A/N : I'M SO SO SO SO SO SORRY ! Okay, but I have good reasons I swear ! First I was in Spain on holidays in a little village where I have absolutely no Wi-Fi, that was until the 19th. Then, I got back, and I had 2 days to pack my bags and say goodbye to my entire family and all of my friends because on the 21rst I left for a town where there's an airport and on the 22nd I got on a plane to Austria where I'll be living for an entire year. I only got connexion two days ago and I think, because you're the best, you won't hold it against me that I took the first two days (on which I was at work most of the time so really the first 2 evenings) to Skype with my family and friends. ANYWAY ! Here goes what you've been waiting for ! I hope you enjoy and I love every and each one of you ! xx
Beca's p.o.v.
I wake up to the sound of an angel's voice and the water running. Ah. Chloe is taking a shower. I jump out of bed and go straight to the bathroom. Chloe doesn't see me at first but then she turns around and jumps a little when she spots me. She quickly recomposes herself and smiles at me.
« Well goodmorning my little perv ! » she exclaims. I fake being offended.
« I'm not a perv ! » I defend myself.
« Then what are you doing here, watching me showering ? » she counters, raising a challenging eyebrow at me.
« Well I was gonna ask if maybe I could join you. » I inform her. She nods her head slowly, before answering.
« Be my guest ! » she says, stepping aside. I strip and she stares at me intensely. I giggle.
« Well who's the perv now ? » I ask rhetorically, making Chloe roll her eyes.
« Step in already ! » she says, faking annoyance. I step in and soon we start to make out and… do other things that two naked lovers would usually be expected to be doing together in the shower. It's starting to get really heated, and Chloe is almost at her climax when there's a knock on the bathroom door, so I place my hand – that isn't already busy – over Chloe's mouth and she bites me quite hard as she comes, in order not to scream. My mom though, with her super hearing – I swear it's like she has some kind of super power or something – starts talking.
« Oh God, girls, for the second time : seriously ? In the morning ? Again ? » she complains. That makes me giggle.
« Good morning ! » we both answer at the same time.
« Yeah I bet it is… » she mutters. « I'm sorry Moira… » she then says to someone else.
« Who's Moira ? » I wonder out loud. Chloe goes red, then white, then red again. « Oh. It's your mom isn't it ? » I understand and she nods. Uh-oh. We quickly step out of the shower, dry off and put our clothes on before going down to the living room. Our moms are sitting accross from each other with cups of coffee. I still wonder what her mom is doing here this early but then I notice it's 12 :30 so… yeah.
« Hello mom ! » Chloe says shyly.
« Hi Mrs. Heksoe. » I greet her too.
« Chloe, Beca. » she greets us rather sternly.
« Mom, I'm sorry you had to… hear that I- » Chloe starts rambling but Moira stops her by raising her hand.
« I came here for two reasons. One, even if your da dis having issues with the situation, I decided to accept it. You're my daughter, and I want you to be happy. Beca seems to be a great girl and she obviously cares about you so… You two have my blessing. » she states very formally. It seems that it was hard for her to make that speech but she still di dit, which I am grateful for because it made Chloe so happy she has tears in her eyes. She's at a loss of words so I speak up.
« Thank you Mrs. Heksoe. What you said means the world to us and I promise you I will always do my best to make Chloe the happiest person alive. » I assure her and she finally cracks a smile.
« I know you will. And please call me Moira. » she asks and I smile back, nodding. My mom shifts in her seat.
« Moira, you said you came here for two reasons… » she says, half questionning.
« Yes, the other reason is, as I said, Beca seems to be a great girl, but I saw the news yesterday, and if I'm going to accept you… dating my daughter, I'm gonna ask for further explanation. » she stated.
« And you shall have answers. But I don't won't to repeat myself, and I intended to call some of my friends to explain everything this afternoon. Would you mind waiting until then ? You can have lunch with us if you'd like… » I ask and offer. She smiles.
« Sounds fair, and I'd love to have lunch with you three. Thank you Beca. » she answers.
*Later that day*
So everyone has arrived. And it's getting kinda awkward. Let me describe the situation. I'm sitting on a chair, Chloe on my right, Emily on my left, for moral support. Dallas and Matt are next to Chloe, and Benji is next to Emily. My mother is sitting on the couch in front of me, with Moira on her right and Aubrey on her left, and around them, facing me are Stacie and yes, even Tom. Chloe takes my hand and squeezes, silently telling me to start, that everything is gonna be fine, so I think… Here goes nothing…
« Okay. Hum… I guess you all know why you're here. I thought I owed you all some kind of explanation. You've all seen the news last night right ? » I ask, to make sure they were all on the same page. They all nod and some of them voice they're agreement. « Good. Then… Oh my God I don't how… How do I do this ? » I whisper to my right and left, my best friend and my love.
« Hum… Maybe you could let us ask the questions ? » Stacie offers. « Cause I know I have a few and I'm probably not the only one. » she continues looking around for confirmation which she definitely got.
« Okay… Let's do it this way. Shoot. » I say, determined.
« So… My first question would be… Is Beca Mitchell really your real name ? Not Rebecca Holiday or something else ? » she asks.
« My real name is indeed Beca Mitchell. My mom is Vicky Mitchell. Yeah. » I answer. That starts fairly easy.
« How old are you really ? » Aubrey, always straight to the point.
« Hum, hum, that's a good question haha, I turned 20 in october. When you were all invited… That wasn't my 17th birthday, but my 20th. » I answer, looking down. I mean, some people are judgy, and Chloe is after all only turning 18 in a few months.
« Okay. » she says, unfazed.
« Oh wow. Okay. Yeah. Right. » Stacie seems a bit more shocked though. Then Tom speaks up.
« What I really want to know is why the hell did you come here ? Why did it have to be, HERE, at OUR school. If you're 20, why not stick with your age and go play with the people your age ? » he asks, looking pointedly at our joined hands. Here comes the judgment. But from him I don't really care.
« Hey watch it. You know what ? I don't even know why Beca allowed you to get answers. I'm glad she was, and still is around, to keep guys like you away from my little sister. And just, may I remind you that if you overstep your boundaries here, Beca kicked your ass once and didn't even sweat. I'm sure she could do it all over again, and with my help. » Dallas starts to get mad and it makes me laugh to see her be herself like this.
« It's okay Dallas. I'm sure mister dickhead here understood the message loud and clear, didn't you Tom ? » I ask, challenging him to dare and say otherwise.
« Yes. » he grunts.
« Good. Now, to answer your question. I came here because Emily's parents were moving in this town at the same time as I needed to be on the move. Emily's been my best friend for years, and I need her, probably more than she needs me so I decided to follow- » I start to explain but Emily cuts me off.
« I need you just as much Beca, don't say stuff like that. » she says, touching my arm.
« I love you, Em. » I reply.
« I love you too ! » she answers. I smile and turn back to Tom.
« And so, I didn't decide to pretend to be 17. My cousin did. He's the one who came up with the fake identity. I didn't ask questions, plus it wasn't that bad because I got to be with Emily more often. » I finish to reply. « Is that a good enough answer for you ? » I ask and he just nods.
« So you're really a FBI agent ? » Stacie asks, an excited grin on her face, which makes me laugh because that's just typical Stacie.
« Ex, FBI agent actually, yeah. Agent Mitchell03. 02 is Luke, my cousin. 01 was my dad. I decided to stop when… When I had to come here. » I say, not feeling up to explaining why I stopped yet.
« So cool… So did you like… fight criminals and go on undercover missions ? » she asks, looking like a giddy little girl in front of her favorite princess at the Disney park.
« I did yeah. » I answer simply.
« Is that why you had to come here ? What really happened ? Who's Alfonzo ? Who's Bridgit ? » Aubrey asks, and for once, her straight forwardness doesn't amuse me. I gasp, and feel a tear roll down my cheek. I a heartbeat both Chloe and Emily get closer to me to hug me.
« Aubs… Sensitivity please ? » I hear Chloe say.
« Hum… Bridgit… Alfonzo… Uh… I had a mission. I made a mistake. It's hum… It was my fault and then I… I had to come here… I can't, I can't do it. » I try to explain but finish whispering to Chloe and Emily. Emily stands.
« Would you excuse us for a minute ? » Emily asks and everyone nods, not having a clue about what is going on. I feel weak, as Chloe and Emily lead me away to the bathroom. I sit down on the bathtub with two of the 3 most important persons in my life by my sides wiping away my tears. Then, the third one comes in.
« Sweetheart, come here. » My mom says, opening her arms to me, and I run to squeeze her hard.
« Mom I couldn't… There are too many people and I… I almost killed him you know ? I couldn't stop… I wanted to kill him… » I start rambling.
« I know baby but you didn't. Alfonzo is alive and he is gonna pay for what he did. By the law. Justice is going to be done baby. Now look at me. Look at me Beca. » she says holding my face between her hands wiping my tears with her thumbs. « You are a good person. Bridgit's death wasn't your fault. Victor killed Bridgit, and i twas Alfonzo's decision. End of the story. Now you're gonna take five minutes with Chloe and Emily, freshen up, and come back out there. You are brave. You are strong. And I know you can do it. Got it ? » she finishes her speech and I nod before hugging her. Then she walks out with a final I love you.
I take a deep breath and splash water on my face. Truce be told, I hate what Alfonzo's made of me. And a question is still bothering me. Would I have stopped, hadn't it been for Luke ? Is it possible for me to become a killer ?
« Hey, Becs, listen to me. I know what's going on in your head. I've known you for 13 years. And the answer is no. Stop looking at your reflection like you're a monster. No, you didn't kill Bridgit. You didn't kill Alfonzo, and had you had the chance, I KNOW, I'm a 100% positive, you would've held back, at some point. You wouldn't have gone through with it. Hell, what he wanted revenge for ? Victor's death ? It wasn't even on you ! So stop. You are a good person. You are my best friend. Please. Stop beating yourself up. » Emily pleads and all I can do is hold her.
« Em', I love you. I'll always love you. But this… This was… a lot, if not too much. I'm gonna need some time. » I answer.
« Yeah… I know. » she says, looking down.
« Could you give me some time with Chloe please ? » I ask her and she nods and heads out. Once she closes the door I turn back to my girlfriend. Sitting there, looking heartbroken. I take her hands so she gets up and I take in her face and everything she is. « I'm sorry. I'm a mess and the only thing holding me together is you. You, Emily and my mom, but mostly you. » I tell her honestly. I can see she's holding back her tears.
« Beca… I'm not going anywhere. I'll be with you for as long as you'll have me. And if that's forever, then it's even better. Don't apologize. I'm not gonna turn my back on you because you've been through so much. I knew when you told me your story, what I was in for. Okay ? » she asks and I nod in understanding. She then leans in and kisses me softly for a few seconds, boardering a making out session but she pulls back right before it comes to this. I sigh.
« Ugh… Only you can make me feel horny in the worst moments possible. » I tell her, bumping our noses and she giggles.
« That's my girl ! The horndog ! » she exclaims making me laugh. She then turns me around and opens the door before pushing me lightly and slapping my butt. « Now let's go, you have a speech to make before I fix your frustrations ! » she says winking before following me out.
When we get back to the living room, everyone is still waiting. I sit back down and they're all staring at me.
« Beca ? I'm sorry, it was very insensitive of me and I shouldn't have pressured you into – » Aubrey starts to apologize but I cut her off.
« It's okay Aubs. You didn't know, I'm not mad. » I assure her with a smile.
« Are you okay Beca ? You scared me. » Moira asks, seeming genuinely concerned which makes me smile.
« Thank you for your concern, Moira, I'm fine, you'll understand why I reacted this way when I tell you the whole story. » I inform her and she smiles back, nodding. « Okay, so I'll get to it. Three years ago, when I was in high school for real, with Dallas and Matt as my classmates, might I add, I had a girlfriend. She was… My first love, her name was Bridgit. At this time I had been working for the FBI for a year, but I had been training for my whole life, so when Luke called me for a mission, I said yes. I had to infiltrate the mafia, undercover, getting in the shoes of a girl they'd been in contact with, and whom was an orphan. Naturally, I was expected to have no contacts with my parents, but I kept on seeing Bridgit. This one day, the hospital called me. Saying my mom had had an accident. I didn't really think I just… had to make sure she was okay so I went there. Only for a few minutes but… it was enough. Enough for them to understand that I wasn't who I said I was. These are vicious men you know. If you betray them and they find out… it's not you they're gonna hurt. I honestly thought they were going to kill me when I woke up tied up on a chair and they broke both of my kneecaps. It's not that I didn't care I just thought… better me than anyone else, you know ? I knew the risks of the job. So I told them that. Told Alfonzo that he should just kill me, because I wouldn't tell him a thing about my loved ones. And he laughed. And then everything happened so fast… Alfonzo's son, Victor, he came in, dragging Bridgit with him in the room. She was half conscious and all bruised up, it was obvious she'd been beaten up and drugged. They threw her on the ground and she didn't even flinch. I tried to beg. Told them she had nothing to do with all this, she didn't even know about my job, she was utterly innocent, but they didn't care. All they cared about, was making me suffer. The worst kind of suffering humanly possible. Then Bridgit looked up. It's like she knew what was coming, even in her state. She looked at me and… Victor pointed his gun at her. I'll always remember how she barely managed to get the words out, but she said 'I love you' and then… Victor pulled his trigger. » I explain and take a break to wipe away my tears, take a deep breath before I continue.
« I screamed and wriggled. I think. And then I heard a door being broken down. And I went catatonic. I could see everything around me but my brain was functioning in slow motion, and I couldn't move. Agents from the FBI shot everyone in there. Victor included. Only Alfonzo managed to escape, right after he screamed at me that I would pay for his son's death. They untied me, and rescued me but they were too late. So after Bridgit's funerals we came here to hide. There's this machine that exists, to track down people through facial recognition on the internet. I had managed to lay low, but then videos of me were posted online, and when Luke called me to talk about it, I knew it wouldn't take long for Alfonzo to find me. Only I didn't think it would be that fast. He came here while I was at the local station. He kidnapped Chloe. When I came back home I was going ballistic. I couldn't have a repeat. So I went there. Emily, Aubrey, I'll never thank you enough for what you did that day. And now here we are. » I finish.
« Oh lord, you poor thing ! » Moira exclaims wiping at her own tears.
« Beca I'm so sorry… » Aubrey and Stacie both say. Everyone voice out their astonishment but Tom, who, after a bit, stands up. I look at him expectantly.
« I'm sorry for what happened. I'm sorry I was such a jerk… I think I'll go now. » he says and takes his leave. Okay. Well. That was weird.
« Okay everyone please can we like… I mean, that's out now, I'd just like to rest… I don't want to kick you out but, I'm just really exhausted… » I explain and everybody seems to understand completely. Each one of them come to give me a hug before filing out. Soon I'm back in my room with Chloe.
« That was very brave you know. I'm proud of you babe. » she tells me, laying down and opening her arms for me. I lay next to her and rest my head on her chest, listening to her heart beats, something that I've come to find very soothing. « You can fall asleep you know. You derserve to rest. » she says quietly.
« Thank you… I love you, Chloe. » I tell her before drifting off to sleep.