Chapter 24

Two In A Bed

Her legs felt heavy as she climbed the stairs up to her front door. The sun was now peeking through grey clouds and more snow had started to fall. She took a deep breath before she put the key in the lock and silently made her way inside. She had almost forgot that Amanda was staying at hers until she saw the blonde folding the kitchen towel and placed it neatly on the counter.

The radio was on so Amanda did not hear the detective unlock the door. She got a freight when she spotted the brunette hanging up her coat and dusted a few snowflakes out of her hair. "Jesus, you scared the living crap out of me." She placed a hand over her beating heart.

"Sorry." Liv simply said.

Amanda suddenly got uncomfortable. Maybe Olivia didn't like the fact that she had cleaned the entire house to keep her mind busy. "Um, I didn't want to feel useless or lacy so I cleaned. I hope you don't mind?" she mad a brief pause before quickly adding, "Not that is was dirty or anything. Im not saying that it was, I just... You know, I just wanted to um,... to..."

"It's fine, Amanda. I don't mind. I told you to make yourself at home." Liv smiled tiredly, trying to put Amanda's mind at ease as she made her way into the sittingroom and crashed down into the sofa.

The blonde sensed something was wrong and didn't know what to do. Situations like these always put her in an uncomfortable spot and she was never any good at handling awkward silences or knowing what to say when someone was acting wierd or being upset. This was one of those moments. Amanda followed the detective unsure if she should sit down next to her, or in the armchair or not sit down at all. Eventually she decided to sit down on the sofa but keeping a comfortable distance between them. After all, Olivia had done so much for her already and felt like she had to sit down and try to figure out what was wrong.

"You okay? You seem a bit... I don't know, sad?" she waited for the brunette to reply but when she didn't get one, she continued, "Is it the case? What happened at the hospital?"

Liv just sighed and hid her face in her hands, trying to hold it together. "A five year old girl was beaten and raped. No name, no parents... nothing." the tears were building up as she thought back on those brown pleading eyes that she couldn't seem to get rid of.

Amanda swallowed and wished she were somewhere else, in another time, another place. She knew Olivia was upset and that it must have been awful to see such a small child suffer from such horrific injuries. "Will she be okay?" she finally asked.

Amanda watched as the detective's strong broad shoulders started to shake as stiffled sobs could be heard through the room. Instead of pulling back and hide from the situation, Amanda found herself moving closer to the weeping woman to offer some kind of comfort.

Liv struggled to speak, "She... she di... she didn't m... make it." her body shook with grief and emotions that were too strong to try and suppress.

Amanda was at a loss and berating herself for being such a coward. Olivia always seemed so strong. She hadn't known the detective that long but she always came across as very independent, strong willed and quite stoic. Thinking of others before herself and would go that extra mile for people she didn't even know. Now she seemed like the complete opposite to that and it scared Amanda slightly.

Pushing her own feelings aside, the blonde draped an arm over Olivia's quivering shoulders and brought her close. Amanda shifted to get more comfortable, pulling her legs up, and pulled Olivia in tighter. No words were spoken, the silence spoke for itself and that was enough for the two women at the moment. Just the sobbing and the occasional sniffle came from the distraught brunette.

Olivia rested her head on Amanda's left shoulder, wiping at her tears with her hand and tried to contain her breathing. A few minutes passed Olivia spoke up but made no attempt to move from her position. "Im sorry." she simply said in a shaky voice.

Pulling Olivia a bit closer, and before she could stop herself, the blonde reached out and grabbed a strong but elegant hand in hers. "It's okay. Don't worry about it." she said softly, starting to enjoy the closeness and warmth from the older woman. "A woman once said to me that it's okay to cry."

Amanda tried to lighten the mood a bit and was satisfied when she heard a giggle. "She sounds like a very wise woman. I should listen to her." Liv joked through her tears, knowing that she was the one who told Amanda this only a couple of days ago.

The blonde was quick to catch a lone tear slowly making it's way down a tanned cheek. "I think you should. She also told me that talking about things is a good way of dealing and processing what you've been through." Amanda felt like it was her turn to be the strong one, to help Olivia when she needed her and to be there and listen to her like she had done to her.

Chuckling Liv brought her legs up on the couch to get more comfortable but kept her head where it was. "Wow, that is very wisely said. She should start charging people for giving them such great advice."

Now it was Amanda's turn to laugh and goosebumps suddenly covered her body as she felt Olivia burry her face in the crook of her neck. About a minute passed before the detective told Amanda the whole story. The battered tiny body in the big bed, the smallest little hand reaching out for her and the pleading dark brown eyes that stared at her so intensely. Olivia cried for a second time that morning and Amanda was lost for words. Hearing about the little girl and what she must have been through, the pain, the horror and the trauma, created tears in Amanda's eyes as well but she quickly blinked them away.

As she felt Olivia's body shake, she placed a kiss on the top of her head and began massaging her scalp with her fingernails, hoping it provided some sort of peace. "Shh, I got you. You're okay." Amanda soothed, surprised at her own words. "Come on, why don't you get some more sleep. I'll bring you some tea."

Without any argument, the brunette dragged herself into her bedroom, got changed and back into bed. It was almost seven in the morning and she was planning to be at the precinct at twelve. That would give her a few hours of sleep, a shower and an early lunch. She leaned back against the headbord and closed her eyes but snapped them back open again after seeing the little girls face once more.

Amanda came through the door with two cups of steaming hot chamomile tea and a hot water bottle under her arm. "Here you go." after handing Olivia her tea she sat down next to her and placed the hot bottle under the duvet by the brunette's feet. "Okay?" she asked.

Liv smiled and grabbed one of Amanda's hands in hers and held it tight. "Thank you." Tears started to once again escape her tired eyes. "Sorry, I don't know what's wrong with me." She apologized. "I don't know why this is affecting me so much." sipping her hot beverage, she felt the warmth spreading across her feet and travelled up her lower body.

The blonde looked down at their joint hands and shrugged. "It's okay. You don't have to apologize. It's... different... more horrific and hard to understand when things like this happens to children. I understand."

Olivia knew that she was thinking about Kim and what had happened to her. She lifted her arm and held it out as an invitation for Amanda to join her. "Come on, get in. You look tired too."

Hesitantly, she got in beside the detective and placed her cup on the nightstand. She kept a few inches between them, not wanting to make Olivia uncomfortable, even though she knew she wouldn't be. "Closer." Olivia pleaded. Amanda held her breath as she scooted closer but relaxed slightly when a strong arm found it's way around her shoulders and pulled her close.

The older woman sighed with content when she could smell Amanda's scent and feel the softness of her skin. She could also feel the tension that was slowly building in the petite frame and simply held her closer, sad that Amanda reacted this way from physical contact but also glad that she trusted Liv enough to hold her.

When she felt the blonde relax a bit more she placed a hand on her cheek, guided her face towards hers and made eye contact. Amanda didn't pull away but Olivia could see the fear and uncertainty in them and softly stroked her cheek with her thumb. Her eyes travelled down to a pair of pink plump lips. Slowly she leaned closer, giving Amanda a chance to pull back if she so wanted, and tenderly kissed her.

Amanda felt her whole body go ridgid but at the same time didn't want Olivia to stop. She wanted this so why couldn't she just relax and be normal about it? A normal person would lean into the kiss, deepen it or even initiate more. Why was it so difficult for her to do that? Why couldn't she be one of those normal people?

Liv sensed Amanda's distress and tenderly continued brushing her thumb across her cheek as they brought their lips together for more. Olivia felt like she was on fire. Kissing Amanda gave her butterflies in her stomach, goosebumps covered her skin and clouded her head to a point where everything else disappeared and nothing else mattered. As she continued the kiss the blonde she brought her own body closer and applied more pressure into it. She opened her mouth and let her tongue trace Amanda's lower lip before gently sucking it in, giving it a tug.

The young blonde gasped at the contact and instantly felt wetness starting to build up between her legs. The sensation was so intense, so strong and powerful that Amanda couldn't find the energy or will to pull away. No matter how much her mind was screaming at her, telling her that this was a bad idea, she still couldn't fight it. She opened her own mouth and immediately felt Olivia's tongue against hers.

That did it for Amanda. Still locked in a passionate kiss, she swiftly got on top of Olivia and instantly started to tug at her top. A second later it was on the floor and the blonde was faced with two perfectly shaped breasts covered by a black laze bra. She took in the sight before her and felt her breathing become heavy and laboured. She wasted no time and roughly kissed her way down from the detective's sensitive earlobe, down her neck, across her collarbone until she reached the valley between her breasts.

She kissed around the area while her hands hungrily fondled the mounds hearing Olivia gasp and arch her back for more pressure. Reaching around the detective's back, skilled fingers unhooked the material, letting the straps fall down her toned shoulders and without hesitation threw it across the room. Two perfectly hard nipples were staring at her and she immediately took one into her mouth and sucked hard while her other hand gave the other breast some much needed attention. She let the nipple go with a loud pop and swapped around to the other one, repeating the action there.

"Fuck." Olivia gasped as she felt Amanda graze her teeth over her sensitive flesh. Never had she been so turned on before. She was literally on fire and only Amanda knew how to extinguish it. The blonde moved up, again connecting their lips together in a rough wet kiss. They were both panting from arousal, breaths ragged and filled with need and want and the air was thick from their burning desire.

Again Amanda kissed her way down to her breasts and while sucking one, already hard sensitive nipple into her hot mouth, her right hand found it's way underneath the brunette's flannel bottoms and her panties. The wetness she found there was incredible. Soft, warm and soaked flesh greeted Amanda's fingers with need, her whole body screaming for release. She parted the slik folds and instantly started to rub the swollen clit roughly.

"Fuck, yes! That's it, right there." Olivia cried as Amanda continued to rub her pleasure bud in quick and hard circles. She knew it wouldn't take long before she would reach an orgasm and she almost had to force her body to calm down. She wanted this to last longer. Amanda was making her feel so good and she didn't want it to end so soon. However when she felt two long slender fingers push into her soaked opening, she knew she was fighting a lost battle.

"Oh fuck yeah! Oh Amanda, that's so good. Don't stop. Please don't stop." The blonde felt her own wetness soaking her underwear at the sight of Olivia laying under her, reacting violently from her touch, pleading for more. She pulled her fingers out, which caused a disappointed groan coming from the brunette. Amanda scooted down and almost ripped her pyjama pant off, panties as well.

When the detective was completely naked Amanda went back to where she had left off. She slid two fingers in again and soon added a third one causing Olivia to lift her hips of the bed, trying to get more friction. Amanda knew she needed more and her thumb once again found her clit. With each thrust the pressure from her thumb drove Olivia closer to the edge. "Fuck me! YES, that's it. Harder, fuck me harder, please!"

Amanda sat back to get a better angle. Her whole hand was coated with the brunette's desire and she could smell her arousal as she fucked her. She watched as Olivia's large breasts bounced back and forth violently as she continued her thrusts, pounding her fingers in and out from the wet opening. Suddenly, she felt the walls around her fingers clench and she knew that it would only take a few more final thrusts before Olivia would reach her destination. She picked up her speed and pressure even more and watched as the detective's hips left the bed.

"Oh my god, don't stop, sweetie. Don't stop." she struggled to speak. "Im... Im gonna... Oh fuck, I'm coming, Oh god, Im coming. FUCK YES!" Her body shook from the intense release, feeling her walls clenching down on Amanda's fingers as she continued to move in and out, helping Liv to ride out her orgasm. Then her body went completely still for a couple of seconds before she came crashing down onto the bed. A layer of sweat coated her muscular body and her heaving chest was raising and falling with each pant.

Gently Amanda pulled out, causing Liv to gasp slightly at the loss of contact. "That was... that was amazing." Liv said breathlessly. "I don't think I've ever had an orgasm that intense. Thank you for that, sweetie."

The detective engulfed her in a strong embrace, letting her know how much it ment to her and how much she appreciated it. Amanda felt herself tense up again. She had just fucked Olivia Benson. Literally fucked her, hard and rough. Making her scream and twitch under her touch.

What had she done?