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A/N: In the past this story was up and done, it is being edited and remade with the story possibly taking different turns.
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A/N:This is my first Kingdom Hearts story, please bare with me because I'm trying a new format. This is mostly in Roxas's POV. Thanks.
Full Summary: Roxas has two loves. One in which he lives with everyday. The other, doesn't ever notice him, but instead loves his brother. Sora has always been more successful in school, and sports. While Roxas screwed up his life with his monster. His monster, why thats cocaine. A powder at which has no smell, nor color, It lacks life, but still has the power to take it away.. The monster is calling him. "Save me from the monsters calls." He whispers, as he drifts into the deepest of sleeps.
-VeeCat-
Pessimism.
A word I'm rather familiar with.
So far, I've only told you about my pessimistic, cold ways.
And shown you the good.
No you may think, the good outweighs the evil.
But pessimism means taking the gloomiest possible view.
And that I do, do you wanna take a look through my eyes?
MoNstEr
Answer the calls with me, and take a walk.
MoNstEr
By:VeeCat
Chapter Six: The Meaning of Pessimism
You've seen the good parts of me. The sensitive caring side. But you see, that's not me. I have this outlook on the world; this outlook is unique to all others. I have this outlook because nothing ever goes the way anyone wants it. Ever. Here take a walk, and I'll show you all the reasons I'm the way I am, I'll show you why I am Roxas.
I mean look at this, come on, I couldn't even keep Kairi. Why you may ask? Well because of Riku. Yeah the monster didn't completely fuck it all up. Riku is in fact the reason why I met the monster. So there, that part is his fault. One reason to look upon him in the negative tone.
Before the monster I was in this class called Integrated Chemistry and Physics. Yeah I have a negative outlook on school too. Get the fuck over it, I'm a kid they say. A teenager, so I scare the shit outta of a lot of people. Well anyways, I did every damn assignment plus extra credit. Did that help? Fuck no. I'm in that class again. So here is my view, no matter how hard you try if a teacher doesn't like you, plan on being in that class again.
My brother, love him to death, but still. No matter what I do, my parents will always look down on me, and look upon him with pride. I was in soccer. So was Sora. I scored three points. Sora scored six. I was the goalie, Sora got to be on the field and score more points then when I got to be on the field. The coach made me goalie to put Sora out there. Why? Because everyone likes him more. So why give a fuck. There is my third reason to look down upon the world.
Now here, I applied at every fast food establishment in town and not one place called me yet three called Sora. Why? Well of course because Sora never flunked a class, I did. Made his GPA higher. So they told me he was more qualified. Bull fucking shit. So I don't give a shit if I get a job, its not worth trying when I know I'll get turned down.
I'm not even gonna tell you all about the female situation, haven't I enough?
Why get close to people, I got this one friend, and we could tell each other almost anything. But she died in a car accident. It was the first day she had gotten her license and a drunk driver killed her. How ironic is it that the drunk driver lived? Selphie was her name and she loved PE, especially when we would have to do those ridiculous jump rope exercises. I think at one point I loved her, but its just to damn late for that now isn't it? So now I turn my back to peoples drama, its fucking stupid to care, when their drama could be the end of them. Helping may get you attached and then when they die, guilt will overcome you. Its just not worth it.
The monster has made me what I am today. I am Roxas.
MoNstEr
Oh my god.
Do you continue to hear it.
Maybe you should try it.
It could make you what I am.
Don't you want to continue my walk.
Come one, listen to that voice. It has so many flaws, yet its so beautiful.
MoNstEr
Oh my god.
Don't you want to be what I am?
My name is Roxas.
I am the meaning of pessimism.
MoNstEr
Take my walk.
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-VeeCat