

What was left of the original hundred, they were torn. Clarke and Bellamy were their leaders, but Clarke was gone and Bellamy was following a blood thirsty monster. None of them trusted the Grounders besides Octavia, but they knew that slaughtering them was wrong. They wanted Clarke back, so she could talk some sense into Bellamy.

Bellamy stormed off into an empty corridor of the inner building. His breathing heavy as he filled with more and more anger.

"Damnit!" He yelled, slamming his fist into the metal wall, only to cringe. "Fuck!" He cursed loudly, cradling his hand from the pain.

"Well, that was stupid." A voice commented behind him. He looked only to see Abby.

She was carrying a bucket of water, more than likely taking the long way to lock up to avoid Pike.

"What? Don't you hate me too?" His voice came out bitter and hurt.

She set down the bucket of water. "No Bellamy, I don't." She stuck out her hand, motioning for him to give her his injured hand. "I may not agree with your decisions Bellamy, but they are your choices to make. You are an adult and you need to make your decisions and learn from your mistakes. It was something I should have done with Clarke."

She felt his hand, nothing was broken. "We sent you and the hundred down here, expecting you to make decisions and mistakes that could likely be your last… and I regret that. It was a mistake on my part. But you and the hundred surpassed what I ever dreamed."

"Don't you think I am doing something wrong?" He asked, feeling guilty as he hesitantly met her light brown gaze.

She sighed. "What I think doesn't matter Bellamy. What you think, and you alone, is the only thing that matters. So you need to ask yourself, are you making the right choices. I can't tell you what to do, only you can. If you think following Pike is the right then, then you follow Pike. I can't change your decisions, nor can I tell you what is right or wrong Bellamy, you're an adult."

She let go of his hand. "Nothing is broken, go see Jackson to get it iced. Tell him I told you to." She said lightly, offering him a light smile. "Bellamy, make your own decision on what you want. Not Pike, not Kane, not me, not even Clarke, only what you want." She said before grabbing the bucket to head to lock up.

He knew he wasn't doing the right thing, and he hated himself for following Pike, but Gina was dead and someone needed to pay.

He didn't love Gina, and he knew that. She was there when he was on the verge of breaking. When Octavia pulled away, and Clark was gone, she was there.

Gina and Clarke were like night and day. Clarke was the princess, prim, proper, serious. Gina was… a whirlwind, playful and sweet. Clarke was a leader. Gina wasn't. Clarke held authority, and Gina often would shy away from holding a lot of authority among the younger people. Clarke cut his ego down and kept him level headed; Gina praised him, inflating his ego…

Clarke was everything he needed. She played the game of dominance with him. Gina wouldn't dare to even try to take control of a kiss. Where Gina would playfully call him cocky; Clarke would look him dead in the face and call him a "jerk" or "asshole."

Clarke was… he needed her. Gina comforted him the best she could, but he needed Clarke. He needed her to hold him and tell him everything wasn't okay and that was okay, because they'd be broken together.

Clarke was the Brave Princess, and he the Rebel King. He ruled with an iron fist; she healed with a gentle hand. She… had become his everything and he pushed her away… he said all those things to her.

"Clarke… I'm so sorry…"

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ShadowKurayami: Questions? Comments? Concerns? Review or PM me.

Here is chapter 2. Attempt 2 (See I finished and then Word decided to crash as I hit save. Guess what didn't save? Yep.)

So, I love Minty and Momma Abby.

But let me get this clear, while I am trying to keep the characters as much in character as I can I have a love-hate relationship with a few of them.

Raven, Octavia, and Jasper.

I love them all as characters, but I have major pet peeves about them. I try not to show it, and I need Octavia to be Clarke's support.

I don't think Lexa will really be good for Clarke (But I do love me some Clexa), but Octavia maybe understanding why she did certain things, offering her that Comfort can really help heal her where Bellamy broke her again.

I especially think the new plan for peace is very poorly timed.

So, again. Rant over.