CPOV

What a bloody fucking night! The nightmares are back with full force and they are getting even worse. Not only do my birth mother and her pimp appear, but now Ana and the boys are playing a leading role in them, too. First the pimp beats them while I'm sitting as a child aside, unable to protect them, watching them screaming in pain. Thereafter I take his position and beat them myself. I never thought my nightmares could get any worse, but the bitter truth is, they have now.

I'm sitting at the piano and play for hours, but it doesn't calm me down. So I stand up, walk over to the window and run my fingers through my hair, whilst thinking of Ana, Tommy and Andy all the time. I hope Andy won't forget to bring the carrot for the classroom pet bunny and that Tommy won't forget the five dollars for the visit to the museum. I have to run a multibillion-dollar company, but two little kids are all I can think of right now. The day will be long and cruel, I can feel it.

Later, when I reach Grey House, it seems so surreal because everything is so huge and unfamiliarly hectic. In a small town the people are much more relaxed and dead slow. I get into the elevator and ride up to the 20th floor, where I see Andrea approaching me as soon as the doors open.

„Good Morning, Mr. Grey! You'll have a meeting with Ros in fifteen minutes. Go on ahead, I'll be right there and bring you a coffee, so we can go over today's schedule", she says but I think that I'm not interested in any of that stuff right now. I haven't even arrived in my office yet; I need at least a few minutes to acclimate myself.

Taking a deep breath I step into my office. Elena updated me on everything going on, so I feel prepared, but I just can't pull myself together to kick off with full power. I go to the window to concentrate and to focus on my workday, when Andrea enters my office with a cup of coffee and a tablet in her hands and sits on the chair in front of my desk. Reluctantly I sit down at my desk and try to follow her verbiage, rattling down the appointments for today.

I'm attending meeting after meeting, but I already feel like my head will explode any minute. What happened to me? In the past that wasn't a problem for me, but now I'm nearly done with my concentration. My thoughts are drifting off constantly and I have to channel my whole energy to pretend to be attentive and look really interested.

Approaching noon, I finally get more and more used to my work routine again and only sometimes my thoughts drift off during a meeting. Ros tells me that I appear changed to her and that I'm considerably kinder to all of my staff. Furthermore she tells me to go on vacation more often, because that would shoot up the morale of all people working on the 20 levels of this building significantly. I tell her to shut the fuck up and to work along, because I don't pay her for this kind of chitchat. She laughs and goes back to her office.

Ok, there is an interesting discussion going on and I thought after like 20 years of experiencing the joy of monthly cramps and sickness and two pregnancies, I know how a woman's body work ;D. Obviously I don't. Is it really possible to get pregnant two days before the period starts? Even if not, I think there are always exceptions to the rule. So here is my deal: I'm all for it that the readers are able to think of their own way how the story should go. I think it should be possible for Ana to be pregnant considering the rest of the story, so if you want for her to be pregnant, then she's pregnant. My plan was, that she isn't pregnant. Let's just see what happens, because as long as she doesn't know, it's an unimportant detail anyway ;).

theamazngspdergrl - Children! You can't live with them, you can't live without them ;D Or as my friends always say: It's just a phase!

mya4snape - In the end your review was visible. I think sometimes it just takes a little longer to load up a review ;) Damn girl, how did you survive two pregnancies with so much morning sickness? Or did it not last for so long at least? Anyway thank you for your review and I'm glad you enjoy the story ;)

Pielietje - Yes, that's what I thought. I wanted to try to bring Ana and Jack together, but it didn't work out.

Christian618 - THAT was my plan ;D.

Guest - Give them time and it will all work out ;)

Jrzgl43 - For me it's also much easier to work on shorter chapters :)

jcarla18 - Apparently, it IS possible to have morning sickness after just 2 days ;) Anyway, I tried FOUR different scenarios for this story, but only this version has worked for me. But now that some other scenes are written, I may use it in another story ;) Don't just write general thank you reviews, your invited to write what you think - I can handle it ;D

SdaisyS - Tommy is six and Andy is three.