CPOV

„And how did you feel at that moment?", John asks me.

„As if the biggest part of me was about to die!", I simply say as I end my narration of the encounter with Ana. When I came back to John after the two weeks, he heard with a knowing smile that indeed no day has passed without me thinking of the three of them. Therefore the next step was to meet with them to either complete the whole affair with a conversation or else, like he presumes, get a real eye-opener for the fact, that I'm engaged to the wrong woman. And I have to say, that he was right, again.

„Christian, if you have to choose one word to describe what you miss the most in this moment, which one would that be?", he asks me interested.

„Oh that is easy: family", I say without thinking.

„Oh, how creative! And how likely is it, that you want to start this family with the old bitch-troll?", he asks me. I grimace at the thought.

„Not at all", I answer short and obvious.

„With whom then?", he asks me.

„Anastasia", I bubble out.

„And what withholds you to win her heart, except the fact …" he stands up, takes a foam bat and hits me again and again on my head, while screaming: „THAT YOU ARE ENGAGED TO ANOTHER WOMAN AND HAVEN'T BROKEN THE ENGAGEMENT YET?"

The blows which rain upon me don't hurt, even if he would strike harder. It's the humiliation he wants to create, to visualize that I don't see something very obvious. I look at him irritated.

„I would bring so much trouble into this relationship. Elena is just as broken as I am, so I can't destroy that much. I could make so many mistakes with the boys and ruin them like my birth mother ruined me!", I moan and cross my arms. John hits me one more time.

„YOU REALLY SHOULD START TO USE YOUR EYES!", he yells at me, adjusts his tie, straightens out his suit and takes his place opposite from me as if nothing ever happened.

„Ok, so let's take the long way again. My wife wants to cook, so I'm in no hurry getting home. Explain to me again to a T, why you want to marry Elena!", he orders. I have a presentiment that the reason won't be sufficient anymore now. I clear my throat and start with my story.

„About four months ago I ended the contract with Miss Leila Williams after one year, because she wanted more than I wanted to give. Therefore I sent her away and she went away without even making a scene, so I was relieved. Two weeks later she suddenly stood in my bathroom with a razor blade in her hand. I tried to save her from harming herself, but she screamed hysterically that I destroyed her life, that she would love me and she would therefore show me, how much I hurt her. She slashed her wrists in front of me and after screaming for help, I kneeled next to her. She smiled at me and whispered: 'That was just the beginning! You're going to suffer like I suffered!'" I have to collect myself for a moment, before I continue with my report.

„After the ambulance took her away, I immediately called you so you could take care of Leila. After some time it turned out that she wrote a suicide note, in which she mentioned me as her Dom and the reason for her suicide and told the press about it. I had to engage Elena, so she could pull all her strings to get this whole shit under control. She had to do this for other Doms before. After that Elena proposed a press conference to pronounce us being secretly engaged for quite some time to let Leila look like a crazy stalker. And if we would really marry, it would be easier to defeat future scandals. Thus we both would get what we wanted: She wanted my name and my status and I wanted security and control. I never imagined marrying because of love and starting a family anyway, so I could just as well marry Elena. Elena would still supply me with subs, who I could control, while she would give me the safety for my public image. After all marriage is just another contract."

„My heart bleeds for you because of this romance!", John comments and dries his imaginary tears with his hand. He would have been an amazing actor. "And what if you would marry Anastasia, what would be the reason for that?", he asks me. I fidget around on the couch.

„Love", I finally admit. John looks at me wide eyed.

„Fuck! This reason is even much better than mine back in the days!", he approves.

„What was your reason?", I ask confused.

„Rhian was pregnant and her father owns a .44 magnum!", he says dryly. „But now back to the basics: Which of the two women would be the right choice for you in your opinion?" I look at him and think. Now it's crystal clear that I should break up with Elena, but am I really ready for being together with Ana for more than two weeks?

„Anastasia. But, what will I do if I really fail at being a father and a husband?", I say in defiance.

„SHIT!", he cries while raising and running his hands through his hair frustrated. Then he takes out his phone and dials a number.

„Rhian, set the table in the mean time, I will be on my way home in exactly five minutes! You were right: He's as dumb as a bucket of shrimp and just doesn't get it! I owe you the foot massage … Yes, I'm going to eat your meal without taking a swipe at it! Bye!", he says and hangs up.

„You should definitely mull over our conversation and you can come back only when you understand, that I'm right and you wanna win her heart!", he commands and shakes my hand farewell.

Hmmm. Should I or shouldn't I? To post or not to post, that is the question! Alright, alright, alright, you get a bonus chapter, just because the next chapter is somehow a filler chapter and I cannot read your reviews anymore, asking me to kick the bitch-troll to the curb ;D. So tomorrow, I'll post the chapter called "Bye Bye Elena part 1", ok? ;).

Christian618 - Trust me, Ana will text him veeeery soon! ;)

Truebloodfan83 - Yeah. In like 5 days they're ... wait and see ;D.

Pielietje - Ana will text him within the next 3 hours ;) And yes, in very big crowds even my nearly 4year old rides in the stroller period.

Moonstone star81 - Well, he's engaged after all, but don't you worry, give them 5 days and then ... my story will end ;D.

ashley . mercer . 16 - Oh my ... I'm really scared of your reaction to Elenas disappearance, but we will have to wait and see.

joan . goldman . 9 - He will - don't you worry, and then they will not just kiss ;D.

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