Okay guys I'm on a roll ! And exams (that I might have screwed but.. oh hey !) are finally over so hopefully if I'm not too busy going out, or partying, or watching Buffy cause I decided to do a marathon, well I'll be able to keep the updates coming, IF I see that people keep reading of course. I think this chapter might just please you, and also, heads up, there will be a flashback of Beca's in chapter 10 so give me love ! You know I give you a lot of that ! xoxo
Chloe's p.o.v.
I wake up in my bed around 10 am. Last night, Tom had walked me home and left. It was better anyway cause I wasn't in 'THE' mood, I am still not actually, because Stacie's words have been coming floating through my mind non stop since she's pronounced them. At first I was mad, but then I gave it some time and thought... maybe she's right. Like, I'm not in love with Tom. And it's so not fair to stay with him like that. Stace has also told me to follow my heart. Maybe I had judged her too fast, she seems like a really nice girl.
Okay now, so I'm still in a bad place with Reb. And what about Tom ?
"AARRRGHH !" I scream in frustration, burrying my face in my pillow. Aubrey. I need to call Aubrey. She answers right away.
"Aubrey Posen." Her formal answering had always made me laugh but today I have other things on my mind.
"Hey, Aubs, I need some of your magic." I say.
"Uh... I'm... not a wizard..." she states confused. It amazes me how this girl could be both super smart and also kinda dumb sometimes... I decide to just ignore that and explain last night's events. Rebecca implying that she hated me every now and then. Twilight. My talk with Stacie...
"Well that sure was an eventful night !" she says jokingly.
"Arghh Bree ! It's really not funny, I'm having a mental break down as we speak ! REACT !" I yell.
"Okay, relax, geez ! Here's what you're gonna do. You'll call Rebecca, ask her to meet up, to talk. See how it goes and call me then." She advises.
"Okay. Thanks Aubrey." I state.
"You're welcome Chloe !" she exclaims then hangs up. That girl... Okay. I dial Rebecca's number and feel my heart beat picking up as I wait for her to answer. Finally, after what feels like an eternity but really is only a few seconds, someone speaks on the other line.
"Rebecca Holiday's phone, she's busy at the moment, what can I do for you ?" I recognize Stacie's voice and get confused... I thought they had broken up...
"Stace ? Where's Rebecca ?" I ask.
"Oh hey Chloe ! She's in the shower right now ! Want me to give her a message ?" she asks, still lightly. I ignore her question and decide to answer with one of my own to which I NEED an answer.
"Why are you at her place ? I thought you broke up ?" I say, going for casual but failing miserably.
"Oh we have yeah ! You're so free to make a move - oh Reb's done ! I'll give her the phone !" she doesn't give me enough time to answer her and I hear some arguing, sounds like Stacie's trying to convince Rebecca to talk to me. I hear a sigh and Reb spoke.
"Chloe, what do you want ?" she asks coldly. Okay, it's gonna be harder than I thought...
"Errr... Hum... Can we meet ? Like, this afternoon ? I need to talk to you. I really need to, please." I plead and I REALLY sound desperate... She sighs again.
"Okay... Meet me at the park in 30 minutes." she says and joy overflows me as I understand that I have won this fight.
"Okay, I'll be there !" I say happily then hang up. I quickly shower, I let my hair fall wavily cause I know Rebecca likes it better that way. I get my curve-fitting blue dress and leather jacket along with my brown boots cause I know it's her favorite outfit of mine. I put on a little make up and leave.
When I arrive at the park, Rebecca's sitting on a bench, sketching in her notebook, she has her back to me so I silently approch her and look over her shoulder. She's drawing two girls kissing naked in a bath. I have to admit that it's quite hot.
"These are really beautiful you know." I tell her and make her jump in the process, and she throws her pen in the air, closing her notebook with her knees. I giggle a little and she glares at me before she can't stop herself from giggling too.
"Geez Chloe ! Don't do that ! You'll have me having a heart attack !" she says, scolding me a little.
"Sorry." I apologize, sitting down next to her.
"So what did you wanna talk about ?" she asks, picking up her pen on the ground. When she sits back straight, I decide to be straight forward and go for it.
"Us." I state simply, taking her hand in mine. She sighs and looks down.
"Chloe, you can't do this." she says firmly. Okay. She is back to her cold self. Great. But I can do this.
"Do what ?" I ask, trying to look at her. She raises her head and looks into my eyes.
"This." she says, showing me our intertwined hands before continuing. "You can't just kiss me saying it means something and not talk to me for a whole week. You can't insult me and yell at me when I sleep with someone else after a week of silence. You can't almost kiss me in the music room and run back to your boyfriend. And you can't expect me to be fine after all of this." she explains and I can see sadness in her eyes. She's suffering really bad. I can't stand to see her like that. It hurts too much. I have to open up for her to understand.
"Rebecca, I know you're tired of forgiving me but I'm truly sorry. Thing is, I'm really confused ! I didn't want to admit it before, but when I heard you with Stace... I got jealous, and it freaked me out. So I dated Tom. And I still don't know what all this means but... Gosh, I just need you ! Okay ? And... holding your hand like this... it's enough to send shivers through my entire body..." I try to express myself. By now she's looking down and I see a tear falling on her lap. I lift her head for her to look at me with my free hand. "Tell me you feel it too..." I whisper.
"You know I do." she replies with teary eyes.
"Why are you crying ?" I ask gently, turning my body to face her so she knows she has my full attention.
"Because... because you're saying this now but you're still with Tom and, who tells me that you won't freak out on me again ?! I still don't know what you want and it's killing me !" she exclaims, more tears streaming down her face. I cup her face with my hands, wiping her cheeks before slightly touching her bottom lip with thumb. "Stop playing with my heart like this it's cruel." she says softly, almost pleadingly, putting my hands away.
"It's not a game." I say and she looks up at me again, and as she does so, my heart starts pounding in my chest. Racing. I take one of her hands and put it over my heart. "Does this feel like a game to you ?" I ask her and she just looks at me expectantly. I get it. It's not enough. Okay. Fuck restriction. Fuck reason. "I think... No. I know, for sure... Rebecca, I love you. I am in love. With... you." I say staring right into her eyes to show her that I mean it. When she doesn't respond, I just can't take it anymore. "Please, if you're not gonna say anything just... kiss me." I say with pleading eyes. She quickly puts her hand on the back of my neck and crashes our lips together. I react right away, pulling her by the waist to bring our bodies even closer. This has absolutely nothing to do with the kiss that we shared when I was drunk. It doesn't have anything to do either with the kiss we shared the day after that. This one is meaningful and passionate. It should have been our first. By now she has her fingers tangled in my hair and her tongue is grazing my bottom lip, asking for entrance. When I part my lips and our tongues start dancing together, I feel like no one and nothing else matters in the world. It feel like fireworks are released from every part of my body and as cliché as it sounds, I feel the famous butterflies erupting in my stomach, going all over the place. It feels... right. Suddenly the fireworks stop and I realize Rebecca has pulled away.
Beca's p.o.v.
I was at a loss of words before the kiss. Chloe loves me. Obviously it's useless to say that after THAT kiss, I can't speak anymore than before. God it was breathtaking. Like, I'm literally breathless. Which is why I pulled away in the first place, but then I remember Tom. I look at Chloe and she seems happy, and also disappointed that I stopped, since she's frowning.
"What about Tom ?" I ask.
"Who ?" she says confused. Wow. Am I really that good ?
"Tom. Your boyfriend." I say, emphasizing on the word boyfriend.
"Oh. Well I came here to figure us out, but also him and me. Turns out I'll break up with him. Tomorrow." she states, she seems driven.
"Okay, what about us then ?" I ask.
"Do you still love me ?" she asks.
"Of course !" I exclaim right away.
"Well, we love each other. Let's go from there."
After we shared that sparkling kiss and had 'THE' talk, we just walk for a bit, hand in hand, quietly. It's crazy how I would constantly think about my previous girlfriend before and when I'm with Chloe, it all seems to go away... I guess I'm finally moving on. But I'll never forgive myself for what happened though. I walk Chloe to her house, we are now on her porch, she turns to me and looks down.
"Reb... I'll talk to Tom tomorrow okay ? So let's not say anything until then." she says.
"Alright princess. Just call me if you need some... mental support or whatever." I reply with a wink as she looks up at me. She leans in and pecks my lips softly, then lets go of my hands and opens the door.
"I'll call you tomorrow evening." she informs me.
"That's fine by me ! Bye beautiful !" I reply and she blushes a light shade of pink and answers
"Bye sweetie." and with that she closes the door. Dear God. Has today really happened ? I walk home, light headed with a stupid grin on my face. Yes ! I haven't lost it. I wasn't sure I could ever feel like that again but I do !
Chloe's p.o.v.
Wow. I can't believe it went so well ! I can't believe it felt so right. How could I have not seen it before ? She's been gone for like 15 minutes and I already miss her. Even though I've told her not to tell anyone, I have to call Aubrey. Just as I'm about to dial her number, my phone rings, and it's Tom. I answer.
"Hello ?"
"Hey babe ! So Benji is throwing this party tonight, d'you wanna go ?" he ask, his voice full of hope.
"Hum, depends, who's going ?" I ask him.
"Well, me, for a starter, Emily, of course, mmmh... Aubrey I think, I think Em's calling Rebecca to ask her to come..." I cut him off
"I'll go !" Okay, I didn't mean to sound that desperate but just the thought of seeing Reb again makes me act totally silly.
"Okay then, I'll pick you up at 8 !" he says. I agree and hang up. Okay, now, Aubrey.
She answers almost right away.
"Hey sweetie, so I heard it went pretty well today with Rebecca... Emily called me." she teases and answers my question before I can ask, and I feel my cheeks reddening.
"Uh... Yeah well I called to tell you about it but obviously I don't need to... So I'll just get to the point. I'll break up with Tom asap but I'm not ready for people to know, so please don't tell. I mean about me and Rebecca. Please." I plead.
"Okay, I won't." she answers and I feel relieved.
"Thanks. So I'll see you tonight ?" I ask.
"Yeah ! See ya !" she exclaims then hangs up. It's not like her to be that giddy. Oh well, I guess Uni will be there tonight.
*In Tom's car*
"So, Chloe, baby, I have something to tell you..." Tom starts as I'm looking for a way to break up with him softly. Maybe he wants to break up too !
"Yeah ?" I ask.
"Well, I know we haven't been dating for long but, I've had feelings for you for a long time now and hum..." he hesitates. Oh no... It's not going well. Please don't say the L word. Please no. "I just wanted to let you know, you don't have to say it back but I... I love you." he says shyly. Oh FUCK. CRAP. DANG IT. Just then he's parking in front of Benji's house and I see Rebecca on the porch, ready to ring the doorbell.
"Look, Reb's here !" I say, seeking an escape and quickly getting out of the car and running towards her. I hear Tom calling after me but I can't face him right now. "Rebecca !" I call out. She turns around and smiles at me before she sees Tom behind me and frowns. I rush over to her and throw myself in her arms. She hugs back, asking if I'm okay. "He told me he loved me... Of course I didn't say it back and I just ran there but now I don't know what to do !" I whisper really quick before I pull away so it wouldn't look weird. Then Benji opens the door and lets us in before Tom can start talking. Well I'll just have to try my best to avoid him now...
*Later that night*
Beca's p.o.v.
I'm a little tipsy but still aware of my surroundings, enjoying myself on the dancefloor with Aubrey and Emily when I hear Chloe's voice screaming something from the backyard. I rush back there to find Tom, with a tight grip on Chloe's arm, yelling at her.
"YOU OWE ME AN ANSWER NOW !". He's obviously drunk and Chloe is obviously scared.
"LET GO TIM PLEASE ! We can talk about it in the morning !" she nearly pleads.
"I WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT NOW ! WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY IT BACK ?!" he shouts and I feel my blood boiling in my veins but decide to stay back as long as I can, I don't want to loose it and hurt him.
"You said I didn't have to, now please let go..." she pleads again and I can see she's afraid.
"WELL I CHANGED MY MIND, I WANT AN ANSWER ! NOW !" He yells at the top of his lungs and I decide to interfere when I see Chloe flinching as his grip tightens.
"AND SHE WANTS YOU TO LET GO !" I yell back. I love this girl. I have only felt this way once and it ended badly because of my powerlessness, and I'm not about to let that happen again. Just then he looks at me, not processing at first so I continue more calmly. "So I suggest you let go, and as she said, talk about it when you're not drunk." Now he has let go of Chloe's arm and I have his full attention, but I'm not sure it's a good thing for me.
"Don't... just mind your own business you slut, this is between Chloe and I so go back to sleeping around." he spits through his teeth, his fists tightening. Okay... I need to act like right now or my face is gonna hurt in a bit, and I won't be able to defend myself or else my skills would bring suspicions... I grab Chloe's hand and run back inside. I can hear Tom following us inside, he stumbles on the speakers cables and the music goes off as he keeps yelling.
"COME BACK YOU BITCH ! I'M NOT DONE WITH YOU !" he tries getting a hold of Chloe again but Benji and Uni stop him.
"I think you are, dude, leave them alone." Benji says.
"Yeah, calm down." Uni agrees. Tom doesn't listen and tries to move anyway so Benji and Uni pin him down on the ground and empty a bottle of water on his head. He still breathes heavily when the guys lead him to some bedroom. God... I look over at Chloe, she has a shoked expression on her face, so I pull her in for a hug and whisper soothingly in her ear.
"Shhh... Baby it's okay, it's over, I'm right here, I won't let anything happen to you..." I rock her back and forth as I say that. She doesn't know, but that is a promise I owe to keep. For Bridgit. Because I failed with her and I just finally allowed myself to let go of her, I at least owe her to be careful. Chloe starts to relax in my arms. She pulls away and looks at me with pleading eyes.
"Please take me home..." she asks me.
"Of course, come on." I agree. I say goodbye to Emily and Aubrey, reassuring them that we were fine and that I'd take good care of Chloe, point on which they didn't argue, and let us go with a final wiggling of eyebrows from Emily and a scolding Aubrey next to her.
Chloe's p.o.v.
I can't believe what Tom has done, or said. Thank God Rebecca was there. We are driving to my place right now. It's quiet, but in a comfortable silence, which I break first.
"Thank you for defending me..." I say.
"Hey, I told you I'd never let anything happen to you." she replies smiling at me as she's parking in front of my house.
"Well, thanks Rebecca... I love you." I say, which causes her to smile.
"I love you too princess." she replies, putting her hand on my knee. This one simple touch makes me feel like my body is on fire and I suddenly feel the urge to kiss her, so I do. Of course she kisses back, and after about 5 minutes it gets heated. Her thumbs are rubbing the skin of my hips slightly under my shirt as I'm letting my hands go further and further up her thighs. I just can't stop myself, it's like I need to touch her, but suddenly she pulls away, resting her forehead on mine and taking my hands in hers. We are both breathing quite heavily at this point.
"Why did you stop ?" I ask, in a voice that sounds way more disappointed than I thought it would.
"Cause I don't wanna let your hormones make you do some things you'll regret later..." she replies softly, cupping my cheek with her hand.
"Why would I regret... being with you like this ?" I ask, worried she'd think I didn't want her for real.
"Because it's only been one day. Because I don't want to rush things and I'm sure you don't either. And because we're in a car and I want our first time to be special." she replies, slightly blushing. She's so freaking sweet ! And she's also so freaking right.
"Your sweetness makes me swoon, Rebecca Holiday. And I love you so much." I reply smiling.
"You know I love you so much too... Now go home sweet heart, I'll call you in the morning." she says, letting go of my hands.
"Okay." I agree and get out of her car, happy and blushing. This girl has some sort of power over me... no kidding.