Order
The doctor's suggestion to write all this down has helped me to see through the haze, order my thoughts, find solace in who I was before Jay Gatsby. At least the me who wanted to write. But even now, I see that irrevocable change Gatsby spoke of. For me it was making a call the morning he died. I'd decided to tell him how I felt, but I'd waited too long. And now too, I hear myself telling him you can't repeat the past. There is no before Gatsby. I will never think a thought that doesn't involve him, or feel his influence, again. His hopeful impression was life-changing and ever-lasting, and even now he's with me, giving me what I have always wanted. I am a writer, and without him it would never have happened.