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A/N:This is my first Kingdom Hearts story, please bare with me because I'm trying a new format. This is mostly in Roxas's POV. Thanks.
Full Summary:Roxas has two loves. One in which he lives with everyday. The other, doesn't ever notice him, but instead loves his brother. Sora has always been more successful in school, and sports. While Roxas screwed up his life with his monster. His monster, why thats cocaine. A powder at which has no smell, nor color, It lacks life, but still has the power to take it away.. The monster is calling him. "Save me from the monsters calls." He whispers, as he drifts into the deepest of sleeps.
-VeeCat-
In the depths of darkness
I follow your shadow.
It lures me farther and farther.
Away from what I once was.
Happy.
Yeah, I miss that.
But yet I am drawn to your wicked world of temptation.
Tell me, MoNstEr, what is the incantation?
You're like a demon, or are you not?
What are the words, MoNstEr?
I must recite the incantation.
MoNstEr
Chapter Four: No Day Is Perfect
I sweat and pant.
I feign and cry.
But the monster won't get to me.
Its been a week since I talked to the monster, answering its raspy voice. I notice my own improvements as my scrawny figure already begins to fill out. I walk through the dark halls of my home, and get a surprising comment from my brother.
"Your really improving Roxas, I'm proud of you." Sora smiles to me.
"Thanks." I let out a small smile.
Although I'm known as a cold person, I do take kindly to comments of the nice genre. I'm known as cold because I love to take people down that have wronged me. Sadly that included Riku for that one day a week ago. Sometimes I don't like to do that to people, but they need to know they can't live their life wronging people with no such payback. And to me payback is indeed a bitch.
The monster calls me when I feel down, when I walk to the bathroom and hear my brother having sex with Kairi.
I hate that sound, the sound of my brothers name coming out so pleasurably. The bed creaking, it rings through my ears. But I just turn the other cheek, and curse the fucking monster.
Why did Kairi ever screw him anyways? But not me. Yet it only took a week for my brother to get down her pants? Slut. But I can't help missing her warm breath against my neck, the feeling of completeness. She never had sex with me, but she cuddled against my chest and fell asleep so silently. I remember the day I first met her.
Junior year. Fucking hell of year.
School was school here on Destiny Island. Nasty rumors of whores and pregnant cheerleaders just like any ol' school. I often got a kick out of listening to the rumors. Until the first day of my Modern Civilization class. Social studies was my favorite subject.
I got to the class almost first. Sitting down my eyes caught a beautiful sight. A strawberry blond, blue eyed girl. She was new here to Destiny High. The newest beauty.
She conveniently sat down next to me. And I had to say something, I couldn't keep my words in. They were dying to get out. Just sitting there on my tongue.
"Hi." Is what came out of mouth, nice job, fuck ass.
"Hi, I'm Kairi" She smiled, putting her hand out, her charm bracelet dangled in the air.
"I'm Roxas." I had to smile, and I shook her hand.
"So whats this school like?" She questioned me.
"Crazy." I rolled my eyes.
One week in that class with her, and I was in love. I asked her out, and she took the offer. We went every where together, not one place I went did she not go. She even went so far as to go to Sora's baseball games with me.
You're pretty hot for a white girl.
I didn't actually say that;but I wanted to.
She is a beautiful sight.
But now I'm snapped out of this flashback, by another sexual moan from my brothers room.
Fucking whore.
Yeah, Sora had just complimented me and then gone to fuck Kairi. Sometimes I think he does this shit on purpose. But he can't possibly get an erection or sexual urges on command to piss me off, can he? No, because Kairi must influence them; because she is a whore.
Whore.
That's the oddest question I've ever asked myself. Why would I ask myself a question about my brothers
manhood. Maybe because I'm weird?
I go to school and find myself asking for make-up work and extra credit in all five classes that I'm currently in. The teachers comment on my improvement, I've raised every class one letter grade, and they will rise when I turn in more work and do more extra credit.
I stand here in my room thinking. About Kairi, Sora, and Riku, they have all commented me about improvement. But the monster still calls.
I sit here thinking. But then my cell phone rings. A black and silver camera phone. This I must thank Sora for. He does a lot for me, since I can't get a job because I would fail a drug test, Sora pays for my phone with his own money. I often think my brother loves me, but then again I also think he is ashamed I am his brother.
But he must care, right? Who else would do so many things for a fuck up like me?
I answer my phone, its the monster calling, but in a different form. Tidus, my provider.
"Hello?" I answer
"Yo, Roxas, you haven't called me for the stuff lately, whats up with that?" Tidus questions.
"Tidus, I can't anymore, sorry man." I tell him.
"You and Riku is real shady man, real shady." Tidus hangs up.
I don't care if he's pissed. I'm better then that, I don't need this shit.
I don't need the monster, I don't need Tidus.
But I miss that euphoric state the monster put me in.
MoNstEr
Fuck, there it is again.
Euphoria.
A feeling of great happiness or well-being, commonly exaggerated and not necessarily well founded.
Yeah, using the monster for a euphoria isn't well founded.
But it feels so good.
Have you ever felt a euphoria like me?
My name is Roxas, and I can beat this.
MoNstEr
Can you?
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