These Feelings

Chapter 1. Feelings Time!

Author's Note: Hello! So this is my first fanfiction and my way of writing is still rather clumsy. But I hope that you guys like it. Here we go!

Karma has been feeling something strange. He definitely wasn't sick. He didn't feel tired at all (well, even if he did, he's not going to admit it). He felt… flustered, and butterflies seemed to be travelling in his stomach. It's not like it was always happening either - only when Nagisa's around. Hmm... Then it must be Nagisa's hidden bloodlust that caught him off-guard. It must be.

There's no way it's something else except for bloodlust, he thought. It's not like he likes Nagisa or anything like that…right? Yep! Definitely- there was no way. No way…

He was too focused and engrossed in his thoughts that he didn't realize Nagisa was already standing beside him. He flinched as the blue haired boy called his name.

"Karmaaaaaaaa-kuuuuuun!"

Cute. Karma immediately brushed the thought off as if it were an old toy. He answered, probably sounding a bit grumpy.

"What do you want?"

Nagisa didn't seem to mind as he lightly swung his bento box. "I'm going to have lunch with the other guys in the mountains. Care to join me?"

"Sure…" Karma answered, seemingly casual, but his heart was beating so fast.

They ate their lunch under a big tree along with Kayano, Maehara, Isogai, and Okuda. The conversation wasn't about anything in particular, just the exams coming up, new flavours of ice-cream, more ways to kill Sensei,... The discussion quickly became sidetracked once again when Maehara asked a question, completely unprompted.

"Karma, are you dating anyone?"

Karma almost choked on his food. Fortunately, he successfully swallowed his food and calm his nerves. He felt like this was the topic he wanted to avoid the most.

If he doesn't answer, answer too fast or even hesitate to answer- they would find something suspicious. Especially now when he's more aware than ever of the person who's sitting right next to him with sky-colored pigtails. Wait, but there isn't anything suspicious about, and what does any of this has to do with Nagisa anyway? His thoughts spun around like a washing machine.

"Ah, no. I don't have anyone now", he answered confidently, but inside, he was panicking.

"Do you need me to introduce you to someone?" Maehara teased.

"Nah. That would make me feel like you're some kind of match-making aunty."

"Hey!"

"Besides, how would you know when you like someone?" Karma asked.

"Ah~ Seems like Karma had no experiences in love, eh? ~", Maehara hasn't learned his lesson and he continued with the teasing.

"What about you? You breaks up every time." Karma bit back. This will definitely keep his mouth shut. But Maehara quickly changed the subject.

"Ah, well. When you're in love, your heart beats faster, you feel flustered, and you get butterflies in your stomach," Maehara said, "or, I don't know, accept every of their offer to hangout or something."

Karma's heart skipped a beat, isn't that what he was feeling? He glanced over at Nagisa. The sun was shining through Nagisa's beautiful blue hair. His ocean blue eyes sparkled, as if they were a pair of big, precious sapphires. Under Karma's eyes, Nagisa was surrounded by stars- wonderful stars.

That night, Karma flopped on his bed. So that was love? So, he really loved Nagisa? Maybe love was too big of a word. At that moment, he was conflicted between two decisions. He was selfish and he didn't want to let this feeling go away. It would hurt him. But on the other hand, if he forced Nagisa, he would hurt him.

What will he do? Did that mean he had to confess?

It was the first time, Akabane Karma, has ever experienced love. Also, it has while since the last time he was this worried.

Nagisa-kun is a guy, so he probably will just be gross out. If I confessed, we may not be friends anymore. Am I brave enough to take this risk? Even if I'm not, I don't think I'll be able to see the person I love as my friend any longer.

Karma sighed. Who knew love was so complicated? But, when you fall into it, there's no way to get out. It's like a spider web, and he was just one of the flies that's caught up in it's lies.

A hopeless, little fly.

"I'M YOUR MOTHER! DON'T FORGET THAT YOU CAN LIVE BECAUSE OF ME! I DID EVERYTHING FOR YOU! ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS TO LISTEN TO ME"

Nagisa collapsed at the corner of his bed. His hair flowed down, as messy as it can get. Somehow, he found himself in a pink dress, under the whims of his mother.

"Don't you ever dare to deny your mother ever again!"

To be continued…..

Author's Note: So this is my first fan fiction chapter, I hope that you enjoyed it. The fluff didn't come out yet but I can guarantee that it will. Also, Karma seems to be just a little bit out of character. But you know what they say, people change when they're in love… )