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Clarke's POV
Going home was a mess, Octavia sobbed almost the entire way home and Aurora looked extremely confused, sighing every now and again as she looked between me and her aunt.
Things were eerily quiet as we made our way into the apartment; Octavia walked right over to the couch and let herself sink into it as Aurora began falling asleep in my arms.
"Sleepy mamma" she mumbled and I glanced at the clock, 11:40.
"Yes baby, its nap time" I cooed as I walked past the living room and towards the girl's room. I placed Aurora in her bed and covered her up, as soon as she curled into the blankets she was out like a light and I was on my way back to Octavia.
When I reached the couch she looked up at me before moving over and allowing me to drop down next to her before curling into my side, a single sob escaping her lips. I brought my hand up to stroke her hair and she gripped at my shirt, pulling herself even closer to me.
"W-what are we going to do Clarke" the young girl asked through sobs and I couldn't offer her an answer. What were we going to do?
"I don't know sweetie" I mumbled and she just sighed.
"He's my brother Clarke, I love him" she said softly and my heart sank, she's right. He's her brother, she still loves him, I still love him.
"You do?" she asked, her head shooting up and forcing me to realize that my final thought wasn't as silent as I thought it had been.
"Of course O, he was, hell he still is, the love of my life" I whispered and she stared at me in awe. Even though I hated to admit it seeing Bellamy nearly gave me a heart attack, if I hadn't been so upset because he made Octavia cry, I may have broken down and ran straight into his arms, but I couldn't, I had to be strong for my girls.
"Can we see him again?" Octavia asked silently and my heart began to race. He is her brother, she deserves answers, I have to do this for her.
"Yes sweetie, I'll arrange it" I mumbled, immediately regretting letting the words leave my mouth. Octavia just smiled slightly before walking off, leaving me alone with my thoughts.
After a few days of deliberation and spending some much needed girl time together, calming down and processing the events that had occurred, I thought it was time to visit Bellamy with Octavia. I had found out that he was renting a fully furnished apartment not too far away, and Octavia suggested having dinner at his place, after twenty minutes of arguing and many valid points, I had caved in and agreed, I mean an apartment is a much better place for a family fight.
Raven was babysitting Aurora, and Octavia and I had headed out.
"Ready kiddo?" I asked Octavia as she grabbed my hand and we both stared the big wooden door in front of us.
"Ready for some answers" she mumbled as I lightly knocked on said door. The nerves were building inside of me as I heard footsteps approaching, I didn't know if I wanted to run away or cry, but I knew that I couldn't do either, I had to show O that I was strong.
Just as I was about to say fuck it and run away, the door swung open and Bellamy stood before us, smiling wide.
"Come in" he said and I wanted to throw up, where does he get off being so fucking happy and polite. Octavia tugged on my hand, guiding me into his apartment. The walls were a plain white color, a few pictures were scattered here and there but not much else hung. He had a black sectional couch and a small white coffee table that matched the walls.
"Would you guys like to sit?" he asked as he gestured towards a kitchen table I hadn't even noticed, it was a small circle with four chairs placed strategically around it.
"Sure" I mumbled and Octavia elbowed me in the ribs, forcing me to face her as she shot me her famous 'be nice bitch' glare.
"Octavia, I honestly can't believe how big you've gotten" he said with the most sincere smile I had ever seen Bellamy wear as we all sat down.
"Cut to the chase Bell, I want answers" Octavia growled and my heart stopped. I hadn't expected that.
"What do you want to know kiddo?" he asked, his smile fading and I sighed.
"First and foremost, why did you leave me, er, us?" she asked softly and I could feel the pain she carried. He stirred in his seat slightly and I couldn't help but gawk at him. He opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out. After taking a few deep breaths, the words finally started flowing.
"Clarke offered you a better life. You think I wanted to take off O, you think I wanted to leave my only family behind? It was the only chance you had, you would have amounted to nothing if I had of taken you away"
"Amount to nothing, wow, you're a moron" I spit, immediately regretting it.
"Care to explain, princess?" he said and god, he was such a smug bastard sometimes.
"You lost the right to call me princess when you took off on me Bellamy" I growled, trying but failing to keep my cool.
"But to explain it further, if you had of taken Octavia with you, she would have turned out just the same. She is the most compassionate, loving, intelligent person I know, and nothing would ever change that, not even being with you" I mumbled and O grabbed my hand, squeezing it gently.
"Now answer the rest of the question" she demanded, venom lacing her voice and I could hear him gulp from across the table.
"When Clarke and I first got together, I told her I didn't want kids, like ever. After raising you by myself, I wanted to rest of my life to be carefree, and a kid would complicate that. I couldn't do it, I got scared, so I left" he mumbled and tears pricked my eyes.
"So you left with no warning because I was complicating your life? Good to know"
"Let me finish Clarke" he mumbled and I sat back in the chair, motioning for him to continue.
"I was scared, terrified even. I didn't think I would be a good father, I just didn't think at all. And I regret it every day, seeing the woman Octavia has become and how beautiful our baby girl is, it makes me regret ever leaving Clarke, you need to understand that"
"My baby girl Bellamy, she's mine" I whispered, praying he wouldn't hear.
"Bells, nothing changed the fact that you left, not even regret. I was eleven; you know how hard it was for Clarke? She had to go through the entire adoption process, and four years later people still visit us, rummage through the house, they take blood samples from Clarke to make sure she isn't doing anything bad, she hasn't had a day to herself since before you even left, its torture Bellamy, torture you caused" Octavia said and the tears started to flow freely down my cheeks now.
"I said I'm sorry O, I can't change what I did but I want to be there for you in the future, you're the only family I have, I need you" he said in an almost inaudible tone and my heart broke for him, as much as I hated Bellamy Blake, he was right.
"Octavia he's right, he's your big brother, and you both need each other" I said and she looked up at me with wide eyes, Bellamy did the same.
"If you want to continue seeing him, you can, there will be some ground rules though" I said and she giggled.
"You're such a mom Clarke" she said playfully and I couldn't help but smile.
"We've established this multiple times kiddo" I said and I think I heard Bellamy chuckle.
"But anyways, rules. For one, Octavia lives with me still, if she ever wants to move back in with you then fine, I understand, but she is staying with me for now" I said softly and Bellamy shot daggers at me before sighing.
"You're right, I wouldn't dare try to take her away from you, I see the bond you guys have" he said and I wanted to laugh, he sounded so bitter, so angry, is it wrong to say I enjoyed it?
"Two, you're not allowed to randomly pick her up at school. We can decide together, the three of us, when you guys get together" I said and they both nodded their heads.
"Three, no alcohol, or uh, flings will be brought around her when she's in your presence, got it?" I asked, glancing at him and he nodded, clearly shocked.
"Fourth and final term I have, you can come to our apartment whenever you'd like, but if Aurora is going to be around when you do come over, I need to be home. You can introduce yourself to her one day, but you'll be introduced as Bellamy, NOT dad" I said and his face dropped.
"Clarke I'm her father!" he half yelled before letting out a little 'oomf', Octavia had clearly kicked him under the table and I had to suppress a giggle.
"You were absent for three god damn years Bellamy, maybe one day we can tell her, but it sure as hell isn't going to be any time soon. For all I know you could be gone again tomorrow" I said, holding my head high and he sighed.
"Yeah, fine, I agree to all your terms" he mumbled and I took a deep breath, things were going, half decent? And I definitely didn't want to ruin anything.
"Okay, good. O I'm going to call Raven and say goodnight to Aurora, you okay here? With Bellamy I mean?" I asked, our eyes locking on each other.
"Yes, tell her I say goodnight, and that I love her and wish I was there to tuck her in!" she said excitedly and I smiled before standing up and walking away.
Bellamy's POV
The relationship Clarke had formed with my sister was like something from a movie. The way O looked at her, looked up to her, it made me feel fuzzy inside. And the fact that Octavia was so attached to her niece, it was the sweetest thing I had ever seen, her face lights up at the mention of the toddler, I can only imagine what they're like together, I know the glimpse I had caught at the school was nothing compared to the bond they probably shared.
"So what's it like being an Aunt?" I asked, trying to break the silence. She look up at me with a breathtaking expression, I hadn't seen Octavia smile as wide as she was since before our mother died.
"I feel more like a big sister, she's so incredible Bell. I mean she's only three and she's so smart, we share a room and every morning she sits on my lap while I put on makeup. We tease Clarke a lot, and even though she's little, she's like my best friend. It's weird, but I love her so much Bells, so much" she said as a hint of rose made its way to her cheeks, clearly embarrassed by her rambling.
"That's good O, I'm glad you have that" I said, offering her a genuine smile.
"What's it like, you know, living with Clarke?" I mumbled, not honestly wanting to know the answer. I hate the fact that I forced her to become such an important part in my baby sister's life, she got to see so much, and for selfish reasons I missed it all.
"She's not mom, but she's like a mom. I have never seen someone care for anyone as much as she cares for me and Rory" that stung.
"She was terrified when you left, twenty-two, about to be a single mom. I was ten and child protective services were knocking on our door. Somehow they found out you left town, and as soon as they said I was going to be taken away, she threw out the word adoption like it was nothing, she didn't even think twice. She threw away her freedom so I could be safe and feel loved constantly, and that's something I will always owe her for" she said and I could feel the tears welling in my eyes. Bellamy Blake did not cry, he could not let himself cry.
"I'm uh, I guess I'm glad you have her" I said, trying my best to be sincere and failing miserably. She kicked me under the table again, this time harder than the last.
"What was that for" I mumbled and she huffed.
"Bellamy Blake, without her you would have no daughter and I would be lost in the system, smarten up" she growled and I couldn't help but marvel in the fact that my fifteen year old sister was so much wiser than I thought was possible.
"You don't act your age you know" I said as I stood up and she laughed.
"Have you met Clarke, she's a genius, it was bound to rub off on me" she said and I shook my head, hiding my smile as I turned away from her.
"Want a drink?" I asked, pulling open the fridge and she sighed.
"Honestly Bell, I think we should leave soon. I hate not being there when Aurora goes to bed, it kind of, hurts I guess" she replied, pain lacing her voice.
"I understand, if you want to go I can't stop you, but can I maybe come to your place this weekend?" I asked, desperately wanting to spend more time with her.
"If that's what you both want, I'm fine with it" Clarke said, startling me. That girl never made any noise; I hadn't even heard her come back into the apartment.
"That would be nice" Octavia said, standing up and tucking in her chair.
"We should get going though, Aurora wants 'sissy' to read her a bedtime story"
"What a little shit, the one time I'm not there she actually wants me" Octavia replied immediately, throwing her arms up in the air and the two girls laughed.
"Sorry to cut this short, I'll uh, text you our address and we can work out a time later on. Goodbye Bellamy" Clarke said softly before heading towards the door and Octavia followed, giving me a quick, one armed hug before rushing back to Clarke's side and grabbing her hand.
"Bye Bell" she said and before I knew it, they were gone and I was alone with my thoughts.