Hey guys! Another quick update because I will be gone for a while after this, I mean just like a week or so cuz' my finals are coming up soon. So yeah wish me luck and have fun reading my story! Love :)

For the next two days, I help her learn to stand and walk. It was actually really fun because her eyes always shone so bright when she succeed in something, even though is something as small as just standing.

One of the things I've leaned about Lauren is that she is just like a child, she looks at everything in wonder and awe and giggles happily when she touches something new like a treasured prize.

I still remember during our first dinner, she looked at the candle so intently, like she was trying to figure out what is it. I would have laughed at her silliness if I wasn't so mesmerized with the flames that reflected in her eyes and and her mouth that opened into a tiny 'o'.

Another thing I've learned more about Lauren is that she loves loves loves dancing. When she was more stable in walking and running, I asked her for a dance during one of our dinners. She held on my shoulders so tightly as she looked at me in awe, like she can't believe she is dancing. She kept on stepping on my feet but I'm never gonna tell her that, because she just looked so happy and giddy and smiled like sunshine all the time.

I let her sleep in my bed, and I still have no idea in me as to why the hell I would do that.I just did.

Every night, I would go to my room to see her, but only after she has fallen asleep. Though I would never tell anyone about it, or admit it to myself that I have actually started to care for this woman.

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I wake up, feeling happier than I've ever been in my life, because knowing that I will get to spent my time with Queen Ysabeau again just light up my day.

After I have cleaned up, I go to the dining room to see the queen with a lightness in my steps. I frown when I realize the Queen is not there waiting for me as usual with a beautiful smile.

When Janessa serve me breakfast, I look at her with a questioning look.

'The Queen is out today, she asked me to tell you she'll be back by dinner time and ask you to not worry.' Janessa tells me softly and I nod. Though I'm a little upset about not spending my day with the queen today.

After breakfast, I walk out to the balcony, as usual like everyday. I can't deny that I do miss the sea. I miss Flounder and my sisters.

Also, I'm getting desperate. It's the fourth day already, tomorrow would be my last day, how am I supposed to get a kiss, a true love, no less, from the queen? I like being with her, she makes me feel alive; she makes me feel like I'm home, she makes me so happy with all the constant butterflies, and now that I know what it feels to be with her, I can't go back to who I am.

Sometimes I feel like she feels the same thing for me, sometimes I feel like she would return my longing gaze when I'm not looking. You know the feeling when your guts tell you that someone feels the same about you, but at the same time your heart is afraid?

I sigh as I look out at the horizon, the sea looks calm this morning with tiny waves.

Suddenly I see something appear out from the sea. I turn my head to look what is it but only to find one of my sisters, Kenzi, looking back at me with her clear blue eyes.

'Lauren! I finally found you!' Kenzi calls out and swims closer to me.

Kenzi? What are you doing here? I ask but Kenzi looks at me with a puzzled look, only then I realize I was only mouthing my words since I can't talk.

'I'm sorry, what? 'She asks.

I give her a desperate look as I use hand gesture to tell her that I can't talk. After a while, Kenzi look at me with a horrified look.

'That bitch took your voice?!' Kenzi shrieks as I nod solemnly.

'I swear I'm gonna kill her then kill you! Lauren, what the hell are you thinking?' Kenzi yells again, I can only look at her helplessly. I mouth 'I'm sorry' to her.

'Oh, thank God you have me.' I can only smile at her sassy kenziest tone. I tilt my head and point at my hair, I realize that Kenzi's dark raven-black hair that used to be waist long is now only shoulder length.

'Oh yeah, speaking of hair...' Kenzi flips her hair to the back in the sassiest way, ' That bitch Ursula took my hair.'

My eyes widen as I scream a soundless 'what!?' at her.

'Yeah, yeah. I know but at least she did not take my eyes right? She's still a bitch though.' Kenzi roll her eyes and gives a dry laugh.

I look at her worrily and mouthed 'why'.

'Because, I have an idiot for a sister who got herself in trouble so now I have to save her ass.' Kenzi crosses her arms and I know I'm in trouble. I give my sister the doggy eyes, hoping she will be gentle with me.

'Nope, don't give me those eyes, it's not gonna work this time.' I tilt my head to add more effect.

'Lauren, what am I going to do with you? Papa dearest has found out your little trip to Ursula, I bet you knew he would?'

I nod feeling bad.

'And still you went?'

I nod again feeling worse.

'For the Succubus?'

I nod again but this time my lips etch up thinking of Queen Ysabeau.

'Lauren, you are in deep trouble! Papa had gone to Ursula the moment he realized what had happened! They had a big fight, do you know that?'

My eyes widen as I stand there looking at Kenzi in shock. I ask about what happened.

'I'm not sure what really happened but papa is fine, I mean as fine as he could be. He thought you were hurt and were taken by the bitch, imagine he went all papa bear to her.'

My eyes rim with tears and I let them fall. I put my head in my palms as I shake my head, I never want this to happen, I just want to be with the queen, I just want to be happy.

I look up to Kenzi with tears rolling down me cheeks as I try to say how sorry I am to her with my eyes.

Kenzi sighs and swims closer.

'Don't cry, I hate seeing you sad. Everything between papa and Ursula has settled down already, Ursula is still banned but there's nothing papa could do except threathen Ursula to turn you back.'

I shake my head violently as to tell her I don't want to go back, I don't want to go back to how miserable I was.

'Lauren...' Kenzi pauses as if thinking how to say. ' I know you are unhappy back in the sea...but shit is getting real, papa is willing to give up part of the kingdom to Ursula just for you, but he is still contemplating...'

I screamed another soundless 'what?!' at Kenzi.

'Lauren, all I want is my family to be safe and happy. So I told papa I know how much the kingdom means to him and I'm willing to sacrifice to bring you back...'

I let out a sob as I look at Kenzi desperately. Kenzi's fierce blue eyes turn soft and are looking back at me with a sad and pity look, my heart thunders loudly in my chest and I got a feeling I won't like what she's gonna tell me.

'Papa of course weren't happy with me, he said he doesn't want to lose another daughter. But I know I have to do this so I met Ursula secretly. Lauren, I went to Ursula and ask what I can do. She gave me a dagger in exchange for my hair. God knows what she wants to do with it...'Kenzi tries to laugh to lift up the tension moment but I only stare at her with teary eyes.

Kenzi takes a deep breathe and continue to look at me with sad, desperate eyes.

'She told me tomorrow will be your last day, and if you don't get the kiss from the queen, you will belong to Ursula. Of course I won't let that happen because I love my sister, you know?' She gives me a teary smile which I return weakly, I still don't like where this is going.

'She gave me this dagger and told me to pass it to you...' Kenzi took out a carved beautiful, but deadly dagger and hand it to me, I bent down to take it. The dagger feels cold, very cold.

I stare at the dagger that feels so foreign in my hand and look up to see Kenzi again.

Kenzi gulps and hold my hands in her, her hands feel cold too but I did not push it away.

'Lauren, listen, you have to use this dagger to slit the queen's throat by tomorrow sunrise if you want to reverse the curse, do you understand?' Kenzi says softly but firmly as she tightened her grip.

My mind went blank the moment I heard the words slit the queen's throat, I did not hear what she said after that. I jerk back and let go both my hands and the dagger. I scramble back on all fours, desperate to put distance between me and Kenzi along with the dagger.

No, no, no, no! I will not do it, I will definitely not do it! I'd rather kill myself. I shake my head so hard I feel my head throb , I can't hear Kenzi calling my name cuz' all I hear is the blood thumping in my veins.

'Lauren! Lauren! Lauren Lewis Poseidon!' Kenzi shouts my name desperately to get my attention. I know I'm hyperventilatng because I'm crying so hard I can't breathe, the thought of the queen dead hurts me more than I can take, the thought of the queen dead in my hands is even worse, I think I'm going to vomit, or pass out.

Slowly I force myself to focus on Kenzi.

Breathe, Lauren, breathe. In, out, in, out...

'Lauren!' I hear Kenzi calls my name again and this time I look at her.

'Please do it, for me, for papa, for Flounder, for the kingdom...please? '

I shake my head again and again, I want to ask what about me, what about Queen Ysabeau. Of course I won't do it, never!

'Lauren, get your shit together and stop being selfish!'

What? Is it that wrong to ask for freedom and happiness? Who is the selfish one? I shake my head again and stare at Kenzi with a determined look.

'Fine! One more day, Lauren there is one more day! At least take the dagger if you change your mind, I'm just doing what I can for the ones I love, Lauren ...'

And I'm not? I fume as I get angrier and angrier, she wants me to take the dagger? Fine, but I will never ever hurt the queen. I take the dagger and storm away without a look back.