Chapter 44
Jeff was sitting with everyone that was close to both Jordan and himself in Jordan's hospital room. They had hoped that Jordan would be able to keep the baby in a bit longer, but the drugs and everything else just made it impossible and so now, there was a brand new baby in the NICU from being so small. The drugs they had been giving her pushed her into a labor they could not stop, and normally they would have done a c-section but there was no time because the baby had been crowning in the ambulance and so they had called the hospital to learn what to do because Jordan was unable to push because she was drugged, injured and completely unconscious. They had managed to get her body to deliver the child without her pushing but they realized they were a little off about how far along into Jordan's pregnancy they were.
The little baby was a premature baby, and they were worried about how tiny the baby was, but they were going to fight for their little one. Jeff had warned all the nurses and doctors not to tell a soul about the gender of the baby until Jordan could be told everything that had happened, including that their baby was born and fighting to live in the NICU, just as their child's mother fought for them in captivity and just as Jordan was fighting to survive now. Jeff was praying, something he hadn't been doing too much lately, but now, he was looking at possibly losing both his wife and his newborn child and he didn't think he could handle that at all.
"Jordan, you listen to me baby, you are going to open your eyes so we name our baby, because our baby deserves a name and I refuse to do that while you get to just lay here and sleep." Jeff said, hoping saying that might annoy her enough to open her eyes and snap at him, but it didn't.
Jordan could hear his voice, she wasn't sure if her mind was playing a nasty cruel trick on her or if Jeff was really holding her hand, if he was really pushing loose hair behind her ear or if he was only a figment of her overactive imagination. She couldn't feel her baby moving around in her belly anymore, her mind was slowly letting her know that her child was no longer inside her belly, and Jordan wasn't sure if her baby was alive or dead now. She wanted so badly to open her eyes, she wanted to see Jeff sitting there holding their child and teasing that he had already named their little one without her… Jordan felt her mind panicking at the thought that Jeff would automatically name their child and not wait for her to be able to say whether she liked it or not.
She didn't want their little baby to have a name that made her wince or shake her head in anger because she hated the name or didn't get the chance to help pick it out. She wasn't sure if Jeff would really do that, but then at the same time she didn't know if the hospital had a certain amount of time that was allotted for them to think and then by the end of that time they needed a name or not. She didn't want Jeff to feel pressured into picking the perfect name with her out cold, and yet she wanted to open her eyes but they felt so heavy and unmovable.
Jeff was sure he saw some flickering behind the eyelids but then again he was only begging her to wake up, something he would never ever do in front of his friends and especially his big brother, but he loved his wife and he would do anything to see her look at him, to hear her voice and get to tell her how much he loved her and how amazing he thought she was. He wanted to show her the pictures he took of their baby so that she could see what their little one looked like without a name. Jeff leaned forward and kissed his gorgeous wife on her forehead and then he laid his head on the mattress near her so that when she woke up, he would be the first thing she saw so she would know she was safe and no one would get to her there.
"Jordan, I mean it honey, you need to open those eyes because I don't want to have the guys help me put together a baby name pool. Or maybe we could just write down a bunch of names and then pick two out of a hate. One would be the first name and one would be the middle. You don't really want me to choose our baby's name like that, do you?" Jeff asked, knowing that she could hear him and that was why she was trying to open her eyes. He was hoping if he kept annoying her or getting on her bad side here, that she might be able to open her eyes sooner than they thought.
"Shuddup." Jordan muttered, her voice scratchy and the wince that she gave after saying the one word said everything to everyone in the room. Jordan was in pain and she was struggling hard to fight it because she didn't want anyone to think she was weak.
"You need to open your eyes, then we can call your doctor and say you're awake and then have them give you some meds and then we can talk about our little baby." Jeff said as he kissed her forehead again. "Come on Jordy, open those eyes." Jeff said with a smirk as he winked at his big brother who knew that Jordan hated that nickname.
"You're either a brave man or a stupid man to call your wife by that horrible nickname that she totally hates." Matt said with a chuckle.
"What's she gonna do about it? She can't even open her eyes so we can talk properly." Jeff said with a fake frustrated sigh, but the smirk on his face said that he was relieved to hear her voice.
Jordan needed to open her eyes, but her body felt like it was on fire and there was so much pain and her heart was hurting because she didn't know if her baby was alive or dead, all she knew was that her child was no longer inside of her, and at the same time, she didn't even know if Jeff was really there, if when she opened her eyes she would really see him or if she would see the people who took her, and the people who may have killed her child. She couldn't open her eyes, and a part of her knew that if she didn't open her eyes soon and reassure herself, then it would become harder, until she never opened her eyes again.