These Feelings

Chapter 6. Confession and Reaction Time

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"I love you," Karma blurted out. Inside, he felt terrified and his mind froze over like the lakes at winter.

Nagisa was stunned. His mind was confused for a second but then, his face softened.

"Ha ha ha. You're quite the joker. You're just trying to make me feel better, right?" this time Nagisa grabbed Karma by the hand, but the redhead just looked down and stared at the ground.

"This isn't a joke, I truly am in love in you," Karma muttered. He have never ever, in his life, felt this breathless.

They stayed deep in silence for as long as they could remember. It was the most awkward, shocking, and nervous moment of their life. All they could hear was how the wind blew past their ears and how wild their hearts were beating.

"Wha… What?!"

Nagisa's eyebrows giving an expression where he was confused. He had thought that he had misheard Karma, but he hadn't. Karma's heart sunk, like how the Titanic did in the North Atlantic Ocean. He didn't even think to the extent back then that it would hurt this much. Karma was sure that Nagisa was to show him a face of disgust next.

"But… but I'm a guy," Nagisa managed to whip up a few words, only to state the obvious in the most painful way. At that very moment, they were the worst words one could ever say to Karma.

In that span of few minutes, Karma had witnessed so many emotions swelling in him that he felt he could explode right now and there- like a bomb put in the room for someone to be killed.

He was happy; even relieved of letting his feelings all out. But, at the next few seconds, the sadness and sorrow went to engulf his heart full of love. He was scared and felt anxious that he won't be able to forget Nagisa in the future.

But just then he returned to reality, to the blue haired teen in front of him.

In front of Karma was the most beautiful person ever- an angel. His blue hair, flowing so aesthetically with the wind. Blue, bright eyes like sapphire gems. Those rose-colored moist lips. Pale and soft skin like silk.

All of that, will never be his, and he knew that. He loved Nagisa dearly, but that was all there was to it, right?

Maybe deep down, he knew that all of this will happen, sooner or later. There was only so much that he can say to his unrequited love.

"I figured it would be like this… You shouldn't have followed me," Karma smiled at Nagisa with pain smeared just right beneath it.

Karma leaned closer and planted a soft kiss on Nagisa's forehead. Just a peck. Just something that he hoped would heal at least some part of his broken heart. He yanked his hand away from Nagisa.

"You should get back to class…" Karma smiled even more generously- so obvious the pain was there.

Karma walked down the hill, hands in his pockets.

Each step, further away from Nagisa. There was nothing to be sad about, Nagisa could be joyful and fully enjoy his life without him now, so he should be delighted as well.

If so-

Shit, why am I crying?

Karma hasn't cried in so long. Not ever since he was very small and realized his parents won't be there for him, no matter what. Not ever since he realized his life was just going to be full of servants, so he kicked most of them out.

Couple of weeks ago, he wanted to get rid of these feelings, get rid of all of this stupid illusion called 'love'. But now, he felt as if he could embrace it.

Even though tears were turning into rivers down his face, a faint smile formed on his lips.

I love you, Nagisa. I really, really do.

I love you.

Karma brought his sleeve up to his face and roughly wiped his tears. He threw his bag over his shoulder and walked, he walked as if he was trying to walk out of his nightmare.

That night, after dinner, Nagisa flopped onto his bed. He looked up at the ceiling and entered into the endless world of thoughts.

Karma-kun said he loved me today. So of course when his feelings are like that I can't be him anymore.

But… I want to talk with him again. I want to discuss about Sonic Ninja again. I want to be near him again.

I miss him.

Nagisa frowned. He wanted to cry but he couldn't. It looked like he already cried too much the other day. So much, that he was completely out of tears. It was times like these that he really wanted to cry.

Maybe, just maybe… that because Karma was there for him, to listen to all of his complaints, that he could cry. But Karma wasn't there in Nagisa's room, by Nagisa's side.

Nagisa was all alone. All by himself.

They both suffered from a sleepless night.

Author's Note: I tried to update earlier, but the internet crashed T^T. Find out what are Nagisa's feelings for Karma next week! Please leave reviews, follow and favorite the story. Goodbye for now!