Coming of Age

by Jynova

Prince Lelouch Vi Britannia, age 12, meets Suzaku Kururugi, age 19, while on an official diplomatic trip to Japan. Their relationship blossoms from there but has its share of trials along the way. Suzaku x Lelouch. Rated M.

4. Chapter 4

Suzaku sat with his head in his hands. His wife apparently had passed out on their table and one of the guards carried her back to their room.

The next day, Suzaku packed his and Yuki's things and they made them go back to Japan. He couldn't handle being here, being around Lelouch. He already regretted what happened and it was killing him. He tried to overcompensate by being extra special to his childhood friend and fiancée. Over the next few months however, life became increasingly difficult with Yuki. Suzaku found that she enjoyed drinking almost every night. She also very much reveled in any attention given to her by opposite sex. What was worse though was that not once had he felt jealous like he had the night he watched Lelouch almost fuck his knight. Actually. Suzaku didn't want to really think about it but he was sure that Lelouch and Akito had probably already had sex by this point. The thought disgusted him. He never really realized how much he had wanted to be Lelouch's first.

Suzaku was getting more and more concerned about Yuki and their upcoming marriage though. At the moment, whenever they had a lull in their day, they would fill it with their marriage plans but it was becoming increasingly clear to Suzaku that him and Yuki really didn't have much in common. Which was fine only she was very closed minded towards anything new or interesting to Suzaku.

And any attempt he would make to introduce her to his hobbies or interests was met with derision coupled by some rude comment on how dumb it was or how dumb he was for liking that thing. Lelouch used to call him an idiot too but he always listened. Actively listened. They could and did talk for hours upon hours about the most mundane of things. One time they spent an afternoon talking about which insect parts or strengths they would have if given the option.

Suzaku immediately ran up to his room and begged, literally begged his wife to go on a walk and subsequent picnic with him. He NEEDED to figure this out before their wedding and there wasn't much time.

"Yuki… do you know if you want a boy or girl?"

"Oh I'm not sure Suzaku… I don't really want to run my figure quite yet, hehe, you do so enjoy pounding into me right?"

That was another thing. Sex with Yuki was… bland. Sure she gave head once in a while, rarely, mostly when she was too drunk to function otherwise, Suzaku kind of hated those times though, he couldn't kiss her because she reeked of alcohol. She never swallowed and had ruined a few of his shoes after spitting his own cum back onto them. It was that and the missionary position. But she loved it when Suzaku went down on her. She was demanding almost nightly massages, which was fine except that it was Suzaku who was always working out and went to work to support them. Suzaku found himself masturbating more than having sex and his thoughts were certainly not populated by his brown-haired fiancée, that was for sure.

"Do you have a favorite place, Yuki?"

"I do Suzaku… it's by your side!"

"That's sweet but I mean like, a place that's special to you…"

"Hrm… well, remember when we used to go behind the school to that little clearing?"

"Yea! Oh wait, is it special because we used to make out there?"

"Yup!"

"How about a place that doesn't involve me?"

"Suzaku… I don't have a special place, god… who cares… I like my room, there. All my stuff is there and there are pictures of us everywhere, I like looking at them…"

"Yeah… I get that… that's sweet, I suppose your room can be a type of sanctuary… hey, considering so much of your life revolves around me… how come you won't move into our house?"

"I live right next door, what's the difference a few feet make?!"

"yea but it's more so we can get an idea of whether we're compatible… ya know, for when we move out together into the real world."

"OF COURSE we're compatible silly, we've been best friends since we were wee little ones. And now we're engaged. What kind of silly question is that. Are you ok today? You're all questions…!"

"Is it bugging you?"

"ugh! Again! And yes"

"Sorry Yuki…I just… want to talk to you, want to get closer to you, to get to know you more."

"Know me more? You know me completely. And closer to me? We already have sex, how much closer can you get"

That sentence spurred a deep and very piercing fear in Suzaku. God, did he really know her COMPLETELY? If he did and he was still this dubious about the marriage then… oh god. Can you TRULY get to know someone completely though? Wouldn't he get to this point with anyone he was with though? Even with Lelouch, he would probably get to the point of "completely knowing him," and would be in this situation again. Except, it was different with Lelouch. He never got tired of the raven-haired boy and it was hard to fathom him ever doing so.

Suzaku found himself thinking about Lelouch more and more. The brunette had said such hurtful things to him over the course of their stay. He told him he chose Yuki over him. He practically called him a slut for moving on so quickly, even though earlier that day he was hoping Lelouch would find happiness.

"Oh by the way Suzaku. We got an invitation for a wedding from the royal family. I forgot to tell you but it's too late to RSVP now. It was for that little prince kid of Empress Mariannes…" Suzaku froze. Yukina sighed and grabbed his hand.

"What did you just say Yuki?!"

"Prince…Lel..something?" She lied.

"Lelouch."

"yeah, Prince Lelouch. He's apparently marrying some Akito something" Suzaku felt his knees get weak and he had to lean up against a tree.

Yuki noticed.

"It's a stupid winter wedding. How dumb is THAT!"

"… I first told you when we got engaged that I had always dreamed of a winter wedding at the Kururugi Shrine… both things we spoke of AGAIN when you told me that you wanted to have the wedding at the Aries Villa..."

"Yea but if WE had a winter wedding, it would have been fabulous" Yuki had to do some damage control. Her wedding date was already set and no stupid prince was going to wedge himself between her and her perfect future.

"What does that even mean? You're the one who vetoed it and WHY didn't you TELL ME about the wedding invitation?!"

"Because we're too busy to go Suzaku, I can't spare you at such a pertinent time… and what I… meant was, I just meant that our true love would have made even a wedding besides a dirt road romantic"

"You really feel that Yuki?" Suzaku knew that Yuki was lying. There was no way that he was integral to their wedding planning what-so-ever. So he was going to test her, make 100% sure.

"Of course I do, my love!"

"Then… let's just go down to the courthouse and get married. You said if you could marry me tomorrow, you would… what if I even told you that we could still have the whole official wedding thing too, just for show… but that my one request in this wedding is for us to just go down to the courthouse tomorrow and get married?" Suzaku wanted to see if his "true love" would grant him one very easy and totally inconvenient desire of his.

Yuki just snorted derisively and Suzaku was getting really sick of her condescension. "Why did you snort at my idea? Is that a 'no'?!"

"Ew. Suzaku, I didn't *snort* that's a gross word, I'm not a pig. And you can't actually believe that's a good idea? It's a waste of time, time that we can't spare. Besides, if we're already having the wedding, we might as well have the you know… actual marriage and wedding take place at the same time. My adorably silly Suzaku." Suzaku visibly shrunk.

"yea… well… tell me more about Lelouch's wedding invitations, what colors were they?"

"Colors? Uhm… simple I think? Black and white with purple writing and there may have been some gold in there too… boring if you ask me." Suzaku wanted to tell her that he didn't hear anyone asking her that.

"Do you still have it?"

"No… God Suzaku, if you want to see it so much, why don't you fly to Pendragon and beg the prince for another copy?!"

"That was uncalled for Yuki"

"Y..yea, you're right, I'm sorry babe. I'm just stressed…"

"Over what?"

"The wedding planning, or course… maybe you could give me a massage when we get back to calm me a bit?"

Sigh. "Yea. Of course."

Yuki's family was well off and Suzaku was starting to realize that maybe she made such a good childhood friend growing up because she never did anything BUT play. She never took on any responsibilities later in life, she couldn't even cook or clean properly. The brunette was hoping that the wedding would change that and help anchor her. But she ended up just getting a wedding planner. Meaning, there really wasn't any reason for her to be THAT stressed about the wedding planning. The planner was the same man from Pendragon who helped her arrange the Aries Villa as their venue. His name was Kewell Soresi, some relative of the personal assistant that was assigned to his father when they were in Pendragon. Kewell would fly to Japan almost every weekend. Suzaku found it pretty strange but he had no reason to doubt his fiancée, so he didn't. Besides, they would all go out to dinner while he was in town and Kewell was always eager to show Suzaku what him and Yukina had planned. Suzaku had tried early on to have a say in the wedding but was met with rejection or vehement push-back, so he ended up just relenting and allowing Yuki and Kewell to do everything. Kewell still tried to include Suzaku but the brunette quickly found his own passion and desire to participate severely lacking.

The brunette and his fiancée sat down on the blanket that Suzaku brought for the picnic. They made eye contact and Yuki smiled. Suzaku wanted to just keep staring into her eyes. It was an intimate moment that they always used to do… at least, it was something that Yuki had claimed was one, if not her most favorite thing to do with Suzaku, far surpassing sex. But anytime he would cup her chin and left her head up, she would only briefly smile or give him a slight peck on the cheek or lips and before starting with her phone or writing something in her planner.

After that, Suzaku took Yuki out every attempt he could. He eased up on the questions but still continued to dig deeper. But was it possible she was just a superficial, shallow person? But the brunette was determined to make this work. They used to get along so well, as kids and even early on in their engagement. And the girl was clearly obsessed with him. Everything of hers revolved around him. So Suzaku just needed to find some common ground that they could build a good foundation for marriage on. But so far, the only thing they were really corresponding about was the wedding. And it was coming up soon.

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Before he knew it, Suzaku and Yuki were packing for Pendragon. Suzaku was miserable. Everything was screaming that he should have been happy for the prince he was going to probably encounter at some point. He wondered if, now that Lelouch had found true love, if he was available to be Suzaku's friend again. That thought actually made Suzaku smile.

Back in Pendragon, Lelouch had actually given up on his plan a couple months back. He realized it after the hand job incident on the balcony. He had demanded that Suzaku allow him the right to decide when and with whom he wanted to sleep with yet Lelouch wasn't even affording him the same with regard to who he wanted to marry and love and spend the rest of his life with. So he abandoned his plan. Besides, Suzaku had left anyways.

The raven was about ready to call Gino back as his knight when all of a sudden, RSVP's for his wedding started pouring in. The prince STILL wasn't sure who exactly had continued on with his plan without his consent or involvement. It really could have been ANYONE, that devious Milly or his nosy mother Marianne. It could have been the terrible two-some duo of Euphy and Nunnally. It certainly wasn't Akito. That really only left Nina. Haha. Nina. Yea right. Well, whatever it was ridiculous because Suzaku and Yuki hadn't even RSVP'd. In fact, Lelouch figured she probably just threw their invitation out without even telling Suzaku, who by the way, should be arriving to his house once again in the next couple of days. The young prince sighed… he really didn't think it would have been THIS hard to get over someone. Then again, he had carried a torch for the boy for a good… 2 solid years and probably unconsciously for another 2 years before that.

Lelouch fell for an amazing person, that's why it was so hard to get over him. Suzaku was such a sweetheart. That's why he was marrying that girl, because even if he was miserable, he wouldn't hurt someone who meant so much to him. Which just meant that Lelouch didn't mean that much to him. What made Lelouch most mad though was that even after hurting and rejecting him, Suzaku STILL had control over him. Lelouch had very much been planning to have sex with Akito that night that Suzaku so rudely interrupted but after that… Lelouch just couldn't bring himself to do it. In fact, he STILL, to this day couldn't… ergo: Suzaku still was still controlling him. And now with Suzaku around and that damned invitation going out, Lelouch was going to have to continue pretending to be intimate with his interim knight. Sometimes Lelouch hated how intricate his plans were, they were so good that they could be executed without his intervention or help at all. That couldn't be a good thing. In fact, that was something that reeked of… no, no way, not sweet little Nina, she was incapable of that. Oh well, not much he could do at this point. So he just sucked it up and braced himself for the ensuing shit show.

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Yuki and Kewell were spending massive amounts of time together. Which left Suzaku alone at the Palace and all he wanted to do was seek Lelouch out but every time he started walking to the princes room, he would lose his nerve and end up walking back. Today was no different but instead of going back to his desolate room, he decided to take a walk through the gardens.

He walked with his hands in his pockets, once in a while, stopping to smell the roses. He found some purple ones and picked one. Oh. Such a beautiful color.

*sigh* "I really miss you Lelouch…" The brunette unconsciously said the words outloud.

*Snicker*

Suzaku flinched at the sound and spun around to find none other than Lelouch Vi Britannia, sitting up against the trunk of a tree, reading a book… a Japanese book, of course. Suzaku promptly turned as bright red as the roses in the garden. Lelouch couldn't help but laugh some more. He then patted at the blanket he was sitting onto. Suzaku furiously nodded and walked over and sat down. They both sat and deeply looked into each others eyes. Suzaku felt butterflies in his stomach. As if he was a teenager with a school-girl crush. But… he didn't mind because well. He was sitting with Lelouch, quietly looking into the depths of each other's souls. Something he couldn't even do with his own fiancée, but was just so natural with Lelouch. Everything was so natural with Lelouch. Even when they were doing heavily taboo and forbidden things, it still never felt wrong to either boy.

Neither of the boys wanted to talk for fear of topics straying towards weddings or knights or fiancées or sex. It seemed they both implicitly understood and Suzaku just laid down with his head pressed up on Lelouch's outer thigh. Lelouch just looked down at the beautiful emerald eyes. Oh how he just wanted to run his hand through those chestnut locks. But he just settled for feeling Suzakus warmth against his leg. Soon though, the prince found himself just as tired so he closed his eyes and leaned his head back.

"Lay down with me?"

Lelouch's head snapped back down as Suzaku nuzzled his head into Lelouch's leg.

"Serial cuddler" He muttered as he slid down further. He noticed Suzaku's shirt had ridden up. Oh his stomach was still… soo beautiful, he wondered if it was just as hard.

Suzaku noticed the boys attention and as Lelouch laid next to him, Suzaku took one of Lelouchs hands and moved it to his chest.

Lelouch blushed hard.

"I… I just wanted to pull your shirt down… tease."

But that didn't stop Lelouch from starting from at the top of Suzaku's chest and grazing his hand all the way down, grabbing the shirt on the way and tugging it down.

Lelouch went to move his hand away when he felt Suzaku hold it in place on his chest, then he felt fingers go between his to gently hold hands.

"I..is this… ok?" Suzaku asked hesitantly

Lelouch just absently nodded yes. Suzaku smiled.

Lelouch laid down and immediately regretted it. There was no pillow. He tried his arm but it wasn't any good, he tried the book but that was a stupid idea. He sighed in frustration and heard a little chuckle. He looked sideways and Suzaku had put his arm out in slight arc, inviting Lelouch to use it as a pillow, should he desire. It was no surprise that Suzaku himself didn't need a pillow, the boy could fall asleep if he was on the top of a moving train car. And soundly at that.

Lelouch let out a slight smirk and he slightly angled his body so that his head rested in the crook of the brunettes shoulder blade. The prince turned fully onto his side and into Suzaku and God he still smelled so good. The raven draped one arm cautiously over Suzaku's chest but lingered in the air for a few seconds before Suzaku took his hand and laced his fingers again and brought it down to rest on his chest. And without hesitation, Lelouch folded his knee onto Suzaku's straightened legs. And Suzaku ever so slightly scooched closer to the prince the prince simultaneously clung a bit more to the brunette, eventually moving his head from older boys shoulder blade to tucked under his chin on his chest. They both fell asleep. Lelouch woke up from the feeling of a hand carding through his raven tresses and found himself still snuggled into Suzaku. For a few seconds, Lelouch hugged the brunette tight and close, then he sat up, effectively bursting their little bubble of pure happiness.

Suzaku let out a sad sigh and looked down as if averting his shame. 'Of course,' Lelouch thought, Suzaku would feel shame at what just happened. But then, the brunette took the hand of the prince that he was still holding placed three reverent kisses, as if he couldn't get enough after just one, or two. The emerald-eyed boy then slowly stood up and just said "that was amazing, can I see you again?" and again, all Lelouch could do was absently nod. Suzaku just smiled a warm smile and walked back. He might have played cool but his stomach was going crazy with butterflies. Holding Lelouch really did feel amazing. The brunette was so scared the prince would hear or feel his pounding heart but they both just drifted off into the world of slumber easily. And when Suzaku left, Lelouch was left under the tree with only one thought running through his brain. That thought was 'THANK YOU WHOEVER SENT THOSE STUPID INVITATIONS OUT!'

Suzaku and Lelouch spent the next three days cuddling under the same tree in the garden. They had both started speaking again, all of which was carefully guarded so as to avoid any fights or even just, remembering that they were 'both' engaged to other people. Well… one was, one wasn't, and the one who was, was a little over a week from tying the knot. And he had never ever had more doubts in his life. But those doubts faded when he was with Lelouch. Everything went on mute with Lelouch around and all he did was focus 100% on the beauty in front of him, in his arms. GOD how the brunette longed to kiss those sweet lips again. But he could very easily settle for having his body pressed up against him, feeling his warmth, carding his hands through that soft black hair. And the eyes, of course, those eyes. Sometimes when emerald eyes would watch the raven sleeping on his chest, he would get the overwhelming urge to rouse him just so he could glimpse those eyes again.

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"Shut-up Euphy! I'm HIS FULL sister! I shouldn't HAVE to argue any other points or play you for it! It's MY RIGHT as his sister!"

"NO FAIR NO FAIR! You're already his full sister! And YOU GET to be his best-woman! GIVE ME THIS you tramp!"

"You're a TRAMP! YOU be his best-woman! Let ME DO THIS!"

Suzaku had turned a corner of the Aries Villa, taking back a few plates back to the kitchen when he heard two girls arguing. He rounded the corner to find Euphy and Nunnally at each others throats.

"Whoa.. ladies ladies… calm down…! Is everything ok?"

"NO Mr. Kururugi, it most CERTAINLY IS NOT!"

"Well… is there anything I can do to help?" Suzaku knew that they were talking about Lelouch and his interest peaked the moment he figured that out.

"Hrm… I suppose you could, maybe" Nunnally sweetly stated while cocking her head to the side before continuing

"I'm trying to explain to this dense girl that I WILL be the ONE to CARRY MY BROTHERS BABY"

WHAAAA? Suzaku dropped the plates he was holding, crumbs went everywhere but luckily there was no food on them and they didn't break.

"W..h…wha…?!" Suzaku had heard of the sexual deviancies that took part in royalty but… THIS?! LELOUCH having sex with NUNNALLY? God… Suzaku dry wretched.

"hahaha, God Nunnally, sometimes I forget how absolutely downright nasty you can be! Suzaku… that's not what she meant…!" Suzaku looked up, with hope in his eyes while taking deep cleansing breaths. He watched both girls start cracking up with mischievous glints in their eyes. Were they just FUCKING with him?! Jesus Christ how could such innocent looking girls be downright insidious like this!

"We just like announcing it to people like that to get reactions like… well that! But we're actually trying to decide who will act as a surrogate for Lelouch and Akito. One of us… AHEM, ME… is going to be envitro-fertilized with Akito's… seed." Suzaku's eyes widened. He wasn't sure how he felt about that. Akito and Lelouch were already planning on having children? It just made Suzaku feel guilty for what he was doing with the prince. But not enough to stop because, well… he couldn't…he just couldn't. Besides, it was pretty harmless cuddling. As much as the brunette's only current desire in life was to jump Lelouch's bones, he also couldn't bring himself to do that.

"And Nunnally here thinks that because she's a FULL sister of Lelouch, that the baby's genes will be closer to Lelouch's than if I were to carry the baby… but Lelouch never cared about that! In fact, he hasn't even looked to us to do this. We decided that it's what we truly wanted to give him as his wedding gift… It's not a big secret or anything that you have to hide but just know that we haven't exactly TOLD him yet… " The older boy was taken aback. Such… an astonishingly selfless and beautiful gift to offer their brother of their own free will.

"T…that's… the sweetest thing…" This. This was the type of family Suzaku had always wanted. With such intense love and affection. Willing to make such sacrifices for their loved ones happiness.

Both girls smiled at the obvious gears turning in the brunettes head. And no matter their state of mind this time around, this bit of play acting wasn't the least bit hard for either girl and that was because... well, it wasn't acting, it was the honest truth. Both girls wanted to actually give that present to their brother.

"Well Suzaku… I suppose this is an internal familial issue and it would be unfair to ask you to intervene… we will settle it on our own, but thank you so much at least for being interested and complimenting our endeavors…" Both girls briefly bowed their heads and left the still awe struck boy in the hall.

Suzaku's mind was reeling. After he had overcome his initial shock, the real fact that… it was the Japanese knight that was having a baby with Lelouch. That deep jealousy rose through him again. God. Suzaku had been struggling for a while to remember why he had picked Yuki.

He took a few large breaths to calm himself before he went over the reasons again. Ok, well the age thing was always flimsy and now that Lelouch was of legal age and it was clear that their underage trysts would never leave the sanctuary in their minds, so wasn't a good excuse.

Then, what else was there? Oh yeah, them both being boys! Well… Suzaku was rather embarrassed at himself for not being able to predict exactly how fine, not even fine, more like encouraging everyone was of that little fact. In fact, when his father had shown signs of slight anxiety at the wedding invitation, Suzaku quickly latched onto it as a perfect illustration of how the majority of society would act. However, upon further discussion with his father, he found that it was an for an entirely different reason that his father was perturbed. He even went as far as to say that he thought the prince and his knight made a beautiful couple and to wish them a successful marriage. Suzaku had almost lost it at hearing that and probed his father unrelentlessly for the reason behind his obvious anxiety, figuring it to be latent homophobia.

However, no matter how much he tried to persuade or provoke, his father wouldn't let the reason he was upset spill forth, however, he adamantly reiterated how fine he was with two boys being intimate together. The brunette left the room under the pretense that his father just felt differently when it came to non-family members. Besides, it was his father who was so obsessive about Suzaku's production of an heir to further their lineage. So it didn't matter what he father had said, the older Japanese boy was almost certain that his father would feel differently if it were to be him. But now, with Euphy and Nunnally mentioning that they would proffer an heir for Lelouch and Akito, well, Suzaku finally realized how many non-procreative ways there were to have a baby… Ugh. What else was there?!

Right, the the discrepancy with their stations in life… but actually, Suzaku's station was higher than that of a personal knight. The brunette was already a decorated first seargent and within the year would be promoted to seargent major and within another year, to command seargent major. And he knew that after his service, he would be fast-track groomed to take over as Prime Minister of Japan.

And that was also another reason, the fact that he was an Ele… but then so was Akito. And considering Lelouch's marriage invitations were sent out, it meant that the royal family had no doubt come to accept and had given their blessings for the union… GOD. What else was there?! There HAD to be ONE reason that he could cling onto. Could he really be making the biggest mistake of his life?!

The brunette allowed his mind to wander back to the memory of his engagement to Yukina… It was a few months after he had returned to Japan. His found himself thinking of Lelouch more and more upon his return. He even kept a picture of the 14 year boy and himself in his wallet. It was of the two boys sitting, close enough for knees and outer thighs to be in full contact. They had just finished a picnic with Nunnally and she made them pose on the bench for a commemorative photo, which turned out amazing. And the way the purple and white roses behind them perfectly accentuated Lelouch's skin and eyes made the photo that much more spectacular for Suzaku. But somewhere in the interim, he had misplaced the photo. The brunette still remembered the day he found it missing.

He had gone out to dinner with Yuki the night prior and had handed his wallet to her to pay. When he gotten it back, the picture was missing. He questioned her about it, but she genuinely had no idea what he was talking about nd even helped him search around for it for almost 5 hours. The brunette ended up figuring that he had just misplaced it one of the many times he took it out and looked at it and it probably got swept away by the wind or thrown away by one of the maids. The emerald-eyed boy had just planned to ask either Nunnally or Lelouch for a replacement the next time he saw them. He mentioned to Yuki that he would make try to contact Pendragon and the siblings within the next week and the thought of reaching out and contacting Lelouch via channels like the phone or mail or internet actually really excited the brunette. But then the next day, his father had approached him and spoken with him about what was expected of him, with special emphasis on an heir.

Suzaku had just stayed quiet, not fully understanding the reason behind how utterly sad he was during the conversation… or more like, lecture. His father hadn't told him that day about his arrangement with Yuki for another few days. On the fourth day, his father barged into his room and declared that Suzaku would be marrying his childhood friend, Yukina. Something broke inside the brunette. He was devastated but he didn't even realize WHY. Maybe subconsciously, he was hoping, hoping that Lelouch would reach out to him in some way. So much so that Suzaku asked his father to wait a couple years before they proceeded to the marriage part.

The brunette remembered how his father eyes had for some reason lit up at his sons request. But then the older boy had two years of Yukina's constant presence and obsession and attention to him to finally come to terms with and accept his imminent marriage. Besides, Lelouch hadn't called or contacted him at all, not even on or after his birthday. But still… Suzaku remembered one thought that ran through his head like crazy on that cold December day. And that was "he's of legal age… he's of legal age… he's of legal age…." But even that thought eventually faded and was replaced with thoughts of marriage to Yuki, his responsibilities, an heir. Right, the heir. His last remaining reason had just been thrown out the window with the encounter he just had with Euphy and Nunnally. Lelouch was going to have no problem having a child in his homosexual marriage with The honoraray britanian, Japanese, Eleven knight who was Lelouch was scheduled to marry.

Suzaku felt sick at the revelation. God, Lelouch WAS right. They were all just excuses. Stupid, idiotic excuses. That added to the fact that he barely had anything in common with Yuki and he wasn't really sexually attracted to her, not like Lelouch. And mostly that… well… he was in love with Lelouch. He needed to find Yuki. Then, afterwards, he would go and find his prince. OH GOD. He really REALLY hoped it wasn't too late. And honestly, even if it was… Suzaku realized that if he didn't at least try, he would regret it for the rest of his life. Even if the young prince chose his white knight over him, well, the brunette fully deserved it as much as Lelouch deserved true happiness so the older boy would try to make every attempt to be happy for them. He just wanted Lelouch to be happy, with or without him, but preferably with.

Suzaku fished his phone out and dialed Yuki. She didn't answer. He ran back to his room to try to find some clue as to where he could find his fiancée. Luckily, she had left her date book and he flipped to the current date. Ok, she was meeting with Kewell at a little French restaurant not far from here. Suzaku ran to his rental car and jumped in and raced to the restaurant. He pulled up and started walking up to the restaurant when he saw two figures in the distance emerge and walk in the opposite direction of the parking garage. The brunette hastened his pace a bit, his mind too preoccupied to notice how close they were walking. He did however stop dead in his tracks when his fiancée and Kewell walked through the doors of a dainty hotel nestled between the restaurant and a shopping plaza. It was then that Suzaku noted their hands intertwined and her leaning on him.

Oh…. Oh God. Was she.. really?! The brunette kept a safe distance as he tailed them, noting what floor their elevator halted on and then taking the next one up to that same floor. The door opened to an long, empty hallway. Ok, well, Suzaku was a frist seargent in the Army Engineering Corps, he was no stranger to espionage, subterfuge, or tailing people and he always, always got the information he was seeking. Alright, the brunette remembered that he himself had an early dinner date with his fiancée, which only left them about an hour, if something was happening, it would be fairly soon. Secondly, Yuki was stumbling and leaning her weight on the wedding planner, which meant she had drank quite a bit, no surprise there. Just as Suzaku started his trek down the hallway, as if on cue, he heard a gasp and moan from coming from behind one of the doors near the elevator where he stood. He went up to the room where the noise originated. And for the next 30 minutes, he heard his fiancée having rough and loud sex with their wedding planner.

Suzaku felt an array of emotions. He felt anger at the betrayal, and himself for not seeing it or turning a blind eye. He felt intense fear and relief, fear that he would have been bonded with such a woman, and relief that it hadn't happened. He felt sad for himself and Yuki and wondered if he had somehow driven her to this? But she always told him how great he was to her and if there was a problem, she should have come and talk to him about it rather than do something this heinous. But the emotion the most easily etched on those emerald eyes was gladness. He was glad that this would make things easier and he could very quickly break ties so he could run into the arms of his prince (hopefully).

Suzaku started on his way down the lobby, going over how he would approach the next crucial few hours. No doubt now that his fiancée was cheating on him and by the look and sound of it, this was not the first time. In fact, all of a sudden, all those strange trips Kewell made to Japan fell neatly into place as a giant puzzle of infidelity and lies formed in Suzaku's mind.

He patiently waited in the lobby of the hotel until his fiancée emerged from the elevator, sans Kewell. Right, because, NOW was the time to be discrete. Suzaku HAD wanted to confront both of them, maybe the other would be down shortly. He stood up from the plush chair he was on as the elevator dinged and out stepped his lovely fiancée. She took a few steps towards the door, oblivious of his presence until she was a few meters away from him. Her eyes and mouth widened in fear and shock for only the briefest of seconds and was then rapidly replaced with a calm, happy one. It was then that Suzaku knew she would make this much harder than he had initially thought. She smiled a trembling smile.

"Suzaku! My love! What are you doing here?" Yuki said with such an overcompensating enthusiasm that it made Suzaku wince.

"I could ask you the same"

"I told you I was meeting Kewell to plan our wedding, silly boy! If you had wanted to tag along, you should have just said so…"

It chilled Suzaku to the bone how easily she lied and what's more, he wouldn't have ANY idea it was a lie if he didn't have first hand proof of it. She showed NO telltale signs of lying and the brunette had been trained to recognize them. Maybe she was a sociopath or had such tendencies… But then again, a certain raven-haired young prince was also very adept in lying and well… it was adorable when he did it. But Suzaku didn't think Lelouch was capable of purposefully lying to hurt someone or hurt someone and then purposefully lie to cover it up.

"Quit the bull-shit Yuki." Yuki looked genuinely hurt at the brash comment. Suzaku didn't doubt that she felt some degree of it either.

"S..Suzaku… why would you sa..? Oh… I get it. You assume that just because I'm at a hotel with our wedding planner that… GOD. How COULD you! After you know how much I love you. We're here because I wanted to see their honeymoon suite, FOR US Suzaku." Wow, she really was trying to not only deceive her fiancé but to scorn him with blame for doubting her.

"I followed you to your room and heard you having sex with him." Then her eyes went from hurt to completely and totally unreadable because they were brimming with tears. She lunged at the brunette to hug him. He backed away.

"Not here Yuki. Don't make a scene. Come with me…" he grabbed her wrist and walked her towards an empty event hall with doors ajar. They walked right past a completely shocked Kewell Soresi on their way to the room.

"You're welcome to join us if you'd like…" the brunette said casually without even making eye contact with the intended recipient as he briskly walked past him, soon to be ex-fiancée in tow.

"N..NO! Don't FOLLOW US KEWELL! Get the FUCK out of here you fucking asshole!" Yuki screamed at the wedding planner. Ok, so her plan was to say he blackmailed her or forced her in some way. Suzaku wasn't about to have any of it. He turned around and put on his calm and collected 'death-face' as he ushered the other man to the room. One look at Suzaku and Kewell hesitantly nodded and reluctantly followed the two. Yuki started bawling even harder. Suzaku was pretty sure it was at the fact that whatever plan she was formulating was crumbilng rather than at the fact that he was about to break up with her.

As soon as they got into the room, Suzaku closed the door behind them and turned to Yuki.

"You CAN'T LEAVE ME Suzaku! I WON'T ALLOW IT! You're my Soulmate, WE'RE SOULMATES!"

"Yuki… calm down… these walls aren't sound proof… now… how long?" The brunette disregarded his crying mess of a fiancée totally and looked towards the taller man in the room.

"STAY QUIET KEWELL! Just… JUST LEAVE. Get out of here! DON'T RUIN OUR MARRIAGE you CAD!" The hurt in Kewell's eyes was palpable. However, it was quickly replaced with a cold and reserved determination. The taller man turned completely to face Suzaku.

"Since the 2nd night of the ball" Yuki SCREAMED a loud scream after that! Suzaku was quick to cover her mouth with his hand.

"I WILL LEAVE and NEVER EVER talk to you again if you don't STOP THIS YUKI, UNDERSTOOD?!" Suzaku had never spoken to her like that and even though he wasn't yelling, he was very harshly emphasizing the words. Her tears were now running down the hand Suzaku had clamped around mouth. He watched as she nodded in understanding.

"Good. How many time?" He again addressed Kewell.

"Kewell… forced me to, Suzaku!" The taller man didn't seem surprised by the accusation.

"Ah.. Yuki, you will have your turn to speak, I promise you that ok?" His voice softened and it gave her some hope that he still loved her and wanted to resolve this. Again she nodded.

"I can't say for sure. A lot. Over 50, maybe less than 100"

Suzaku nodded. He NEEDED this information in order to destroy whatever lies Yuki was no doubt planning on spewing when it came time for her to speak.

"Thank you for your honesty. I appreciate honesty. VERY MUCH, one last, did you force her?" Kewell nodded 'no'. Suzaku then turned to his hysterically crying fiancée.

"He's LYING! Of course he's lying Suzaku! Of course you believe me over him! He said that if I didn't have sex with him, that he would ruin our relationship by telling you about the firs…t time." Well apparently she hadn't thought out her lie very well. She never was the cleverest and especially in her current emotional state, her mental factulties seemed much dulled.

"So you're saying, you technically only cheated on me ONCE?"

"N…No.. I was drunk that night and he took advantage of me! He took me by force that night too a..and I wa..s just so so scared that you might do something to hurt him and then you would be taken from me!" Well, maybe Suzaku had underestimated her dulled mental acuity, this girl was a seasoned liar. However, it seemed that Kewell had had enough at this point.

"Shut-up whore! You were flirting just as much and in the end, YOU lead ME to that bathroom and immediately dropped to your knees, without ANY PROMPTING!" His eyes were narrowed and every word dripped with fervid venom.

"Y…you LIAR!" Yuki again screamed and reeled it in a bit when she saw the harsh look her fiancé was giving her.

"I.. mean… Suzaku, you HAVE to believe me! I'm your best friend and fiancée! And I've never lied to you! And and, we're to be married, you're practically my husband, you need to believe your wife!" Suzaku's eyes softened with pity at the bumbling mess in front of him.

"Oh Yuki… you can't actually believe that we're still getting married…" Yuki broke. She fell to her knees, manically sobbing. Suzaku knelt down besides her, putting an arm around her, comforting her.

"Suzaku. We… we'll get through this. Together. In time, you'll forgive me for lying and we'll move on from this! Our kids will laugh at how silly I was!" Smart to mention kids, the one thing Suzaku genuinely wanted out of her. And yes, she only said for lying and not for cheating. She clung to her fiancé as she sobbed.

"You're right that in time, I will forgive you and we will move on from this. And possibly even together, but not as husband or wife, not as fiancées and not as a couple." Yuki clenched her wrists even harder in Suzaku's shirt.

"I… I can't accept that Suzaku" She pushed herself into his chest, leaving a big wet spot on his shrit.

"Yuki… you don't really have a choice." She sobbed even harder.

"Yes I DO! YOU DO! You're GIVING UP ON US!" and the brunette almost laughed at the accusation, god, especially since it was made right after this ordeal unfolded.

"If it will make it easier for you to hate me, well… I hope you will one day get over it but… you do what you gotta do." He said it with an air of nonchalance because how could his fiancée try to turn this onto HIM, again. She was the one responsible for this situation.

Right then Suzaku remembered how he had once skidded around accepting responsibility for another predicament. The brunette really didn't want to sit here and comfort this crying mess. He wanted to go find Lelouch, but… well, he wasn't a heartless monster.

"Shh…" He ran his fingers through her hair to try and calm her intense sobs a bit.

"Why aren't YOU crying?! GOD YOU NEVER LOVED ME! You were in love with that disgusting little prince! I KNEW IT when I found that picture in your wallet!" Ah… so Yukina had destroyed the picture.

"I…Suzaku! I worked SO HARD to get you to FORGET HIM! THIS ISN'T FAIR! You're going to marry me! YOUR dad will force you again! I'll remind him and he'll force you again!"

"W…what the hell does THAT mean?!" He forced her fingers open from around his shirt as he stood up and took a few steps away from her.

"haha, well, I guess there's no harm in telling you. In fact, yes… this might work out even better... You WILL marry me Suzaku. Or I'll tell everyone that you raped a 14 year old boy, I might even say something happened when you first met him at the tenderly innocent young age of 12." Suzaku felt his stomach drop. This girl had threatened his father into forcing their engagement by telling him THAT?! And NOW she was trying it on Suzaku himself?! There was NO WAY that anyone besides Lelouch and Suzaku knew about their sexual encounters. She was just lying and blackmailing.

"Wow." Kewell whispered the word with eyes wide open in fear at what the woman in front of him was capable of. And… and he had fucked her and even dared to start falling for her. The taller man had NEVER ONCE been more thankful that he was exposed as a lecherous adulterer.

It took only a few brief moments before Suzaku recovered.

"You know what Yuki… I've let society dictate too much of my life, let it cause too much damage to myself and others and well… I'm not afraid anymore. Of you or them. So, go ahead and try. Come after me all you want. Come after the the Royal Empire of Britannia and the Prime Minister of Japan with no proof and a bunch of lies. See how well that goes." He really didn't want her to go after Lelouch too but they were attached in this mess… and for some reason, that thought comforted Suzaku.

"W..WHAT? You would allow your and that perverse prince's reputation be dragged through the MUD?! Your family name! HIS family name!" She had stopped crying and was now shocked. Suzaku knew he had taken the power away from her as he walked away. She couldn't prove shit and she knew it. Plus, taking on a prince and the prime ministers son was no easy feat. He turned to walk out as she spoke again, desperation evident in her words and tone.

"I might be pregnant with your child! I'm not on birth control and your condoms are probably faulty…" Suzaku quickly realized what she was saying, that she had sabotaged the condoms he was using. But he knew that she was lying about both of those "facts" because she had been the one to change the subject whenever Suzaku brought up kids or vaguely mention how she didn't want to just yet ruin her figure. She was just trying to goad him into reacting. But he was used to stressful situations. His training had him in much worse physical and mental states. And true indifference was the most painful emotion he could have exuded and he did it brilliantly.

"Abort it then. Or don't, I don't care… but I will make sure to have the paternity tested" Yuki screamed from the floor, where Suzak left her as he calmly walked out. And she screamed again a week later when she got her period.

Suzaku left the hotel wondering why his father had given into this crazy girl, he had no idea, but he was going to find out. But first, he had a prince to find.

Suzaku looked at the time and sprinted to his car and drove like a madman back to the palace. He had asked Lelouch earlier to postpone their little get together for a later time since he had an early dinner with fiancée. He hadn't told Lelouch the reason but the younger boy must have known, he looked sad as he agreed. Suzaku ran to the tree, finding no one there. He then ran to the princes room and knocked. Nothing. UGH. He called him, repeatedly, nothing. He went to Euphy and Nunnally's rooms and found Euphy who had told him Nunnally was out, not with Lelouch and she herself had no idea where her brother was. Suzaku didn't know what else to do. He just walked the grounds, hoping he would come across his prince… he was out in the garden when he heard two voices. One was, YES! But then he stopped. What if the other voice was Akito!? He REALLY didn't want to intrude on that. So he hung back, feeling like a little like a stalker as he listened in.

"So he didn't show up…?" Suzaku swore the voice sounded like Akito but they couldn't be talking about Suzaku… no way Lelouch would tell his fiancé about their little cuddling sessions.

"No… he didn't… I… I'm not even sure I wanted him to. I mean, after all I've done. I was going to tell him today, you know. About everything. He's getting married in less than a week and well… for closure, I just wanted to unburden myself…"

"What's everything?"

"I was going to just start from the beginning. Dressing up for him, being the organizer of the 3-day ball, being the one who sent a few men, including Kewell Soresi to flirt with his fiancé, hoping that she might be unfaithful to him… I don't think she was though." Suzaku wasn't too taken aback by these revelations, he himself had recognized most of them with the exception of single men sent to flirt with his wife. And that meant Kewell apparently must have really liked Yuki if he hadn't reported back to the prince. Or maybe she had just threatened him in some way. Oh well, the emerald-eyed boy really didn't care at this point.

"And. W…what about…me?" Suzaku's confusion and curiosity peaked.

"Y..yeah. Of course, you were the crème de la crème of it all. I was going to end by telling him how you're not really my knight, or lover, or fiancé." Suzaku's jaw hit the floor. WHAT THE FUCK?! Lelouch had LIED about Akito?! Then.. then, the baby? Or fucking Akito? Or the wedding invitations? All of it. Suzaku felt sick to his stomach. Lelouch even dragged his SISTERS into his sick ministrations!? 'Am I surrounded by liars?! Am I destined to attract only deceivers in life?!' The brunette wanted to run. He wanted to cry or scream but his body failed him and just went rigid with shock.

"I… don't think he would ever forgive me. I mean, I don't know why I went into this thinking that I wouldn't crumble and tell him everything. At first I thought if I forced him to realize he loved me that it would be enough for me to keep this all as a secret but… God. Akito, he really does make me lose all control over myself, sometimes it disgusts me." Suazaku could feel such, such sadness in the voice.

"Your highness. If he doesn't forgive you, than it's his own fault. You deserve someone who would forgive you even if you massacred a whole country… because your highness, and listen to this carefully. You did it all out of love. You didn't do this to hurt him and you want to tell him the truth out of love too."

"D..do you think that motives should overshadow the actions taken by one? I… don't." There was a somber resignation at the last two words.

"I.. don't think that responsibility for your actions should be neglected or brushed aside. But I do think that the motive behind an action is very important. Especially if it comes to forgiving the person for those actions or not. Highness… y… you are amazing and beautiful and… you deserve happiness."

"Hrm… thank you, Akito. Sometimes… I… wish it was you who I had first met."

"And… there are times when I think the same, denka. But I can't control who I fall in love with anymore than you can and when I was first brief on the situation, well, I made sure to harden myself against any feelings for you, but under different circumstances, and maybe even later, if your highness is willing and able, I think I would easily fall head over heels for you… but highness, may I be so bold as to ask a personal question…?" The prince let out a little laugh.

"You may."

"When you get over Suzaku, which… you will because the strongest person I know and time will heal you too. M… maybe you could consider your real, true knight, Gino Wineberg? I think he loves you madly, deeply… as much if not more than you love Suzaku" Lelouch's eyes softened at the mention of his knight. And he allowed a small smile grace his lips.

As for Suzaku. He was still in shock but slowly, as each word was uttered, his heart lurched, longing for the boy around the corner, n…no matter what he had done. Maybe it was the mention of how wonderful and loved the prince was by others. Maybe it was how much love Lelouch still seemed to harbor for the brunette.

But… could he ever really trust Lelouch again? Motivations aside… the boy had still lied and exploited and even drove the man who Yuki cheated with into the picture. Then again. He was planning on confessing and asking for forgiveness. And most importantly, where would Suzaku be if Lelouch HADN'T done all that? He would be married to a wretched horrid woman and maybe even having a baby with her.

The brunette took a few deep cleansing breaths and rounded the corner, with tears streaming down his eyes. Lelouch sprung up from the bench out of shock. The raven clenched his fists and his eyes were filled with pure, unadulterated fear. The second time that day Suzaku's presence had elicited that. Only this time, Suzaku was going to make it better.

"H… how much of that did you hear?" Lelouch started slowly backing away, his gaze pointed at somewhere on or below Suzaku's neckline, being unable to confront those emerald eyes at that moment.

"Enough… to know what a lying, manipulative, exploitive, crazy asshole I'm… I'm… head over heels in love with…" It was Lelouch's turn for his jaw to drop. Suzaku took the opportunity to close the distance and kiss his prince. Hard. One hand went to Lelouch's neck and the other behind his back, pressing the prince closer. Lelouch was stuck, physically and mentally. His usually calculating and speedy mind had fled him, leaving him a blithering shell. It was suzaku's tongue scraping his soft palate that for some reason kick started his mind. Maybe because it was closer to his mind than any other part Suzaku was engaged with at stimulating the time? Yea. That makes sense. Lelouch pushed the brunette away from him.

"Suzaku… y..you're…" But before he could finish.

"I'm not… I broke up with her. Sh…she was cheating on me. Not that that was the reason. I caught her while I was on my way to tell her it was over… b.. because I was.. am in love with you." Lelouch's eyes blinked rapidly over the wide amythest eyes. It was taking the prince a litter longer than Suzaku wanted for him to absorb everything. The brunette was getting impatient. He wanted those lips on his again.

"Don't you get it Lelouch? Your stupid idiotic plan worked. Because I'm a stupid idiot. Y..you carefully deconstructed every reason I had, you made me realize they were just excuses… and I'm grateful, ok? I forgive you baby. J..just please say you still love me or you'll at least try to again if you don't…? I can make you love me again, just give me a chance…" Suzaku was pleading, to Lelouch, to God, to anyone that was listening.

"A..again? I… I.. n..never stopped" Lelouch still had a look of bewilderment on his face though, unable to think of doing anything other than tell the truth. Suzaku however, was beaming, his eyes and his smile, and his heart.

"C…can I kiss you…then?" Lelouch finally seemed to have caught up after tightly closing his eyes and violently shaking his head a few times, trying to clear the jumbled mess. It seemed that Suzaku wasn't the only one who was getting impatient though, as reticent Akito silently walked up behind Lelouch and shoved him forward into Suzaku's arms before delicately nodding and turning on his heels to retreat. The knight allowed himself to smile all the way back towards the palace.

"ooof" Lelouch stumbled into Suzaku's strong arms. He then righted himself, with strong arms still encircling him. They both looked into each others eyes, neither hiding the pure love and adoration in them. Then Suzaku leaned in halfway, patiently waiting until Lelouch was ready to meet him, which was only a moment longer. They kissed. It was different. Not any less electric or exciting. It just had a new dimension to it. One afforded from the stability of a mutual love. There was no urgency or fear behind the kiss anymore, making it the best kiss either one had ever experienced, so far, anyway.

Lelouch's hand automatically found its place in Suzaku's hair and with that tactile stimulation, a sudden thought occurred to the older Japanese boy. He reluctantly disengaged the kiss but stayed within an inch of Lelouchs lips as he spoke.

"Your plan… D…does that mean…you…you're still…" Suzaku couldn't help the blush creeping up his face and as soon as Lelouch noticed it, he understood what the brunette was asking and quickly averted his own gaze, trying to will his own flush down.

"Y..yes, I mean.. no.. wait… I.." Then he took a deep breath and looked up at Suzaku with love and determination in his eyes.

"Will you be the first to… make love to me, Suzaku?" Suzaku let out his own breath and slumped back with flood of emotion. He was so happy, he blinked back tears but a few still escaped.

"You… you waited... Oh Lelouch. Oh god, thank God, thank you" Suzaku rememberd how many times Lelouch had thanked him for allowing their sexual experiences. And the brunette wanted to give that to Lelouch. Because when they did fuck, he wasn't going to give Lelouch any control… at least, not during their first time anyways.

Suzaku breathlessly mouthed "I love you" in his princes mouth as they shared a different, hungrier, kiss.

The brunette graduated down Lelouch's supple neck and it gave Lelouch the opportunity to answer… in between the mewls, anyways.

"I… hrm.. ahh.. Suzaku.. I love you too." he rushed the words out so he could focus on the pleasure he was feeling. Lelouch started moving backwards, pulling the brunette along towards the palace. They stumbled a few times with Suzaku's strong embrace being the only constant that prevented their descent into public floor sex.

By some divine miracle, they reached the princes room, but not without first turning every maid, butler, and guard's head on the way… and they arrived somehow, disheveled but still fully clothed.

"Rurushu… watashi no Rurushu… anata wa totemo kirei desu, Rurushu." Lelouch smiled widely, finally understanding the phrase he had tried for years to remember and translate.

"Ahh… iroppoi desu… ah Suzaku…" It was harder for Lelouch to stick to the foreign tongue while there was a foreign tongue all over his body.

"Rurushu… do you still… think about, me? About us, when you…?" Lelouch blushed, but he wasn't about to lie. No more lies.

"… almost everytime… w..when you left, I thought it was unhealthy for me to be infatuated with sexual thoughts of only you…" Suzaku looked a bit sad at the response, but he nodded in acceptance because he completely understood.

"I..I'm really sorry Lelouch. They were all excuses… and I think I started falling for you when you were 12 and that was and still is kind of scary. I think it's because of that, I elevated those excuses to facts and then to staples of life… and if I denied any of them at any stage, including when you were 12, it would shatter that barrier I constructed … but… god, you were so mature, just because your body wasn't, I mean, yeah you were and are beautiful but I just enjoyed talking and being with you… and I still do…" Suzaku really wanted to get everything out in the open before they took this major step in their relationship. Lelouch responded by hugging the brunette tighter and smiling.

"I think.. no, I.. do get that. I'm just… so happy that you realized that and… I'm sorry too… for everything I did.. it probably wasn't the right way to go about it… I was just scared and in love and…" Suzaku shut him up with his mouth.

"I already told you you're forgiven. How could I stay mad at you? And for something that yielded so many good outcomes…? For something that… made me realize how much I love you… god. Lelouch. I love you. A lot."

"Boku mo…" Well… that made Suzaku take Lelouch and shove his back against the wall and run his hands under the raven's shirt. It was nice that they were the same height now. It made their alignment… everywhere… perfect. Lelouch ground hard against the weight pinning him to the wall.

"Ahh… hrmm…" Suzaku groaned into Lelouch's mouth at every dry thrust.

"Strip and get into the hot tub… you have one too, right?" Lelouch nodded. After all of his experiences, how could he NOT get one?! His was the first one installed. But certainly not the last, almost everyone in the house now had one and Lelouch refused to think what all took place in them. The raven-haired prince started stripping himself as Suzaku watched him with an intensity that was so thick it was almost tangible. Lelouch took his clothes off painfully slow…

"You really are such a god damned tease… I'm going to have to think of something harsh to teach you a lesson…"

"Not too harsh sensei… after all, I would so hate to never receive another punishment afterwards…" Lelouch finally stepped out of his jeans and was hooking his fingers in the waistband of his tight black briefs.

"Stop. Leave it on. I'll take it off myself, at my leisure… get in the hot tub, you sexy…" Suzaku lost his train of thought and growled instead. Lelouch blushed as he bit the corner of his lip to stop from smiling so much. The prince was already so hard and he fucking loved this side of Suzaku. The raven-haired beauty very easily and willingly fit into the submissive role, letting Suzaku dominate him. Not only allowing Suzaku his control over the situation, but Lelouch also yielding his own to the older boy.

The prince climbed into the hot tub and leaned over the edge to turn the hot water jets on.

Suzaku came up to the edge and started undressing himself. Lelouch was entranced by the sight.

"S..suzaku… let me take your shirt off…?" The brunette took one of Lelouch's hands and kissed it before putting it on his chest…

"Of course I'll allow it." Lelouch ran his hand all over the brunettes clothed chest, then he went under and did the same, flicking Suzaku's nipples with his thumb, each time drawing a muffled moan from the affected boy. Suzaku leaned his hands on the sides of the hot tub and leaned down to deeply kiss his young prince. Lelouch gladly opened his mouth and allowed Suzaku's tongue to explore every part of his mouth, controlling the kiss.

"mmmm" Lelouch's will turned from iron to jello and he practically tore the brunettes shirt off.

"Get in here…!" Lelouch pulled Suzaku into the hot tub, causing water to slosh all over the floor. The brunette hadn't fully taken off his clothes, but still offered no resistance to his prince's yanking him into the hot tub. The older boy toppled into the tub and straddled the prince, with one hand gliding along Lelouch's side and the other outlining the V of his pelvis and groin.

"haaaa" The young prince gasped as they broke apart to catch their breath.

"God Lelouch… you're so beautiful… all mine." The brunette edged back a big on the princes lap so he could have easy access to ghost over Lelouch's clothed hardness.

"Ohh…Yes Suzaku… take me, take it all, all of me… ohhh, haa..mmphh" Lelouch's hand clenched hard in the brunettes hair, drawing out a low pleasurable and pained growl, causing Lelouch's cock to twitch under Suzaku's hand.

The brunette then stood up guided Lelouch to as well. Standing, they were about wasit deep in the perfectly tepid water. They both stood and feverishly kissed for a few more seconds before Suzaku sat down and pulled the prince to a straddling position. The older boy then went to devouring the prince, his mouth, neck, nape, nipples. Lelouch wasn't idle either, he went to take Suzaku's boxers off and the brunette obliged by lightly lifting himself to release it along with his totally engorged cock as well.

"Suzaku… I wanna suck your cock…" The brunette buckled at bit at how strong his hardness twitched at the princes statement.

"God… Lelouch, I… I usually have stamina but with you, every time with you… I've never been so turned on, come so hard, even when I think about you it feels so much better… I want your mouth around me too but… not this time, not before I fuck you."

"Oh God Suzaku, yesss, ok, fuck. Ok" The prince settled on using his hand instead.

"Ahhh Rurushu…" Suzaku stood up and put his hands under Lelouch's tight ass to support him too. Unfortunately the angle and pressure didn't allow the younger boy to continue his hand job so he stopped and teased Suzaku's nipples with his free hand. The other hand was almost always perpetually messing with the brunette's chestnut locks.

Suzaku gently set Lelouch down on the widest edge of the hot-tub where the prince could sit comfortably. Then he pulled the princes black boxers down and the brunette mouth slackened and watered, his emerald eyes fluttered and half-lidded in anticipatory lust.

Lelouch focused his own eyes just in time to watch the visceral reaction and the prince then smiled at the carnal desire clearly reciprocated.

"I've… fully, matured Suzaku."

"Yes you have… beautifully." The brunette had to swallow the excess saliva accumulating from the sight of Lelouch's erect manhood, because although it wasn't ridiculously bigger than the last time, it was most certainly now fully a mature cock and it really was gracefully beautiful and it fit flawlessly on this specimen of perfection.

Suzaku took his time appreciating the sight in front of him and god, how was he so close to never having seen or experienced this in his life?! That almost-probability made the fact that he was standing here so much more real, admiring the most magnificent boy he'd ever laid eyes on and was about to fully, wholly pleasure him, connect with him, intimately.

Lelouch could seen the pure adoration, love, and lust in Suzaku's emerald orbs. He cupped Suzaku's tanned face in his hand and it drew the older boy out of his hypnotic state. Suzaku closed the minimal distance between them and kissed Lelouch while his hand stroked the princes cock, causing a bit of precum to leak. The brunette then leaned down and sucked the prince's cock, once in a while progressing down to take a lick or fully take his sac into his eager mouth.

"Ohhh holly shiiittt Suzaku… ahhhh…. G…god! Ah… Kimochi ii Suzaku… haaa" Lelouch was very lightly gyrating his hips, the wet surroundings making it easy to glide his hips. The brunette stopped when Lelouch's moans became progressively louder and his breathing was hitching hard.

"Rurushu… don't come for me yet, my beautiful prince… tell me when you're close…" Lelouch pulled the brunette up by his hair and captured his lips, tasting himself in the process.

"Hai…" Suzaku smiled into the kiss and then spent another few minutes on Lelouch's erogenous zone on his neck and ear lobes. Then he started his way back down again, briefly sucking on and teasing the raven-haired boys nipple with with his mouth while one hand stroked Lelouch's upper body and the other teased around the raven-haired boys fully erect cock. Lelouch was about to protest when Suzaku's mouth fully engulfed him again.

"Ahhhhh haaaaa"

It only took maybe another 30 seconds of sucking before Lelouch yelled how close he was and the brunette stopped sucking and pulled the younger boy back into the water where he sat the prince down on his lap to prepare him.

"Tell me if I'm hurting you, the water should make this easier."

"Go…go, do it Suzaku… hurry, please, I want to feel you inside of me."

"O…Oh Lelouch… I want to BE inside of you… soo badly…" Suzaku stuck his index finger into the young boys tight ass. Even though they were in a relatively warm tub, inside Lelouch was still hotter… and tight, so tight. The young prince gasped at the intrusion but it wasn't anything beyond strange.

"You can add another, please."

"Hai." Suzaku stuck a second finger in and probed deep, curling his fingers one way or another.

"H…have I…?"

"I, don't know… I think so" The brunette couldn't help but chuckle at that comment.

"heh…. Lelouch… trust me, you'll know when I HIT…"

"AHHHhh" Lelouch's entire body jerked and Suzaku's light chuckle turned into a full blown laugh.

"There it is. Feel good…?"

"haaa… Suzaku… Oh my… Suuuzzaakkuuu" The brunette added the third and final finger. And although Lelouch was almost to the point of melting into a pile of jelly, he still fumbled around trying to stroke the brunette, failing miserably everytime his prostate was sporadically stimulated.

"Suzaku I'm ready… I want this… inside me." Lelouch squeezed Suzaku's cock hard, eliciting another pain that the brunette found he quite enjoyed.

"Ohhhh Le…Leloucchhh"

"Ohhh Suzaku… I can't WAIT to find your threshold." The older boy couldn't take it anymore, he switched places with the prince and luckily two of the 5 seats in the Jacuzzi had wide padded arm rests where the prince was able to lift and brace himself up, to allow for the perfect angle for the brunette to position himself at Lelouch's entrance while still facing him. Suzaku was shocked how difficult it was to enter Lelouch even with the water and preparation. It took a couple of minutes but when he was fully in, it was so… so… tight. Tighter than anything he had ever experienced. And so hot and all encompassing. Every single inch, centimeter, millimeter of Suzaku's cock was in contact with soft, tight, hot flesh. And the fact that it was Lelouch just… Suzaku wasn't going to be able to hold out much longer.

"Hmmm…d…daijobou desu ka? Rurushu?" Suzaku had to close his eyes so as to not lose all focus and restraint and start just thrusting, inadvertently hurting his prince.

"….Suzaku… it'ss.. you're, so big…"

"I know baby… tell me if it's too much…"

"N…no, no…"

"T..then just give it a few more seconds… relax and your body will adjust"

"o…oh, k" The brunette took this time to very carefully and slowly lean forward to kiss those beautifully pink and puckered lips.

"Rurushu… totemo kirei desu Rurushu…" Lelouch was already feeling better so he wiggled himself a bit to test it out and found it rather pleasant. It was a pleasant surprise for Suzaku too.

"You're good now?" The brunette couldn't help the twinge of urgency in his voice. Lelouch nodded yes and Suzaku very slowly retracted his cock about a quarter of the way out and thrust it back in.

"Ohh Suzaku.. that felt… mmm… mmore..motto Suzaku."

"Hai Rurushu…" this time the brunette pulled out halfway and thrust a bit harder back in, moving water around. It was a good thing how fit Suzaku was because Jacuzzi sex was no easy task.

"Ohhhh Suzaku… motto, h..hayaku, Suzaku…"

"Hai Rurushu… aahh..atsui… kimochii ii… ahh" The brunette started thrusting hard and about after four or five thrusts, told Lelouch to wrap his legs around him and hook his ankles together. The prince happily obliged and after another thrust was SO HAPPY that he happily obliged because the angle provided for every thrust to probe that sensitive bundle of nerves.

"AHhh ahhhh ohhhh hhaaaaa… ..suzaku… hayaku, Suzaku… fukaku…fukaku Suzaku…" The brunette sped up and thrusted harder and harder so that water was now sloshing all around them.

"I…I'm so close Suzaku…"

"Me too…" The brunette moved one of the hands that was holding Lelouch up to stroke the younger prince's cock while the other one moved towards the middle of Lelouch's back for more support.

"Ohh… Suzaku… ahh I..I…I…"

"Come for me Rurushu…"

"Ahhh hai… hai… HAI SUZAKUUUUUU" Lelouch jerked and clamped down on Suzaku's cock. The brunette was already on the brink so the clenching practically milked his own orgasm out of him but he still thrust through it.

"RURUSHU…AHHHhhhiiishiteru" Both boys had their eyes closed for a few seconds while they catching their breath. Suzaku was panting harder than Lelouch but was able to recover faster and easily pulled out of the prince and pushed him slightly back so Lelouch was sitting securely in the chair as Suzaku sat again lightly back on top of his legs.

Neither of them said anything after. They didn't need to. They both knew it was the most amazing and intense thing in the world and that words wouldn't even begin to properly describe it. So instead, they let their eyes do the talking. Lelouch allowed Suzkau to gaze upon his true self, no façade, just pure amythest eyes full of sated love. And likewise, Lelouch read devotion, love, and happiness engraved on those brilliant emerald-eyes. After a few minutes, Lelouch finally broke the silence.

"I love you too Suzaku" Suzaku smiled brightly, his smile matching his eyes and heart as he leaned forward and captured the princes lips with his own. They kissed deeply for another few minutes, just enjoying the taste and feel of each other.

"Hrmmm… Suzaku… my legs are going numb…"

"Ah, sorry" the brunette stood up. And the prince followed suit, only to wrap his arms around the older boys neck and hug him close.

"S… say it again for me. In Japanese."

"Hai, denka. Aishiteru, Rurushu…" Lelouch hugged the brunette tighter for a few seconds then let go. Suzaku rushed out first so he could hold his hand out and grab the prince's wasit to help him out.

"Suzaku… I'm not an invalid. I don't need your help to get out of the hot tub."

"haha… it's all wet around here Lelouch… I've gotta protect you from slipping and becoming an invalid." The prince just rolled his eyes and smiled.

"Well… even if I did become handicapped, I'd be happy… I could die happy now that I've had great sex with you…" Suzaku laughed and blushed at the compliment.

"heh… don't say things like that. We still have so much more sex to have… I believe there's still a standing offer of wanting to suck my cock…?"

"SUZAKU! That's crude!" The prince teased.

"YOU said it!" The brunette started before he realized that his prince was just messing with him. Lelouch wasn't quite finished yet.

"Only in the heat of the moment!"

"Oh please Lelouch… you would have conceded the earth was flat if it got my cock inside you." The brunette skillfully turned the tables, teasing back. Both boys laughed as they dried off and dressed.

Suzaku then grabbed Lelouch and pulled him to the bed where he immediately smothered the prince with his body.

"Ugh… you CUDDLE MONSTER!" The raven-haired boy probably meant it as an insult but his satiated condition left his mind in the state of placated gladness, making even the most heinous of words lack in conviction. Suzaku picked up on the leniency of the mood immediately.

"YOUR cuddle monster, MY prince." Lelouch just smiled even deeper into the pillow as he leaned back into his cuddle monsters strong arms.

"mmm…love…you…never letting go of.. you." The brunette muttered as all the hassals and other activities of the day lulled him into a restful sleep. The prince soon joined him, hoping to meet the brunette in the realm of dreams.

Suzaku woke to two completely opposing things. First he noticed the warmth in his arms and his lucid state left him fearful for a brief second that maybe it was Yuki in his arms and the past day had just been a dream. But then the brunette's phone roused him fully and he was able to see the sight of his prince in his arms and the flood of relief and love quickly replaced the now fleeting fear. Then, Suzaku looked at his phone which splayed "YUKI" on the front. He ignored the call and saw that he had 15 missed calls in the past hour and a half. All from his ex-fiancée. The older boy just heaved a heavy sigh, stirring the prince from his slumber as well.

"Shh… I'm sorry, Lelouch. Go back to sleep"

"mmm… nno. If you're up… I'm up" the prince languidly rubbed his eyes and he untucked himself from Suzaku and sat up. Suzaku's phone, now sat on the bed, started ringing again and Lelouch's attention was drawn to the noise as he noted the name.

"Ugh." Suzaku said as he rejected the call again. Lelouch suddenly remembered the circumstances around Suzaku's decision to end his engagement.

A man that good and wonderful never deserved any amount of betrayal, especially done so selfishlessly and to hurt him. In that moment, Lelouch realized how different his betrayal was.

"I… I'm sorry." It was hard for the prince to get the words out. Especially when he wasn't really sorry for the bitch getting what she deserved, he was sorrier that the brunette had to live through the ordeal.

"Don't be." The older boy adjusted himself so that he was now hovering over Lelouch as he kissed the boy deeply and relentlessly.

"mmmm… Su…Suzaku… keep kissing me like that and soon I'll be totally up." The innuendo clearly emphasized. Suzaku just smiled into the nape of his princes neck.

"Well… like you so concisely stated. If you're up, I'm up…"

"mmmm" The prince started relaxing, readying himself for round-two just as his mind stirred a sudden thought and he gasped.

"Oh my God Suzaku, what time is it?!" Suzaku startled as he automatically looked towards his phone while the prince looked at one of the many clocks in his room.

"almost eigh.."

"SHIT"

"W…What?"

"I… I was supposed to have dinner with my family, WHY didn't anyone alert me?!" The prince jumped up and scrambled for his cell phone, quickly wondering who he should call, opting for his mother.

"Hello dear… well… rested, I hope?" Ok, now Lelouch understood. One of the maids or someone must have told her. The rumors were probably by now, circulating all the way through all of Pendragon. Great, now he would have to come up with a plausible reason not only for making out with a purportedly "engaged" man himself but also for his OWN apparent infidelity. Whatever, the task would be easy this time, because he would have Suzaku there to help him.

"Ah… I see mother. Well, do the two-some know?"

"Yes… they were the ones to tackle me with glee. It took almost 10 minutes of nonsensicle statements for me to finally understand what they were saying…" Then the line went silent for a few seconds before Marianne inhaled and exhaled deeply.

"Lelouch… I'm very happy for you dear. But you must have realized how ill-advised doing that was. I would like to stress to you to not be so reckless in the future." The prince was stuck between wanting to yell at his mother that he didn't care what people thought and how she should know that by now or the more logical side of realizing how irresponsible his and Suzaku's public display of affections had been. He was still a prince, and an engaged one, engaging with another engaged man. An eleven. Which didn't much matter but could be misconstrued as the prince having a grave bias towards the Japanese.

Lelouch smiled at that thought, well, some good things were bound to come from this. The best thing though, was sitting on his bed with a look of bewilderment and concern. Lelouch smiled at him and squeezed his hand reassuringly and the brunette relaxed and allowed a slight smile to dawn his lips.

"Yes mother… you're absolutely right. I… we… got carried away. We'll fix it. I'm sure you've heard that it happened after he was no longer engaged Yu… his fiancée… ex-fiancée. I'll handle this."

"Of course you will dear and with the utmost of care I hope. For the sake of both of your future happiness. And… please darling, do let your mother know if you need anything. I'm… I'm so very happy for you." The prince could almost hear the tears streaming from his mothers eyes. Oh what a lovely woman.

"Yes, no doubt… thank you mother, again, for everything and… I love you."

"I love you too my dear sweet boy, don't worry about dinner, I told your father, Clovis, and Schneizel you were feeling ill… Although, Schneizel didn't look too convinced." His mother hung up and so did the prince. Lelouch smiled, of course his older brother wasn't convinced of a lie, the man was a genius rivaling if not surpassing the young prince himself. Schneizel… the only person to ever beat Lelouch at chess. His brother was an inspiration to him growing up, in more ways than one. He was openly gay and readily admitted to being with his own knight, Kanon Maldini. There were more than a few times that Lelouch happened upon people speaking of his brothes other sexual deviancies but the young prince always chose blissful ignorance in that matter, probably the only matter in which he would voluntarily live with that decision.

"Everything ok? We've gotten ourselves into… quite a predicament." The brunette's lips quivered as his spoke.

"Together Suzaku. Together we can do anything. So, first thing's first. We want to spare your... ahem… Yukina's reputation, so her infidelity will remain out of the public sphere and our rationale."

"I don't mind omitting that but… Lelouch… why don't we just tell the truth?"

"What?"

"Let's just tell them we're in love with each other and we just finally realized it."

"Suzaku… it's not that simple"

"It was for us."

"Simple? Maybe for you… but it was far from simple for me." Both boys looked away from each others eyes. Lelouch out of shame for what he did and Suzaku from the memory of those lies and betrayal. It was the latter who recovered first and looked straight at his prince and used his cupped hand to guide the prince's chin and face up to look at him.

"I told you, I forgive you. I love you. So much. And, I realize how hard it must have been for you to have done all that… especially roping your sisters into saying they wanted to carry Akito's baby." Suzaku could NOT for the life of him, have expected the response he got from the prince.

"WHAT THE FUCK?! WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!" The prince squawked but before the brunette could answer the prince's face contorted with a look of utter horror and enlightenment.

"Oh…. My…. God" Lelouch whispered.

"L..Lelouch! What's wrong?! Was… wasn't it part of your plan?!" The brunette stumbled, trying to remember the encounter with Euphy and Nunnally and wondered if they were really lying with how utterly genuine they looked. The older boy doubted it.

"It… it's… it's just… well…. No, technically, I vetoed it. It was going too far in my mind. And I figured that if the feigned wedding wasn't enough, that a baby would do little to further help. Even though you wanting an heir was one of the reasons you chose Yuki… it was a legitmate reason. It… it wasn't an excuse Suzaku… y… I… can't really give that to you." Suzaku's heart broke at how forlorn his prince looked. Lelouch really did love him so much and the brunette couldn't stand seeing him like this, so he closed the distance and hugged his prince.

"Lelouch. YOU ALONE are everything I will ever need in my life. I swear, vow, promise…" And the fact that Lelouch relaxed into the brunettes hold while holding his tongue from chastising Suzaku for using such words just proved how much Suzaku's declaration helped.

"T…thank you Suzaku. B..but that's not all… I just, finally realized who continued with my plan after I had chosen to curtail it… you know when you left Pendragon for Japan the last time… I decided to afford you the right to make your own decisions without any of my intervention and… well… then all of a sudden, RSVP's started pouring in and I realized that someone had continued with the last stage of my plan… and it must have been my friend Nina Einstein, because she was the one to offer up the idea of Euphy and Nunnally acting as potential surrogates. The thought disgusted me… not my sisters as surrogates, but involving them that deeply in such a personal lie. I vetoed the idea but… well… it seems…"

"Yes… it seems you have some pretty damn loyal friends."

"She most certainly didn't do it alone though. I'm sure Milly and her schemed together and then reached out to Euphy and Nunnally."

"Well… if it's any consolation… I'm glad they did."

"Me too…"

"So then… the truth?"

"Ok Suzaku. The truth… but, let's figure out how we're going to disseminate the truth…"

Lelouch visibly stiffened and suddenly couln't meet the brunette's gaze.

"Lelouch…! What's wrong…?"

"Ah… erm… w..well… it's just… so, uh…it's just, I n..need all the info…rmation…a..and..er.." Suzaku was taken aback. He'd never seen the prince lose his articulation skills so spectacularly, but he wasn't about to interrupt the younger boy, since it was so clearly an uncomfortable subject for him and well… Suzaku was starting to figure out what Lelouch was about to ask. Lelouch finally let out a deep breath and sigh of resignation.

"It's just, h… how exactly did your… did Yukina take it? I.. mean, sh..she keeps calling and…" It was now Suzaku's turn to be in the hot seat with a hot potato on the tip of his tongue.

"Ah… so… well.. you see… ok.. the truth, right Lelouch?"

"Right…"

"I caught her fucking Kewell Soresi at a hotel when I had gone there to tell her I was in love with someone else and to break off our enagement. And she… well, she did not take it well. I ended up not telling her I was in love with someone else, it just seemed… irrelevant at that point. And I'm actually really glad I didn't because she lied and manipulated the situation, using every dirty underhanded tactic she could think of to make me stay…" Suzaku sighed deeply before continuing.

"Lelouch… she's… not a good person. S..she blackmailed my dad into forcing our engagement." Lelouch's eyes widened. The prince was a great judge of character and had a pretty good idea of the woman being devious but nowhere near to that extent.

"W…how? With what?!"

"W.. with us Lelouch. She found a picture of us… the one in the rose garden. I kept it in my wallet and she was paying for dinner one night a few years back and found it and I was so upset and I went on and on about you and how important the picture was and I think that was when she caught on that you might have meant more to me than just… a friend. She helped me look for it. Blinded me by her feigned compassion and understanding. I never told her anything incriminating, only how much fun I had and how I enjoyed your company and how I wanted the picture back as a memento of that, but she's intuitive. S..she went to my father… told him that she would say I… was guilty of… statuatory rape of a prince of Britannia… if he didn't force our engagement…" Lelouch audibly exhaled a noise with his gasp.

"Y.. you see Lelouch. You saved me. In more ways than one. I… I knew how much I loved you even before finding all this out but… after…"

"T…that's why you.. so easily forgave me…?"

"I.. well… m..maybe. I would have eventually, no matter what but… possibly I did it so quickly because of that…" To be completely honest, Lelouch didn't really care about how long it took for Suzaku to forgive him. They had more pressing matters to attend to.

"Ah… well… why did she tell you all that? Wait… did she make the same threat to YOU?"

"Yes… she did. Amongst other things, total lies, I know for a fact."

"Lies like…?"

"She was pregnant." Lelouch's eyes widened and fear spread across his face. Suzaku instantly wrapped his arms around the boy.

"Lelouch, 100% a lie. She's not. It's not true… it was just another ploy of hers." Lelouch's breathing pace relaxed until he was fully composed and he pulled out of the brunette's embrace.

"Ok…now, WHY did your FATHER bow to her crazy whims, Suzaku?!" To think, all of this could have been avoided if his father had just simply refused her or told someone the truth of the matter. And did his father really not MIND selling his sons soul to a devil like her? For the rest of his life? Binding him to her with offspring? All these things were racing through both boy's minds.

"I… I have NO idea Lelouch. And I was going to confront him as soon as I … well.. I just… had to find you first, ya know…" Lelouch smiled and blushed and it made Suzaku smile too.

"You're so cute when you blush like that"

"Sh… shut-up idiot." Lelouch lightly smacked the brunettes shoulder.

"heh… nope. I'm always going to tell you how utterly cute you are. Sorry prince. Not your call and you have no say in it." Suzaku reached out and held Lelouch's hand, interlacing their fingers.

"She knows… nothing incriminating?"

"Not a thing. Not even that you hugged me in public a couple of times… I only mentioned that we sparred but only because it was at your fathers insistence that I help… chaperone you… then in Pendragon, I only told her about how much I enjoyed your company again, that's all."

"Ah… Ok, so then it's all empty threats. Suzaku… go to your father, find out why he allowed this. There may be more behind it than we know. I… we… need all the information before we progress forward." Suzaku smiled at the shift of pronouns the prince used. Yes, they were in this together and that alone made it all seem ok and totally managaeable.

The brunette leaned forward and deeply kissed Lelouch before getting up and heading to his fathers room. But not before turning around at the door.

"I love you Lelouch"

"Go! Hayaku Suzaku!"

"Hai hai." The brunette quickened his pace.