Sorry I haven't updated in a while more is coming
D.J: My little sister had finally come home today, She had passed out at the front door dressed up like a beaten up sex doll it was horrifying me what had happened to her. Atleast she was alive but she was covered in bruises her body frail dad was furious at her he didn't seem happy Steph was back. As quickly as she had reapeared someone tried to take her away fortuanitly they were caught before they got out of the e.r with her. I know she needs love, acceptance and understanding especially right now Steph has been through horror.
No one deserves to go through what she did this is like an intense episode of law and order accept this isn't acting it's real. Struggling to control my emotions I sit next to her in the car as Becky drives us back to the house, Dad ran off earlier and hasn't been heard from since. It was 6 in the afternoon now She's still clinging to me I can only imagine what shes feeling. One thing's for sure I'm going to be the best big sister I can be from now on I'll try to be there for her and listen as much as possible.
The car stops Aunt Becky parks in the driveway holding Stephanies hand as we walk towards the door unsure if anyones home. As it opens Steph lets go of me running upstairs nearly collapsing again I run after her worried. Hearing her crying I open the bedroom door shutting it quietly "Steph" I put my hand on her shoulder looking at her she had grown to my height. She looks at me sitting up "D.J I'm beyond scared! Two of those guys are still out there and they want me dead! even after the nurse helped me take a shower I still can feel those twisted clothes".
Pulling her close to me I wrapped her in a protective hug "Steph they're not going to take you again!, I promise I'm going to protect you no matter what happens we're not going to loose eachother again". "How can anyone still love me? I was beaten to the point my soul felt broken, was told I was a worthless human barbie doll punching bag just as worthless and scum as the ameba in the dirt" she said curling up in a ball. "Your my sister nothing could ever make me stop loving you or not want you anymore I'd never hurt you or want to see you hurt your not worthless or any of those things, Stephanie you're so precious to me" I say feeling very protective of my little sister.
"But what if I'm dirt to everyone else? What if you're the only person alive that will ever care about me?!" She says hysterical afraid of rejection. "You'll always have me thats one thing that won't ever change I promise, as scared and broken as you may feel right now I'll try my best to help you feel better" I say kissing her on the forhead. "What if dad kicks me out of the house? I'm afraid of him" She hugs me even tighter "Hey if he wants to kick you out than hes going to have to kick me out too!" I say looking her in the eyes. "We couldnt just leave Michelle here shes our little sister D.J" she says I know shes right.
"If we get kicked out I'm sure Uncle Jesse and Aunt Becky would take her in Steph I'm only 17 myself she belongs with an adult, I have an idea come downstairs with me!". I realized if I go on the computer I can find and edit some legal papers so that if dad kicks Steph out she can legally move in with me. I'd have to find emancipation papers for myself and a legal document stating that he signed over his parental rights apointing me her legal guardian. "Your right D.J shed be safer with an adult.. Why are we going downstairs?".
Stephanie (Recap 1st paragraph): I'm out of the er and back at home I had run upstairs and told D.J my inner feelings she didn't let go of me, she tried to ease my fear. Telling me that shes not going to leave me and how important I am to her, she didn't reject me at all she really did want me but I'm still scared of my dad. I tell her I'm worried hes going to kick me out she says he'd have to kick her out too I start to worry about little Michelle but she reminds me Jesse and Becky could take care of her. Suddenly she takes my hand leading me downstairs "Why are we going downstairs?" I say drying my tears.
"I want to be prepaired before dad comes home incase he really does tell you to get out I have an idea I'm going to go online and print out emancipation papers for myself, as well as legal papers so that you could live with me and I'd be apointed your legal guardian. What I'm saying is if he kicks you out I'm going to try and get him to sign over custody of you to me and give up his rights to me as well." D.J sat me down on her lap infront of the computer "You'd really do that for me D.J?" I say somewhat confused. "Of course Steph, I don't know what came over dad before but your my sister and if hes going to treat us like crap than we're better off by ourselves where he cant hurt us".
She's right as much as I wanted my father to love me if he is going to be abusive toward me and D.J like he was before we didn't need him, all we need is eachother. "If hes still in a fit of anger I'm not sure he'd even care what hes signing you could tell him its for school or something I bet he wouldn't even pay attention, your right D.J if hes going to treat us like that we'd be better off on our own at least we would't do anything to hurt eachother dad on the other hand would hurt us!". "Just understand its a long shot Steph but no matter what happens I'll be there for you, Great I found the emancipation papers and a link to the other ones!"
"D.J how are we going to support ourselves I had to pay 20$ just to get on a bus, I'm not old enough to get a ligimate job your 17 and don't have a car. You haven't even graduated highschool we're probably going to end up shacked up in a cheap motel" I try to remind her of some of ther problems we'd be facing. "Shacked up? You've learned some vocabulary, most 12 year olds wouldnt be so concerned about money you've certianly grown up over the last 4 years. As much as I'd like to finish highschool I think I'd have to get my ged and try to get a job that would cover our expences."
A lot has changed since I was gone I want my dad to forgive me but I can tell by his reaction when he saw me before he has changed and it appears he developed a raging temper as well. "I dont belong here dad doesn't want me, D.J I saw the look he had on his face it was the same phychopathic look many of those men had on their faces before they would beat me literally bloody" I started shaking. She pressed the print button "Steph we need to talk upstairs I can't say what I need to say down here its too risky."
Somehow I had a feeling I knew atleast part of what she was going to tell me but she stapled the documents and took my hand leading me back to the room. I locked the door she sat down on the edge of the bed next to me I can tell somethings really bothering her. "Dads been getting drunk and lost control of himself, He bruised you up pretty badly but never apoigized for his actions, he did it repedidily didn't he?" I said. "I dont understand, How did you know?" she said looking scared.
"He used to come home on the weekends wasted at 4am sometimes he had never really gotten physical with me until about a month before I ran away he came home drunk and puked I woke up from the noise and tried to help him atleast puke into the bowl but intstead he cornered me in the shower he started punching me in the stomach hard and bashed my head into the shower so hard it blead puking on me, he never told me why he did it or apolgized in any way he said I deserved it. A few weeks later he had come home drunk threatening to beat me again I ran and locked the bedroom door scared out of my mind" I shuttered just thinking about it.
"Thats part of why you ran away after the accident, you we're afraid he was going to go into a drunken rage and put his hands up to you again, He's gone into rages on me about 10 times since you left I had started locking my door constantly around this new years he came home and kicked me down the stairs to be honest a few weeks ago I had considered running away myself to try and find you but I didn't want to end up getting myself hurt anyworse"
"I'm sorry you went through all of this D.J if he hit you as bad as I've been hit you probably have ulcers. Take it from someone who ran away and ended up getting abducted/kidnapped and raped its dangerous out there on the street if you have a safe place to stay its different. I'm really glad you didn't run away and go looking for me you wouldnt be here with me right now if you had probably both of us would be dead right now.. I love you D.J " I said hugging her tight.
"I love you too Steph, If I had known what he did to you before I would of told Becky to keep him away from you hes a double sided drunk with a raging red temper. If he ever get's himself cleaned up hell probably feel bad about what he did but right now both of us need to stay safe. While I was printing out the transfer of custody papers I printed out one for Michelle too transfering temporary custody of her to Uncle Jesse and Aunt Becky all I need to do is get him to sign it. He's not fit to be a parent at this time and I know you and I need to stick together especially now. I'm so happy your back even though this situation sucks you're safe with me to protect you and thats how its going to stay I don't want to loose you again" She says resting her head against mine.