"What's wrong with you? What has she done to you?" she asks me angrily.

"Leave her out of it, Elena. This shouldn't even matter to you. I don't want to hear anything else about her because I want to leave this chapter behind me. I am back again and everything is as it should be," I snap at her.

"Do you mean that you want her to get away with it? You do not want to go to the police?" she asks me unbelieving.

"Yes, that is what I said. No harm was done and I don't want to busy myself with this anymore," I tell her irritated.

"You didn't fall in love with her, did you? How often do I have to make it clear to you that love is only for fools? This is no future for you, especially not with small children. You would only cause them great harm, just as your mother and her pimp harmed you. Do you want the same happens to them?" questions Elena. She is obviously trying to effect a bad conscience and she succeeds. I do not want to cause neither Ana nor the kids any harm, but as far as I know myself I would do so unintentionally. I sigh.

"I know what I am doing, alright? In the near future my entire energy will be flowing into the company to make sure that my absence does not cause the slightest negative effect for my employees. Just because I've been away for nearly two weeks doesn't mean that I will throw my lifestyle and my beliefs overboard!" I hiss and go over to my bar where I indulge in a glass of bourbon. This woman is truly annoying. After the first gulp that slowly burns down along my throat I whisper: "Please leave me alone for now!"

Wordlessly she gets up and leaves the room.

I replay the talk with Elena in my head and realize to my own shock that everything she accused me of is true. In less than two weeks Ana managed to turn my world upside down, making me wish for love and a family. Fuck! I believe that it is easier to live without all of it if you never had it but now, after I had a taste of it, I am not quite sure if I can keep on living like I did before, to go ahead and marry Elena and therefore spoil my chance for real happiness.

My head feels like it is going to burst any minute and my chest is tightening more and more around my lungs. My hands clutch my glass even tighter and I close my eyes, trying to remember anything nice. I have to think about Tommy and Andy, how they were strolling around in the park. The way their faces were beaming with joy. The way Ana was in my arms. Her blue eyes.

I open my eyes again and I am calm and focused.

What a boring chapter, I think I have to post another one today. Let's continue with APOV to see how she is after part 1 of the story, ok?

Pielietje, jcarla18, Christian618, ashley . mercer . 16 - When was their relationship not weird? ;) In chapter 38 there will be an explanation about their relationship.

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SdaisyS - No, they're not physically involved anymore. So it would make sense, that she has subs as well. And yes, she is a friend of Grace and is older than Christian. And yes, in the next chapter we will see what happens to Ana.

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