A/N: This is a little darker of a chapter, and you guys should know that suicide is a serious thing and it is not something (in my word) that should be joked about. I'm sorry if I say anything offensive, I just want to get out what some people go through and that if you are one of those people, you are not alone. Please don't try to commit suicide, just because someone in a story is saved and maybe their life isn't horrible afterwards doesn't mean you will be too. This is fiction, please understand that, I just don't want anyone to feel upset with me or make anyone think that this is okay. I'm sorry this chapter is kinda short and I love you all.

Ps I'm thinking of switching this story to M because I'm nervous the topic is a little too touchy but I don't know, please tell me in the review! By the way the reason I'm not posting as often is said in the other long A/N at the end of this chapter.

Chapter 25:

TRIS POV:

It's been exactly a week since my mother, father, and brother went out to go look at the college he hopes to attend. I can't say much has happened because I literally sit around the house not eating. I know that I'm sure to have lost a good five pounds since last week, all I've consumed in a weeks time is about eight gallons of water.

To be honest, I have a large headache and my body is beginning to give out in areas. I can barely get up off the couch to go use the restroom, but I guess that's to be expected. For me there are three stages to hunger. The first stage is a simple wanting off food, mostly in your brain and for me is easy to deflect. The second is the hardest, the grumbling and stabbing pain growing from your stomach, feeling like its turning inside out. Then the final stage to me feels like my body accepts that its not going to get any food, allowing the pain to fly away.

I know I shouldn't be doing this, but the only thing I can think of when I think of giving myself the pleasure of eating, is Tobias, and then instantly I don't feel hungry anymore. My stomach is used to being empty and maybe my body will give in before someone even finds me. Then it will look like an accident and I will end up like that girl in the article Tobias was reading the night I broke up with him. They will talk about how I struggled with anorexia for a while and eventually I was taken away from this earth at the hands of the eating disorder.

I really don't care what they think of me after I'm gone, I'm just done with being here. Everyone I begin to trust always makes me realize that it was a waste of time and energy. They make me realize that I'm really not needed here, all I do is hurt people or get in their way.

Currently I'm sitting on the kitchen counter, slowly sipping at a glass of water when I hear a loud knock on the door. Considering I'm not expecting anyone, and I don't want anyone to come into the house while i'm not looking too hot, I don't answer. It's not long before I hear the door click like it's opening and almost instantly I freak out. It may be my family, or Tobias. They can't see me like this.

I don't have anytime to change or do anything, so I decide to just go with the flow and who walks into the kitchen surprises me thoroughly. It's Christina.

"Tris?"

I don't respond, and that causes her to scrunch her eyebrows together and walk up to me.

"Tris. What are you doing?" she asks, picking up my hand not holding the glass of water. "Why the hell does your arm look so damn skinny?"

"I don't have anything to say to you." I reply, my voice scratchy from a week on non-use. Christina stares at me with wild eyes, telling me silently that she's about to freak out on me.

"You don't have anything to say to me?! How about you tell me why you weren't there this week! Or why Four's been extremly pissy and moopy! Oh and why his face happens to be all lashed and cut! He hasn't talked to anyone except when I asked him about you! I even tried asking Zeke and he told me not to worry about it and not to ask him because it's a touchy subject! What the hell Tris?!" She screams, her voice rising an octave every sentence.

I don't answer just calmly take another sip of my glass of water, waiting for her to finish because knowing her she has a lot more to say. Throughout the next minute all I hear is complete silence, and the occasional rumble of my sore stomach.

Then finally after a few more minutes, Christina speaks up again, "Tris, please just tell me what happened. I really want to know."

Her voice his softer this time, her eyes morphing into concerned ones instead of upset and angry. I look down examining my water though there is not much to look at, I just watch as I slowly move my hand back and forth, the water ripples with the movements. I know all too well that if I don't tell her something she will never go away, exactly what I want and need.

"Four… he umm… he cheated on me." I mumble, not able to glance up at her reaction, scared she may be mad at me.

"He what?" She questions, her voice stern and I shrink back a little, not in the best state to fight back. I really don't want to say it again because the more I say it out loud the more the images flash into my brain of Tobias's soft, sweet lips on that slutty blondes'.

"Four cheated." I state, my voice weaker than the first time, cracking at the word cheated.

I knew it was a bad idea to be with him and my mind knew that when I broke up with him that first time. I know I just didn't want to believe it and he was really the only thing keeping me from trying again. Four's eventually going to walk through my door and I'm going to do exactly as I told him, the next time I see him I will try again.

As these thoughts run through my head, I don't notice Christina picking up her phone and placing it on the counter, Four's name lighting up the screen. Eventually I hear it begin to ring and dread automatically fills me to the brim. I don't want to hear his voice or have Christina talk to him, but only after two rings I hear it connecting and I know I'm to late, though I am tempted to reach for it and hang up.

Then something unexpected happens, Zeke's voice booms through the speaker, "Christina, now's not a very good time."

"Now's a better time than ever and if you really care about Tris you better freaking listen." She practically yells into the phone.

"Okay, okay. I'm listening." He sighs, clearly exhausted from something or someone.

"Do you know about what your dear old friend Four did to Tris?" She asks though she doesn't wait for his response and I'm confused as to why she is telling Zeke this when her intention was to yell at Tobias. Maybe she want's Zeke to, too. "He freaking cheated on her! I'm in Tris's kitchen with her and she's basically skin and bones!"

"I'm not skin and bones, I've eaten a fair amount of food!" I say right back at her, Zeke hearing my voice and soon another voice comes through the phone.

"Tris?"

It's Tobias.

I look at Christina with pleading eyes, which just so happen to be filling with tears. His voice sounds scratchy like he's been upset and possibly crying about something. It still is slightly soft but sounds so fragile that if he hadn't cheated I would be extremely concerned, though I deny it now.

"Oh no. No, no, no, no. You do not have the right to talk to her, Four! You freaking shattered her, right when she was beginning to get better, you go right ahead and break her again! I don't want you talking to her again, much less coming near her!" She shouts, flailing her arms as she yells to the screen as I set my water down.

I close my eyes, willing my body to not collapse on me now as I begin to stand up, hopping off the counter. Just my luck though, in the absolute silence that now fills the room, black spots begin to invade my vision taking up everything I see. I know the only reason this is happening is because my body is at its breaking point, the amount of food consumed in the past 168 hours is exactly zero calories. Nothing.

Christina acts fast as she grabs her phone hanging up on Four and catching me before I hit the ground as the black specs devour my sight. As she sets me down on the couch in the living room, my eyes begin to adjust again, able to see her face clearly in front of me.

"Tris, how much have you eaten in the past week?" She questions, concern lacing her features.

"I don't know… around ten meals this week…" I'm totally lying, and I can't stop myself from sucking in my lower lip and chewing on it as she checks over my face.

"You're lying to me." She states.

I try to stop her before she runs off to the kitchen, but I know that it's a worthless cause, she wont stop but I'm not going to eat it and I hope she knows that. Christina comes back a few short seconds later, a chip bag in hand. I shake my head as she comes to my feet, sitting so that as I lay my head on the headrest, I'm looking at her.

"Please eat this, Tris." She begs, opening the bag and taking a chip out. "You need it, please."

As Christina begins to shove the chip at my face, I groan, "Christina, I swear to god, if you don't leave my house soon I will never eat again. I don't need those chips and I certainly don't need you."

I wince at my own harsh words, closing my eyes so that I don't have to see the pain and hurt behind hers. I hear her begin to stand up and I don't speak or move until I hear the front door open and slam shut. I'm surprised she didn't blow up at me, though I know why she held it in, I would do the same if the roles were switched.

I shake off the events of today, and pull the blanket from off the top of the couch, wrapping it tightly around me. It's warm and comfortable, but the headache that eats at my brain is hard to forget about as I try to fall asleep.

I know it takes the human body three weeks to possibly pass from starvation, and it's been a week so far. My brother, mother, and father don't get back for another two week, so maybe, just maybe since I'm already "skin and bones" -lies- I'll be done before they can even come back. This time there will be no letter, no apologies except for the ones that I repeat over and over in my head. No one should feel bad because this was all my doing.

These are my last weeks. Last weeks before I'm finally done, and I won't have to waste all my energy on trying to hold my smile up all day. I will be able to go to peace and happiness. I will be done.

Hey guys, I just wanted to say that my school is almost out :D So that will mean more updates! I just finished my volleyball season as well so I will be able to write a ton more! School ends in about three weeks so I may or may not be able to post in those three week, I'm so sorry. I have finals and everything so I'm a little nervous about it all. Just so you guys know, no I am not quitting on this story, I'm just really busy, I'm so sorry. And also this story does get happier!

As I always say, and the moral to this fanfiction is You have to persevere through all the bad to discover the good.

This story is not over! Please tell me what you think, and hopefully the next chapter will be longer. Please review!

~divergent24-7