Chapter 18: Defense

It was a few weeks after the attack had happened. Gemma and I were trying to move along the best we could without letting anyone know, other than those who already did. Gemma and Clay had been arguing from time to time and it was tense whenever the two were around each other. She let me in on a few feelings she had, but was mostly acting the same part of a dutiful mother.

It was a rough time for the club already and I knew Jax was overloaded with work. We decided to get out for a day by ourselves. Neeta was watching Abel, and we were going to go for a ride on Jax's bike now that I finally wasn't sore. The ride was amazing, it gave me a sense of freedom and weightlessness I hadn't felt in a while. Took me back to late nights with Jax when I was a teen, and even to when I was a little girl riding with my dad.

Jax stopped at an empty park, if you could call it that, that had a few trees and an open space, but no playground or walking trail. This meant there was nobody there but us since it was basically a glorified picnic area. I decided I would tell him, This would be the perfect time. I was reading my book for a while, while he relaxed beside me under the shade of a tree. I was trying to find the right words to say.

I was about to speak up when Jax had broken the silence. "The Jungle?" he asked, laughing slightly. I smiled up at him from my book asking if he read it. I had read it before with Tara back when we were in High School. Her and I had done a report on it with a whole presentation. "That book almost turned me vegan"

I smiled wider and then bit my lip. "You know the funny thing is I could go for a nice big juicy steak, or maybe a long sausage" Jax laughed sensing the shift in mood and he saddled up behind me grabbing my hand and placing it over his jeans.

"I got your sausage right here" he smiled and we started to kiss. Innocently, but heated at first. Before we could get too much further his phone rang and we both sighed a little. We didn't get much quiet time together between Abel and the club so it was a huge bummer to be interrupted. Jax noticed it was from Chibs and he answered.

As soon as he got off the phone he started to get up and told me he needed to go because Bobby showed up at Cara Cara and took over the admin work from LuAnn. I stood up with him and held his hand before he could say anything. I stopped him. "Let me come with you. I'm sure it won't take too long." I still needed to talk to him after all so I would just have to wait until after.

We walked to his bike and sped off. Little did I know I would be needed at Cara Cara more than I knew. We pulled up outside and I decided to wait because I wasn't a fan of seeing the girls work. To each their own, everyone had to make money but I didn't want a front row seat. A few minutes later a car pulled up and a blonde with pigtails came out. "Uh shouldn't you be polishing that bike sweetie? Jax likes it nice and shiny" I was about to get up from Jax's bike and show her that I wasn't just another crow eater but she ran inside. I decided to not make any extra trouble for Jax and exhaled.

A few minutes later I saw Gemma pull up and I stayed where I was. I figured she was probably here to check on LuAnn. They had been friends awhile since they were both married to club members for a long time. I realized there was going to be trouble as soon as I saw Clay and Tig come around the corner. Clay had started questioning Gemma and telling her not to intervene.

The argument quickly escalated into complaints from Clay about Gemma talking to LuAnn and Gemma running diva over a cum factory. In any other situation that may have been amusing to hear but right now I felt for Gemma. Nobody knew what we had been through and she was holding it together as best as she could. Tig sat down beside me almost leaning against me and he put his arm around me as we watched the fight, ready to step in.

Gemma started walking away and I started to sign in relief that it was over before I heard a brick go through Gemma's window and she turned around and kicked Clay's bike. I knew I should get Jax so I ran inside Cara Cara. Jax was sitting with blondie and talking about her getting home safe. I started to tell him he needed to come outside with me when she interrupted again. "He's occupied, honey. You should wait outside like you were told."

I could feel my body moving forward before Jax grabbed me and said that she was out of her mind. I looked back over my shoulder before I said "Well she isn't the only one." When we walked outside Clay asked Gemma if she wanted to see a good pounding and Gemma was egging him on. She had turned around to walk away again and I saw Clay grab her and instinctively moved. I didn't even realize Jax had moved with me to put ourselves between them. I had shoved Clay away from Gemma. I heard Gemma start to cry behind me and I turned to comfort her and walked away.

I decided to go to the office with Gemma since she seemed like she needed someone to talk to. Tara showed up not long after and told us we needed to take some more tests. I went to take the test in the bathroom and left Gemma to answer the ringing phone. When I came back Gemma and Tara were talking. Gemma was filling her in on the thoughts she had been having and her fight with Clay, since Gemma was the closest thing to a psychiatrist Gemma would get to. Gemma had just walked away when I heard a bike and I looked out the window and saw Jax pull up with the blonde from earlier on his bike.

"Son of a bitch" I murmured and Tara heard me her head turning to look and I could see anger in her eyes as well. She got off his bike and they talked for a second before she grabbed his face and kissed him. He didn't seem to mind too much either. I started to walk to the door and Tara stopped me. "Don't stoop to their level. You've been through enough" I tried to calm down as they separated and she walked off with half-sack. Gemma came back and handed her pee to Tara.

I decided I would make my move tonight. I knew Cara Cara was holding a wrap party. Gemma had told me earlier. I went home and got dressed in a tight red dress, some high heels, and did my hair and makeup. I drove to Cara Cara and as soon as I walked in I heard that same voice. "This is a closed party" I told her I was here for Jax and she got up smiling. "Honey, he's got all he can handle tonight, don't worry."

I laughed and started to walk around her. Clearly she didn't know who I was. "I said get out… bitch" I heard some of the other girls back her up. They definitely didn't know who they were dealing with. "What part of that is so complicated?" she asked. She was really trying my patience at this point.

"Get out of my face" I said calmly and smiled at her before walking away making sure to sway my hips, walking confidently. I walked to the bathroom and heard her yelling after me. Jax came in right after me, saying my name as he opened the door.

"Don't let them get to you" he said as he walked closer to me. "We talked about this, it's just business. Like th-" before he could say another word I decided now was the time. My tests came back from Tara clean and tonight Jax was mine again. I jumped on him, kissing him hard and ripping his shirt open the buttons flying onto the floor. He smiled and reciprocated, kissing me back equally as hard.

He shoved me against the stall and started to thrust inside me, as he held me up in his arms. We moved to the sink and that's when the blonde walked in on us. She stopped dead in her tracks as she saw us and I smiled at her clinging to Jax harder and moaning his name. Jax moaned mine in return as he thrusted harder and faster. She walked out silently and we went back to kissing.

Jax and I exited the bathroom about 20 minutes later both of us disheveled and panting but satisfied. It was the first time we had each other since the "accident". I still needed to tell him, but I knew it would have to sit on the back burner for just a little while longer.