These Feelings

Chapter 3. Sleep-over Time

Author's Note: Fluffy, that's all I can say about this chapter. So NEVER look at fan art or read fan fiction in public. Unless you want to see weird looks from strangers just because you're grinning from ear to ear like Koro-sensei and trying to hold back your screams(I experienced it once). Also, I'll start to go to school around next week, so update will be a bit slower (probably once a week).

Karma broke out of his thinking mode as he heard Nagisa calling his name.

"Karma-kun!"

"Coming!" He responded.

Karma stopped once he made his way to the bathroom. Nagisa was wearing Karma's shirt and shorts. It was all a bit too big for him, but he could wear anything, as long as it's not a dress. His arms and legs were covered with bruises. Karma couldn't have seen it before since the dress had long sleeves.

"What is it?" the redhead asked. Usually, he would tease Nagisa for looking like a girl, but he's not a heartless person.

"Ah… It's just… Do you have any spare toothbrushes?" Nagisa asked in a soft voice.

"Yeah, it's in the cupboard. Right here." Karma felt like chuckling for a bit. Nagisa just looked so cute.

The taller teen handed Nagisa a blue toothbrush.

Silence…

"Nagisa-kun, does it hurt?" Karma questioned broke the silence. You could feel in his tone that he was worried.

"No, it doesn't hurt at all!" the teen answered in a cheerful tone and showed one of his deceiving smiles.

"Stop lying!" Karma shouted. He felt angry because Nagisa didn't trust him.

"Kinda…" Nagisa admitted. He hung his head low.

Karma reached out for the medical box under the sink and started to put medicines and ban-aids on it once they're in the room again. He might not know how to treat a fever, but at least he knew what to do with cuts and bruises. Nagisa stayed silence the whole time, but judging from his, Karma knew that is friend just wanted to scream.

"You can squeak a little, you know."

"What…?" Nagisa asked, confused.

"I know it hurts…" Karma said. Like no one is going to notice that he's clenching his teeth.

Nagisa blushed. How does he know I'm trying to hold back? Is he telepathic or what? This is so embarrassing…

Karma stared at his best friends face. Nagisa's face is completely red. If this was a cartoon, there would be smoke from his ears. Dammit, why is he blushing? And why is he so cute?A why am I calling Nagisa cute? Staring at Nagisa's blushed face for a while made Karma himself blush too. He immediately put his hand on the blue hair teen's forehead.

"Do you feel tired?"

"Yea…Yeah! I guess…" Nagisa stuttered.

Karma put a fever pad on Nagisa's forehead. He stood up. Nagisa suddenly grabbed him by the finger.

"Are…are you going somewhere?" Nagisa asked, confused.

"Eh? I'm going to and sleep in the guest bedroom," Karma answered with a relax tone.

"No, please don't go. I don't want to be alone. That's why I came over here, so please!" Nagisa begged. He narrowed his eyebrows.

Karma could feel his heart soften. He tried to deny his feelings for Nagisa, but he had to stop. Because at that moment, he understood that he loved Nagisa with all his heart. It didn't matter how much he teased Nagisa from before, what mattered now was that he loves Nagisa.

Though, this did sound weird to come from him.

"I'll do whatever you want me too then, Nagisa-kun," Karma answered. The answered made Nagisa blush once again.

They both got on the bed. Once they got under the blanket, they couldn't sleep right away, so they basically just gazed at each other. Their face were just about an inch away. Nagisa's beautiful blue hair spread across the pillow. His face was so pretty.

"Hey?" Karma started at first, pausing for a while.

"Yeah? Karma-kun?" Nagisa whispered.

"So, it was your mother?" Karma didn't intend to, but he wanted to know what happened.

"Karma-kun, I… Just don't do anything bad…" the thoughts of Karma fighting with his own mother made him scared.

"I won't, but why did it turn out like this?" Karma continued.

"I… rebelled," he blurted out.

"…?!"

"I told her that I want to cut my hair… again", the way he said it made it sound like a confession.

"Nagisa-kun, that's-" Karma didn't know what to think. Knowing Nagisa's mother, that sounded dangerous.

"So when she had a one day business trip, I sneaked out. I just went to the house I felt was the closest, so…" Karma could feel that his love is feeling very vulnerable just by his shaking voce. But at the same time, he also felt disappointed that Nagisa came over to his house just because it's close…

Karma embraced Nagisa. He put his head on the other's shoulder. He stroked Nagisa's hair with one hand. It was utterly soft. With his other hand, he squeezed Nagisa tight and patted his back. He then looked straight into Nagisa's eyes. The other teen blushed as he stared at Karma's bright mercury orbs.

"I know you're going to cry, so why don't you let it all out?"his voice was more consulting and soft than anything.

Nagisa buried his face in Karma's chest. When he think about his mother, his father, school, assassination. He bursted out crying, his tears became two small rivers down his chin.

Karma just stayed silent. Nagisa had fallen asleep by his chest, his tears leaving stains on his pale cheeks. Karma's mind delved into many thoughts, watching over his love's figure. He seemed so heavenly, almost like an angel, brought to him- but he was nothing but a fallen angel, his wings broken, who had unbelievable bloodlust.

Because I love you, I can't help but feel hurt when you are as well. You don't know how much my heart suffers just from loving you nor about my feelings for you. Soon you will, love, when time's right for us.

Author's Note: Apparently I forgot about the honorifics until this chapter. For those who wonder, I wrote the conversations in italic mode because… I don't know, I just feel like to distinguish the conversations and the narrator. Anyway, I love your reviews (they inspired my days), and thank you so much for following and made this story your favorite. Bye bye for now.