Blah, I'm sorry its taken so long.
I have rewritten this chapter like three times and its still not where I want it to be.
But, I had to post something because I feel guilty for leaving this story alone for so long.
I hope you guys still enjoy, and thank you for reading!
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Clarke's POV
I remember how I got to the floor and I remember pulling Bellamy into my arms; but I do not remember how I ended up on his lap, his face buried in my neck as I clutched his shirt and let four years worth of built up emotions pour from my eyes.
I don't know how long we stayed on the floor for, but I knew it was too long, I couldn't let myself stay in is arms for longer than I should have. I pulled back slowly, immediately missing his warmth and letting a sad sigh escape from my lips.
Pull yourself together Clarke, you don't need him, be strong my subconscious sang.
"I should probably go tell everyone we haven't killed each other, yet" I mumbled and Bellamy let out a low chuckle.
"Yeah, I uh, have some apologizing to do" he mumbled and I held back a laugh.
"Boy do you ever" I said in an almost inaudible tone as I wiped at my face, making sure tear tracks wouldn't be evident before standing up and trying to make myself look presentable again.
"I know I have no right to ask, but where the hell did the boys actually stay?" Bellamy asked and I chuckled.
"Not in my bed, that's for damn sure" I shot back sourly, making sure he knew I was still upset by his snide remark and he sighed.
"Yeah, I'm honestly sorry about that" he mumbled and I just shook my head, some apology that was.
"Yeah whatever, come with me to get the gang and I'll show you the boys room" I mumbled and he groaned, clearly upset that his apology had no effect on me. I started walking to the room, pausing at the door and waiting for Bellamy to catch up.
Once he had, I threw the door open, revealing the kids all sprawled out on the two bean bag beds while Raven and Wick sat on the futon.
"I only expected one of you to survive" Octavia mumbled and everyone burst into a roar of laughter.
"Well I can tell this isn't your bed princess" Bellamy mumbled as he pushed past me and I wanted to slap him.
"Asshole" Raven murmured as the four guys glared at him while he slowly made his way around the room.
"Momma's princess?" Aurora boomed and I shook my head, trying to hide a smile.
"Why yes she is little one" Bellamy said softly, smiling, and my daughter's eyes grew wide before she scurried away from him.
"Who is he?" she asked quietly and I burst out into a fit of giggles. I dropped to my knees on the floor, still giggling before giving her a hug.
"That my dear, is Octavia's brother" I said and she smiled.
"Tavy has brother?" she asked, her eyes glistening and I tried to find a way to explain it to her.
"Yes she does" I simply replied, smiling back at her and she furrowed her brows together as if she was trying to comprehend what I had said.
"If Tavy has brother, then I has brother" she mumbled and I sighed.
"No sweetie, it doesn't work like that" I replied, praying she'd give up but tears began to form in her eyes and her bottom lip began to tremble. Then before I knew what was going on, she let out blood curdling cries, the tears freely running down her cheeks.
"Babies crying equal my queue to leave, think you can manage?" Raven said with a chuckled as I scooped Aurora into my arms and began to bounce her.
"Yeah yeah, take off Reyes" I mumbled and she sighed.
"I love you if that's any consolation" she replied and I couldn't help but laugh.
"Love you too, now go!" I replied and she gave me a quick hug, kissing Aurora on top of her head before moving and hugging Octavia, Wick following closely behind.
"Bye boys, behave!" she called and they all laughed.
"Always" Jasper replied and before I knew it she was gone and I was left with Bellamy, a crying child and four teens.
"Mamma" Aurora cried and my heart broke as my thoughts went back to her.
"Shh baby, it's okay" I replied and she looked up at me the saddest eyes I had ever seen.
"Brother, mine too" she said before pointing at Bellamy and I half groaned.
"Sweetie no, Tavy is your aunt, not your sister, and Bellamy is Tavy's brother" I tried to explain again and her tears disappeared, before I knew it she was giggling.
"Tavy isn't and ant, silly mamma!" she half yelled through giggles and everyone else broke into a fit of laughter.
"But I am an ant Rory!" Octavia said and before I knew it she was down on all fours, crawling around as Aurora's giggles grew louder and she wiggled her way out of my arms. Lincoln shook his head as Jasper and Monty also got down on the floor, roaming around and pretending to be ants in hopes of cheering up my daughter.
Bellamy's POV
Seeing the lengths Octavia and her friends were willing to go in order to cheer up my daughter warmed my heart.
"I hate to say it, but I'm glad my sister has you, and them" I mumbled and Clarke punched my arm.
"Why do you have to be such an ass, why can't you just respect the fact that I did a damn good job raising your sister and daughter?" she asked and I sighed.
"Because I can't. I can't accept how much I screwed up, how much I missed. I want that little girl to call me dad and I want my sister living with me, where she belongs. I want our little family back" I said and she laughed, she fucking laughed.
"Oh Bellamy, seems like you still have some growing up to do. We were never a family and we never will be, I'm sorry if my little mental breakdown made you think there was hope, but that hug was nothing more than letting out my pent up emotions" she half whispered in a tone that made me believe she wasn't only trying to convince me that she didn't want this, but that she was trying to convince herself as well.
"You don't mean that, I know you don't" I mumbled and she sighed before walking away from me.
The rest of the afternoon went fairly easy, the kids all played and Clarke and I avoided each other at all costs. Aurora didn't seem to like me very much, and that bugged me more than anything. Any time I went near her she would run away, into the arms of either her mom or her aunt, hell she was even comfortable with the teens.
"You guys know the drill, I'm going to order, who is in charge of putting away dishes and who is in charge of setting the table? I want the four of you sitting there for dinner, you lucked out this morning" Clarke said with a smirk and the two younger boys, Monty and Jasper, groaned.
"I'll set the table, but know I won't like it very much" Jasper said and Clarke chuckled.
"I have no problem putting away the dishes Clarke" Lincoln said with a smile.
"Thank you very much you two" she said as the boys walked towards the kitchen, leaving O, the Asian kid, Aurora and I with Clarke.
"Clarkey, can I have the usual?" Octavia asked and I sighed, the usual, Clarke knew her favorite meals, what she likes on her pizza, everything, and I knew jack shit.
"Of course, Monty I'll get you a Jas your pizza too, do either of you know what Lincoln likes?" Clarke asked and I huffed.
"Calm down Blake, I know you like barbeque chicken, banana peppers and extra onion on yours" she added and I was shocked that she still remembered.
"Lincoln likes vegetarian pizza, ugh, so instead of getting Aurora the kids size, just get a medium or something" Octavia finally spoke up, smoothing over the somewhat tense atmosphere and before I knew it Clarke had left the room, cell phone pressed to her ear.
"So does Clarke let you guys do this often?" I asked and Monty, the Asian kid, rolled his eyes.
"Yup, Jaspy and Monty are my bestest fwiends, Tavy's too" Aurora chirped before clapping her hands and Octavia giggled.
"About every other weekend, it's nice getting everyone together. During the week Aunty Rey is around a lot, Wick only ever comes by with her on weekends" Octavia added and I smiled.
"That's nice" I replied and Octavia nodded, silently agreeing.
"So-"
"Cut the crap Bellamy, I know what happened in the kitchen, and I swear to god, if you don't stop this nice guy act I'm going to lose it" Octavia shot and I chuckled, there was no getting anything past her anymore.
"I'm not here to hurt anyone O, you have to believe me" I said with a sigh and she groaned.
"You're Bellamy Blake, pain is inevitable, it comes with your wake" she said softly, a tear rolling down her cheek, and my heart broke.
"No, that's the old Bellamy. Octavia, that isn't me anymore" I said as if I was trying to convince myself what I said was true as well and Monty cleared his throat.
"Hey Rory, why don't we go get Linc and Jas" he said and my daughters eyes lit up as if the boys he had mention hung the moon and the stars just for her.
"YES!" she squealed before jumping up, leaving the book she once held on the ground before her.
"Bye Tavy, LOVE YOU!" she yelled and before I knew it she was gone.
"Bells if you being here is some fucked up kind of revenge, I can show you to the door and you can leave again. I'm stronger now, so I won't break again, but she surely will, I know she will" she said softly and before I could respond she was up and out of the room.
Octavia's POV
Walking out I found the boys and Aurora sitting at the kitchen table as Clarke arranged their plates. I made my way over to help only to have her shake her head at me.
"Sit, I got this" she said with a smirk and I flushed. If there's one thing I knew about Clarke, it was that she appreciated help every once in a while, but she was definitely independent 90 percent of the time.
I picked Aurora up and sat down, placing her on my lap as she stared at Clarke with wide eyes, prepared to devour pizza herself.
"Enjoy!" Clarke said with a smile as she placed a platter full of assorted pizza in front of us and within minutes our mouths were full and the room ran silent.
Bellamy had wandered out and sat on the couch, silent and alone. I could help but feel a twinge of pain in my chest as he eyes us, kids full of smiles and laughter as he sulked, quite frankly it was depressing.
Clarke strolled by holding two plates, sighing as she made her way to the couch to join Bell.
"Soooo" Lincoln began and I knew what was coming.
"Oh hush" I said with a giggle and Lincoln smiled, knowing exactly what I meant.
Surprisingly dinner went off without a hitch and we had all found our way to the couch.
The boys parents slowly picked them up one by one, thanking Clarke and saying their goodbyes, and soon it was only Clarke, Aurora, Bellamy and I.
Aurora had warmed up to Bellamy and had curled up on his lap, but that was 40 minutes ago, she was now fast asleep.
"I should put her to bed" Clarke mumbled as she stood up and Bellamy frowned.
"I'm glad she likes me" he said with half a smile as he picked her up and handed her off to Clarke. I didn't miss the twinkle in his eye as their hands brushed, nor did I miss the blush that threatened to creep up Clarke's neck.
I loved my brother, and I loved Clarke, but I don't know if I would ever love them together again.
Not after the pain they had been through, the pain Bellamy had caused.
When I was younger I thought their love was like a fairytale, Cinderella and her prince, but god I was wrong, there love was more or less like Romeo and Juliet; they were destined to hurt and those they adored were bound to lose themselves in the process of their conquest, something that terrified me.
"I'm gonna head out" Bell mumbled as he scratched the back of his neck, trying to avoid making eye contact with Clarke.
"Okay, well, I'm glad you came, honestly" she mumbled and Bellamy smiled the most sincere smile I had seen in a while.
I stood up, interrupting their little eye conversation and cleared my throat.
"Bye Bells, I'm glad you came too" I said and he wrapped me up into a bone crushing hug.
"I love you O, see you again soon" he said and I sighed, retrieving from the hug and watching him begin to walk away.
"I love you too big bro" I said softly and his shift in posture as he walked away proved he heard me.
"And then there were three" I mumbled before catching up to Clarke and preparing for bed, wondering what it would be like around here if this actually continued.