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Chapter 29

Emma woke up to an empty room, she sat up quickly when she noticed the folded piece of paper on the pillow next to her. She let her chest rise and fall heavily as she opened it:

Dear My Little Swan,

I love you. I'm sorry that it has come to this but the time has come for me to leave...I don't want you to think that any of this is your fault. This summer has been the best time of my life and the worst, I found someone that I loved more than anything and anybody in the whole entire world and ended up losing them. You can't imagine what I feel Emma, I can't imagine what you feel but all that I ask of you is that you try to understand-

Emma balled up the letter, she didn't want to read anymore, she threw it across the room and let out a scream. She couldn't stop the tears or force her lung to expand so she cried with her chest tight and life ruined.

There was a banging on the front door but Emma didn't answer, apparently she didn't need to because Lily busted in the bedroom less than a minute later, "Where's Regina?"

"Gone," Emma muttered.

Lily sighed, "I knew it, she texted me late last night saying that she couldn't put through this anymore and that made everything worst...are you even listening to me?"

Emma shook her head, she was pale, the life was sucked out of her in the matter of seconds. She just sat there crying, Lily took off her shoes and slipped into bed next to her best friend, Emma curled into her and cried her eyes out.

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"Neal's dead," Graham announced as he walked in with breakfast. Lily had finally convinced Emma to eat something, when the blonde agreed, she told Graham to bring them food, "How you feeling sis? I know this is all crazy but we will figure it out, I'm here for you."

"We know he's dead already," Lily scoffed, "But thank you for your piece of information babe. I really can't believe Regina's gone, I just got her back...I refuse to believe that she left."

"Well believe it," Emma snapped, "She left her phone here, all of her things are gone, all she left was a stupid letter."

"A letter?" Graham's eyes widened, "Did you read it?"

"Not all of it," Emma shrugged.

"What? Read it!" He yelled.

"Why?" She questioned.

"There's thing you two don't know alright," he sighed.

"You knew she was leaving didn't you?" Emma asked dangerously.

He sighed and dropped his head, "Just read the letter, ok?" He said before leaving out.

Emma frowned, "Why did she have to leave? I would've kept her safe…"

"Emma, I'm going to tell you something you probably don't want to hear but there's nothing that you can do to keep Regina from the police-"

"This is all my fault," Emma cried, "I need to be alone right now...please, just leave me alone."

"Emma, I want to be here with-"

"Please," she whined, "I just want to be alone."

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Emma cried in fetal position all day, she had made herself sick, she had thrown up twice already. Her body was aching, she didn't eat, she had a migraine...it was truly the worst day of her life. She didn't want to live without Regina.

About an two hours later, Lily came back, ready to battle Emma but when she walked into the bedroom, she found Emma sleeping on the bed. She sighed, she felt so bad for her best friend, so much was going on that she didn't know about. Gold had a mass search going on, everyone was looking for Regina. Even though they looked, Lily knew that if Regina didn't want to be found, she wouldn't be. It was a lot of stress knowing her sister's behavior, she didn't believe that she was gone. Graham told her that she was in denial but she wouldn't believe it. Regina was troubled, mentally but she wasn't crazy, she knew right from wrong and she knew how to survive so even if she decided to never return, Lily knew she'd be ok.

Cora's eldest daughter was sleeping on couch of the only two people she knew would judge her or care about what she did, the only people she could trust with the information. The blonde sighed as she watched Regina sleep from the stairs, "Hey, is she alright?" her biracial wife questioned.

"Yup, she's still asleep," the blonde nodded.

"Well let her sleep, she's had a rough night," the curly haired women said before traveling back up the stairs.

"Look, I just lost the love of my life, do you think I care about Neal?!" Emma snapped to the police.

"We are just trying to get to the bottom of everything sweetie," David sighed, "You can't save your little girlfriend now."

"I don't know know where she is, ok? She didn't tell me," Emma cried, "It's all your fault anyway, she wouldn't have left of you didn't force her too!" David chuckled, Emma smacked him, "It's not fucking funny."

He held his face in shock, "You've clearly gone crazy," he grabbed her arm, "Everything I've done was for you-"

"You're sick," she snapped. She was tired of being question about a murder she knew nothing about, she was tired of her father acting like he loved her, she was tired of it all. She wanted to run away, she needed to get away.

"So what did they ask?" Graham asked as Emma left out of the station.

"Can't remember," she said.

He studied his sister, her eyes were so red from her crying and rubbing them, he felt so bad for her. She was paler than he had ever seen, her voice was dry, and she barely spoke. He sighed as they entered his truck, "So you're going to stay at Regina's or do you want me to take you home?"

"That is my home," she said softly, "She's my home."

He nodded, "Uh ok, off we go then...so uh did you read the letter?"

"No, stop asking," she snapped.

"Ok fine, I'm sorry. Emma everything will be fine-"

"I know," she nodded, "Can we stop talking? I'm tired of talking…"

"Sure but let's go to Granny's first, you need to eat-"

"TAKE ME HOME!" She yelled, she was beginning to tear up again, "Just please...can't you see how broken I am?! Jesus Graham, just stop!"

He didn't say anything, he simply continued to drive. This wasn't Emma.

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"Have you ever thought about...getting out of here?" Emma asked Lily later that night after hours of silence.

"Yes, all the time. I have this dream of just walking the beach in California, feeling free and at peace," Lily smiled, "Regina actually promised we'd go...she loves Cali-"

"Let's go, I've always wanted to go," Emma said, "Let's just leave."

"When? Emma, we can't just up and leave-"

"How come? Because we're young? Who cares?" She shrugged, "I need a new start...I need something. I'm tired of just going with the flow, for once I want to do something for me…and plus...maybe Regina is there…"

Lily looked at her best friend, she smiled slightly, "Let's do it, I'm sure Graham can take care of everything. We could even finish school there…"

Emma smiled for the first time that day, "Really?"

"Yeah, we can go and look for Regina while we're there," Lily nodded.

Emma hugged her, "I want to find her...tell her that's it's ok."

Gold clutched one of Neal's beanies to his chest as he kneeled at the altar in David's church, "God...I know I've never been a very religious man but I come here tonight to ask you for your forgiveness. I need you to understand that I know I wasn't the best father to my boy but I did love him, he was all I had-"

"I don't mean to interrupt but-"

"Then why are you interrupting David?" He hissed.

"I have to lost up," he nodded, "Plus, I don't think God wants to hear your lies…you showed Neal no love, how dare you come into the house of God and beg him for forgiveness that you don't deserve."

"Oh that's pure gold coming from you isn't it? You're the biggest hypocrite on earth and you call yourself a man of God. At least I won't lie, I know what kind of man I am-"

"Oh you mean a coward? You knew Neal was a better man than you so you tried to beat him until he became weak, he told me everything-"

"And he told me everything as well, how you he was working for you, helping you break down your own little princess-"

"You know nothing-"

"I KNOW EVERYTHING!" Gold yelled, "You and I aren't that different David, I know you understand what you have been doing...everything I do is for the boy, it has always been for the boy. Even my next move is for him-"

"What's that exactly?" David smirked.

Gold stepped to him, "I am going to find the demon that killed him and I'm going to rip her apart limb from limb and have your daughter watch."

David's eyes darkened, "I'd like to see you try, my daughter has nothing to do with this-"

"Oh but on the contrary David...she has everything to do with this," Gold stated in a deadly tone.

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Lily was sleep when Emma woke up to vomit for the third time that day, she was hunched over the toilet releasing her guts when an idea came to her. Once she finished, she quickly stood up and wiped her mouth, she opened the medicine cabinet and snatched out the pregnancy test she had bought in hopes of being pregnant. She ripped it open, studied, and peed on it. As she waited she sat on the bathroom floor, she was confused when the letter she had balled up slide under the bathroom door. Lily must've been awake, she must've read it, Emma groaned and picked it up. She braced herself before continuing to read where she left off:

You can't imagine what I feel Emma, I can't imagine what you feel but all that I ask of you is that you try to understand that I didn't leave you, I left the situation. I will return, we will be together...I meant everything I said. I want to marry you and give you the family you want. I'll be back, trust me Emma, I'm in love with you, I never ever loved someone as much as I love you. I will be back for you Emma, I promise. I left you most of my money, savings, you name it...take care of yourself Emma. Please. I love you baby.

Love,

Your future wife

She crying by the time she finished reading it, latching onto every word, soaking them in. Everything Regina mentioned she wanted, everything that she wanted, she couldn't have, everything she had was gone. She cried, hard, it wasn't fair. She clutched the letter to her chest and picked up the pregnancy test to see if it was ready, she allowed more tears to pour out of her eyes as she stared at the test that read:

Pregnant.

What do you guys think? Next chapter is the last one, I cried writing this one. CTF will be up much later tonight, I'm not finished with it. PLEASE REVIEW!