"It's been a year since Andy passed, "Those first few months were hard I spent most of it close off from everyone and everything, I would cry at the sound of his name or just thought of him it was a very dark time for me but as the old saying goes "times heals everything, "It has been a huge adjustment over the last year, 'Things have changed quite a bit, 'Louie finally decided to retire and he and Patrice are enjoying his retirement, The team has felt the affects of him leaving but it's made all of us closer, "Amy and Chuck got married a few months ago and are happy, "Andy would have loved it, We all felt him there that day, It rained the day they got married, so after the ceremony we all danced in the rain.. "Things have changed around here as well rusty met someone and he moved out, "He's living in the dorm at school which I couldn't be happier for him, 'I love watching him spread his wings and enjoying his independence, 'Which is all I could ask for my children, "He calls all the time to just talk or to ask if I'm ok, " I know it worry's him me being here by myself, "I still talk to Nicole and she and the boys still visit and we have a great time just remembering the good times, "She reminds me so much of her dad, She looks just like him, she has his smile and laugh. "I still can't believe he's been gone a year it doesn't seem real, it feels like yesterday when he passed. "I miss him everyday, I miss him arms around me and the soft and gentle way he would kiss my neck as he rubbed my shoulders after a long day, 'but I feel him with me, every time I walk on the beach or lay in bed I can feel him and I catch the faint scent of his aftershave and it gives a peaceful feeling. "I will always miss him and I will always love him, "He was and is the love of my life and that's a rare find especially for someone my age and with the career that I have chosen it's hard to find someone that understands.. "He always managed to make my bad days not so bad, he was always there when I needed him, 'Which is something that I took for granted most of the time. ' I have learned one thing in this last year that is not to take anything or anyone for granted because in the blink of an eye things can change. 'Even as I sit here I can still feel him I know he's always going to be with me it makes the days so much easier to get through knowing that I will see him again one day and it gives me the strength and the peace to face the days without him…