Lucy

That place brought back bad memories. I almost died in Calormen; in fact, I wouldn't be here today if it weren't for Peter. It had been one of the most terrifying weeks of my life. They had my sister, and they were going to force her to get married. And, worst of all, it was entirely my fault. If I had been paying attention, they wouldn't have captured her. I was supposed to cover her, but someone clasped his hands on her mouth and took her from behind without me noticing. Peter and Edmund yelled at me for hours, and all that time I spent crying. That's when they figured out this wouldn't do any good if we just kept yelling. We needed to form a plan. So we infiltrated to castle in costume and joined the feast. Unfortunately, they had recognized us, but instead of attacking us, they slipped poison onto my drink. I was incredibly thirsty and was about to drink when Peter slapped it out of my hand. That's when the fight started. We eventually got her back, but I still have nightmares about that day.

Today was actually a lot of fun. We bought nice dresses. I loved mine; I chose it because it reminded me of the one I wore when we left Narnia for the second time and the hope I felt, of seeing Narnia again. I felt so beautiful, everybody was staring, even the boys. Then Susan came out. It crushed me because she looked marvellous, more beautiful than I could ever be. I wasn't mad at her, which would be awful because she can't control what she looks like. Instead I was happy she was attracting more boys.

"You look absolutely beautiful, Lu." She said. I smiled, remembering that, maybe I was beautiful too. When we got out of the store, everybody was looking at us. A few boys even asked me my name. A nice-looking one with pure green eyes and messy black hair and round spectacles. A blonde one with blue eyes who seemed really strong and serious. The last boy that caught my eye had brown hair, only a bit shorter than Caspian's, and had kind brown eyes and good build.

"What's your name?" He asked.

"Lucy." I responded, and then he was shuffled out of my view by the crowd. I decided I liked him best.

Peter and the rest came into view and they all looked shocked. Caspian looked like he was falling in love with Susan all over again. She looked like she wanted to cry. I imagined this was exactly what they were going to look like in their wedding. She was smiling wider than I had ever seen her smile, and I was happy for them. But then, I felt something in my heart. I realized I wanted someone to love. I wanted someone who would think I looked beautiful even when I didn't and would look at me that way when I did. I wanted someone who would love me no matter what, and when I was feeling hurt, I could tell him and he would help me. This is foolish, I thought. So I returned to being happy for them.

"How do I look?" Susan asked. Caspian was about to answer when trumpets sounded, signalling it was time for a speech. It was by the King, and after having seen us, he personally asked us to go to a feast in his castle. I wanted to vomit, I also nearly fainted, but Ed caught me in time. I was too disoriented to hear the rest, so we went to the castle.

It was almost like I remembered it, which only made the dizziness worse. I knew I shouldn't be complaining, it was Susan who was captured after all, but I couldn't help myself. I looked over at her and noticed that she was paler than snow and had the death grip on Caspian's hand. When I noticed what she was looking at, I almost passed out again. It was the legendary painting. Caspian and Peter looked like they were going to explode. The King apparently noticed that she was indeed Susan, or was at least related.

"Seize her!" He ordered. Caspian instinctively protected Susan while Peter yelled our battle cry and the battle started.

I fought as hard as I could, yet only badly injuring people, but Edmund always came around to finish the job. Everyone on the King's side died and then it was only him, bent over on the ground, wounded by Peter.

"Why do you want her?" And the little rat responded by telling us that he needs a queen, but then he added that it wasn't Susan's choice and she snapped.

"It is more my choice than any of you combined, you hear?!" She yelled. Then, she did something that surprised me, she kicked him really hard. I could see it hurt him, but he hid it with a sly smile that made my blood boil. He shook his head and crumpled to the ground, I turned to see that Caspian had killed the King. At this I gave in and fainted.

When I woke up, we were back on the ship. Ed was by my side, holding my hand.

"What happened?" I asked, confused.

"You fainted, luckily, I caught you in time."

"Did Caspian really…? You know…." He nodded.

"Pirates!" I heard people yelling from the deck and stood up immediately, running to help. Ed was already running.

There were tons of pirates, big and ugly. All of them were fighting against our crew. Caspian was fighting three at a time, Peter was fighting with the captain, Susan was shooting them down, Brian was fighting one of them, Ariane was helping our wounded, and Edmund started to help Caspian. Then I thought of someone I couldn't believe I'd forgotten about: Gael. I immediately ran for her and when I found her, I took her below deck. Then I came back outside and resumed fighting with my knife. As soon as I killed one, more took his place, trying to bring me down. Luckily, Susan was helping me by shooting if I couldn't fight.

"Susan!" Caspian yelled. He threw her to the ground just before she could be run through with the sword of a pirate standing behind her. Then, he killed him and helped her up.

Edmund was doing alright. He managed to kill his attackers without getting hurt. Brian was doing just fine, too.

Peter wasn't doing great. I could see that he was tired and he had a wound on his leg that didn't allow him to walk properly. Edmund came to the rescue. He killed the captain from behind and got Peter to Ariane. The pirates retreated onto their boat at the defeat of the captain. Everyone was cheering and was happy. Caspian kissed Susan and, once more, I felt jealous.

I thought back to the boy with the kind brown eyes that had asked for my name.

Please, Aslan. If you can hear me, send me someone to love.