ShadowKurayami: So, I was watching Eliza Taylor's reaction to The 100 Season 3 Trailer. So… Monty is 15 from what she said.

And I got a few ideas for my story based off the scenes in the trailer.

So… Spoilers for… the trailer, I guess?

Sacrifice or Selfishness

Bellarke

Chapter 4

Abby and Kane pulled apart, the older Griffin female looked away slightly in embarrassment, but did not leave Kane's grasp.

"Bellamy? Why are you here?" Kane moved to stand up straight, gently releasing Abby so he could direct his attention to the younger male.

Kane didn't want to shut out Bellamy, especially after how lost he had been. The older man didn't believe that Bellamy was lost to them, at least… he hoped the he wasn't lost to them.

"C-can we talk? I've been thinking about some things…" Bellamy was quiet. He didn't want to go through what he was going to do, but he needed to stay on Pike's side, within his small band of trusted men to keep his sister safe.

"Of course." He smiled slightly before looking to Abby, "I will see you later. Okay?" His gaze was gentle towards the doctor as she nodded, a small smile on her face.

Bellamy watched the gentle gesture and it caused an ache in his chest. At one point of another, that could have been him and Clarke. He still hoped that one day it could, if she didn't grow to hate him.

Kane moved away from Abby and walked with Kane out of Medical to walk around the area, his eyes occasionally glancing towards the meditating groups.

"How can they be so calm?" Bellamy didn't get it, they were on the brink of another war, yet people were so calm and happy.

"I guess Pike hasn't leaked that information." Kane sighed. "The pill Thelonious was passing out blocks pain receptors. All of them. Abby, was… is very upset because Raven took one and she feels like she just lost another daughter all over again." Kane's eyes glanced towards Bellamy. "She took the pills to study them further, because when she mentioned Wells to Jaha. He didn't remember his own son."

Bellamy nodded slowly, he was silently worried about Raven, but she was a big girl.

"Well… what I wanted to talk to you about… during our trip out, when we lost Monroe… Octavia was there to warn us." Bellamy's voice was quiet. "She knew where we were going, enough to warn them, and to warn us… even though we lost Monroe, I want to thank her, she could have easily let us all die."

Kane nodded in understanding. "I know she'd appreciate that if she heard it from you." He didn't say anything more.

"Kane… I know you helped her. Can- can you get me in contact with her? I'm worried and she could have died… She's my baby sister and I'm not there to protect her."

Kane froze, part of him really wanted to help out Bellamy, but a part of him knew that once he did this, he'd get put into a cell.

Against his better judgement, the man agreed. "Meet me outside Medical in the evening." Kane's voice was strained. He was risking everything for Bellamy by doing this.

"Kane… thank you." Bellamy offered him a weak smile, trying to hold back the anger he felt at himself. Kane was as close as he was going to get to a father, and he was going to betray him.

"What did Bellamy want?" Abby's voice was soft; her hands being wiped onto a dry towel as she looked at Marcus.

"He wanted to thank Octavia… Abby, there is a chance that I'll be taken in tonight. If I am. You know nothing, understand?" His large hands cupped Abby's cheeks. The two had not been together more than twenty-four hours, but he loved Abby, he had since he met the stubborn woman.

"Marcus, you can't." She wanted to yell, scream, smack him, anything to get him to realize what a fool he was being.

"Abby, I told him I would. Bellamy needs to learn his mistakes… and I am not going to keep the possible chance of him realizing them by keeping anything away from him. I will protect Clarke and Octavia by keeping their location secret…"

Abby just wrapped her arms around him, hugging him tightly before Marcus pulled her up into a slow kiss.

"I finally have you… I don't want to give you up…" She whimpered against his lips, trying to plead with him, wanting to beg him from doing it.

"You'll have me, no matter what Abby."

The two remained in the gentle embrace until Jackson came in next, clearing his throat, "Abby, you have a patient waiting for you."

"Go, I will see you later." Kane kissed her forehead, letting her go to work.

That evening, Marcus gave Abby a quiet final goodbye before waiting on Bellamy. He had told Miller to take their second radio and hide it. Keep it off tonight and stay away from Bellamy if he was arrested for helping Octavia.

Bellamy followed Kane to a small room. All the equipment to spy on Pike was removed, just leaving the radio.

"Octavia, come in Octavia."

"Kane? Is everything okay? Is my brother okay?" Her voice was worried, also slightly out of breath. She and Clarke were scouting together. The blonde standing next to her, looking at her in curiosity.

"Yes, he's fine… actually he wanted to speak to you…" Kane looked to Bellamy, handing the radio to the younger male.

"Talk to me, you don't mean—?"

"Hey O…" Bellamy's voice was quiet, and her end was silent for a moment. "Octavia?"

"I'm here." Her voice was cold. "Are you okay? Pike hasn't done anything to you or Lincoln, has he?" She was worried, and it sank into her cold tone.

"Lincoln is fine… still in lock-up, but he is safe. I'm worried about you…"

"I'm fine Bellamy. I mean as fine as I can be… especially after how you treated Clarke…"

Bellamy could feel Kane's eyes on him, almost in a fatherly anger.

"I… She left us all O. She left you to die in that Village—."

"To save your damn ass. Lincoln and I have a right to get mad. You. You don't. She and I already talked it out, I'm still angry, but I understand better."

"Octavia…"

"Why are you really contacting me Bell?" Her voice was sharp. "You're going to turn in Kane, aren't you?" Her voice accusing.

"I…"

"Go float yourself Bellamy. Kane, I'm sorry I put you in a position for this. Clarke and I are going to get rid of this radio now."

"Clarke is still with you?" Kane had taken the Radio from Bellamy.

"Yes, she's here. Also… the man who blew up Mount Weather. He got the Codes from Emerson. He's been punished for his part in the deaths both during the war and the one's from the explosion."

This time it was Clarke. "We have to go. We're sorry." The radio went silent.

Bellamy snatched the radio from Kane. "Clarke! Damnit Octavia, Clarke someone answer me!"

Only silence met their ears.

Octavia threw the ear-com to the ground after Clarke spoke. She was so angry and hurt, tears pouring down her cheeks.

Kane and David Miller played like a father figure to all them after Clarke left and Bellamy lost himself. The original hundred's "mom" and "dad" were gone, but the basically got step parents in Abby, Kane, and David.

"How could he!?" Octavia yelled, wanting to hit something. Taking her frustration on a tree, kicking it, until Clarke pulled her away, into a tight hug.

"Kane has only helped us since you left… and Bell is betraying everyone." She was crying into Clarke's shirt, clinging to the older girl.

Clarke just held her, looking towards the part in the trees. Towards were Arkadia was. "Bellamy… you're going to lose her if you keep going like this." Was all Clarke thought, holding Octavia closer.

In the morning several events happened. Bellamy turned in Kane, who was put in Lock-Up with the patients from medical and Lincoln. Clarke and Octavia parted ways, Octavia heading towards Lincoln's old cave, and Clarke went hunting.

Bellamy walked past lock-up only to be greeted with anger and disappointment from the inmates and Miller.

Pike had set up extra guards by Lock-Up, keeping Abby separated from Kane, which caused her to yell in outrage, before he had publically praised Bellamy for turning in the "traitor" Marcus Kane.

Bellamy wasn't too sure if Pike was trying to praise him or harm him. Half of the camp wouldn't speak to him. Most of them were the people of the original hundred.

Monty wouldn't even look at Bellamy. Monty went along with the trips because of his mother, but everyone, including Pike, knew that the teenage boy didn't support them.

Bellamy hurt, not physically, if it was just a physical pain he knew he would survive, but he hurt down to the depth of his soul.

Tonight… he needed to see Clarke. She could hate him, but he needed to see her.

In the evening he left, claiming to go on a walk later in the evening. He didn't even notice his stalker as he went to find Clarke.

Thankfully at a point during his travel, he lost Bryan, but it wouldn't last. Coming upon Clarke who sat in front of a tiny fire, cooking meat, he trembled slightly.

"Clarke…" He breathed out, making her jump.

The blonde looked at him, having a knife drawn. "Why are you here Bellamy? Octavia isn't here." She was tense, but froze, watching him take out a gun. Her heart hammered in her chest.

"He's going to kill me…" Her eyes were wide on the gun. Gripping her knife tighter.

"C-Clarke?" He looked to her gaze, following it to the gun which he quickly tossed aside. "Shit… Clarke. Calm down, I'm… I'm not going to kill you." His eyes were wide, fear of her thoughts of him.

Slowly the blonde put the knife away, watching Bellamy just looking defeated.

The blonde looked at him, meeting his gaze before suddenly rushing into his arms, hugging him tightly.

That hug broke the walls around both of them. Clarke was holding onto him tightly, sobbing softly as Bellamy dragged her to the ground, unable to stand. He held her tightly, his face buried in her golden locks.

The two held onto each other. Clarke wasn't able to hide her pain, and Bellamy couldn't be strong. They needed each other.

"Clarke..." He whispered, holding her close. Her wet, blue eyes lifted at hearing his hoarse voice.

"I'm right here Bellamy…" She whispered, her fingers timidly touching his cheek, brushing against his warm skin.

He looked down at her, she felt so cold from being out here… "I'm a fucking idiot." He whispered, pressing his forehead to hers.

"You're not an idiot… you're in pain." She whispered and lean into him, her nose gently bumping against his. Their lips were close, but they didn't kiss. "I should have never left you."

"No… you shouldn't have. But I should have never let you go. I should have fought for you to stay."

Their grips on each other tightened, Bellamy leaning back slowly into a tree. The slight warmth from the fire keeping them comfortable. Clarke's body slip down, moving to rest on his chest, listening to his strong heartbeat.

For the first time since everyone was rescued from Mount Weather, Bellamy felt safe… happy. He had Clarke with him.

He hated that soon… he'd need to leave.

Clarke was gently cuddled against him, clinging to him. Her hands fisted in his T-shirt as she rested. "You have to leave… don't you?" She whispered softly, not wanting to let him go.

"I have to… Pike is willing to kill anyone in his way… I am trying to convince him of everyone's worth in lock-up..." He whispered, brushing his lips against her forehead.

He wanted to kiss her, hold her tighter… but he knew if he did… he'd never be able to leave her side.

"Go… just… Stay this Bellamy…" Clarke looked up at him, her face a bit red from the tears. She wanted to kiss him as well, but it would hurt too much to watch him leave.

"I will… I promise you." He whispered, cupping her cheeks. His gaze kept looking to her lips, he had to force himself to stop, kissing her forehead instead. "I will find you again."

She nodded, slowly and reluctantly pulling away from him.

Bryan watched the two, staying out of sight. Pike would have fun with this. When Bellamy was gone the lighter haired male came up behind the blonde.

"It is pretty sad how desperate you are for him." He commented. Moving to seize the girl before she could grab the knife at her waist.

At first light, she'd be dragged through the gate and handed to Pike. Bryan couldn't help but gaze at the gun Bellamy left before forcing Clarke to walk, the girl struggling against him the entire way until Bryan pressed his gun to her lower back.

"Please… whatever God is out there… please don't let this be a set up by Bellamy…" Clarke thought as she soon saw the gates of Arkadia, the sun slowly peeking up in the sky.

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ShadowKurayami: Questions? Comments? Concerns? PM or Review.

So, I don't really want Bryan to be a bad guy, but I don't want him with Miller either.

I love Minty (Miller and Monty). They are adorable, and I love their friendship. So, I figured upset, Bryan would be much like Bellamy was in the beginning, vulnerable. Unlike Bellamy, Bryan watches the one he loves with someone else on a daily basis, which leads to some pent up rage.

Thus seeing Bellamy, Pike's "favorite" getting all the attention, he'd be more than happy to ruin his happiness.

Also, I gotta love the Kabby in there.