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Warning: Mild sexual content. There isn't necessarily any sex, just really dirty talk…you'll know what I mean when you read it.
Okay so last chapter was supposed to be chapter Eleven…sorry for the mix up.
Chapter Twelve (Beth POV)
The next morning I was up early making breakfast alone in the kitchen. I didn't leave Rick's room until the sun started to rise so I decided that instead of going to bed I was just going to make breakfast for everyone.
I was flipping over the bacon when someone suddenly came up behind me and wrapped their arms around my waist. I knew immediately that it was Rick, and I leaned back against him. He kissed the back of my head affectionately then nuzzled into the nape of my neck making me giggle. It was nice to see this side of Rick after he was so…rough last night. It was a pleasant change.
"Mornin'," he said, his voice an octave lower from just waking up.
"Mornin'," I whispered. It really felt like we were together, and I realized that this is what it felt like to be married. I looked down at his left ring finger on instinct and frowned when I saw he was still wearing his wedding ring. I gently removed myself from his grasp without a word.
His brow furrowed in confusion. "What is it, Bethie?"
"Beth," I snapped, not meaning to sound so harsh.
"Okay…Beth…you didn't seem to mind me calling you Bethie last night." I could just hear the smirk in his voice.
"Rick…" I sighed and looked at his ring finger pointedly.
Rick's gaze followed mine and he sighed once he realized what I was looking at. "Beth-"
"I can't sleep with you anymore with that on your hand. It makes me feel guilty."
His eyes narrowed. "I can't just-"
"Then I guess we're done here." I went back to cooking the bacon and eggs.
Rick sighed and leaned against the counter, crossing his arms. "Alright…alright I'll take it off, okay? I'll take it off. I understand."
I nodded shortly but didn't look at him. Ever since this relationship started, Lori honestly never really crossed my mind until now. I honesty did feel really guilty and…sad. It made me realize that Rick will probably never love me or care for me as much as I would want him to. I was just a stress reliever for him, and that's all I'll ever be.
"Beth baby, look at me. Don't cry."
I furrowed my brow and reached up to touch my face, and sure enough, I was crying. "Oh," I said dumbly, staring at the wetness on my finger. "I didn't even realize."
Rick reached up and cupped my face with both hands. "Beth, I'll take it off okay? I honestly forgot I was even wearing it. I didn't know that it had this much of an effect on you…you should've told me."
I nodded, but didn't say anything. I honestly didn't even know what to say.
"Hey," he smiled at me. "I'm goin' on a run today. I want you to come."
I couldn't help but let the corners of my mouth twitch into a small smile. "Really?"
He kissed my forehead. "Yes. Just me and you, okay? How does that sound?"
I nodded and wrapped my arms around his waist, burying my face in his chest. "Okay."
Rick wrapped his arms around me tightly. "It shouldn't take too long. Just need to get a few things." I nodded once more then pulled away to finish making breakfast. Judith began to cry upstairs, and Rick said that he was going to get her, leaving me alone once again.
I was excited to be able to be alone with Rick today, I mean really alone. I know that it was just going on a run, but I couldn't help but feel butterflies in my stomach at the thought. It's amazing how much I have grown to care for that man, and what's even more amazing is that God brought him into my life under the most unlikely circumstances. I'm not entirely sure what Rick felt for me. There was still this nagging part in my brain that thought that all I was is a glorified booty call to him. There was one thing that I was certain of though. I broke the one rule that I made for myself when Rick and I first slept together.
I, Beth Greene, have fallen in love with Rick Grimes.
(Rick POV)
I waited from inside the car as Beth hugged everyone goodbye. It was a short run, but I understood why she was bothering with goodbyes. You never know what could happen in this world.
"Alright," she said as she got into the car. "I'm ready."
I nodded and turned the car on, giving one last short wave to everyone as we pulled away from our house. We sat in silence for a few minutes, but it wasn't an awkward silence. It was contentment and bliss. I glanced over at Beth and noticed that her hands were slightly shaking. "You nervous?" I asked.
She shrugged. "Not really nervous, just anxious."
I nodded and we were once again sitting in silence. I nearly jumped in surprise when I felt her suddenly take my hand and intertwine her fingers with mine, giving a gentle squeeze. I smiled at her before looking ahead at the road again.
"Judith needs diapers," Beth blurted.
I had to keep myself from chuckling. "Alright, we'll get 'em."
She was silent for a moment. "You…you took it off."
I looked over at Beth and saw that she was staring intently at my left hand. "Yeah," I said, glancing at my left hand.
"I…I'm sorry for how I was acting this morning. It was selfish, and I understand why you were wearing it. I don't want you to not wear it just because of me." Her soft voice sounded so genuine and full of sorrow.
I sighed. "Beth, don't take this the wrong way, okay? I took it off, not because of you, but just because it was time. I moved on. Lori wouldn't want me to hang in limbo forever. She would want me to move past it, and I have. I moved on a long time ago…you of all people should know that." I glanced at her and saw a blush creep over her cheeks at my last statement.
Beth fidgeted in her seat and the grip on my hand tightened. "I have to tell you something."
I nodded for her to continue.
"I…" she bit her lip nervously. "I don't want to be just some booty call, Rick."
My brow furrowed. Booty call? "Beth-"
"No," she held up her finger to silence me. "Let me finish. I'm going to be honest and say that I really like what we're doing. I really do…but It can't be just that. I have feelings, Rick, and this…relationship…or whatever it is we have has made me realize how much…how much I care for you."
"Beth, I-"
"Please just…shush, okay?" She sighed in exasperation. "I understand that you will never care for me or love me like you did Lori. I respect that, but if you are in this just for the sex…then we have to end it now. I can't take it."
I digested what she was saying, chewing on my bottom lip in thought. I never thought that she would grow this attached so quickly, but I understand where she is coming from. Beth is a sensitive girl and I'm surprised that she allows me to do the things that I do to her, and then on top of that, develop feelings for me. I can't say that I love her like I did Lori, but I did care for her and her feelings. I don't want to hurt her.
"Please say something," she said, bringing me back from my thoughts.
"Beth," I sighed. "I care for you. I do. I'm…I'm not just in this for the sex."
"You're…you're not?"
I shook my head. "No. I would never do that to you, but I'm going to be honest with you, Beth. As much as I care for you, which is a lot, I…I don't think I love you. Not in that way."
She pursed her lips and nodded understandingly. "I thought as much."
I gripped her hand tighter in mine. "But don't…don't leave me."
Beth's eyes snapped up to meet mine and her brow furrowed in confusion. "What do you-"
"What's been going on between us…as crazy and fucked up as it is, it's been keeping me sane. I
need you, Beth." Every word that I said was true. Having her…it meant so much. More than I could express with my words.
I pulled into the parking lot of the store we were going to gather stuff from, and as soon as I put the car into park, Beth was on me. She climbed over the center console and straddled me, pulling me in for a bruising kiss. I let out a moan and gripped her hips on instinct, pulling her down onto my already hardening cock. Beth started kissing all over my face and then moved her kisses down my neck.
"God, Beth…" The blood immediately rushed to my groin and the primal side of me longed to throw her in the back seat and fuck her senseless, but I digressed. I knew in the back of my mind that she had no intentions of having sex in that moment, so I held back the demon inside of me scratching to come out. I never was rough in bed, as a matter of fact, Lori and I had the most…vanilla sex, but Beth was different. She brought out a side of me that I never knew I was capable of. It was a relationship that I never could've had with Lori. One minute we're talking, and the next, we are on each other like white on rice.
Beth responded by biting into my neck gently and grinding her warm center onto me. My grip on her hips tightened. "Beth…you gotta stop or I won't be able to. We have a job to do."
My little Delilah seemed to be in her own world. She buried her face into my neck and she ground harder into me, and I bit my lip and squeezed my eyes shut in attempt to remain in control of myself. "Rick…I'm so close already…"
My eyes opened wide in realization. "You're gonna cum?"
She gasped and nodded, keeping her face buried into my neck. I managed to shove away the selfish part of me and decided to focus on her this time. I longed to see her face as she was thrown into ecstasy, even if that meant I wouldn't be able to join her. I leaned my head down so that I could whisper in her ear. "You're such a naughty little girl, aren't you?" Beth whimpered and nodded once more, grinding harder into me. I gasped and gripped her hips tighter, once again fighting to remain in control of myself, forced to use only my words to bring her to the brink of her satisfaction. "What are you thinking about right now, Beth?" I whispered, nibbling on her ear lobe
I felt her body shudder. "Y-you."
"Yeah? Such a naughty girl…" I gave her ass a smack for extra measure, earning a squeal from my little vixen. "Well I'm thinking about you too, Bethie. I'm thinking about how tight and warm you felt around my cock last night."
Beth's grinding became more erratic and I could tell that she wasn't far off. "Y-yeah?"
"Yeah," I growled, smacking her ass again. "I'm thinking about how hot you are right now, grinding your tight little pussy onto me. You're making me want you, Beth."
"Then take me…please."
I groaned and rolled my head back onto the head rest. "No, Beth. I want to see you cum. I wanna see you cum without me even taking your clothes off." I reached up and gripped her chin in my hand, forcing her to look at me. Her eyes were half closed and her cheeks were flushed. She looked beautiful. "My beautiful little girl…you're mine."
She bit her bottom lip. "Yes."
"You'll never scream or moan another man's name ever again, Beth. You're mine now, and you will always be mine. Won't you, baby?"
Beth squealed. "Yes!"
"I wanna hear you say it."
"I'm y-yours." Her hands gripped my shoulders and I felt her legs tighten around my hips. Almost there.
"Louder."
"I'm yours!"
I was painfully hard now, and God knows how much I wanted to take her, but I held back. If she didn't cum soon though, I won't be able to stop myself. "That's right, Beth. Cum for me. Fucking cum, Beth." Beth pressed her forehead against mine and she suddenly stilled, crying out in ecstasy. She had never looked so beautiful to me than in that moment. I wrapped an arm around her waist and continued to grind into her through her orgasm. "Jesus, Beth…" I stared at her flushed face until she finally collapsed onto me, breathing heavily.
We sat there for a moment, both of us breathing heavily. I suddenly felt her small hand drift down my chest and stomach, landing on my hard on. She grasped me through my pants and I let out a hiss. "Beth, no." I grabbed her wrist and pulled her away from me. "We have to get in there and get back, okay?"
She kissed my neck one last time before nodding and climbing off of me back to her seat. "Okay," she said breathlessly.
I stared at her a moment before we both got out of the car. She leant down and grabbed her knife out of her boot and nodded at me that she was ready to go. We walked up to the front window and I banged on it once, twice, then three times before we stood and waited. After a few moments, not one walker came to the window, which I thought was odd. "Someone must've came and wiped 'em all out," I mumbled, peering through the glass.
"Do you…do you think it's safe to go in? I have a bad feeling about this, Rick." Beth's voice shook when she spoke, giving away just how nervous she really was.
I took her shoulders into my hands and made her look at me. "Beth, I promise I won't let anything happen to you, okay? You have to be confident when we go in there. If you aren't sure of yourself, you can get freeze up and get into some real trouble."
She nodded quickly and cast another glance through the window. "Let's go then."
We carefully snuck our way into the store. It was pretty picked over, but there were still some things that we could salvage. "I want you to stick with me, okay?" I said seriously. "Since it's just the two of us, I don't want to split up."
Beth nodded once more but remained silent. We quietly and quickly made our way through the store, grabbing what we needed. It was obvious that someone had been there recently, because we did not come across one walker. I followed Beth over to the diapers and she bent over to pick through the selection, and I couldn't help but stare, letting my guard down for a fraction of a second.
"Man that is one fine piece of ass ya got there, brother."
AUTHORS NOTE: The dreaded cliff-hanger! I'm sorry guys, but I thought that was the perfect place to stop. Beth admits to herself about her feelings for Rick, and if you have seen recent episodes, I bet you can guess who this mystery person is. Review and let me know what you think of this chapter! The more reviews, the faster I update:)
