Chapter 45

Jeff was leaning back in his chair and wondering if he was ever going to get to talk to his wife again. She was still unconscious and everyone told him, every doctor and every nurse, told him that he was probably never going to have his wife back, and if she even did open her eyes, there was a huge possibility that she wouldn't be the same woman she had been before this whole thing happened. Jeff refused to believe that he could have lost his wife, the woman that meant the world to him. Jordan had to come back to him, she had to open her eyes and be the woman he fell in love with because it wasn't just him that needed her any longer, it was their little one. Their baby needed a mother and the only way that they would have a mother is if Jordan came back to him.

Jeff had thought she was going to be just fine when she had talked to him and Matt, but that was about twenty four hours ago and she had stopped talking then and now she was unresponsive to anything anyone did or said. Jeff leaned back towards the bed, and he grabbed her hand and kissed her hand. He reached up with his free hand and he started stroking his hand through her hair. He was hoping that some contact with him might actually get her to wake up and be the woman he had married, the woman he created a child with, the woman he knew he couldn't live without.

"Jordan, please baby, please open your eyes. You know I can't do this without you. You know that I can't be a single parent, I don't think our child will have the life they deserve without you there to be with us baby.' Jeff said, as he felt the tears slowly leaking from his eyes. He knew that she was his world, and he knew that she would never forgive herself if she wasn't there for their baby.

Jordan could hear her husbands voice, at least she thought that it was her husbands voice. For some reason her mind just wouldn't focus and everything seemed kind of fuzzy. She kept hearing him talk about their child, and she was even more confused. She had a child? She wasn't sure what to believe or what to think, she was actually even more afraid to open her eyes because she didn't know what she was going to open her eyes to. Finally she knew she had to suck it up, she had to face whatever it was that she awakened to, even if she didn't have a clue about anything.

Jordan opened her eyes, and she was grateful that she knew what her name was because everyone kept calling her by it. She looked over and saw the happiness in the eyes of the man sitting next to her, the one holding her hand and the one that leaned over and kissed her forehead. She tried hard not to flinch but it was apparent that she actually failed to disguise it.

"Jordan, honey, what's the matter? Are you in pain?" The man asked her, a frown on his face.

"I don't know you." Jordan admitted softly.

Jeff felt the panic rising inside of him. His wife didn't know who he was, and it was very likely she didn't remember their marriage or the fact that she was now a mother. It also worried him, because it meant she couldn't identify the people who had hurt her, the people that had taken her away and had apparently done something that caused her to forget everything.

"You don't know that I am your husband? You don't remember that we are married and that we have a child together? Well the baby you wouldn't really know about because you were still pregnant before you were found unconscious, but now we have a little one. I made them promise to keep the baby's gender a secret so we could find out together and name our little one.' Jeff said as he hit the call button on the bedside table.

"No." Jordan admitted softly, and the fear in her eyes showed that she wasn't just messing with him to be funny, she was completely serious and utterly and completely terrified.

They were watching the hospital and the news that Jordan had lost her memory only proved that the new drug they had been creating, was working. They had, had a plan the whole time and now it looked like their test had come through, with flying colors. They would continue to watch her, to see how long the memory lapse lasted and whether the doctors or family members found anything to reverse the effects of their new 'tool'. As much as it was hard for them to do this to a family, to take away the mothers right to remember the fact that she was even a mother, they knew that it was all going to be worth it in the end. They had hoped that they could make sure that their new 'tool' only centered on one portion of the brain, a traumatic experience that needed to be erased so that the person could live a normal life, free of nightmares and terror, but it was obvious that it had deleted more than they had planned. They knew they were going to have to keep looking it over, reworking it all, but there was a chance that with time she would get all the happy memories back, and the traumatic ones would stay away, for good.

"Soon, we will have something that all crime victims will want and need." The leader whispered as she leaned against the wall outside of the hospital, well across the street from the hospital, and watched the window of the room she knew that Jordan was currently admitted to.

Jeff wasn't sure what was going to happen from here, because no one knew what had caused this and whether it was permanent or not. Jeff was now watching Jordan as she looked in at their little one in the incubator, their little miracle and could tell that she loved the baby, even if he didn't remember the little one being theirs. Jeff just hoped that they could work through this, and that the fact that she didn't remember them being married, didn't mean that she wouldn't try and keep their marriage alive.

"Do we have a son or a daughter?" Jordan asked as she looked from Jeff to the nurse.

Jeff was sure that she holding her breath just as he was as the nurse smiled and handed over the chart that had the babies information written on it. Jeff and Jordan exchanged looked before they both looked at the chart and then at each other, knowing what direction was now needed for their child. Jeff just hoped that they would be together to raise their little one, because the fear in Jordan's eyes showed she wasn't sure she could trust him, he was sure that she wasn't even sure she could trust herself at this point.