These Feelings
Chapter 4. Morning Time!
Author's Note: Hello guys! After a few days of procrastination, I'm finally in the mood to write :3 Anyway, enjoy the story and please support the story by following, favorite or reviewing.
The sunlight in the morning through the window was blinding.
Karma opened his eyes. It was Saturday and he didn't have to go to school- it's not like he really cared about it. He's the kind of guy that felt grumpy in the morning, but when he saw Nagisa who was curled up next to him, all of his negativity was gone, all left was his loving feelings towards him.
The red head moved his hand and stroked Nagisa's hair. It was so soft and soothing, kind of like an angel's hair. He chuckled at Nagisa's face, it was peaceful and cute. And his lips… looked so soft. He wanted put his own against those, but his mind stopped him from doing that.
What if Nagisa wakes up when I kissed him? He will feel disgusted and get grossed out. If I want to confess my feelings, I should do it in a much proper way. But then… in Nagisa's heart, he likes girls, not guys. Hah, it's so weird for me to think about these kinds of stuff.
After some excessive thinking, he decided to let his mind let loose for a moment. He raised one hand and pinched Nagisa by the cheek.
"Ow! Karma-kun?" Nagisa seemed confused. For a moment, he forgot that he was in Karma's house.
Nagisa then remembered what happened last night and at the same time realized that he was hugging Karma's torso quite tightly. His face went as red as a tomato. He let go of his friend's body.
"Ah, I… I'm sorry!" he stuttered, not knowing what to say except that.
"Why say sorry? And more importantly, why are you blushing?" Karma had started his everyday teasing ritual.
Nagisa didn't know what to say. Why was he blushing? He looked at Karma and he stared back. They sat there for what seemed like hours, just looking into each other eyes. Finally, Karma spoke-
"Are you hungry?"
"Ah, yeah!"
"Then let's go downstairs, and how about some cereal?"
"Sure…"
They made their way down the vintage wooden stairs and went to the kitchen. The kitchen was dark and empty. Karma turned the lights on and started searching inside a cupboard.
"Where are all the people?"
"They're only here when me, or my parents want them to, and I prefer my own food."
"I see. Are your parents traveling again?" Nagisa asked, he knew fully well that Karma's parents traveled a lot. But he didn't know whether Karma should feel lucky or unlucky compared to his mother.
"Yeah, to Argentina," Karma then pulled out a few boxes of cereal.
They took the cereal and milk to the long dining table. Sitting at something like that made Nagisa feel like a king. He wished he was a real king though, just so that his mother can't control him anymore. Karma's voice broke his train of thoughts.
"Hey! When will your mother be home?"
"Heh? Uh… probably in the afternoon," the blue haired teen was confidently sure with his answer.
"You're sure you're okay?" Karma was slightly worried.
"Yeah, why would you think I wouldn't be okay?" Nagisa asked. Nagisa had never seen Karma being worried. It was an unbelievable thing to see.
"Well, you were hugging me pretty tight," his voice mocking Nagisa and a smirk grew on his face.
Nagisa could feel heat creeping in his cheek. Karma chuckled at his adorable crush's expression.
"You're so cute Nagisa-kun!", the sentence made the shorter teen blushed, but his voice was calmer.
"Karma-kun, though I know you didn't mean anything by it, but I'm a guy you know, being cute are for girls," Karma could tell by Nagisa's voice that he was serious even if he was still blushing.
Nagisa-kun, I actually meant a lot of things by that. How can I make you happy when we're both guys?
Karma sighed.
The atmosphere got awkward after that. Nagisa was confused. Why is he so quiet? Did I make him mad? What happened?
They went back to Nagisa's home by the train. Silence filled the space between them while their minds were filled with voices.
They stopped in front of Nagisa's house.
"Thank you for letting me to stay at your house," Nagisa said in a soft voice.
"No need to say thank you, we're friends after all," Karma muttered, accidently emphasized the word 'friend'.
They said their goodbyes and separated their ways. Nagisa sighed in relief as he found no one at home. And Karma was walking on the street, deep in thoughts.
It's November and the days were becoming windier.
I love Nagisa-kun. But Nagisa-kun want to be a guy and I want him to be happy. I should get out of the way.
Author's Note: All I can say is… poor Karma! And also, thank you for reading "These Feelings". I'll try to update sooner. Leave a review if you feel like it.