These Feelings

Chapter 5. Distant Time

Author's Note: Thank you Kikuue, Crimson Blue Assassin, Kanon58, Esdeath and any future reviewer for the last chapter! And yes, this story is going to have a happy ending. I'm so happy to see people supporting me, especially when I don't have any inspiration. It's like seeing lights at the end of the tunnel *v*

Warning: This chapter is pretty sad…

One week had passed ever since that night. Nagisa and his mom made up… temporarily. Now, there's pretty much no reason for him to not be happy, except for one.

Since then, Karma and he- they talked less.

At first, everything seemed normal. But then, Nagisa had started to realize that they didn't go home together anymore nor did they go home together. It was weird. They were best friends. But, was it just because they were beyond that relationship called 'friendship'? It just felt so… strange.

Every time he wanted to ask Karma about it, the redhead always changed the subject, or just flat out ignored him. It was frustrating. He was so tired of it.

What happened? Did I upset him? Did I make him angry? I... don't understand. Is it like that time back in second year again?

Why does it hurt so much?

His heart was pounding quite loudly. Once again, he was not worthy enough to be Karma's friend. It was like failing a game after getting to the final level. But does failing a game hurt this much?

He wanted to ask Karma why. He wanted to go back being to being friends with him. He wanted to feel Karma's warmth. To talk to him. To laugh with him. And, to fix this weird aching feeling in his heart. He was determined to accomplish it.

Hey Karma-kun! Why are you doing this?

At the same time, the blue-haired boy didn't realize that Karma was looking at him with his bright mercury eyes. He took a glance at Kayano who was standing near him and looked back at Nagisa with a cheerful smile.

"They look like a good pair," Karma's mind went hurting his battered heart. Just the thought was enough to make him feel like crying, even if he has been stone cold for years.

Every thought that consisted of him for a week now have been sad thoughts. And every one of them involved Nagisa, that blue head that shone his life ever since he had met him. He sighed deeply, with pure exhaustion mentally.

Nagisa-kun, I guess you will never know my feelings for you.

This is for the best.

Karma decided to go home two hours early. It was not suspecting of him to do so, though this time, there was a different reason. He didn't know that Nagisa was getting his own bag and followed the redhead.

Even if Karma was walking, he was still fast, Nagisa'll admit. It took a while for Nagisa to catch up.

The bluenette quickly grabbed Karma's shirt. Karma immediately turned his head back from surprise. The person he didn't want to see the most appeared right in front of his face. He fell in shock and stunned for a moment. He finally managed to even let out a stutter.

"Why… why are you skipping class?" Karma could feel his heart beat louder- a surprise that Nagisa couldn't even hear.

"I just want to ask you something," Nagisa answered clearly. His face was dead serious, no smiles, just that look he had- that look, it was so dark and deadly.

"Wh… What?" Karma tried to act like he didn't know anything, but that it was of no uttered use.

"Why are you not talking to me anymore?"

"Nagis…", before Karma could find an excuse, Nagisa interrupted with questions that's been

"Did I do something wrong?! Did I make you angry? I don't know... but I want to keep being friends with you! Please don't be mad at me- please, don't hate me. I beg you," Karma could feel Nagisa's voice tremble.

Karma clutched his hand into a fist. He knew exactly what Nagisa was going to do next, and it was the last and worst thing he wanted Nagisa to do… that was to-

Cry.

Nagisa's body was shaking. Warm tears were starting to run down his face. His eyes were swollen from crying. His face was completely red.

"Please, don't cry…" Karma's voice was weak. He put one of his hands on Nagisa's face.

Nagisa didn't want to cry either. He would have stop crying if he could have help it, but the thoughts that were swarming him didn't let him. They told him if he stop crying, he would lose his precious friend forever, and dear God, he never want that to happen again.

"Tell me why! I don't want this! Answer me!" Nagisa just kept on crying, though all of it it was more like screaming. It left his throat dry and out of breath.

Do you really need my answer?

"Answer me or I won't let you go!" Nagisa kept shouting, his voice cracking, almost being forced out.

Karma didn't know what to do. If he answered the darn question, he'd have to say that. Saying that in a place and a time like this, he might as well be a jerk, which he was in the very first place.

Should he say it?

"Okay…"

Nagisa lifted his head up a little. His sapphire orbs met the other's amber eyes. Karma took a deep breath and took in the angelic face of Nagisa's- his cheeks coated with streams of tears. He closed his eyes and told him- only a split second for everything in his life to change.

"I love you."

Author's Note: I'm sorry for such a cliffhanger, but I like play with people's emotions. I'll try to update as soon as I can. In the meantime, please follow, favorite and review my work.