ShadowKurayami: Chapter three, I'm liking where this is going, The 100 is getting interesting and I am growing to hate the week long wait more and more.

Today I am keeping my ranting to a minimum, because grrr. Pike is freaking ugh!

SPOILERS for 3x06

Sacrifice or Selfishness

Bellarke

Chapter 3

Clarke had fallen asleep with her head on Octavia's lap. The brunette girl was leaning back, sleeping with her back to a tree. It wasn't safe, but she was glad they were okay and that Octavia was getting some rest.

When the blonde moved, she had woken up Octavia, the light eyed brunette blinking quickly. "I'm up!" She jerked forward making Clarke laugh softly.

"It's okay, we're okay. You needed the sleep." Clarke offered her some water, looking at the burnt out fire.

Octavia took a drink from the canteen, looking over at Clarke. "We need to figure a way to get Lincoln and everyone out."

"I know. It'll be difficult, but I know Kane and my mom will help us." Octavia nodded, "We can probably get Miller or Monty or someone to help out."

"Miller and Monty are a definite, even when… we all lost faith in you, they still held strong. Especially Monty, and with him being Miller's boyfriend, to which Raven still owes me her share of moonshine for, they both held on."

Clarke smiled, she knew about Monty's crush on Miller, she was glad that they were finally together. She also felt a swell of happiness that Monty and Miller both still had faith in her.

"Clarke, we'll get them all out… right? And we'll get Bellamy back… the old Bellamy, right?" Octavia sounded so small and scared, looking at Clarke.

"Yes. If we have to drag him out kicking and screaming." She said, looking over at Octavia.

Over the next few days, Octavia and Clarke parted ways. Octavia was to watch over the camp while Clarke went back to Polis to see to helping Lexa convince the rest of the ambassadors that "Blood does not demand blood" anymore.

Clarke was worried during her time away from Octavia, she wanted to go back and help the younger girl.

After the incident in Polis with Carl Emerson, Clarke convinced Lexa to let her go back towards camp. Titus was unhappy, but abided by his Heda when she allowed Clarke to leave.

While Clarke was riding a horse back towards where she and Octavia made their camp location, the younger girl was leaning against a tree, her horse grazing nearby.

She knew that two people died, and while she was upset that one of them was Monroe, she wasn't as upset as she should have been.

She was mostly upset that they thought of her as a traitor while in reality, they were the traitors. She was afraid, afraid for Kane, because it would backlash on him, afraid for Miller, because he nearly lost Monty and his ex-boyfriend was out for blood, and lastly, she was afraid for Lincoln, because they knew she told… and they could take it out on the man she loved.

"Clarke… I wish you were here… I wish Bellamy was here…" Octavia whimpered, wrapping her arms around herself. Her body ached, her face hurt from the acidic sap. She had escaped the Grounder Village, but there was knowing what would happen next.

"I am here Octavia." Clarke's voice was soft, she had dismounted her horse, gently leading the dark stallion towards the grazing area where Octavia's chestnut colored horse was.

The blonde moved to sit with Octavia, gently pulling her closer so she could tend to the burns.

"I made a mistake… and I think Kane may get punished for it." The brunette whispered.

"Octavia, everything will be okay. Kane is strong… and if we need to, we'll get him out." Clarke whispered, holding the other girl closer to her.

Bellamy didn't know what to do anymore, everything was going to shit.

Octavia betrayed them, but then saved them… but not Monroe. Pike wanted Kane… which meant he'd need to play double agent for Pike.

He didn't know what was wrong or right anymore. With how everything was going, some of the hundred were out for grounder blood, just like Pike.

Today, they nearly lost Monty along with Monroe. Watching the younger female gasp for air before dying, it killed him inside.

Late in the night, he couldn't sleep. Every time he did… he saw someone else emerge from the gas. He sometimes saw Octavia, hearing her try to beg him to end it, but what made him unable to go back to sleep was when it saw long, curly blonde hair and pained blue eyes.

He watched Clarke die… and it wasn't the first time. This time though, he saw her die, because Pike shoved her into the gas. By the time he had been able to rescue her, her lips were pale, parted as they gasped for air in her burnt lungs. She looked up at him with wide, pained eyes, tears flowing from them.

All he could think about after that is what he said to her. How he told her that people died under her leadership… and how angry she was at him.

"Because everything I've done has been for your safety!" Echoed loudly in his head, the anger in her voice, the way she trembled.

"Damnit Clarke. Why the fuck did you have to leave the first time…" He cradled his head in his hands before getting up and pulling a shirt on. He was able to leave camp freely since Pike came to power.

The male had a gun at his waistband and walked out into the forest. It was a stupid move, but he just… he needed to see Octavia, Clarke, one of them. He just roamed, when he finally heard the soft snorts of a horse, he moved towards them.

In a small area between tress, Clarke was awake, stroking Octavia's hair. The brunette was asleep cuddled against Clarke. Just from the peek he got, he could see Octavia's face was burned and cut, even a few bruises. What hurt him was the tear tracks that stained her dirty face.

"Clarke… I hate this." Octavia whispered, not bothering to open her eyes. "I wish we had all just died on the Ark."

"I don't wish that. I just wish I had never left. Maybe… maybe if I stayed… Bellamy wouldn't have been so alone. Maybe Pike would have never come to power." She whispered, holding Octavia tighter.

"You would have broken… You are still broken over what happened." Octavia looked up at Clarke slowly.

"Three hundred and eighty-one people died because of my decision. Bellamy may have helped pull the trigger, but it was my decision." Clarke glanced up. "One hundred and eighty-two men, One hundred and seventy-three women, and twenty-six children." She said lightly.

Clarke slowly continued. "I had to give up killing Carl Emerson to keep the grounders from attacking Arkadia." She said softly. "I… felt better about not killing him, but… he still gave the codes to ice nation." She looked down at Octavia. "Roan gave him to me as a peace offering, and I think as a thank you… for speaking to Lexa of him being in power." She mumbled.

Bellamy watched in silence, before sitting down on the side of a tree, out of their sight, just… listening to them.

"I… wish I could have been there." Octavia confessed. "Who is Roan?" She didn't get that information yet.

"Roan is the new King of Azgada. Originally I went to poison his mother, but she caught me. Then I mentioned him being King to Lexa before Nia had challenged her. During the battle Lexa threw her weapon at Nia, killing her. Then claimed Roan, Nia's son, to be the new king." The blonde sighed heavily. "She had her next chosen Heda pledge to protect Skaikru."

Bellamy held his breath at that comment. His hand clenching at his pants, gripping the fabric so hard his knuckles were turning white. He didn't like the idea of her being so close to Lexa and the other Grounders, but he was also surprised that they were willing to do such a thing for Clarke.

"I just wanted to come home… but Bellamy showed me. I don't belong there anymore."

Octavia laughed, it had sounded so bitter and cold to Bellamy. "Neither do I. I mean… My brother allowed Pike to lock Lincoln up. He's Pike's bitch now."

Bellamy didn't know if he could take listening any longer. He wanted to just go over and embrace his sister, talk to Clarke, apologize to her.

"Octavia. Bellamy is… he'd misguided. But he isn't Pike's bitch. He… Bellamy's angry. At me, at the Grounders, and probably at himself. Pike is just offering a means to get out his anger. Lexa was mine, Pike is his." The blonde was very quiet. The difference between Lexa and Pike, is that Lexa still tried to keep Clarke safe, in her own way, while Clarke didn't doubt if it came down to Bellamy or Pike, Pike would kill Bellamy to save himself.

Bellamy slowly got up. Even after everything, Clarke was still defending him. His back still to the large tree.

"You love Bell, don't you?" Octavia was quiet, still weakly snuggling into Clarke. They only really had each other now.

"I love the old Bellamy. This new one… well… if you hadn't distracted him long enough for me to zap him, I have no doubts I'd be lying in a ditch with a bullet in my head." She knew Pike hated her, she saw it when they barged in on the ceremony in Polis.

Bellamy couldn't take it. She was right, he nearly sent Clarke to her death because he was mad at her. The male tried to leave as quietly as possibly, not wanting to be caught.

They weren't ready, and neither was he.

"Chancellor. Bellamy left in the evening, he just got back." Bryan said, he was Miller's ex-boyfriend, one of the more radical supporters of Pike.

Pike turned to look at the young male, "I see. Any idea where he went?"

"He said he went out for a walk, but we have suspicion that he was looking for Octavia. Whether he is the traitor or not is still unsure. Earlier this evening could have easily been him, just with some miscalculations." Bryan looked at the older man, fixing his jacket.

Bryan was angry, Miller moved on, and someone tried to kill them.

"Keep an eye on him. Next time he leaves at night like that, follow him Bryan." Pike's dark eyes looked at the boy.

"Yes sir!"

Pike sat down, looking at the map. It seemed that Bellamy would eventually become an issue, like Kane. If Bellamy betrayed him, he would make the boy suffer. "Oh, and Bryan. If you see Clarke or Octavia, bring them back here, alive."

"Yes Chancellor." Bryan nodded before leaving.

Clarke and Octavia. They'd be the key to getting everyone to bow down to him. Abby wouldn't risk her daughter, Kane wouldn't risk the girls that risked their lives for his cause, and Bellamy... He doubted the boy could handle watching them die.

Bellamy wasn't going to say anything about Clarke and Octavia, but… he wasn't too sure where to stand. He loved the two girls that had left camp, one being his sister, one being a woman that made him incredibly happy.

Pike offered him revenge though, for Gina. A girl that made him happy when Clarke left.

Bellamy took a breath and began working, talking to Kane for Pike. To find evidence of him and Octavia working together… he wasn't overly sure if he would tell Pike though.

He soon looked to Abby and Kane, who were both were tenderly kissing, causing him to turn away and clear his throat for the adults to separate.

"Damn it… Clarke I need you here. I can't do this alone anymore."

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ShadowKurayami: Questions? Comments? Concerns? Please Review or PM me.

I would love to hear some ideas on how this should progress, I am also always willing to listen to rants about the show as well. I would love to hear all of your theories about what might happen with the characters.

Spoiler comment about 3x06

Who else was pissed when they saw Jackson was a part of A.L.I.E. and Jaha's thing? I know I was.

I'm very disappointed that so many people really followed Jaha to the city of Light, Especially Raven.

I know she did it to get rid of her pain, but there is a certain degree of stubbornness and suspicion she had to just give up after one day. So that was really disappointing.